Xu Douxiao left more suddenly than he appeared, Yuan Ben ate the red wine and cockpear in two or three bites, poured another glass for himself with the reason that the wine had been opened, ate two bites of shrimp in the seafood porridge, and took a few bites of bread.

Good thing there was wine.

Yuan Ben loves to drink but is not particular, although when planning activities, he will also talk about some rice wine with crab, red wine with meat, white wine with seafood, peach blossom wine brewed on March 3, dogwood wine on September 9, and pepper and cypress wine on the first day of the first month.

Xu Douxiao is his iron nail, long and cold, with rust left by wind, frost, rain and snow, resting in his pocket and conical legs, putting meat in his hands, and piercing his heart in his arms, he is reluctant to throw it away, and he can't take it out to show others, so he can only lick it secretly when no one is around, smacking and smacking the taste, salty and fishy, like dead blood.

It had been a long time since he had taken this nail out. Back then, he drank too often, almost to the verge of alcoholism, after he woke up, he became a model worker in the unit, people who have no home and no mouth actively work overtime and take the initiative to travel, and they have to study and recharge on weekends, work and study continue to squeeze him, so that he has no time to be sad and sad, thinking about his ex-boyfriend? Is the project finished, is the paper finished?

It was this state that made him go all the way smoothly at work, and he was hated and kicked down.

Now Yuan Ben has time.

Xu Douxiao's red and swollen appearance reminded him of the past. The last time he was so embarrassed, it was because of Mother Xu.

The day Xu's mother came happened to be on the weekend, although Xu Douxiao was beaten badly, but he was very confident and felt that he was independent and autonomous, although Xu's mother couldn't accept that he chose to spend half his life with a man for a while, but he could reason with her well, or just treat it coldly for a while, and he could always cross this hurdle. For many years, Xu Douxiao has always felt guilty that Yuan Ben could not justifiably appear in front of his parents, after all, he was accepted by Yuan's mother from the beginning of his relationship, although Yuan's father did not say anything, but also acquiesced to his home for dinner when he was three days old.

He wanted to come out with the family several times, but was stopped by Yuan Ben, the Xu family style is conservative, Xu Douxiao is away all the year round, the party to go home for the New Year is really not an appropriate time, and he usually lives too comfortably, it is inevitable that because of inertia and natural profit-seeking instinct, it is also an opportunity for Xu's mother to break it. Although Xu Douxiao knew his mother's temper, he was not too worried, thinking that the time had come, and the boat would naturally go straight to the bridge.

Until he received a call from the hospital.

Yuan Ben still remembers the chaos of that day, he couldn't drive, and he couldn't accompany Xu Douxiao to the hospital, Xu Douxiao didn't let him ask for leave to think at home, he could only think nonsense in the office, and he received a call from Xu Douxiao when it was almost time to get off work, his voice was hoarse and low, and he was indescribably tired.

"Out of danger, don't worry."

"How are you?"

"I'm fine, I just didn't expect my mom to be like this......"

"No one would have thought that Auntie would ......" Yuan Ben felt that his words were inappropriate, so he could only turn around and care about Xu Douxiao, "Are you coming back?" ”

"I'm afraid I won't be able to go back for the past two days, my dad is on his way here, Sister Su Tang is here, I asked her to come over to help, take time out and go back."

"Then you should pay attention to your body, take a break when you can, and eat on time."

"I know."

For a long time, they didn't speak, only the sound of low breathing on the phone, they all knew that the future would be very difficult, and a little warmth at the moment was rare even if it was just on the phone.

"I miss you so much." Xu Douxiao let out a long sigh, he had never had such a long 12 hours.

"I miss you too." Yuan Ben whispered, "It'll be fine." ”

It's going to be fine. Although Yuan Ben comforted him like this, he felt in his heart that he would never get better again.

The next month was like a dream, Xu's mother committed suicide several times, Xu Douxiao ran away halfway, Yuan Ben found him on the college road of his alma mater, Su Tang cried and begged him, begging him to let the Xu family live, there were too many things that happened too fast, so that Yuan Ben can't clearly recall what happened now, everything is chaotic, lost the cause and effect, development logic, he doesn't remember what he did and said, and he doesn't remember how he felt at the time, he only remembers that Xu Douxiao is getting thinner, All the clothes became loose, the corners of his eyes were blue, and his lips were black, but every time he saw him, he had to put on a look like nothing had happened, and he was always happy, as if as long as he was with him, he could bear any hardship.

Xu Douxiao may really be able to bear it, but Yuan Ben can't bear it.

Yuan Ben looks hard, but in fact it is so soft, although he can punch others and break others, and kick a young man away, but when he was young, he would cry because the wings of dragonflies were broken, he couldn't stand anyone living animals suffering in front of him, let alone Xu Douxiao.

