He pressed my hands on the bed, and it was useless for me to struggle. I shouted, he closed the doors and windows tightly, and the tape recorder was played in advance, and it was useless to shout. Fortunately, I was in a hurry, pretended to say yes, stood up and took off my coat, then handed it to him, and slipped out of his office while he was picking it up.

My coat is still in his hand.

You say, can I go back?

Maybe you will say, you have long been a broken flower, why don't you obey the principal, get a guarantee or in exchange for a provincial three-good student index college entrance examination points, isn't it good?

Zheng Qihang, if you really think so, I will be even sadder.

I have a reason to make a choice, and you have to trust me.

I've been living a nightmare life for more than a year. There is no hope, no light, no direction, and the body is forced to be ravaged by others. What is it like to have a day like this, you might experience? Sometimes, I have the heart to die.

Seriously, I'm envious of Xiong Yanfei. Xiong Yanfei suffered from a terminal illness, and she also suffered from treatment. I compare it with her, and the pain in this area has not yet been felt.

My tumor has not caused me any discomfort so far. That's why I'm always skeptical of the doctors at the maternal and child health hospital. But I've also heard that the incubation period for cancer is very long. This kind of painless tumor is often a sign of a serious disease. Therefore, I am very worried. So, I suffered a lot from mental torture. This is the same as Xiong Yanfei.

I envy Xiong Yanfei because she has a good family, and she is the whole family fighting against the disease. And I'm alone. My father's serious illness last year has left the family in debt. If I tell him and my mother about my condition, I'm sure they'll be crushed.

I envy Xiong Yanfei, and I envy her even more that she has a you who knows that she loves her and loves her. Now, in the high school of our railway middle school, which one doesn't know the story of you and Xiong Yanfei? The woman who can get your love is the happiest woman in the world.

Even if you die because of it, why not?

Marriage is predestined. I didn't believe in this sentence before, and I always thought that if I pursued the persistence I liked, I would definitely get it. Now I know that many things cannot be chased by persistent pursuit. For example, you can't catch up with me no matter how much I pursue.

I don't want to give it to you for nothing!

That's how contradictory things are.

Today, I know that I'm no longer qualified to say that I love you. But thinking that I will never see you again, it is as if Yin and Yang are separated from each other, how can I not complain to you? Anyway, after you read these letters, you won't be able to see me anymore, so to hell with words like shame, guilt, shamelessness, etc.

Zheng Qihang, I love you from beginning to end. You have to believe it, I was saying this a second before I died silently.

I love you. No matter what you think of me, no matter if you don't leave me a seat in your heart at all, I have to tell you that I love you.

I believe that in a few years, no matter who you enter the palace of marriage with, and you think of my behavior that night, you will understand that it is not a blasphemy of love, it is precisely the purest proof of love.

I'm leaving. But you know how reluctant I am. My tears flowed and flowed, and I suspected that my tear ducts had been damaged because of this, and I feared that I would never be able to shed tears again.

I couldn't stop crying. You can see the wet marks on the letterhead, the pen and ink scattered by tears, and you can know how sad I am.

Goodbye, Zheng Qihang. I hope that you will be happy every day after night, every day after night.

Don't think of me. Don't have pity on me.

Aaa, I still wish you could think about me once in a while. Just think about me once in a while. But I don't want you to feel sorry for me, sad. You know, even in Heaven I will bless you.

After reading the letter, I quickly turned around and stuffed the letter into the envelope as I ran to the dormitory. The roommates in the same dormitory are still sleeping. Wu Jianhua slept under the quilt again.

I quickly climbed into my bed, opened the wooden box, took out all the money pressed on the bottom of the wooden box and stuffed it into my pocket, and quickly got out of bed.

My actions alarmed Wu Jianhua.

"What are you doing? In a hurry. Haven't you gone to Xiong Yanfei's house yet? Wu Jianhua asked.

"I'll go right away." I say.

"Look at you, I just know that falling in love is also a very hard thing. By the way, there won't be anything wrong with the fire jade, right? Or is she unforgettable with her old feelings for you? Wu Jianhua turned around in the quilt.

"Nothing. I'm leaving. "I have no intention of talking to Wu Jianhua.

When I got out of the dormitory, I immediately ran to the school gate. When I got to the street, I couldn't see a tricycle, so I ran and looked for it. I didn't see the tricycle all the way. Eventually, I trotted all the way to the bus stop.

I had a feeling of prostration. I gasped and braced my knees with my hands. Passengers waiting at the bus stop looked at me in amazement.

The few buses that arrived at the station did not go to the train station. I was in a hurry. That's when I knew what it meant to be hopeful.

The bus to the train station has finally arrived.

Fifteen minutes later I arrived at the train station.

