The rest of the day went by slowly, and of course it was hard. I'm often in a daze. The teacher called me by name in class, and I lost count of the number of times. Several teachers came to my place to talk to me after class. Zhu Zhuwu also talked to me. However, the teachers' conversations didn't change my state.

I would go to the gravel road behind the school almost every evening. As I walked, I thought about Xiong Yanfei's voice and face, and my heart was always blocked. In that "old place", sometimes I would stand for more than ten minutes, or even longer, and I forgot the time and forgot to study at night. It doesn't matter to me at all whether I'm late for self-study or not.

Occasionally, I would take the flute with me, trying to dissipate the depression in my heart with the help of the, but I didn't want the flute to become more and more sad, so that in the end I cried bitterly.

Wu Jianhua and others came to me many times on the gravel road.

Then it rained.

The autumn rain rained for several days. The temperature dropped suddenly. Many people wore sweaters, and some fashionable classmates wrapped their scarves.

The rain kept falling and it was wet everywhere. Autumn leaves fall in the wind, and fallen leaves fluttering in the air can be seen everywhere on campus.

I can't help but think of the poem in "Dream of Red Mansions": Whose autumn courtyard has no wind to enter, Where there is no sound of rain in the autumn window. Luo Ji is not afraid of the autumn wind, and the residual leakage sound urges the autumn rain to be urgent. I don't know when the wind and rain will stop, and I have taught tears to sprinkle the window screen wet.

How can the heart be embarrassed!

……

We learned that Xiong Yanfei had been transferred from Shanghai Hospital to Hua'an People's Hospital, and it was Xiong Yanfei's third day in Hua'an People's Hospital. Yu Jinrong told me the news.

"How do you know?" I was pleasantly surprised.

"I call Yan Fei's home every day, at noon, at night, and after returning from self-study in the evening, someone finally answered the phone at noon today." Yu Jinrong said happily.

"Who? Is it Xiong Yanfei? I asked.

"How can it be Yanfei? Yan Fei is still in the hospital. It's her mom. Her mom just came home to get something. ”

"What's wrong with Xiong Yanfei?"

"Yanfei's mother said that Yanfei had an operation."

"Surgery? What surgery? I said.

She didn't say. I didn't ask either. I asked her which ward Yan Fei lived in, and she said that she was in the 304 ward of the internal medicine department. I'll tell you as soon as I get to school. ”

"Thank you. Let's go now, then. I said.

"Are you going to see Yanfei? You didn't attend the afternoon class? Yu Jinrong said.

"No, it's gone. Ask Xiang Jianjun to ask us for leave. ”

"Okay."

The People's Hospital is located in the center of the city and has two medical buildings, each with five floors, making it the best hospital in Hua'an City.

Yu Jinrong and I each bought a small gift. When we arrived at the People's Hospital, we went to the internal medicine department on the third floor under the guidance of the nurse at the guidance desk, and then found the ward of Room 304. The ward door is closed.

Yu Jinrong knocked softly on the door.

The door opened, and Xiong Yanfei's mother poked her head out.

"Auntie, we're here to visit Xiong Yanfei." Yu Jinrong said.

Xiong Yanfei's mother was very emaciated. In my impression, Xiong Yanfei's mother is a noble lady, noble, temperamental, with a good complexion and shiny. But the one in front of me and the one I remember her are like two people.

"It's Yanfei's high school classmate, right?" Xiong Yanfei's mother didn't see me standing behind Yu Jinrong.

"Yes. I'm Yu Jinrong, and he's Zheng Qihang. ”

"Zheng Qihang is also here? Thank you for coming to see my daughter. But I want you to be quieter and only go in one by one, because the doctor said my daughter needs to recuperate. Xiong Yanfei's mother said.

"Okay. Zheng Qihang, will you go in first? Yu Jinrong said.

"You go in first." I say.

Yu Jinrong followed Xiong Yanfei's mother into the ward.

I was waiting outside the ward. Counting carefully, Xiong Yanfei has been in Shanghai for almost a month.

What kind of illness made her stay in Shanghai Hospital for so long, and she had to be admitted to Hua'an People's Hospital when she came back?

I walked to the nurses' station. There are only two nurses in the nurses' station. The young one is most likely an intern.

"Can I ask you about the condition of the patients in Ward 304?" I walked into the nurses' station.

"Don't you know? She's got ......," the young nurse said.

"Xiao Qi," the older nurse said.

"Ah, teacher, look at my memory. Mouthy again. ”

"Who are you a patient?" The older nurse asked.

"I'm her classmate." I say.

"I'm sorry. It is not convenient for us to disclose the medical condition. If you're wondering, you'd better ask the patient's family. The older nurse said.

"Thank you."

I walked out of the nurses' station. I saw Yu Jinrong standing at the door of ward 304 waving to me.

I walked quickly towards him.

I gently pushed open the door and walked into the room. What surprised me was that there was only one patient in the entire ward, Xiong Yanfei, and only one bed. The shorter bed next to the bed is the patient's family bed.

Xiong Yanfei was lying on the hospital bed, her face very pale. She's hanging a drip. An old man with gray hair sat in front of the bed.

Xiong Yanfei's mother smiled at me.

