"Didn't you explain it on the phone call?" Mother said cautiously.

"You know what? He has to give an explanation to our mother-in-law. Father said.

"What do you want to give us an explanation?" The father-in-law spoke, and his voice was very loud, "What he wants to give us Mo'er an explanation." It's the first time I've seen this kind of scene at such an age. ”

"I'm sorry." I say.

"Is it really a hospital thing?" The father-in-law is aggressive.

Everyone's eyes were on me.

"Yes. It was to perform appendix surgery on a patient, and I accidentally left a piece of gauze in his stomach. "My voice is low.

"How would you make such a low-level mistake as an old knife?" It's still the father-in-law who is talking.

"Isn't there such a thing as capsizing in the gutter?" My mother tried to speak for me.

"The patient is Zhu Jinshan, Uncle Zhu's son." I looked at my mother and lied with white intentions.

"Zhu Jinshan? Nothing, right? "Mother was really worried.

The father looked suspicious.

"His wound has not healed, and the wound has always been painful, my assistant Wang Hao redid his examination only to find that he had a piece of gauze in his stomach, so I had to rush back to deal with it." I spoke more and more calmly. I feel like my lies have worked very well.

"Nothing else, right?" Father asked.

"Of course people are fine. It is to have another operation to remove the gauze. The problem is that this is a medical malpractice and the impact is very bad. Fortunately, it is Zhu Jinshan, if it were someone else, it would definitely be a storm in the city, and when the time comes, how can anyone still ask me for surgery? So I have to go back. I said.

"Hey, doctor." The father-in-law sighed, "You sit down." ”

"But, anyway," I didn't sit down, "I didn't let Xu Mo have a beautiful wedding, but left her alone at the wedding banquet, I am very ashamed of her, I am really sorry." ”

"As long as you treat my daughter well." The mother-in-law, who had never spoken, spoke.

"Okay, okay, it's okay to get things done, I'm still waiting for a drink." The elderly Xu Mo's uncle played a round game.

……

It was the most embarrassing dinner I've ever had in my life, and even more tragic was at my own wedding reception.

Later, I participated in many wedding banquets, watching those young couples love each other, saying blessings to each other, drinking a glass of wine, and happiness on my face, I will recall this wedding banquet, recall Xu Mo's tense face, and recall my father's roar.

Of course, Xu Mo was hurt the most.

I still remember that after eating, we were silent on the way back to the lakeside community. I wanted to break the silence, but when I saw Xu Mo's gloomy face, I didn't know what to say for a while. I can't always say I'm sorry, I'm sorry to say too much and it would be hypocritical.

Originally, many people came to the cave room, but because one of the protagonists was absent and the plan was canceled, there were only two of us in the entire duplex that night, which seemed particularly deserted.

Everything is new in the home. The walls are new, and the paint applied a few months ago still has a faint fragrance. The floor is new, and the sixty-by-sixty polished tiles can almost reflect the shadow of a person. Televisions, refrigerators, and washing machines are all newly added, and each item has a happy word pasted on it, and the harsh red color seems to be a mockery of our mood.

Xu Mo took a shower and went directly into the bedroom.

I sat down on the couch.

The next thing was actually trickier for me.

The question is, how do you deal with it? It's a candle night in the cave, and you can't avoid it anymore!

You can avoid it before.

In the short time you spent with Xu Mo, you sat on the grass, stayed in the woods, talked in the small bedroom where your parents lived in Hua'an Middle School, and you also catered to Xu Mo's wish to hold her hand, but that was all.

It's all up to you. All you do is within this degree.

Well, now, there is no degree to grasp. Everyone knows that it must be a night of honesty, a night of unevenness, and a night of selfless integration with each other.

Where does such a night come from? What it wants to break through is the so-called degree. What it wants to get rid of is the so-called shame. What it needs is to be open, without you, without me, until there is no difference.

Putting aside all the constraints, putting aside morality, loyalty, shame, etc., from a physiological point of view, the next moment is the moment you think about it day and night.

You've thought about it not only in the dark night, but also in the bright daytime.

That is the first desire of man. Desire, without reproach. It is also a careful arrangement by God, and it is a beautiful setting from God.

Every couple of men and women in the world will be guided by God to this arrangement at a certain moment to complete this beautiful setting.

Except for you.

In the course of your 28 years of life, you have never gone to this arrangement once, and you have never completed this beautiful setting once.

