He was silent when I said my first choice, and I knew the answer.

Chen Xi looked at me and replied, "If you can, let me go over now, thank you." ”

I saw that sincere look in my eyes, and I was willing to help him with this, I really didn't want to be kidnapped by morality, and I knew what he had endured, that is, a hellish life, but I felt a little sorry that they didn't see the last face, but now I can't say it.

But I still don't have the courage to see my mother again, I think if my mother sees him, she will be trapped in it and won't be able to get out.

Just before I overtook him, he said a few more words to me.

"If you can, can you help me put the tombstone back in order, I'm afraid my mother will think too much when she sees it. ”

I nodded.

"If you can, can you go home again, I hope you can let my mother live again, don't live for others in the future, let her be herself. ”

I nodded.

Now he finally has no regrets, I seem to see him when he was young, I saw him when he was not troubled, and I also saw him who was not injured at that time, obviously a simple and positive teenager, but because of his mother's oppression, he took the initiative to seek death.

However, Chen Xi has no fear of death, for him it is much easier to die than to live, now most people have a common disease, it is easy to be depressed and can't think about it, it is too difficult for them to live, but they dare not die, so they have been living in a state of confusion.

Looking at him like that, I don't know why some tears flowed from the corners of my eyes, even I didn't know why the tears flowed, there was an unknown emotion in my heart, I felt sorry for him.

Chen Xi said to me: "Thank you, I hope you can live a good life in the future, you are about the same age as me." ”

I hummed and said: "Reincarnation hopes that you can go to a good person's house, in addition, don't live to please others, even if it's your own mother, if it's wrong, it's really wrong, don't think that you are accommodating, it will harm you yourself." ”

The relationship between the mother and son is very contradictory, it seems that they are both living for each other, but in the end, everyone worked so hard and did not get a good ending.

The time was almost up, Chen Xi turned around and said to me, "Sister, you can start." ”

Then I took a deep breath and sat cross-legged, and he sat across from me, and I said slowly: "Out of the world, and the land of others, there are hundreds of billions of inconceivable, inconceivable, immeasurable, immeasurable, immeasurable, immeasurable..."

I repeated this many times until I opened my eyes and saw the white light shining around him until it was completely gone, and before it disappeared I saw him smile at me, as if to thank me for all I had done.

Finally this place became empty, and I stood up, silently praying in my heart that he would be able to live an easy life this time

Since he chose to be reincarnated, the memory of this life no longer exists, and it is also a relief for him.

After confirming that he had left, I also walked out and took a taxi to Chen Xi's house, which I haven't been here since the last time I came here, because of the time and Jack was still in a coma at the time, and I don't know how his mother's health is.

When I came to Chen Xi's house, I saw his mother sitting there quietly, and even when I walked in, he didn't notice me until I was born and said, "Auntie?"

She slowly opened her eyes and saw my very familiar appearance, and finally recognized me, but she never mentioned anything about Chen Xi again, and I didn't take the initiative to say it.

It's just that she sits here and makes me feel very lonely, I haven't had a mother since I was a child, but I don't know why I want to spend more time with her at this time, I'm afraid I won't be able to come over again in the future, so I can stay a little longer now.

No one spoke, but she kept smiling, and we sat like this until ten minutes later, and she said slowly, "Have you seen Chen Xi?"

I hummed a little puzzled, I didn't know what she meant by this, so I asked, "Auntie, what do you mean by this, isn't Chen Xi already dead?"

Could it be that she has already seen Chen Xi? She shook her head and said, "I know you've seen him, he should have been reincarnated by now." ”

Why does she know these things, and she is so clear, I sat on the side and looked at her suspiciously, she didn't notice my gaze, her eyes kept staring at the front and said happily: "I hope he can be reincarnated well this time, the memory should be gone, I don't think I will have the opportunity to meet him again in this life, maybe he doesn't want to see me anymore." ”

The tone of the voice was a little sad, and I sighed and said, "Auntie, in fact, you put too much pressure on Chen Xi, but he still loves you." ”

She nodded and said, "Well, I know, it was because of me that I killed him, maybe this is a kind of punishment, which makes me live so painfully now." ”

Seeing her like that, it was not Chen Xi's original intention at all, I shook my head and said, "Auntie, I have seen Chen Xi, although I haven't seen him in the last one, he hopes that you can live a good life in the future and don't think about him anymore." ”

Knowing that I had seen Chen Xi, she hummed and said, "After all, don't you want to see me for the last time?"

