Ding Ying paused. There were all kinds of noisy sounds coming from the community. There are the sounds of husbands and wives arguing, the sounds of children crying, and the sound of motorcycles starting.

Thinking about the world is ridiculous at times. People shut themselves up in birdcage-like rooms, and tragedy and comedy took place in "birdcages".

For example, at this time, who would have thought that in a certain "birdcage" two young college students were analyzing the triggers that prompted their classmates to jump off a building.

"If you have to think so, the murderers should be the two of us. We are accomplices. Zheng Qihang, strictly speaking, our reasoning is unreasonable. Our actions are just a trigger for suicide. The same behavior does not have the same results for different people. For example, if this had happened to me, I wouldn't have thought of suicide at all. Ding Ying said.

"But the problem is that Wu Shufang committed suicide. She flew down from the sixth floor like a butterfly. ”

"So it's her character, or her way of thinking, that's fatal."

"Her dad also said that character is destiny." I say.

The words are different, but the meaning is the same. So we must not think that we are murderers. What we have to regret is that we created this trigger. I've been blaming myself so hard for days. Ding Ying said.

"I guess you're reflecting on it too."

"After all, it's a living life. Of course you will be more miserable that she loves you so much. ”

I was silent.

"But one thing I feel strange, you have always been tepid to Wu Shufang, why?" Ding Ying asked.

"Aren't you tepid with Zhu Defa?" I asked rhetorically.

"These are two different things. Who in the class doesn't know you're in love? Where does Wu Shufang not advertise herself as your girlfriend? My father came to the provincial capital and took you two out for dinner. What do I have with Zhu Defa? It's just that he keeps chasing me and I never said he was my boyfriend. Ding Ying said.

I'm speechless. I'd love to say, as you said, your male friend. But I know I can't joke at times like this.

"Nothing more? That means I'm right. ”

"Your feelings are indeed right." I decided to say, "Wu Shufang just left this world, it's a bit inappropriate for me to say that, but it's true, I can't find the feeling of being very loved." ”

"Then why are you still so close to her? Why force yourself? ”

"It's not reluctant, because it's not that there is no good feeling at all. Wu Shufang's feelings for me are so sincere and strong, and both of our parents have the intention of contributing to this matter...... In fact, her father took us to dinner this time for a purpose. I said.

"What's the point?"

"It's equivalent to introducing us to some of her father's good friends in the provincial capital, and it also means thinking about future distribution."

"Then your slap is very irrational. The bright future was ruined. Ding Ying said.

"Why do I think your words sound weird?" I say.

"What's weird? That's my most pertinent assessment. ”

"Didn't I say that? I don't regret that slap in the face. I said.

"With all due respect, I think what you're saying is far-fetched."

"Am I a little far-fetched?" My voice was a little louder.

"Hey, Zheng Qihang, Miss Ben doesn't want to quarrel with you today."

"Do you think I'm in the mood to quarrel with you?" I asked rhetorically.

"Gee, let's get straight to the point." Ding Ying suddenly got up from the sofa, "Actually, in addition to guilt and self-blame in the past few days, what I think about the most is the fact that you slapped Wu Shufang." I don't know why you reflexively gave Wu Shufang a slap without thinking about it, after seeing her give me a slap. ”

"Is there anything to think about this?" I say.

"Is there anything to think about is my business. I'm done with that anyway, bye-bye. ”

"Where are you going?"

"I'll go to school."

……

By then, it was already mid-April. It is the so-called late spring season. Many of the flowers have bloomed and withered, replaced by lush branches and flourishing everywhere. And I felt like I was entering winter, as if my heart had dried up. I've been in the library for a longer time, and I feel that only by immersing myself in the vast sea of books can my mind not be completely exhausted.

When I get too tired from reading, I walk out of the library, walk across an arched bridge, walk to a lawn on the west side of the main teaching building, and sit down on a lounge chair with my back and my eyes closed. I remember one time a classmate woke me up and asked me if I was sick, and he said that my face was very ugly. I smiled and said I wasn't sick, and he repeatedly advised me to see a doctor.

Wu Lianzi and Cao Shuigen came to the reading room to see me on Saturday morning, and I had been sitting in the library for two hours.

Let's go out together.

"Lianzi, I guessed right, our Jin Da is 100% in the library." Jin San said.

"Wu Lianzi is here to find you, how did you find this place when you go to the moon before the flower?" I say.

"This time is different from the last time, Lianzi said that this time she came to accompany you. We're with you. Cao Shuigen deliberately added.

