It was a surprise to me that Qi Zhengli and Shi Jue could break off their relationship quietly, but I was very happy. It seems that Qi Zhengli is still very sensible.

And this time is exactly when Li Zheng is frequently approaching me. According to Rao Xiaocan, he took Ye Dingdi and "glasses" away, and without competitors, he fully launched his "attack" against me.

This time was also when Qi Zhengli went to the county to participate in a badminton competition.

Li Zheng's way of giving me a "confession letter" is different from the way Ye Dingdi and "glasses".

Ye Dingdi secretly sandwiched the love letter in my language notebook that he borrowed to read, and when he returned it, his cheeks were red and his eyes flashed.

"Glasses" were given to me in front of me, saying that they would give me one*, and that it was up to me whether this * could ring or not. Very witty tone.

Li Zheng called me to the horizontal bar and double bar on the playground, and when he handed me the very neatly folded letter, a pair of small eyes stared at me, as if he wanted to see through my inner world.

"You know what this is, because it's not the first time you've received something like this," Li Zheng's voice trembled a little, "I like you, Hao Junqi." ”

I've received love letters more than once, but this is the first time I've heard a boy confess to me, and I just feel that the sun at the end of April is ten times stronger, and I can't open my eyes.

I'm a little dizzy.

"No kidding." I forcibly quieted the fawn in my heart.

"I'm serious. However, you can get back to me in a few days. After speaking, Li Zheng pulled his legs and left.

I leaned against the column of the horizontal bar and remembered that this place was the place where I told Li Zheng that my grandfather and mother died.

Li Zheng chose this place to give me a love letter with a purpose.

I put the letter in my pocket and hurried back to the classroom.

That day, Li Zheng looked back at me more often. I tried to avoid his gaze. Although I have not read his letters, I know one thing that I cannot give him hope.

I thought so at the time, no matter who it was, except for my brother, it was destined to be a hurried passerby in my life.

So that night, after reading Li Zheng's letter, I immediately burned it.

However, my heart was beating in a panic.

No, no, it's not that I'm excited because someone likes me, it's really panicking. This letter, looking at the handwriting, Li Zheng repeatedly revised it I don't know how many times, it was definitely because he couldn't hide it in his heart anymore, and he couldn't hold it in his heart anymore, so he wrote it to me.

What he writes is absolutely heartfelt, such as "I have you in my mind all day long", such as "no matter how much my mother ignores me and my stepfather despises me, as long as I think of you, my heart is very warm", such as "It is no exaggeration to say that you are the source of my happiness, your smile will make me remember all day, and your concerned eyes will make me feel like tears......

However, the more "heartfelt" Li Zheng wrote, the more panicked I became, because the more he cared about me, the more my refusal would hurt him.

Because, no matter what, I will refuse him.

In the letter, he said: "I am waiting for your reply. Waiting is an ordeal for me, but it makes me happy. Because I can't imagine the consequences of being rejected by you. So, as long as we wait, there is hope. ”

In the letter, he said: "You have melted into my life, into my thoughts, into my time. I can't live without you. If you reject me, I'll be a kite with a broken string, and I don't know where I'll go. ”

In the letter he said: "So please don't reject me, you can't refuse me. You are the warm sun of my winter, and without you, I would not be able to wake up like a frozen snake. ”

In that case, how can I easily refuse? Not to mention a classmate, just looking at the fact that he once spared me from being on the sandbank*, I can't be so decisive.

So, for about two or three weeks, I struggled with it.

I don't have someone to talk to.

I can't say this kind of thing to Rao Xiaocan, I can't say this kind of thing to Qi Zhengzhe, and I can't say this kind of thing to my father, I can only ask my brother in my heart, but I can't hear the answer.

Time passed. I felt that every time the hour hand turned, Li Zheng's eyes became gloomy.

He was right, it was indeed an ordeal for him. But he couldn't do what he said in his letter, and turn suffering into happiness. Because it seemed to him that I would write back to him in a few days.

A few days are replaced by more than ten days or even twenty days, and the torment becomes torture. Li Zheng couldn't stand the torture of this coldness.

How can he perceive what is going on in my heart?

So Li Zheng gave me a note. He walked straight to my seat, tossed me the slip and left. He didn't even look at me.

Unexpectedly, this piece slid on the table, spun and floated to the ground, impartial, and fell at Qi Zhengli's feet. At this moment, no matter how indifferent Qi Zhengli was, he couldn't help but bend down to pick it up.

So he saw the words written on the note: See you at the old place after school in the evening.

The corners of Qi Zhengli's mouth moved, and he didn't say anything. I snatched the note from his hand.

Here I want to talk to my brother, the playground of Qijiatun No. 2 Middle School is at the back of the campus, and there are no students living in the evening of the school, and there are often only athletes on the basketball court on the playground, and the place of single parallel bars is always empty, and if it is a rainy day, the whole playground is silent.

It happened to be drizzling that day.

I went as promised, with an umbrella in hand.

Li Zheng was already waiting there, leaning against the pillar, letting the drizzle fall above his head.

I handed the umbrella over, and Li Zheng pushed it away rudely.

"Why did you choose this place? Why not bring an umbrella? I said.

"Oh? Do you care about me? Will you still care about me? Li Zheng was habitually staring at me.

"Why do you talk like that?"

"If you still cared about me, would you be so cruel? Would you be so calm? ”

I avoided Li Zheng's gaze and looked over at the office building. The thin lines of rain slanted densely, wetting the trees, the ground, and the houses. The school was silent.

