After burying my father, I didn't forget to contact Zhu Zhenyi when I returned to school. It's not that I miss Chu Jinyi so much, it's that I can't let my ideas become bubbles. Her younger brother has two or three weeks left to take the high school entrance examination, and when it comes to the most critical period, he will definitely not be able to do without my tutoring. No matter how sad I am, I can't help but do it.

Actually, I'm worried that if I don't be more active, Zhu Zhenyi's parents will find another tutor for her younger brother, and all my efforts will be in vain?

Zhu Zhenyi's parents lamented what happened to my father, but they were more concerned that my counseling for their son could finally be continued. They don't want their son's future to be affected in the slightest.

I made a decision that touched them very much, and I went to their home every Wednesday night for the remaining three weeks to tutor their son in his studies - just like the workers of the enterprise took the initiative to work overtime when they saw the heavy tasks in the workshop, which moved the workshop director, not to mention that the overtime was still free.

In this way, Zhu Zhenyi's younger brother got a relatively good result in the high school entrance examination, and my assignment was as I wished - I got a notice to report to the Yangjiang County Civil Affairs Bureau.

I still stayed in Qijiatun that summer.

Where else can I go if I don't stay in Qijiatun? Many times when I thought of this world, I had no relatives, and the grief in my heart swelled outward. Once, when this grief could not be eliminated for a long time, I went to my father's grave and sat for an afternoon.

His father's grave Qi Zhengzhe was made according to the highest specifications of Qijiatun as a grave at that time. The tomb is made of cement mortar, and there are two pillars poured with cement mortar at the head of the tomb, and a bluestone tablet in front of it. The bluestone tablet is engraved with the year of my father's birth and the day of his death, and the heir is extremely rare and only engraved with one column, of course, my name.

This is the great sorrow of my father. Since I was a child, I have heard that it is difficult for my mother to get pregnant, and that there are two or three children in three or five years, and my mother has no movement in her belly for three or five years. finally gave birth to me, and it attracted a lot of gossip; finally conceived her second child, but her mother died due to dystocia.

I am most satisfied with this bluestone stele. The words engraved on the bluestone stele will not be erased for a hundred years or even longer, and the words engraved on the tombstones poured with cement mortar that were popular at that time are easy to engrave, but they cannot be preserved for long.

I didn't buy any burning paper, incense and firecrackers to pay tribute to memorials, as most people do. It was definitely going through the motions. Because I'm not here to pay respects, I'm here to sit with my father.

I just sat quietly in the open space in front of my father's grave, thinking silently and crying silently. Thinking of going to Yangjiang County in a month, I can't tell whether I am happy or sad, and my mood is extremely complicated.

Going to Yangjiang County is only based on a dream, and this dream is extremely ethereal. For this dream, racking my brains not to mention, but also sending my last relatives to another world, brother, do you think, can my feelings not be complicated?

The bitterness in my heart is really beyond words.

Thinking about the 22 years of history, I can't help but sigh that creation makes people. As long as there is a slight change in many things, my life may not be so legendary.

For example, the most fundamental thing is that I don't know my brother.

Taking a step back, my father didn't drink on the night he escaped. According to his father's character, if he hadn't drunk too much wine, how could he have a conflict with Zhang Zhijie, the son of the old village chief?

For another example, he fled to Qijiatun and did not meet Qi Zhengzhe.

Take a recent incident as an example, I dream of working in Yangjiang County, but there is no Zhu Zhenyi in the civil affairs school, or there is Zhu Zhenyi but there is no younger brother who needs help with homework.

……

I sighed deeply, it was all just assumptions.

It was dusk when Qi Zhengzhe came to look for me. The sunset in late July had not yet set on the other side of the mountain, and the whole western sky was red, and it was that kind of brown red.

Because it had rained two days ago, the temperature was not very high, so I was guaranteed to sit at my father's grave for an afternoon. If it's 378 degrees Celsius, it's good to be able to sit in front of the grave for half an hour.

"How do you know I'm here? Are you done? "I'm still sitting. Qi Zhengzhe wears a white vest and a pair of medium-length pants, which is very casual.

"It's a feeling." Qi Zhengzhe sat down beside me.

"I guess I can't see anywhere. Say, "What's the matter with me?" Didn't I already check the accounts for June? ”

"When do you plan to report to Yangjiang County?"

"The notice says August 27th, and I want to go two days early. How? Are you going to send me there? "When I met Qi Zhengzhe, my mood was much lighter.

"There's something I want to discuss with you, I plan to go to Yangjiang County to accompany you for a while." Qi Zhengzhe pretended to be relaxed.

I could tell he was a little nervous about it.

