Cen Jing knew that I wouldn't tell her what I didn't want to say, so I had to bury my head and continue to sleep, I lay on the bed and remembered what happened before and felt like a dream, and remembered Wang Meng's rescue at that time.

Indeed, the first person I thought of at that time was Wang Meng, could it be that he came here because he received his own call for help?

When I close my eyes now, I can still think of Wang Meng's appearance at that time, he is still as handsome and chic as ever, and he can't sleep even more if he thinks about it like this, he hasn't had to make up his homework at school for the past two days, so let's get up early tomorrow, I buried my head and continued to sleep.

Chen Xi's ghost has long since disappeared, and I only began to feel guilty when I learned about his past, I clearly didn't understand anything but wanted to be a savior, and I hurt him invisibly, and I also began to understand why Chen Xi suddenly broke out and threw himself against the wall when I said those words.

Even if Wang Meng didn't appear at that time, he deserved it.

Because the words he said at that time were like a sharp sword to Chen Xi, those words would only stimulate his heart more and make him more painful.

At first, I didn't understand, I didn't have a mother since I was a child, I thought that their relationship with their mother was so cordial, after all, when I saw his mother, I felt that their relationship must be very good, this mother's eyes are all care and love, how could I have thought that she was such a person?

Chen Xi told me all the past in person, and I also felt his despair in it, as if I was in the midst of memories, and my chest was always aching.

Chen Xi has only had a mother since he was a child, and his father abandoned him and his mother when he was very young, so the two have always been dependent on each other, and they have lived in a small town since they were children.

Chen Xi had just entered elementary school at the time, her mother found a job in the town, every day at noon and at night for an hour, after getting off work at noon, she hurried back home to cook for Chen Xi, although the family conditions were not good, but Chen Xi asked her to do it, the biggest wish in this life can raise Chen Xi and make him a productive person.

Chen Xi's mother met another woman at work, and she was also a single mother, so the two of them would have a lot of resonance, and it just so happened that she also had a son, in this case, the topic that the two often talked about was children, and it was inevitable that there would be a heart of comparison after chatting for a long time, and that woman would always inadvertently mention her son, with excellent grades and good abilities.

Chen Xi's mother knew that she was not capable, but after thinking about it, she couldn't suffer the child no matter what, she spent almost all her salary on her son, and she would buy Chen Xi what others had, even though he didn't want those things.

Chen Xi's grades have always been good, and she is one of the best here, but that woman's children are in a key school, and Chen Xi's grades are only above average there, and she is not satisfied at this time.

In Chen Xi third

When he showed his report card to his mother, he thought that his mother would encourage him happily and cook him a delicious meal as before, but his mother seemed to have changed, she reached out and took the test paper and frowned after reading it, and then tore the test paper to shreds in front of him and said coldly: "Do you still have the face to show me this result?"

Chen Xi looked at her mother in astonishment, she was like a demon at this time, all the looks in her eyes were disgusted, Chen Xi didn't know what she had done wrong, and she didn't know when her mother started to become like this.

He couldn't find a little warmth in this family, he was forced to sign up for all kinds of tutoring classes when he was still playful, as long as the woman and child knew it, Chen Xi had to learn it all, he couldn't breathe at all in this family, and he couldn't see his mother's smiling face in this family and couldn't get his mother's affirmation, although he was good enough in the eyes of others.

Chen Xi will be beaten and scolded when she makes a noise when she eats at home, she will demand Chen Xi with the highest standards, but he is only a child less than ten years old now, he forgets how long he hasn't laughed, and those former playmates are gradually alienated from him.

At that time, Chen Xi felt that he was a bird trapped in a cage, and those who were the same age as him could soar like eagles, and his wings were broken at some point.

Chen Xi tried to express his thoughts, but his mother raised her hand and slapped him and said with a hideous face: "Do you know how much your mother has paid for you, your mother works day and night just for you, how can you not study hard?"

