Xu was unwilling, Xu was an accident, in short, a year and a half later, she was pregnant again, this time, she fulfilled her wish, it was a daughter. The in-laws took one each, and Ah Xin took her youngest daughter: "She wants to take this granddaughter, but she is too young to take it, and she can't sleep at night." I'll just endure it, endure it until my child is older, I won't beg her anymore, I will see how she still bullies me! ”

Ah Xin was never called "mother-in-law", but only "that person", that person is not worthy of being a mother-in-law or an elder.

On this day, when the sun went down, I saw Ah Xin coming back from outside with the small one and the big one.

"Where have you been?"

"I went to the hospital, and my eldest son was electrified, and the person took the eldest son extremely perfunctory, with no intentions at all, not like a grandmother. The electric car was charged, she was too lazy to pull the plug, and told my son to go, a two-and-a-half-year-old child, I don't understand, a touch, was charged by the broken wire, wow a big cry, I ran out to see, my son's little knuckles were given electric purple. ”

She picked up her son's hand and showed it to Li Xiaocan, it was already bandaged, and she only saw the white bandage.

"Then I said to my mother-in-law, 'How do you take the child?' , my mother-in-law raised her eyebrows: "You have the ability to bring it yourself", I pretended not to hear, and hurriedly called a car to the hospital. There are so many things like this, my son has been injured in three days, and he used to fall down the stairs in a walker and his head bulged. Do you know what he feeds my son? Instant noodle! Popsicles! Melon seeds! This is obviously what children can't eat, she feeds it, poor child, no one hurts. ”

The child ran back to the room, and Ah Xin followed.

"Tell you to run! Tell you to run! Don't go over there! Can't you hear me?! Li Xiaocan turned his head and saw Granny Ah Xin holding the steering wheel of her grandson's toy car with one hand, and hitting her grandson's hand heavily with one hand.

Fortunately, Axin didn't see it, otherwise, it would be another war.

Li Xiaocan sits at home every day to recuperate, he is very bored, and he always sits at the door. I haven't seen Ah Xin for a week, and I asked on WeChat, "Where have you been?" I haven't seen you lately."

"I'm back to my parents' house"

"What's wrong?"

"I was kicked out"

"Ah, what's going on?"

"That person confiscated my husband's salary and left it to my brother-in-law, who came back with his girlfriend the day before yesterday and wanted to buy a house, she took all the orders my husband received, I asked her for it, but she didn't give it. When I took the child back home at noon, my father-in-law didn't even leave me a bowl of seaweed soup, he packed it all for her, and his family didn't even give me food. ”

Li Xiaocan also hugged Ah Xin: "Does your husband care?" ”

"He always told me to endure it, and I've been putting it up with it for three years, and I told him that he didn't believe that his mother would do this to me at all, and I took a video of him, and he also said, you can let her when she is old. They are a family, I gave birth to three children to his family in three years, and I was kicked out by her family. ”

Li Xiaocan knows what it's like to swallow her anger and be isolated, once a woman gets married, it is really pitiful to meet her mother-in-law, whether her mother-in-law loves her husband or not, she doesn't hurt herself, and she has no money.

Can't comfort her with anything: "Why don't you move out?" ”

"Who will pay for the rent and living expenses when you move out? My husband doesn't agree, he doesn't give me money, I don't have any money myself, and I can't take the child alone. ”

"And what do you do?"

"I want to go, but I can't, I can't let go of my child. I want to bring my daughter back to her parents' house, let my mother take her, and go to work by herself. But I don't have a diploma, I can only do an assembly line, the salary is too low, I can't raise a child alone, I don't have a license, I don't get a divorce, and I can't get any property. My son is at his house and I am worried about being abused. Poor children, I am sorry for them and let them suffer with me. ”

Who said children are meant to be tied to men? It's here to tie up a woman.

Axin's head is invisible suffering, and unswallowable grievances. It seems that women have come to this point and it seems that there is a difficult way out. into, unbearable; out, powerless to survive. can only live like a parasite, humble life, like dust on the ground, trampled and ignored, suffering and suffering in loneliness. The beauty of the former youth is gone, and in the trivial life, she has become a resentful woman who is becoming more and more depressed.

Li Xiaocan can't give any advice anymore, every family has a scripture that is difficult to read, whoever has the brains and ability to handle the chicken feathers of marriage well can be happy.

Li Xiaocan was lying on the bed, using an eye protector.

"I'm back." Zhang Gang said to Li Xiaocan.

Li Xiaocan responded with an "um".

The two went from being close to each other to having nothing to say. It's like someone who ruthlessly pulls out the hairpin between the two of them, and with a hard stroke, they are in their own world, separated from each other left and right, looking at each other from a distance, unable to understand, unable to communicate, and each of them is reasonable. One side is shouting loudly, but the other party can't hear anything, and still goes its own way.

