Time has passed, and I have to change the environment to go to a township dozens of miles away from my home to go to middle school. And he wasn't happy to face the result. He still had some thoughts stuck at that stage, which was bound to shatter his childlike dreams. But he still has to accept the reality, because he knows that this is a necessary stage of life, and he can only endure it silently.

The students who are about to enter middle school have made a lot of preparations for further education, and their families have also paid a lot, but Li Ruoqing is not excited, and even has some melancholy and worry. What he thinks is that those lives full of laughter and laughter will no longer exist, and some of them have dropped out of school, either transferred to another school, or gone to society to start a livelihood, and there are few left to go to the township middle school. He didn't want to see this, he was a little sad, he couldn't find the happy times he used to have, he just wanted to linger, endure and cherish all this.

That is, in such inadvertent days, many changes have taken place, and he is a little unable to accept it for a while. Many people acquiesce to this seeming development, but there is still a gap between reality and imagination. Life defined by boundaries is coming soon, and for him, it will come sooner than he imagined. But many students have been looking forward to this day for a long time, including their parents, who have done a lot for this day, paid a lot, and they have some hope, and they all hope that their children will have something to do by going to school.

Li Ruoqing may also know this, he has a backlog of ideas, and he stepped into the school gate with a wish, a strange and early threshold in the demarcation.

He is slowly adapting, following the rules every day in an orderly manner, he doesn't know what can change, maybe everything can't be changed, and he doesn't dare to hope for those times before. In this way, he didn't seem to realize that he was changing, or that he had changed. He slowly stopped talking, and he didn't want to cause trouble, he only knew to study silently, hiding everything he had experienced in his heart, but he didn't want to share it. He ignored and forgot the "discomfort" from his body and mind, resisted the temptation and pressure from all sides, and squeezed into the torrent with others.

And the biggest revelation he got was that he had learned more knowledge in all aspects, and he had important understandings in various disciplines. It is easier to compare the knowledge that is received with the world in the mind, to get closer, and the changes it brings are also changing. What remains is that there is always an imbalance between the soul and reality.

Thankfully, this coincides with the time when a huge change is taking place in the school. The atmosphere of innovation is actively advocated and vigorously promoted, and many people are driven up, and there is always something to yearn for. Coupled with the guidance of the teacher, the expansion of the contact area, and the coverage of the knowledge area, it gave him many opportunities, which made him re-recognize a lot, and the most important thing is that the integration of all aspects has skillfully enriched himself. That is, the greatest feeling - the importance of thinking.

Li Ruoqing has been working hard to find a satisfactory answer, to be able to solve the confusion in her heart for herself, and to find a suitable place for herself.

However, the deviations and constraints of the real life state made it difficult for him to cope with it and he could not get comfort. And what he did, in addition to aimlessly enduring, continued to insist on his own curiosity, thinking about how to strike a balance between the two. The intensifying and unchanging situation made him see no hope, his hopes were constantly shattered, and his helplessness was full of temptations. He doesn't want to give up, but does it make sense to hold on? I don't know, but he is afraid that if he continues to do this, he will lead to disadvantages.

So he began to try to change slowly, to observe more, to study, and mainly focus on hobbies. At the same time, in the current innovative campus atmosphere, he has experienced an unintentional liberation, which seems to be looking for balance, and has evolved into a shortcut to liberate and change his mind and ideas, and the corresponding laissez-faire results have followed one after another, which should be borne by himself.

There is no evasion or compromise in the face. After the high school entrance examination, the results are not very satisfactory. Li Ruoqing began to be a little confused, unsure whether this was the inevitable result or the test he faced, and the choice left to him may have begun.

The intersection of the life choice stage has been placed in front of him, where to go? Whether to continue to choose to stay and study, or to seek new changes to make a living, perhaps only he knows best in his heart. He didn't want to give up, he was confused, he hadn't found the answer yet, and he still had the desire to belong to be answered. He tried to keep looking for answers, so he decided to stay on the path of school. I was going to go to a high school in the county, and I faced a lot of pressure and took a lot of setbacks, but I still entered the campus.

Here, the high school campus is a new environment, filled with some air of freedom. The wide range of contacts and the many faces have given him the space to yearn for, adhering to his interests to do some things he likes, reading some books he likes, but he has never thrown away the confusion in his heart, hoping to gain efficiency and solve it as soon as possible. The various contradictions he encountered made it difficult for him to deal with them, and he was overwhelmed by them, which made him feel a little tired, and he doubted what kind of mentality made him start to become conflicted. He thought about giving up, maybe getting on a normal track, there would be no unnecessary worries, everything was going well, he thought about it. But he didn't have the courage, he didn't have the courage to let himself lose his mind and face the sanity of the world in front of him.

Unexpectedly, at this time, the sudden change in the family has added weight to the unstable factors. As a last resort, the family had to move to the county seat. It stands to reason that at this time, it should be convenient for Li Ruoqing's living and learning environment, which will be more or less beneficial and helpful. But that's not the case, quite the opposite.

As a result, he lost a lot and gained a lot, and the year passed quickly. He read some good books, got some inspiration, met some people, encountered some things, had a lot of fun, and at the same time sincerely longed for free space. But the pressure that followed came with it. The hardship of the family, the abandonment of the environment, and the hope of going to school have struck mercilessly.

In such a situation, whether to go on alone, or to compromise, or even to give up the confusion buried in the bottom of the heart, but there is no answer to be found. has appeared in front of him, and has to face the situation: either bear it alone and go on without complaint or recklessness; Either compromise, abandon the idea and consume aimlessly. Stable and solid, everything is arranged in accordance with the arrangement.

For the first time, Li Ruoqing became so conflicted and hesitant, he wanted to improve it, change the current situation, or find a balance between the two options. However, it seems impossible, and the contradiction between reality and ideal may not be the only one, and the contradiction between reality and ideal is more prominent and more and more aggravated. The hope of pinning on him could not find an answer, the obedience was meaningless, and he couldn't bear to let his parents work hard for him, so he decided to put his studies aside first, try to become independent, and find a way that suits him.