He wants Xu Douxiao to be happy every day, although there is no smooth sailing in the world, but he wants to be Xu Douxiao's harbor, although there are stormy waves outside, but he will always be comfortable when he comes home and returns to his side, he can't solve trouble for him, but he doesn't want to make trouble for him.

He and Xu Douxiao are together because of love, but when love hurts him, it can't work.

Xu Douxiao will never say that he will break up, Yuan Ben understands him, even if he is dragged down by this love.

So Yuan Ben said, break up. We were all so tired.

"So you broke up?" Gu Yue listened to Xu Douxiao's past memories and changed his opinion about Yuan Ben, "Your so-called 'family is not very acceptable' back then, is this degree unacceptable? ”

"Yes."

"Although Lao Yuan is not good enough, it is also, hey." Gu Yue filled both of them with a glass of wine. "But that's all in the past now. The most important thing at the moment is the matter of you and Ning Jun. What exactly do you want? ”

"I, I don't know."

"I'll give you an analysis, you don't know what Ning Jun knows, right?"

"Yes."

"It's possible that Ning Jun just found the house, but you acted like someone had caught the junior."

“…………”

"Seriously, unless she knows that your ex is Yuan Ben, no one will think that the old male classmate who lives in your house has any affair with you."

Xu Douxiao felt that what he said was particularly right, and he was very stupid: "I'm going to find her now?" ”

"The effectiveness has passed, this kind of thing has to chase her, immediately rely on nonsense to stabilize first, don't give her time to think."

"And now?"

"Now? Do you want to marry her? ”

"I don't know."

Of course, Gu Yue knew that he had no love for Yuan Ben, but in the adult world, it was never something you could do if you loved.

"Let me remind you, you're engaged, you begged. Yuan Ben also has a boyfriend, let's have it. You're on different tracks, and now you're forcibly merging, and what awaits you is largely a traffic accident, very serious, a traffic accident that will destroy your car and kill people. ”

“……”

"Think about it. You may love him, but does he love you? If, as you said, Lao Yuan broke up for you back then, then it is impossible for him to get back together with you now, your mother is still that tempered, won't she be forced to die now? After all, the old man already knows that you can marry the girl, and if you bring her much-praised son crookedly, what will she do? We don't know, and Yuan Ben won't take this risk. ”

"You're right, but I really love him, I've already let him go once, and I thought I could forget him. I thought I could get married. But when he showed up at the bar, I knew it wasn't possible, I couldn't get married. I still love him. Xu Douxiao held the wine glass and his eyes were red.

Gu Yue looked at him seriously, he was his friend, this was a position that could not be changed, he sighed and dried his glass of wine: "Scumbag, Xu Douxiao, scumbag." ”

"I know."

"Explain it to Ning Jun well, she is a good girl."

"I know."

"Come to me when you need to lose money, and I can lend it to you interest-free."

"Thank you."

Xu Douxiao wanted to start over, but Yuan Ben wanted to disappear quickly, and after drinking more than half a bottle of red wine on the nail, Yuan Ben received a message, which was Gu Miaomiao mentioned by Qin Momo earlier.

Miss Gu is a person in their industry, and the work content he is responsible for overlaps, the two often meet at meetings, as Qin Momo said, he can be called a rare handsome guy in the industry, every time he has a meeting, he will be favored by female compatriots, talk to him about life ideals at a similar age, and talk about his relationship status with him when he is older, Gu Miaomiao is no exception, he often shares the table with him with a plate when he eats, and chats about some gossip insiders.

Yuan Ben didn't think much about it, first, he had a heart, and second, he had long been accustomed to treating women differently, and he was a little numb to all kinds of overtures.

Gu Miaomiao's message was not abrupt, first greeting and reminiscing, and then euphemistically mentioning his current situation.

"I heard Teacher Qin say that you have been on vacation recently?"

"Well, take a break."

"I have a favor here and want to ask you for help, I don't know if I have time?"

"What's the busy?"

"I recently opened a cultural brand store, I want to do some related activities, you know that the market is very big now, but there are few professional people, and it is not easy to make the event brilliant, this is not just me thinking of you, it just so happens that you have recently taken a vacation, I don't know if you are interested."

Yuan Ben was so interested, doing cultural activities was like breathing for him, which was much simpler than sitting in front of the computer and writing online literature, so he immediately agreed and asked for Gu Miaomiao's brand description and relevant information about the needs of the event.

When he flipped through the information, he felt a sense of inner stability, and sure enough, only work could let him go, and only work could let him leave here and leave Xu Douxiao.