Chapter 199: Can't Be Together
Chapter 199: Can't Be Together
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I've been thinking a lot of things these days lying in a hospital bed, so Xiao Zhong, I hope you can respect and understand my decision, let's break up. &1t;/p>
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I have said countless times that I want to be by your side for the rest of my life, this sentence is true, but there is a difference between ideals and reality after all. &1t;/p>
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The ideal is beautiful, but the reality is skinny. &1t;/p>
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The child's departure was as if it were meant to be, as if God was telling me that it was time to wake up from the dream and that it was time for me to leave. &1t;/p>
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When I was a child, I read a book, and it was written that a woman would always meet a man in her life who could fall in love with him for a second but would take a lifetime to forget, and that man might be you. &1t;/p>
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You are my first love, the only man I have ever loved other than my dad in my life for more than twenty years, and the man I want to spend my life with. &1t;/p>
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By the way, we've been together for so long, you don't even know why I like you. &1t;/p>
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Although I do covet your male color, there is an old saying, people like to pursue beautiful things, and there is no doubt that you are the most perfect person created by the Creator, and you are probably the kind of person who will be infatuated with men and slap their thighs with jealousy. &1t;/p>
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Going back to the point, while I do covet your manhood, I'm not as superficial as you think. &1t;/p>
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To me, you are the guiding light on my way, the brightest light that illuminates the dark path ahead for me in my grief and despair. &1t;/p>
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When I was at the most hesitant in my life, I thought about giving up, but when I was eating noodles at a noodle restaurant, I accidentally saw a man standing on the podium with a high spirit, saying his acceptance speech. &1t;/p>
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You said that you can get to this point, and the person you want to thank the most is actually yourself, and you say that you thank yourself for persevering in the past ten years and never giving up. &1t;/p>
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It was that sentence that encouraged me. &1t;/p>
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A person who has worked hard for ten years to get today's results, and I am just a 20-year-old girl whose life has just begun, so why should I give up so easily. &1t;/p>
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Because of your words, I persevered, and sure enough, what you said was right. &1t;/p>
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I've never liked to watch TV series and movies, and I've looked through all your works, from your eighteenth line not being popular to play the male N number to you playing the male lead, I have gone through it all. &1t;/p>
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Xiao Zhong, you really seem to be born to act, because whether you play a supporting role or a leading role, you can make me feel that you are the character you play. &1t;/p>
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I like you, at first I just wanted to see you from afar. &1t;/p>
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Then it turned into a signature that wanted you. &1t;/p>
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After that, it became a desire to take a photo with you. &1t;/p>
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In the end, my thought became - I want to sleep with you. &1t;/p>
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A good man like you said that it was false to say that he didn't want to get it, and I was also very straightforward, and I went directly with a big sign of 'I want to sleep with you'. &1t;/p>
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Your reaction to seeing me is so cute, and I really didn't expect someone as cold as you to be blushing from me, but the way you blush is really cute. &1t;/p>
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It's a coincidence that the day I met you coincided with you and Lang Xingchen breaking up, as if it was fate, I started my slow road of chasing Han. &1t;/p>
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And so our story begins. &1t;/p>
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For me, I am very happy to see you smiling, and I am distressed to see you unhappy and want to bear everything for you. &1t;/p>
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Knowing that you are a man who is nearly ten years older than me, I will still worry about whether you have eaten enough and slept well. &1t;/p>
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What brother, husband, male ticket, and Oba all kinds of shameful names want to be called. &1t;/p>
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Obviously, there are many handsome guys in this world, but I just think you are invincible and handsome in the universe. &1t;/p>
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Someone who has grown up with no interest in rankings will vote day and night for you. &1t;/p>
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In order not to expand the damage that sunspots do to you, stay up all night to purify the square. &1t;/p>
