Of course, the most unforgettable thing for me is the scene of sending my brother back to the city. It happened when I was 12 years old, and it's been ingrained in my mind ever since.

The car carrying my brother got farther and farther and faster, and I waved my hand as I ran, fantasizing about turning into a butterfly and flying up and stopping on my brother's shoulder like in the movie.

But instead of turning into a butterfly, I felt that my brother had become a butterfly, flying farther and farther......

In the end, I simply squatted on the ground and cried.

Grandpa came over and helped me up, and he didn't say anything, just sighed deeply. My father stood on the edge of the trolley and watched me from afar. I felt like my little heart was empty.

I don't know how long I cried.

At that time, there were no watches, let alone mobile phones, so I could only look at the position of the sun to guess what time it was. But the sun seemed to be against me, hiding in the clouds and refusing to come out.

Grandpa has been very patient with me, and he did not urge me to go home, he waited until I was tired of crying before he said softly: "Kiki, it's time to go back." ”

I nodded silently. When I stood up, I felt that both of my feet were numb, and I could barely hold my body. It's squatting on the ground for too long. I stumbled. Grandpa hurriedly helped me.

I stomped my foot, and when the numbness on my foot was completely gone, I took my grandfather's hand and walked to my father.

It occurred to me later that my grandfather, who was silently by my side, and my father, who was standing far away, must have had numb feet and stiff toes. It was winter. It's the coldest winter.

It is incomprehensible that the two of them are so patient and have never complained a little.

Love is silent.

That day, I sat on the frame of my grandfather's trolley and went home, and I didn't even get out of the car when I got up that very high slope.

That year's New Year should be the least interesting. I don't feel like my family is happy either.

Everyone felt that there was a lot less.

Without Uncle Zheng and Aunt Zheng, without my brother, we all feel as if it is not the New Year. It turns out that we are all used to having brothers, uncles and aunts Zheng for the New Year.

When I thought about it later, I realized that, in fact, we are already a family, and you are an integral part of this family.

When there is no brother in the Spring Festival, I no longer pick up those firecrackers that have not yet exploded in the fireworks; No longer interested in turning off the firecrackers, pouring black nitrate on the stone slab to write, and then going to set it off; No longer get up early on the morning of the first day of the first lunar month to pay New Year's greetings to the elders in the village......

It seems that my brother is not here, and there is no point in doing anything.

Finally went to school. Two new teachers have come to the school. Many people are very repulsive to the new teacher because they miss Uncle Zheng and Aunt Zheng, but I don't, I listen to the class very hard and write my homework very hard, so the new teacher likes me very much.

But they don't know the real reason for this. I don't like to learn because I like them, I'm studious because of my brother.

At that time, I vaguely realized that my brother went to a big city and became a city person, so he would pay more attention to studying, so I secretly decided that if I couldn't keep up with other aspects, I must keep up with my studies.

This is the main reason why I studied diligently later, whether I went to a small town in Anhui to study in primary school, junior high school, or was later admitted to a civil affairs school.

I'm afraid that I'm falling behind my brother in my studies, at least not too much. I know I'm going to fall behind in a lot of things, but I have to try to stay as far behind as I can in my studies.

Because I studied hard, the two new teachers liked me. So there are many people, like Zhu Jinshan, Yongri, and the four cubs, who hate me, and even Ah San hates me.

It's so strange, my brother has returned to the city, and even Ah San, who has never been reconciled with his brother, misses it very much. They said that I had betrayed Teacher Zheng and Teacher Yan.

They said that anyone can betray Teacher Zheng and Teacher Yan, but I can't betray him.

But I don't care. Because I know it. No matter what they say about me, in class, I still actively raise my hand to speak, and if I don't understand, I will still ask the teacher in time.

A lot of people look down on me even more because of this. Zhu Jinshan didn't even talk to me anymore. But I still don't care. I know what is the most important thing for me.

A semester just passed.

Summer vacation is finally here in anticipation.

I'm about to see Brother Sailing, who thinks about it day and night.

I don't know if my brother will have a mustache like Zhu Jinshan, whether his voice will become thicker, and whether there will be a small bulge (Adam's apple) on his neck; I don't know if my brother is taller, so tall that I can't recognize it at a glance, so tall that he will laugh at me for being short.

So every afternoon when I have free time, I always have to guard the entrance of the village.

Sometimes I waited all afternoon, because I guessed that my brother must have expected me to stay at the entrance of the village.

I'm so afraid of missing it, I'm afraid that when my brother comes to the east gate and I don't guard the entrance of the village, you will be very disappointed.

So I went to the entrance of the village when I had time.