"Yan Fei, look who's coming to see you." Xiong Yanfei's mother said.

Xiong Yanfei turned his head.

"It's me, Zheng Qihang." I say.

"Zheng Qihang? You get out, you get me out! I don't want to see you, you give me out! Xiong Yanfei was suddenly extremely excited.

I noticed that Xiong Yanfei was shaking all over, her breathing became extremely short, and her face was pale.

"What's going on?" Xiong Yanfei's mother was taken aback.

Xiong Yanfei gasped for air.

"Call the doctor, call the doctor!" The old man said.

I hurriedly exited the room. I realized that I had committed a big taboo. I just wanted to see Xiong Yanfei, desperate to know about Xiong Yanfei's condition, but I didn't take into account Xiong Yanfei's feelings about me.

Xiong Yanfei was sick because she misunderstood me, and before this misunderstanding was eliminated, I was her pain! And I naively thought I was her comfort.

Xiong Yanfei's mother quickly entered the doctor's office. The doctor came over quickly.

"What's wrong?" Yu Jinrong asked.

"Xiong Yanfei suddenly had difficulty breathing." I have the heart to hit the wall.

"How so?"

"I didn't even take into account her feelings. I shouldn't have seen her in the first place. What can I do? Don't do anything. ”

"What the hell is going on?" Yu Jinrong said.

"Xiong Yanfei doesn't want to see me. As soon as she saw me, she became excited, shouting for me to get out, and her breathing immediately became short. ”

"I'm sorry. She must have remembered the photo again. ”

"It should be. She thought I had betrayed her, that I had cheated on her feelings. So she didn't want to see me at all. "I'm so sad.

"What do you think? Are you embarrassed to say you think? I know exactly what you are doing when you take Wu Lianzi to the Maternal and Child Health Hospital. Tell you, if you hadn't deceived Xiong Yanfei's feelings like this, would I have done this kind of thing? Yu Jinrong was suddenly very excited, "I love Yan Fei wholeheartedly." ”

"Yu Jinrong, do you think seeing must be believing?" I looked at Yu Jinrong, who was in the same pain as I was, almost with hatred.

"Isn't it true that hearing is believing, seeing is believing? I saw it with my own eyes, and I couldn't help but believe my eyes. Yu Jinrong said.

"So you think I'm stepping on two boats."

"Not to think. You're literally pedaling two boats. I despise such people the most. ”

"Say it again!" I clenched my fists, having trouble controlling my emotions.

"Do you think I'm afraid of you?" Yu Jinrong showed no weakness.

A nurse rushed at us. "What are you doing? Any idea what this place is? I'm going to call security if I make such a fuss again. You have to go outside and make trouble. ”

"I'm sorry, we're having fun." Yu Jinrong smiled at the nurse.

"yes, we're kidding." I followed.

"Then give me some peace." The nurse reprimanded.

We sat down in a row of chairs. Yu Jinrong still had anger in his eyes. I lowered my head, avoiding his gaze.

After a while the door opened, and the doctor came out. I quickly stood up and stopped the doctor.

"How? Doctor, is Xiong Yanfei okay? I said.

"The patient has calmed down. Nothing is a big deal. However, she can't afford to toss like this. "The doctor was in a hurry to leave.

"Can you tell us what she is suffering from?" Yu Jinrong said.

"You go and ask the patient's family." The doctor pushed us away and left.

Yu Jinrong and I glanced at each other.

"What kind of disease will Xiong Yanfei have? Why don't they keep their mouths shut? "I said to myself.

"I also find it strange. Could it be that Yan Fei is seriously ill? Yu Jinrong said.

"How so? We can't speculate. I said.

We wanted to push the door into the ward, but we didn't dare to make a mistake, so we had to wait at the door.

I don't know how much time passed, Xiong Yanfei's mother opened the door and came out.

"Hey, why are you still here? Didn't go back to class? Xiong Yanfei's mother said.

"We don't know what happened to Xiong Yanfei." I say.

"It's fine. It's calmed down. I wondered, Zheng Qihang, my daughter has always paid attention to you, she should be very happy when you come to see her, but who would have thought that she would have such a big emotion. Did you have any conflicts with each other? She was very calm and happy to see Yu Jinrong. Yu Jinrong said.

"Zheng Qihang, he ......," Mr. Yu said.

I touched Yu Jinrong's arm, "I'm sorry, I upset her." ”

"No wonder. Then you hurry back to class. When Yanfei is in a better mood, you can come and see her again. I still want you to make up for her missed class. ”

"I will. Then I'm gone. Goodbye, Auntie. I said.

"Goodbye, Auntie. This one? Yu Jinrong said.

"Anything else?"

"I don't know what disease Yan Fei has? It's been more than a month. ”

"It was an operation, so the recovery is relatively slow, so don't worry. Go back to school. Xiong Yanfei's mother said.

"Then let's go."

Walking out of the hospital and into the street, the street is bustling with activity, which is very different from the hospital.

The Main Street and the hospital are two very different worlds.

I broke up with Yu Jinrong. Yu Jinrong went to school, and I said I would go home. I really haven't been home in a long time.

But I don't want to go home, I just want to pace the streets alone.