"That's what you want, isn't it? It's been twenty days, it's been twenty days, every day I've been suffering from pain, and you can turn a blind eye? I really didn't expect you to be so hard-hearted that you could act as if nothing had happened. ”

"It's not what you think it is." I pulled my gaze back. Li Zheng's hair was already drenched in the rain. "We went back to the classroom. The classroom should be empty by this time. You're going to catch a cold. ”

"What does it matter if I don't feel cold? It doesn't matter if I'm dead now. Any idea why I have to talk to you here? It's the most homely place I've ever felt. But I'll tell you," Li Zheng raised his eyelids, "and now I think this is the most disgusting place." ”

"Don't be so paranoid!"

"Am I paranoid? The head teacher said I was paranoid, my wife said I was paranoid, and even you said I was paranoid. Everybody says I'm paranoid! Who is paranoid? Twenty days, not a day or two, you can act as if this didn't happen, not even a word, you say, who is paranoid? "Li Zheng suddenly came over and grabbed my arm and shook my body vigorously.

"You're scratching me!" I screamed. I was suddenly a little scared.

Li Zheng retreated back to his position and regained his composure, "You said that you are not what I imagined, so please tell me how you are?" ”

"I don't want to hurt you." I realize, I have to put this matter to a halt. The more I struggle, the more I may hurt Li Zheng. "Do you think my heart is as calm as it seems to be in the past 20 days? It's that I don't know how to answer you. ”

"You can reply however you want."

"One thing is for sure, we can only be classmates, friends, I was already very clear about this when I received your letter, and I thought the same as when I received the letter from Ye Dingdi and 'glasses' before, we can only be classmates and friends." I hold the umbrella with one hand. The rain fell slanting down my shoes and trousers.

"Say no more! In your eyes, the relationship between us is the relationship between you and Ye Dingdi? Li Zheng said angrily.

"I'm using an analogy," I said carefully, "it's the same relationship, but with a depth of emotion." Don't you think you're the closest boy in my class? But no matter how close we are, we can only be friends, ordinary but best friends. ”

Li Zheng wanted to say something, but I interrupted him and continued: "I just feel that you have a certain lack of emotion, and I am afraid that you will not be able to bear it, so I ......"

"So you're so calm?" Lee was staring at my face. He paused word by word.

"Time is the best healer. I thought you'd fade over time. I looked away again. The rain line is getting denser and denser. I don't think we can continue to talk like this, first, the rain will drench Li Zheng, and the other is that Qi Zhengzhe will be in a hurry.

Vaguely, a person's figure flashed in the corridor on the second floor of the office building, like Qi Zhengli's figure, tall and thin.

Li Zheng suddenly stepped forward again, this time he grabbed my arms with both hands, "Hao Junqi, is it because you have a favorite object that you are so cruel to me?" ”

I shook my head. Li Zheng's hair was wet and his face was covered with rain. A pair of small eyes were bloodshot.

"You lied to me. You've got something you love. It's Qi Zhengli's brother Qi Zhengzhe, right? He picks you up every day and sends you off every day, do you love him? ”

"What the hell is wrong with you? Why are you having all this nonsense in your head? I couldn't stand it anymore, "We're so young, why do we have to think about all this?" Let me tell you, Li Zheng, what I want to do now is to study hard, and I don't want anything else. Because I think I'm already very lucky to have books to read. Please let go, I'm going back. ”

"I'm afraid that Qi Zhengzhe will be in a hurry, right? Do you say that there are no ghosts in your heart? ”

"What the hell do I have in me?"

"If you don't have a ghost in your heart, how can you let someone who is not related to you take you to and from school for so many years? If you don't have a ghost in your heart, why don't you ride your bike to and from school by yourself? ”

I choked.

"Don't have anything to say?"

"Unreasonable." I threw the word and immediately regretted it.

"Yes, I'm incomprehensible. I said what was on your mind, and you had nothing to say, so you didn't care if I was hurt anymore? Didn't you say you were afraid that I would get hurt? Li Zheng gritted his teeth.

"Please let go, I'm really going back."

"Promise me that from tomorrow you will go to school and leave school by yourself." Lee was opening his little eyes to the maximum.

"Why?" I don't know why Li Zheng asked me to do that.

"Prove that you don't have a ghost in your heart."

Rao Xiaocan is right, Li Zheng really "went crazy".

"You let go!" I tried to break free of Li Zheng's hands.

"Unless you promise me." Li Zheng grabbed my arms harder.

I continued to struggle and didn't want to say anything more. Li Zheng is paranoid to such an extent, I didn't expect it at all. I regret going to the playground with him.

But Li Zheng just won't let go. My umbrella broke away from my hand and fell to the ground. The rain was pouring down on my face.

Li Zheng still didn't let go.

At this time, I heard Qi Zhengzhe's voice calling me. Li Zheng should have heard it too, as he quickly let go of my hand.

I straightened my sleeves and bent down to pick up the umbrella.

Qi Zhengzhe ran to me as fast as he could.

Qi Zhengzhe also did not bring an umbrella. He took my umbrella and grabbed my hand with his other.

I left with Qi Zhengzhe. I walked a dozen steps forward before I heard Li Zheng call "Hao Junqi", and I looked back to see Li Zheng kneeling on the ground, his head leaning forward and almost hitting the ground, his back bent into a circle.