"What? Go to Yangjiang County to stay with me for a while? "I'm really thundered," your Jeongcheol department store doesn't care? ”

"I'll give it to Qi Zhengli. There is no problem in managing this piece of Qi Zhengli. He is very perceptive. ”

"What do you mean by 'give it to Qi Zhengli'? How long do you plan to stay with me in Yangjiang? "I really didn't expect Qi Zhengzhe to make this decision, and I felt a warm current flowing through every vein in my body.

"I'm not sure until you find Zheng Qihang." Qi Zhengzhe looked into the distance.

"No," I said, standing up, "absolutely not!" "I remembered what Qi Zhengli said to me: you can't let him have expectations.

This time I went to work in Yangjiang County, which was just enough to break all Qi Zhengzhe's thoughts.

Who would have thought that he would abandon his career that was heading for the peak and accompany me to Yangjiang?

I felt like I was going to suffocate. How can I let Qi Zhengzhe do this? The next kind of determination alone is not easy for the average person.

"I've already figured it out." Qi Zhengzhe followed and stood up.

"Have you been thinking about this all these days?"

"It's not these days, it's the night you told me to go to work in Yangjiang County, that is, the first night of Uncle Hao's accident."

I remembered that Qi Zhengzhe sent me to the bus station that morning with a tired face, and he must have stayed up all night like his father.

"Why are you doing this? Why are you being so nice to me? I don't need you to be so nice to me, don't you know? I pounded Qi Zhengzhe's chest with both hands, and tears couldn't help but flow from my eyes.

Qi Zhengzhe didn't move, letting me beat him. He didn't take my hands by the hands and take me in his arms like the average young man would, for example.

"No, absolutely not! I can't listen to you this time. "I calmed myself down. I thought that this matter was definitely a big deal for the Qi family, and it might shock the people on the entire street, no less than the shock that Qi Caihong and Yu Yinshan broke up brought to the people on the street.

"I've already figured it out."

"What's the use of thinking about it? Can't just can't. You have to think about the feelings of your aunts and uncles, will they say yes? ”

"They won't say yes, but they can't stop it. You can't stop it. Qi Zhengzhe's eyes were firm. It seems that he has everything thought through.

"What do you mean?"

"If you don't let me go with you, or if you don't let me accompany you in Yangjiang County, I'll open a small shop near your work and pay attention to you silently."

Qi Zhengzhe even thought about this!

Qi Zhengzhe told his parents about this decision, and the shock was the same as when I told my father about my decision to work in Yangjiang County in May. It's just that the father hid this shock in his heart, and the uncle and aunt let it explode.

Uncle was furious.

The uncle said, "It's impossible! Can Zhengzhe Department Store leave you? Can one person take the lily down? The annual rent is more than 100,000 yuan, what will you lose when the time comes? ”

Uncle thinks most about business. It's no wonder that he, now, Zhengzhe Department Store is the economic lifeblood of the Qi family, and when the sun is in full swing, the main person in charge has to leave, and no one can expect how much the business will be affected.

The aunt was hoarse.

The aunt said, "Zhezhe, how can you make such a decision? Have you ever thought about your dad and your mom? You are twenty-four years old, what are you going to Yangjiang County for? Kiki she has no feelings for you, you know? If my mother had had a little idea like you before, and she decided to go to Yangjiang County to work, my mother would have no idea at all. ”

"Can you see this more clearly than I do? I didn't leave a little space for you in my heart, is it interesting for you to follow with your dead face? Listen to your mother and forget about Kiki. I can already accept this reality, and I often tell myself that it is okay if Qiqi goes to Yangjiang, I can come out of Qiqi's side if I die. ”

"Besides, your father and I can't do without you, and you also need to carry the etiquette, and the happiness of the family depends on you. If you leave, who will our family count on? ”

Auntie can be described as bitter.

Qi Zhengzhe was silent from beginning to end, letting his uncle roar and his aunt to ramble.

It is said that the conversation lasted for more than an hour, and the uncle and aunt went into the kitchen several times to pour water and drink, taking turns to do Qi Zhengzhe's ideological work. It can be described as both soft and hard.

Qi Zhengzhe just stood where he was standing, unmoved. At that moment, everyone felt that his heart was made of stone.

In the end, the uncle shook his hand in despair, "Forget it, forget it!" Just when I gave birth to one less son. Go ahead, it's better not to come back! With that, he limped into his first-floor bedroom. He slammed the door shut.

The aunt wept bitterly, "Oh my God, why is my life so miserable." Finally, everyone has settled down, and it looks like they are about to live a good life, but Zhezhe is leaving me. God, how can you do this to me? Zhezhe, Mom knows that once you make a decision, you won't change it, but have you thought about it, you're asking for your parents' lives. Changed your decision, okay? For the sake of the mother's face, huh? ”