Two people who loved each other at the beginning would be furious because of a little triviality, talking with guns and guns, just like the day in June, turning their faces when they say they will turn their faces.

used to be desperate to be with him day and night, but now day and night are relatively constrained. Li Xiaocan no longer cares if he works overtime, whether he has eaten, or whether he drinks water. And no longer dependent on him, you don't have to wait for him to come back to sleep.

Li Xiaocan feels that since no one cares, he should care more about himself, so why should he want others to be good to him. Life is nothing more than three meals a day. Eat enough by yourself, do what you have to do, don't get into trouble, read and practice calligraphy by yourself, and you can live well alone. She has to find all the things that were lost in her marriage one by one, sunshine, self-confidence, vitality, hope, dreams, she wants them!

Li Xiaocan began to miss the beauty of being single. wants to eat bibimbap and eat bibimbap, Zhang Gang is not used to eating half-cooked vegetables, but Li Xiaocan feels that fresh and crunchy are more nutritious; If you want to eat light, eat light, Zhang Gang likes heavy tastes, and has repeatedly said that Li Xiaocan stir-fried without salt, the taste is not delicious, but Li Xiaocan feels healthy; Put snacks on the bed when you want, buy any book you want, and watch any movie you want. This feeling of freedom is so good!

Li Xiaocan became silent from the previous arguments. Li Xiaocan lives according to the scope of each other's housework that was divided before, the two are more like cooperation, and marriage is like performing official duties.

Li Xiaocan did his job well and stopped talking. Zhang Gang asked, and Li Xiaocan replied. The atmosphere cooled down, and the once laughter turned into silence like gold.

The days were tormented in the Cold War, Zhang Gang didn't come to coax, and Li Xiaocan didn't ask for extravagance. Finally, Li Xiaocan felt that his feet were almost recuperated, and it was time to make some changes. If you continue to be so dull, you will be driven crazy.

"Today I received a call from Mr. Zhang, and she said that she welcomed me back." Li Xiaocan rubbed his eyes and said calmly.

"What? Do you want to go back? Zhang Gang asked. It is rare for two people to speak calmly, and Li Xiaocan cherishes it. But this kind of calm is not normal, it does not explode in silence, it perishes in silence, and Li Xiaocan is even more afraid of exploding, because she doesn't know if Zhang Gang will be violent because of his anger. Once violence occurs, she is not an opponent at all, and the consequences are unimaginable.

She just wanted to escape, to give each other time and space to think calmly. Hoarse and exhausted, too much energy and emotion, neither of them can convince anyone, neither thinks they are at fault, and each wants the other to raise their hands and surrender. Zhang Gang made Li Xiaocan succumb to it with his angry eyes and angry tone every time, but Li Xiaocan did not accept Zhang Gang's reasoning. The two of them were winless and undefeated, seesawing, raising the bar, and cold.

"It's hard to find a job here, and I'm not familiar with it, the salary is too low, my family owes more than 100,000 debts, and I want to repay the mortgage and car loan to raise a baby, I want to go back." Li Xiaocan tried her best to calm down her voice, and listed a bunch of objective reasons, she didn't know what she was hiding about, while secretly observing Zhang Gang, afraid that he would act in an extreme way.

"Have you thought about it?" Zhang Gang was unexpectedly not angry, perhaps also aware of the problems between them.

Li Xiaocan replied cautiously: "Director Zhang pays more attention to me, do familiar work, get started faster, I save money every month, spend 1,000 yuan per month, and save all the rest of the money in the card, and the card can be given to you." Save more money and pay off your debts earlier. ”

"And when do you want to go?" Zhang Gang asked.

"Today, Wednesday, next week. I want to go the day after tomorrow. Li Xiaocan thought about it, she was relieved on Friday, she wanted a free life, she wanted to get rid of this atmosphere of either war or silence and embarrassment.

"You think about it and go, but don't cuckold me!" Zhang Gang said viciously.

Xiao Can watched her former lover become so fierce, and her heart trembled secretly, of course she would not cheat. She no longer knew how to get along with the opposite sex, so she wouldn't be so stupid as to just run away from one man and throw herself into the arms of another, she just wanted to be free.

There was no farewell, Li Xiaocan got on the train back to W City alone, and he was not as excited as expected, but nervous. She looked back, and the red-lipped grandpa at the entrance of KFC was still showing his signature smile, and pedestrians were hurrying at the entrance and exit of the station, coming and going. Once she was here smiling and running to Zhang Gang's arms, running towards the happy life she was looking forward to. This city has become kind and warm because of its lovers. Looking at it now, everything is still the same, nothing has changed, but why is it so strange?

Looking at the city not far away, the lights are shining, and what kind of joys, sorrows, and sorrows are being staged in the lights of every household? The train "rumbles" forward, and the sound of colliding with the rails makes a rhythmic low sound. Li Xiaocan knows that he is moving away from the city, from his son, and from his own home - can he still call home?