My brother may wonder why I didn't wait in the morning. Because my grandfather told me a long time ago, my brother and your family must be here in the afternoon.

"It will take a morning to take a car from Hua'an to the county." Grandpa said with certainty.

Actually, Grandpa, Mom and Dad are looking forward to your coming.

So in the morning, I will be very diligent and diligent, and do everything my grandfather told me, such as going to beg for pigweed, such as going to the vegetable garden to pick vegetables or something, so that in the afternoon, grandpa will not ask me to do anything.

In this way, I can wait at the entrance of the village with peace of mind.

Except for Zhu Jinshan, no one knew why I was always wandering around the village, and many of them thought I was waiting for my parents.

You say herding cattle? Of course I have to put it. Can you still not herd cattle during the summer vacation? Brother still remembers the scene when we were herding cattle.

When it was my family's turn to herd cattle, I would not stay at the entrance of the village, but by the river. I was on the embankment near the plank bridge. Because, if my brother comes, he must cross the plank bridge. Guarding the embankment near the plank bridge will not be missed.

I don't participate in any games. I don't even participate in fishing in the river or skipping rope on the lawn. I sat under the embankment opposite the boardwalk, beating stones under the tree we called "Muzi", and looked ahead from time to time.

I could see everyone who crossed the boardwalk.

Of course not you.

Again, except for Zhu Jinshan, no one knows why I always sit here. A lot of people say I've changed. Call me withdrawn and not fun.

When Zhu Jinshan also herds cattle, he will sit with me for a while. It's only for a while, brother, you know, who can sit still?

However, a day passed, and my brother did not come.

A week passed, and my brother didn't come.

Half a month has passed, and my brother has not yet come.

Even, a month has passed, and my brother still hasn't come.

Zhu Jinshan expected that his brother would not come. "Do you believe the people in the city?" He said, "As soon as you set sail back to the city, you're a city person, you know?" ”

"You talk nonsense, you talk nonsense. Brother Qihang said that he would definitely come. Brother Sailing won't lie to me. I almost cried and argued.

"I was also afraid that I wouldn't be able to set sail so I said that." Zhu Jinshan was excited to see me and retracted his words.

I'm sure my brother won't stop coming.

I believe that my brother must have been delayed, so he will come later. Besides, isn't there more than 20 days left to leave school? My brother said that he would come to see me this summer, and he would definitely come.

So I still keep watch at the entrance of the village every day, until every sunset, until the smoke rises in every house, and until my grandfather's call resounded throughout the village.

Sometimes, it will be kept until the moon quietly rises.

It's been another week, another half a month, and I can't help but doubt my judgment, but I immediately strengthened my conviction again.

"Maybe my brother will be here tomorrow." I said in my heart.

But on the second day, my brother didn't come, and on the second day of the next day, my brother still didn't come. Seeing that the summer vacation is coming to an end, my brother still hasn't come.

It wasn't until the last day of this summer vacation that I realized that my brother really wasn't coming. At least this summer vacation won't come.

I'm really sad. I'm not sad because my brother didn't keep his promise, but because I haven't seen him for so long.

I suddenly had a feeling that I wouldn't see my brother for a long, long time.

What if you really want to see my brother again for a long, long time? Will my brother recognize me at that time? At that time, will my brother still remember my sister Junqi in this poor village?

If my brother can't recognize it, what's the matter? Also, how long is this long, long time? Will it grow forever.

And how far away is eternity?

I panicked and was afraid, so I often cried for no reason, and often sat under the jujube tree in a daze.

But I don't resent my brother, I believe that my brother must have been delayed, so he can't come. It's not like Zhu Jinshan said. I'm convinced that brother is not that kind of person.

The notched meat ring on the middle finger of my left hand, I don't know how many times I have to stroke it at the end of the day. It reminds me of many, many things from the past. I don't know if the raised meat ring on the middle finger of my brother's right hand has been removed. Anyway, I thought my meat ring would be eliminated, but it didn't get rid of it.

Actually, I don't like them elimination. They are the best proof that my brother and I have ever gotten along. They may be a kind of connection between me and my brother.

It is impossible to "never leave and never give up, and always be united", but with this pair of meat rings, those past cannot be erased.

I just don't know if my brother will say goodnight to Kiki every night before going to bed like he said on the night when he played late rice crackers, and he will often think of Kiki, because, as long as he thinks about it from time to time, he will "never give up".

In the blink of an eye, school is back to school again.

I'm in fourth grade.

I put all my energy into my studies again. I pinned my hopes on the winter holidays.

My brother will definitely come to see me during the winter vacation, I always think so stupidly.

Maybe my brother was planning to come to see me during the winter vacation.