I didn't know what to say, but I thought about it for a long time before I said: "He can't get over that level in his heart after all, those things are still lingering in his mind, so let him go happily, at least I saw him as he was before he was over, do you understand what it means?"

Seeing her shake her head, I continued to explain: "If the ghost has not eliminated the resentment in his heart, then he will always maintain the appearance of a ghost, but if he has no regrets in his heart, it will become his best moment, I am fortunate to be able to see Chen Xi at that time, he is very."

Good. ”

At this point, I turned my head to look at my aunt, her face was already full of tears, and she also turned her head to look at me guiltily and said, "So he has been unhappy all along, right, why should I keep paying attention to grades and performance, why haven't I asked him if he is happy, but why is he unwilling to tell me?"

"Maybe he's trying to make you happy, you're never happy, if he can do a great job at least you can smile at him, that's the only way to make you happy, so he doesn't want to give up, he's living for you, you know?" I replied

She nodded and said, "He has suffered in this life, and I hope I won't meet a mother like me again in the future." ”

At this time, my heart was touched and I said to her, "At least he liked you once, and you are also a competent mother, but people change sometimes." ”

Then I continued, "Auntie, do you know why I'm here today?"

She was a little confused and said, "Chen Xi asked you to come over, didn't he?"

In addition to this, there is also my own selfishness, I said: "Half of it is because of this, and half of it is because of myself, although I have not had a mother since I was a child, I can feel your love for him, but I am too strong, but even this I have not felt it, so you should make a change." ”

I pointed to the room and said, "If that room is like this, you will never be able to get out, he has been reincarnated now, and his memory of the present no longer exists, do you want to feel guilty all the time to admit your mistakes?"

She didn't answer, and I continued, "He wouldn't have let me come over if he hadn't forgiven you, and he asked me to tell you a word, and I'd be gone." ”

She made a move on this last sentence, and looked up and asked me what it was.

He hopes that you can live a good life in the future, be brave and be yourself, stop living for others, and get rid of your previous life, there is still hope for tomorrow. I said this and walked out.

She seemed to understand, and I saw her stand up and look at my back until she was completely gone.

After opening the door, I walked to the tombstone, and saw that it had been cleaned up, maybe the urn had been placed inside, and I didn't know who did it, maybe Xiao Liu had been here once before me.

I just wanted to walk and saw a bouquet of flowers in front of the tombstone, and there was a familiar scent, and I smelled it myself.

This smell was contaminated when she entered the room just now, and a kind of incense was lit in her room, which was not strong but smelled good, and made people feel warm in their hearts.

Maybe Chen Xi had already given her a dream before I came over, and told her everything about herself, including this tombstone, maybe she made it herself.

Maybe she would have lived well without me.

I looked at the tombstone

Xi's photo was almost the same as the one I had seen before, and I smiled with relief and left, and when I turned around, I happened to see her.

My aunt had already walked out at this time, saw me coming out from the direction of the tombstone and thanked me: "Thank you for helping my son." ”

I waved my hand and said, "This is what I should do, Auntie, let's live a good life in the future." ”

Just as I was about to leave, my aunt suddenly called out to me.

When I turned my head and stopped to look at her, she took out a sachet from her pocket, and the word "peace" was embroidered on it, and the fragrance was the same as what I had left on my body, and I took the sachet and said thank you.

She also said: "A girl like you always thinks about others and always makes me live for myself, and you are the same, this sachet was made by me before, if you don't dislike it, take it." ”

After taking the sachet, I put it in my bag, I seemed to give someone else a peace charm, as if it was the first time I received such a thing, her smile made the corners of my eyes moisten a little, I quickly turned around, the sachet has been hanging on the top of the bag.

Finally, I returned to the dormitory, and when Cen Jing saw me, she said, "You've been getting more and more mysterious lately, and you're always elusive, what the hell are you doing!"

(End of chapter)