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I'm afraid that people will say that you are tied up and shut up and don't dare to mention other actors, and I have learned not to fight, quiet as a chicken and not to cause trouble for you, I have learned to observe words and emotions and not be walked by marketing numbers, and I have learned not to do to others what I don't want to do to others. &1t;/p>
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It feels like a love affair for one person, and it feels like a romance for millions of people. &1t;/p>
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You are the meaning of my hard work, I like you so well, and then I want to become a better version of myself, if I have faith, life will no longer hesitate. &1t;/p>
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It doesn't matter if it's five years, ten years, or fifteen years, as long as you're still on the other side of the screen, I will applaud you unconditionally. &1t;/p>
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After you, maybe I will never go so desperately to please a man again, and falling in love with you is probably the bravest decision I ever made when I was younger. &1t;/p>
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I have to admit that I always thought I would be with you for the rest of my life, I let go of all my pride and accommodated everything for you, but I still couldn't go to the end, you are my most unexpected bravery, and it is also the entanglement that I have to give up. &1t;/p>
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Maybe it's because you were hurt in the relationship with Lang Xingchen, so you are always careful with your feelings, or maybe it's because my girl is really not your thing, you were really very resistant to me at first. &1t;/p>
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But in the face of my indiscriminate pursuit, you really can't help it, so in the end, you still obey me. &1t;/p>
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In fact, I think that the abstinent male god in everyone's mind is really not as indifferent as it seems, and it is not as difficult to chase as imagined. &1t;/p>
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You're probably a very insecure person. &1t;/p>
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I'm afraid of losing, so I disguise myself as very indifferent. &1t;/p>
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As for the means of chasing you, I will tell the majority of girls who like you in the future, as long as the purpose is simple, and it is to chase all the time, in short, it is the pursuit of perseverance, and you will definitely be able to chase you. &1t;/p>
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Although you have always been cold before chasing you, but when we finally confirmed the relationship, you are like a completely changed face, every minute love words Boy possessed, who said that you are cold, obviously a very enthusiastic person. &1t;/p>
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We've been together for almost half a year, and you've been really nice to me, and you didn't bully me just because I'm just your little fan assistant. &1t;/p>
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When it comes to feelings, you are indeed a very serious person, and you are 100% attentive to me. &1t;/p>
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I thought that as long as we always loved each other deeply, we would have a good ending. &1t;/p>
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I forgot, you are not an ordinary person after all, you are so good, of course it is impossible for me to be the only one who cares about you, I like you, but there are still many women around you who like you. &1t;/p>
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Don't count the people who secretly send Qiu Bo on weekdays, Lin Xiameng is one of the more representative and the thickest skinned, and Lin Xiameng has exhausted all kinds of means in order to chase you. &1t;/p>
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Of course, I'm not a vegetarian either. &1t;/p>
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At that time, we had just fallen in love, and I still had a lot of strength to clean up the foreign invaders, and at that time there was a stupid energy to kill gods and Buddhas. &1t;/p>
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If anyone dares to covet your male sex, if I don't kill her behind my back, no amount of bewitching and slutty green tea bitch will be able to escape my means. &1t;/p>
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It's a piece of cake to deal with Lin Xiameng's bewitching slut, but I didn't expect your ex-girlfriend Lang Xingchen to come back again. &1t;/p>
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That's a woman who has been in a relationship with you for five years, and I've seen almost all the interviews about you, so I've seen you and Lang Xingchen in an interview together. &1t;/p>
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You have always been a person who is not very good at speaking, although you don't talk much when you are in the same frame as Lang Xingchen, but you will always hold her hand, look at her gently and smile, and there is a kind of warmth between your eyebrows that does not seem to belong to you, that look really touches me. &1t;/p>
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I believe that you and Lang Xingchen must have truly loved each other, and she is indeed the woman who accompanied you through the lowest point in your life and witnessed your success. &1t;/p>
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For you, the existence of Lang Xingchen should have a special meaning. &1t;/p>
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I can be confident in front of any woman, but in the face of Lang Xingchen, I am actually a little unconfident in my heart, although I know that you have let go of that relationship in your heart. &1t;/p>
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In the past, I didn't understand why Lang Xingchen broke up with you suddenly, until that night I saw you and Lang Xingchen appear at the same time outside the villa. &1t;/p>