He doesn't know when he started to be expressionless, he doesn't even seem to be able to laugh anymore, and even communicating with others is wrong, his mother's eyes are always staring at him, those eyes are thorny, and looking for the only remaining trace of shortcomings in his body will be infinitely magnified.

Chen Xi was tired for a long time, and looking for death was not a temporary thought, but he thought about when his mother would definitely wake up, he would always think of his mother before, and his smile was still so warm, but his mother was like a sun-facing flower blooming against the sun in Chen Xi's eyes, and now she is like a man-eating flower.

Verbally causing harm to yourself by caring for yourself, that body is already bloody.

No matter what, he couldn't satisfy his mother, if he missed the test score by one point, he would be beaten, he never went out to eat, those things were poison in his mother's eyes, and everything his mother made had to be eaten cleanly or he would be scolded.

And one of the things my mother often says is: "Mom is all for your good, why let Mom down?"

That look Chen Xi had goosebumps all over his body when he thought about it, no one could understand his kind of despair, he himself was stretched out of hell, he had forgotten what the outside world was like.

But he still can

He has been patient, he waited for the day when his mother woke up, but he had forgotten that his mother had already gone crazy, and she was completely crazy.

After junior high school, Chen Xi began to live in the dormitory, at that time his grades were still very good, and he also made good friends in the dormitory, but the good times did not last long, his mother would come to see him every day, and he would always appear unconsciously, and even when he slept at night, he felt that there were a pair of eyes staring at him all the time.

It didn't take long for him to be told that as a day student, he went home and had a big fight with his mother, and his mother was still like that at that time, and continued: "Chen Xi, are you arguing with your mother now, do you know if your mother is doing all this for you!"

Saying that, he slapped him again, Chen Xi looked at him coldly, that look showed a hint of disgust, and when his mother saw it, she took out a fruit knife from the kitchen and pointed it at her neck and said, "Okay, now even you are starting to hate your mother, then your mother will die now!"

Chen Xi finally snatched the fruit knife back, he now finally understands why his father left suddenly, he will eventually have a day when he can't stand it, she is too possessive, no matter what he can only do according to his mother's ideas, he doesn't know how long he can do this.

Chen Xi decided to commit suicide when he was seventeen years old, he was already covered in bruises, because he was a day student, so the relationship with his classmates was not good, and they would laugh at Chen Xi: "Look at that Chen Xi, obviously he is an adult, he still lives with his mother, and he applied for day school in the dormitory before, I think he is a mother's boy." ”

Chen Xi didn't refute this, it was indeed the case in the eyes of outsiders, he felt that if he died, he would be freed, and he would no longer be able to bear the torture of his mother, and he couldn't stand the care that seemed to be caring, but in fact made people unable to breathe at all.

He chose to commit suicide at night, and in the end he just found a random car, he didn't feel pain at the moment of his death, what he felt was relief, it was unprecedented relief, his body was lighter all of a sudden, and he also laughed at that time, which was the only time he laughed in so many years.

When I listened to this, I apologized to Chen Xi vigorously: "I'm sorry Chen Xi, it was all my fault before, I didn't know how to say this at all." ”

Chen Xi shook his head and said, "It's not your fault, it's just that I can't forgive my mother, maybe it's my fault." ”

I stood up and said: "No, it's not your fault, no one can really forgive, those who say you're wrong can't empathize, although I haven't really experienced it, but what you said has made me feel hopeless, I feel sorry for you, obviously still at such a young age, if you meet a good mother, maybe you can live better now." ”

Chen Xi said: "She is indeed a good mother. ”

I sighed, yes, what she did was just for her son, but her life was meaningless, and all she was thinking about was how to make her son better, but he ignored his son's feelings and never asked him if he was happy.

I said: "

Now there are two choices before you, one is that you go back to your mother now, she can see you, maybe you can talk. ”

I looked at him cautiously, and when I saw that he didn't answer, I continued: "There is a second option, that is, to surpass you now, you can go to reincarnation, but all the memories are gone, but are you sure you won't see you for the last time?"

(End of chapter)