However, we are no longer the simple us, we are no longer the same as the former us, we are no longer as white as a blank sheet of paper, we are the ones who have been separated for eighteen years, so we all have more or less emotional pasts.

Hao Junqi has been thinking about me, and she has always taken me as the center line of her feelings, but Qi Zhengzhe, who has taken care of her for nearly 18 years, is still in the hospital, although he is unconscious, but he is still alive after all.

From a medical point of view, strictly speaking, Qi Zhengzhe should have passed away a long time ago, and it is impossible to maintain it for six years, but from a spiritual level, it is very possible, because the spiritual pillar is the most powerful life force. And Hao Junqi is his spiritual pillar. Because, the moment he flew out of the motorcycle, the only consciousness in his mind was: he and Hao Junqi were going to get married.

I guess that it is this consciousness that is immortal, and Qi Zhengzhe is immortal.

Although no one can test this point, I believe out of thin air: it must be this consciousness that supports this Qi Zhengzhe.

After all, Hao Junqi still abandoned everything and wanted to enter the palace of marriage with him.

So, Qi Zhengzhe is still waiting.

And I, I have experienced too many emotional journeys, not to mention Wu Lianzi, not to mention Chu Huoyu, not to mention Ai Zhenzi, Xiong Yanfei and Ding Ying I have indeed loved, not only loved, but also unforgettable.

Could this be the knot of my and Hao Junqi's lover identities?

Also, Xu Mo and I got married absurdly, and the marriage lasted for two years.

Although Xu Mo and I are not married at all, "you have been married" is an indisputable thing.

Could this also be the knot of my relationship with Hao Junqi's lover?

Therefore, in Hao Junqi's nearly four-hour narration, I was only a loyal listener and did not tell a little about my past.

……

That night, no, it should have been the wee hours of the morning, I sat on the couch until I heard the door open. Then there was the sound of footsteps. Then the lights came on.

Xu Xiaorou walked towards me in her pajamas. The pajamas are already very old, and they look small when worn on the body, but Xu Xiaorou is reluctant to throw them away.

"What's the matter, uncle?"

I shook my head.

"Why don't you turn on the lights? Why Do You Sit On The Couch For So Long? Xu Xiaorou said.

"How do you know I've been sitting for so long?" I yawned. By that time it was already dawning

"When you open the door and enter the house, I hear a voice." Xu Xiaorou sat down beside me.

"Did I wake you up? I try to be as light as I can. I said.

"You always don't answer my phone call, so I'm always worried, and I don't seem to be sleeping."

"Oh, I've met the childhood friend I told you I hadn't seen in eighteen years."

"Oh? Is it my uncle's childhood sweetheart? Then you should be happy. Oh, by the way, it must be that the other party is married, that's why the uncle is so lost. Xu Xiaorou deliberately chattered.

"She's thirty years old." I say.

"Uncle should have expected that women who are already thirty will generally get married."

"No, she's not married. For some reason, I was even more sad to learn that she was not married. Actually, I don't care if she's married or not, what I care about is that I haven't been in all the things that have happened to her in the past eighteen years. For the past eighteen years, I have been a blank for her. Also, I don't know what to do next. "I can't tell you how sentimental it is.

"Uncle's mood seems to be complicated."

I nodded.

"Do you love her?" Xu Xiaorou looked at me. I noticed that she had bags under her eyes due to lack of sleep.

"I was thirteen and she was twelve when I broke up with her."

"You mean you were young, right? Have you read Stetson's "Retreat Notes"? ”

"I've seen it. Have you seen it too, Xiaorou? ”

"Hmm. It was bought by a classmate in the class, and he said he couldn't read it, but I liked it after reading the first chapter. Xu Xiaorou said.

"I watched it when I was in medical school. It is a very thoughtful novel, with many authors' life insights, which are too thick and many people can't read it. "I tell you what I think of this novel.

"Since you've read this novel, you should know that in this novel, youth begins at the age of nine. A nine-year-old boy would go out of his way to run a long distance for the sake of a nine-year-old girl, so that he could see his favorite girl dancing or singing on the balcony. Almost every protagonist's youthful budding begins at the age of nine, whether it is C, Z, or F. ”

"I thought that whether it was C, Z, or F, it was all Shi Tiesheng's imagination, and maybe Shi Tiesheng himself sprouted a love for the opposite sex when he was nine years old." I say.

"I don't think so. Writers often summarize a class of people. I also believe that many people have a tendency to love at the age of nine. ”

"The problem is that I don't have the same feelings as them. At the time of the breakup, I only thought that I would have to come to see her the following summer. ”

"You don't have it in your heart, maybe it has already sprouted in your consciousness. I think you told me that you wrote a love letter to a girl who looked like her in junior high school. ”

I nodded.

"This is proof that you have already sprouted love."

I was speechless.

Xu Xiaorou's analysis is not unreasonable.