"This is Wu Lianzi's excuse. Jin San is stupid, I don't know if it's really stupid or fake stupid. I said.

"I really came to see you." Wu Lianzi looked at me, her eyes were big and dark, "Wu Shufang's affairs are known to everyone in our school." I know you must be in a bad mood. ”

After crossing the stone arch bridge, we turned right and walked on a wide concrete road. On both sides of the road are tall metasequoias. Falling red needle-like leaves can still be seen on the road. Past the canal, near the reading room, there was a cluster of moons that were blooming beautifully.

Jin San recounted the scene of Wu Shufang's suicide, and Wu Lianzi sighed.

"It's better to die than to live, why can't she figure it out so much?" Wu Lianzi said, "It is the best time in life, how can you be willing to interrupt suddenly?" ”

"That's what I thought too." Jin San echoed.

"Then has the school investigated who slapped Wu Shufang? Zheng Qihang, do you know? Wu Lianzi asked.

I chuckled and shook my head.

"As far as I've heard, there are several versions. Some said that it was fanned by the young people in society, and said that several young people in the society stopped Wu Shufang and wanted to kiss her, Wu Shufang gave one of them a slap, and that person returned the slap to Wu Shufang. ”

"How can such a thing be? It was broad daylight. Besides, it seems to be quite safe around your school. Wu Lianzi said.

"Safe ......," Cao Shuigen said. I guess the word Jin San forcibly swallowed was "fart".

"Even if it's not safe around your school, that's too far-fetched. Who would commit suicide by jumping off a building for a slap in the face of the youth of society? Wu Lianzi retorted.

"Maybe there are other insults," Mr. Cao said, "but that's pure speculation." ”

"Do you hear anything else?" I asked.

"This second version is related to Kim Dae you."

"Something to do with me?" My heart tightened.

Jin San nodded. "Say you slapped this slap."

"How could Zheng Qihang slap Wu Shufang? Wu Shufang is the girlfriend who set sail. Wu Lianzi said.

"I don't think it's possible. But everyone said so, after all, it was only you and Wu Shufang who stayed together at noon. Didn't you say that Wu Shufang's father took you out to eat? Cao Shuigen asked.

I nodded.

"Eating together is already a relationship. How could such a thing happen? Wu Lianzi said.

"I said Kim Dae, don't be angry. Is it that you are drunk and want to ...... And then something like this happened. ”

Wu Lianzi looked at me.

"There is no such thing!" I said angrily.

"Some people said that at noon, he saw Wu Shufang crying and running down from the corridor where you live." Cao Shuigen said.

"Oh? Who saw it? How did you slander me like that? "I broke out in a cold sweat on my back and my voice changed. Because this version is too real.

Presumably, someone saw Wu Shufang crying and running down my corridor. This person may still be from the academy. Presumably, Wu Shufang ran out of the community while crying, and it is very likely that she ran to the academy crying all the time.

How many people will see it along the way?

That's why there is this version.

"I don't know who it is. Isn't this all speculation? Cao Shuigen said.

"Since it's all speculation, don't talk about it, you see that Qihang's face has turned gray." Wu Lianzi said, "We are here to accompany Qihang and make Qihang happy, not to let Qihang worry about this matter again." Set sail, the mouth is on other people's faces, I can't help others not say it, I just hope you can get out of this matter as soon as possible. ”

"Yes, Jin Dae, you are too depressed. Besides, people can't be resurrected after death, and it's useless for you to be sad. Cao Shuigen said.

"Yes, people can't be resurrected after death, everything is let it pass."

Cao Shuigen and Wu Lianzi took turns to persuade me.

We walked to the football field. The football field is green, some people are practicing, some people are lazily resting on the grass, and some people are training on the track outside the grass. The sun travels through the clouds.

Several people greeted me. They all knew me because of that football game.

Crossing the football field, we turned onto the concrete road to the cafeteria. In the distance, we saw waiters busy in the cafeteria hall.

"I won't eat in the cafeteria today, so I'll invite everyone to go down to the restaurant." Wu Lianzi said.

"That's a good idea. But I'll pay for your treat. Jin San said.

"Don't fight with me about this. This is my friendship. ”

"Why do we want to divide you and me?"

"I don't care which of you pays, I'll have some wine today." I say.

"Looks like it's the right day." Wu Lianzi showed her neat, snow-white teeth.

"Then let's go," Jin San patted me on the shoulder, "a drunken relief from a thousand sorrows." ”

"Let's go."