It's not that you don't want to, it's that you can't. It's not that you don't have a chance, it's that every opportunity is destroyed by unexpected convex ring superpowers.

The existence of the convex ring spirit makes it impossible for you to move towards this arrangement.

At first you may be confused and confused, but now you are clear. No one is to blame for this. It's not self-inflicted.

The only thing you can't accept is why God's painstaking arrangement has lasted so long.

It's been five years since I worked in Yangjiang Hospital, and only today has the so-called familiar voice appeared, and only a little voice appeared.

That's why you're going to have to face this awkward night.

Of course, that kind of first desire, you have not released. There is no one who is 28 years old and has not released his first desire.

You can't release it through the beautiful setting of the heavens, you can create your own way of releasing it, and that is hand touch.

For more than a decade, you haven't stopped touching.

The first time I touched my hand was the days after your letter to Wu Lianzi was pasted on the wall behind the classroom. During those days, you were very depressed mentally.

No, it's far from the feeling of doing something wrong, it's far from the feeling of failing an exam. Wu Lianzi, who looks like Hao Junqi, suddenly ignores you as if she has experienced something wrong, on the one hand, on the other hand, a lot of male classmates laugh at you in person, and quite a lot of female classmates talk about you behind your back (they stop the topic when they see you), you become a nymphomaniac, or even a pervert, which makes you unable to raise your head.

There are even some people who are starting to distance themselves from you. It's like you're a nymphomaniac as long as you're on good terms.

Every girl has a longing for a boy, every boy has a favorite girl, they tell each other their heartfelt feelings in their dreams again and again, but they despise your behavior so much that you dare not face up to girls for a long time.

However, you still hopelessly yearn for girls, you imagine their eyes, imagine their every protrusion, imagine their every charming smile, and your "flowers" always bloom highly. I can't tell you what bloomed after it, your hand accidentally touched it, and accidentally lifted its petals, and this kind of lifting inexplicably brought you an incomparably comfortable feeling, so, as if you had discovered a new continent, you were excited, and did not hesitate to continue to lift the petals. You close your eyes, and you flip and shake again and again, up and down, and the sensation becomes more and more intense, more and more indescribable, until all the sensations are concentrated on that point, until the juice gushes out of the flower, and you almost cry out in such a good way.

It's as simple as that. It's as simple as that. You don't have a teacher. This is your own way of releasing your first desires.

Since the beginning of your creation, you have been quite proliferated. Your "flower" will bloom at every casual moment, and as soon as it blooms, you have a strong desire to release it, to taste the agitation.

You're always dwelling on your imagination.

Year after year, with the increase of experience, with the broadening of knowledge, you understand that this kind of agitation between men and women is more exciting, and you understand that this is the most favorite game between men and women.

So you begin to yearn for it, you look forward to it, and you are no longer satisfied with your self-creation. Especially the people around you have successively followed the guidance of God to this arrangement, and they are all dedicated to practicing the beautiful setting, and you yearn for and look forward to it even more.

But God says no.

How many women are coming to you at this time. They all want to take you by the hand and walk towards God's unique arrangement, and they all want to practice that beautiful setting with you.

At this time, no one will stick love letters on the wall, at this time, no one will laugh at you nymphomaniacs, at this time, everyone is calmly pursuing the opposite sex.

At this point, everything is reversed.

but you are sealed up from heaven. No matter how they walked, they couldn't walk into the space that was enclosed by the heavens. They wanted to go in, and they wanted to go in when they were emaciated, but they were ruthlessly blocked from the door.

So you're still stuck at the level of your own creation.

In the final analysis, Ding Ying has already analyzed it with you, because of the promise you and Hao Junqi made when you were thirteen years old when the Optimus Stone Pillar fissioned.

The meat ring is the best proof of this. There is an extra meat ring with a bulge on the middle finger of your left hand for no reason, and there is an extra meat ring with a notch on the middle finger of Hao Junqi's right hand for no reason, which is the mark left by God on your body. This is the most convincing.

You should have thought of this a long time ago.

The cruelty of Heaven is that it has left a mark on you, but it will separate you long and far away.

That's why there are so many grievances.

It's especially annoying that you're waiting in an uncertain state of mind. That seemingly endless wait makes you despair.

But one thing you know is that you can only stop at the level of your own creation to release your first desires, and you can't feel the agitation with any other person of the opposite sex.

In this way, the embarrassment of candle night in the wedding cave room is inevitable.

It's not like you're sitting on the couch all night.