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She left you because she didn't want to drag you down, and she gave up on you with a very stupid decision, but she didn't hesitate to help her when she was in trouble. &1t;/p>
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She regrets it, and she wants to re-enter your world. &1t;/p>
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But you already have me in your world. &1t;/p>
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Of course, I know that since you have already chosen, I will no longer be entangled with Lang Xingchen, and choosing not to announce your feelings for the time being is just for the sake of your career. &1t;/p>
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Lang Xingchen's fierce pursuit of you seems to have received only cold rejection. &1t;/p>
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Lang Xingchen probably felt that his heart was unbalanced, and subconsciously felt that you should be hers, even if you broke up, you shouldn't change your mind so quickly, even if you don't love her anymore, you should never belong to an ordinary person like me. &1t;/p>
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I didn't expect Lang Xingchen's means to be so high, her team is good at hyping up scandals, and she first released a photo as a stone hammer to force you to admit your relationship, seeing that you didn't admit your relationship, she directly stood up and admitted the reunion rumors, not to mention that she didn't know what means to take over the new movie in which you played the male lead, forcing you into an embarrassing situation. &1t;/p>
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Lang Xingchen seems to have calculated that you will never give up acting in a movie to pay high liquidated damages in order to break off the relationship with her, and she also wants to take this opportunity to renew her relationship with Zhong Jinyun, but during the entire filming process, all she got was your cynicism. &1t;/p>
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At that time, although I was also under pressure, I was thinking, as long as we love each other deeply, no matter how difficult the road ahead is, no matter how many difficulties and obstacles there are in the future, we can go on hand in hand, there is nothing to fear, one day the rumors will disperse, and we will finally usher in the light. &1t;/p>
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It doesn't matter if I can't see the light of my underground girlfriend, anyway, I'm still young, and the future will be long. &1t;/p>
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As soon as you arrived in the U.S., I was found to be pregnant, and I was six weeks pregnant. &1t;/p>
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Do you know Xiao Zhong, when I was doing the lottery, the doctor pointed to a dot on the image on the electronic screen and told me that this is the gestational sac, although it doesn't look like a human form yet, just a small seed, but after more than eight months, it will gradually grow into a little doll. &1t;/p>
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When I was a child, my mother told me that every child is a gift from God, so I should cherish my new life. &1t;/p>
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This life is the crystallization of my love with you, a gift from God, and I love him so much, as I love you do. &1t;/p>
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I'm fantasizing about him being a girl or a boy. &1t;/p>
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If it's a boy, then he must be as handsome and chic as you, no, he must have become an abstinent male god at a young age, and he has brought down thousands of girls. &1t;/p>
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If it's a girl, in addition to inheriting her father's beauty, her personality will definitely be a little more like me, lively and cheerful, confident and optimistic, and full of positive energy. &1t;/p>
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Anyway, whether it's a boy or a girl, it's definitely a very cute child. &1t;/p>
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I am especially looking forward to the birth of this child. &1t;/p>
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You said that you like children and would love to have a child when you are thirty, although I am just your underground girlfriend who can't see the light, and almost no one knows about my existence, but I still hope to be able to give birth to this child for you. &1t;/p>
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Because you're filming in the U.S., I want to wait until you return home to tell you the news. &1t;/p>
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That's what happened. &1t;/p>
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I can stand to see you and Lang Xingchen hype together, including that I can give up my career and studies to be your little assistant by your side because I like you. &1t;/p>
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As long as it is what you say, whether it is true or false, I believe it all unconditionally, even when I see an unsightly scene, I still choose to trust you, because I believe that I choose the vision of a man. &1t;/p>
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Xiao Zhong, until now I still love you, but I don't have the strength to continue to love, our child is gone, I don't know what kind of terrible things will happen in the future, and I'm really tired, I always thought I was brave enough, no matter how difficult it is, I must stay by your side, but now I really can't do it, I originally wanted to share the joy of my pregnancy with you, but before I could share the good news with you, the child was gone. &1t;/p>
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