The square in front of the train station was full of cars and people. Everything is a mess. There were all sorts of shouting. There were a few women in their thirties and forties who walked around with a piece of paper and asked people, "Do you live in a hostel?"

I'll run to the ticket hall first. There were a few people crowded in front of the ticket window. I looked at it, but I didn't see the fire jade. I guess Chu Huoyu has already bought a train ticket, and he should be waiting in the waiting hall at this time, so he walked there quickly.

I stood at the security check and went to the waiting hall to look, and the waiting hall was crowded. Some people in uniform walked through the crowd.

I knew I wouldn't be able to find the Flame Jade, so I turned back to the ticket office and lined up behind the crowd to buy tickets. I bought a ticket for the slow train to the provincial capital at 10 a.m. This is already the earliest train.

I thought, if I can't find the fire jade in the waiting hall, then I will take the train to the provincial capital. If you can find the fire jade in the waiting hall, it is just a waste of the refund fee.

After checking the ticket and passing the security check, I entered the waiting hall. The waiting hall is large, with a few passengers sitting in each long row of chairs. Some of the passengers' luggage bags are placed on row seats, and some are placed on the ground. You can't tell at a glance whether the fire storage jade is there or not.

So I looked along the row of chairs in the waiting hall. I firmly believe that this will definitely find the fire jade, as long as the fire jade is in the waiting hall.

I turned around, but I didn't see the fire jade.

I spun around again, but I didn't see the fire jade.

I turned around again, but I still couldn't see the fire jade.

At this time, I heard the station announcer announcing the arrival or departure of such and such a train.

I was really confused. Is Chu Huoyu already on the train, or is she not yet in the pit stop?

I walked out of the waiting hall again. I watched the tricycles coming in the direction of the train station and the crowd of people coming towards the train station.

Every time my hopes were disappointed.

I went back to the waiting hall. I walked around the waiting hall as before, but I still didn't see the fire jade.

Presumably, Chu Huoyu has already gotten on the train.

But if Chu Huoyu arrives in the provincial capital, wouldn't it be more difficult to find her? In such a big place, crowded with people and high-rise buildings, finding someone is tantamount to looking for a needle in a haystack.

However, I can't care so much, I can only try my luck, anyway, the train ticket has already been bought.

Getting on the train and sitting down in my seat, the hunger prompted me to remember that I hadn't eaten breakfast, and then realized that Xiong Yanfei might not be happy for the day. Thinking of this, thinking of Xiong Yanfei's longing look, and thinking that she might be worried about me, my heart was very uncomfortable. However, there was no choice but to go back and explain. I'm sure Xiong Yanfei will forgive me. After all, this is a very special situation.

This is my first time on a train. This is the first time I've been on a train alone. It was the first time I had taken a train alone to an unfamiliar big city.

And I'm looking for someone!

I suddenly felt ridiculous.

However, no matter how ridiculous it is, there is no way back. The train rumbles forward and will surely take you to the place called the provincial capital.

Sitting on the train, I still had a fresh feeling at first. All kinds of people in the carriage, chatting or reading idle books, or lying on the table in front of the seat and dozing or lazily peeling melon seeds, all aroused my interest.

The ever-changing scenery outside the window, one after another after a harvest of rice fields, one after another barren hills, one after another with a pitch-black tunnel, all excites me. Later, a feeling called loneliness arose within me. As long as it takes a long time, no matter how varied things are, they will be monotonous and boring. I was drowsy.

Finally arrived in the provincial capital.

When you feel the buildings outside the car getting taller and taller, and when you notice more and more vehicles on the streets, you should know that the provincial capital has finally arrived.

I followed the crowd out of the car. Whichever way the crowd goes, I go. The crowd went down the tunnel, and I followed. But when I entered the tunnel, I was stunned for a few seconds, some turned left, some turned right, and I didn't know which group of people to follow. But after a little hesitation, I chose to turn right. When I walked out of the tunnel, I realized that I had come to the side gate of the provincial railway station, not directly in front of the train station.

But I didn't care about it anymore, and the feeling of extreme hunger in my stomach prompted me to walk quickly to a small shop. Things on the train are just too expensive. I took out the money several times and put it down several times.

I finished the food I had bought at the small shop and followed the path the owner told me to get to the bus station. To get to the provincial maternal and child health hospital, you need to transfer three buses. I wishfully thought that the hospital Chu Huoyu went to was a maternal and child health hospital.

I squeezed into the bus. The buses are extremely crowded. I felt like I couldn't even find a place to stand. I grabbed the rings with one hand, and the whole person seemed to be hollowed out.

The bus started and stopped, stopped and stopped, and the passengers went up and down, up and down, and I couldn't stop complaining. When the car started again, I felt someone move my pocket. I quickly reached into my pocket. God, the pockets are empty!