Yes, if I didn't have a love for Hao Junqi, why did I write the letter that was pasted on the wall in junior high school? Why did I come to Yangjiang alone after graduating from high school and failing the college entrance examination, hoping to find out the news of Hao Junqi? Why did he have to come to Yangjiang to work despite his father's opposition after graduating from university, and because of this, his father's heart disease was induced? Why did I look for her again and again, and run from Hua'an to Yangjiang on the day I married Xu Mo?

Nothing has to be hidden, and there is no need to deceive yourself. Now, God has sent Hao Junqi back to me, and I ended my doomed marriage, doesn't this just mean that God wants to give me a chance?

Why do you need to think about this knot and that knot?

Don't even think about Qi Zhengzhe, who has become a vegetative person!

Putting everything aside, just looking at the reaction of the convex vows, you also know that it is inevitable that you will go to each other.

"What's the matter, uncle? Did I say it wrong? Xu Xiaorou pushed me.

"Ah," I reacted, "I'm sorry, I'm distracted." Hurry up and go to sleep, you have to study tomorrow. ”

"I'm still sleeping? Still tomorrow? Uncle, it's already dawn. I usually get up at this time. ”

That's when I noticed that it was already dawn. The light coming in through the window completely diluted the light.

"What's wrong with me?" I patted my head, "People are completely confused. ”

"It's because I'm too haggard," Ms. Xu said, "because I'm too excited." I suggested that my uncle hurry up and catch up on the two hours of sleep. ”

"Well, I'm going to sleep a little bit, and I'm going to work at eight o'clock. By the way, Xiaorou, in the future, when you encounter this situation, you must not be careful for me. We adults often have some socializing and often come home late. You see, you didn't sleep well at all last night. ”

"But if you don't come back, I won't be sure." Xu Xiaorou retracted her gaze and whispered.

"Are you still worried that I'm being trafficked?" I asked.

Xu Xiaorou shook her head: "I'm worried that you're drunk." Also, I don't think you're at home, so you can't sleep when you sleep. ”

My heart seemed to be touched by something, "Then I'll come back as early as possible next time." I went to sleep. ”

"Hurry up and go to sleep. I went to the vegetable market to buy groceries first. ”

"Good. Do you still have money to buy groceries? ”

"There are so many, who made you hardly eat at home."

……

When I got into the bedroom, I fell asleep.

I was woken up by the alarm set by my phone, and when I woke up, I couldn't open my eyes and my head was groggy, but I forcibly got up from the bed.

My first thought was to call Hao Junqi, pick up my phone, only to find out that I didn't exchange numbers with Hao Junqi last night.

"Then go to her house and say hello to her, have breakfast together, and then send her to work and back to the hospital." I thought to myself.

Walking to the door, I looked back at the dining table while I was putting on my shoes. Xu Xiaorou left a note on the dining table.

Xu Xiaorou wrote on the note: "Uncle, I went to school. Seeing that you are sleeping deeply, I did not wake you up. I cooked the porridge and remembered to eat it. Drinking too much wine and drinking porridge is the best. Don't forget. ”

I put the note in my pocket, but then I put it back on the table and hurried downstairs.

Drive all the way. In less than ten minutes, I arrived at the entrance of the alley where Hao Junqi lived. I parked my car and walked into the laneway.

Hao Junqi's door was closed, I knocked on the door, but no one answered. So I knocked harder, but there was still no answer, so I had to return.

I walked towards a breakfast shop. It was a breakfast shop that specialized in hot noodles. Next door to the breakfast shop is a bun shop. There are many people queuing at the entrance of the bun shop. This reminds me of the steamed bun shop opened by Qi Zhengzhe that Hao Junqi said.

Before I reached the door of the breakfast shop, I saw Cheng Wei and Hao Junqi sitting at a table together. Hao Junqi is feeding her daughter Hao Jia noodles.

"Brother." Cheng Wei saw me and greeted me.

Hao Junqi raised her head in response, saw that it was me, and said, "Brother is here." Jiajia, my uncle is here, hurry up and call my uncle. ”

Hao Jia sucked the noodles in her mouth and called her uncle inarticulately.

"Have you already ordered something to eat?" I asked.

"It's been ordered a long time ago. What are you going to eat? Cheng Wei asked.

"I'll order it myself." I walked over to the boss.

"Our money has already been paid." Cheng Wei reminded me.

I asked for a bowl of steak noodles and sat down across from Cheng Wei.

"You're so early." I say.

"I'll be there five minutes before you." Cheng Wei said, "Don't you think it's strange to see me sitting here? ”

"I was about to ask you. Well, I remember, you must have called Junqi when I sent Jin Limei home. It's really a good ghost. ”

"What the hell? I paid the price of blood to get the number. You asked Sister Hao, at first she tried her best not to give me the number. Cheng Wei said.

"Junqi's vision is right, how can a person like you give a number easily?" I say.

"Brother, let's laugh." Hao Junqi said.

"Brother, when he asked me for the number, it took me two years to give it to him."

"Really?" Hao Jia finished eating the noodles, and Hao Junqi came out to chat with us.

"Of course it's true."

"Listen to your brother's fools. It was two years later that he bought his phone and got the number. Cheng Wei said.