(xxiv) I am not a faucet

Zhang Gang saw that Li Xiaocan was about to cry, and sat down next to Li Xiaocan softly to coax her. Li Xiaocan is an unscrupulous little girl in front of Zhang Gang, since Zhang Gang wrote Li Xiaocan's name on the house despite his family's opposition, Li Xiaocan knew that this man belonged to her, from the outside to the inside, and the heart and liver belonged to her. For his own people, it is okay to laugh and scold, Li Xiaocan can rely on his momentum to make him petty. The favored party naturally has privileges, and this favor was given to Li Xiaocan by Zhang Gang, and Li Xiaocan accepted it with peace of mind and used it as a matter of course.

After coaxing Li Xiaocan, Zhang Gang went to the company to work overtime again.

Li Xiaocan was cleaning up the dishes and chopsticks, and her mother-in-law spoke: "It seems that you can't find someone with the same personality, you have to speak softly, your temper has to be changed, your father said that you have a bad temper, this time, I have learned it, you have to change it, what you can do by yourself, don't look for him, he is very tired at work." You have to make the meal, pour the water well, and when he comes back, he won't quarrel with you when he comes back with hot food and hot water. ”

Li Xiaocan was stunned, oh, it turns out that the mother-in-law wants to find not a daughter-in-law, but a slave, to be able to take care of the baby alone and do housework, no, this is far from enough, but also to serve a good husband, serve her husband tea and pour water, you must have no regrets. Of course, Li Xiaocan knows that he is good to his man, and when he is pregnant, Li Xiaocan gets up early in the morning to cook, pinch a little to wake up Zhang Gang, and blow the steaming soybean milk cold before sending it to Zhang Gang's mouth. But this kind of goodness comes from the bottom of his heart, and it comes from the fact that he is pampered as a child, so he will be willing to be busy, and he will be satisfied when he sees Zhang Gang drinking the soy milk with his head up. But if it's done as a task, the meaning is different. Are you the Queen Mother? Is your son the emperor? Then I'm a concubine anyway, so I won't become a slave, but I also got pregnant and gave birth to a child in October, which is also a bit of a contribution. No, it seems that your son chased me back then, why can't I find someone like your son?

Although there are a thousand and 10,000 sentences that I want to blurt out, Li Xiaocan has the advantage of being the most common Chinese woman to inherit 5,000 years of humiliation and burden, so he swallowed the words alive and pretended not to hear them.

When Li Xiaocan first came into contact with her mother-in-law, she was attracted by her mother-in-law's quick hands and feet, and she laughed everywhere she went, and felt that her mother-in-law was better than her own mother, and every time she called her mother, it was from the bottom of her heart. Every time the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law talk about Zhang Gang, "my husband, your son" have a common topic, and they can talk about it all day, Zhang Gang's first 800 years and 800 years later, when he was a child, he wore open crotch pants and stole peaches from the next door, all of which were picked up. Li Xiaocan admired her mother-in-law's shrewdness and ability, and her 1,000 yuan to build a three-story small western-style building. Even when he quarreled with Zhang Gang, he said angrily, "I'll go to your mother!" I'm going to call your mom to complain! ”

Now it seems to be really self-inflicted. The harmony between the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law only lasted until the birth of a child. If it is said that what you see before marriage is the advantages of men, and what you see after marriage are the shortcomings of men, then this sentence is also reasonable to use on mother-in-law and daughter-in-law - before giving birth, what is seen between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law is the advantages, and after giving birth to children, all you see are disadvantages.

"Wow, wow, wow", the baby cried. Li Xiaocan saw that the baby's buttocks were red and swollen. The baby hurts so much that he doesn't let people touch his buttocks, and when he lifts his pants, he cries, and he also cries. According to the analysis of years of experience, the mother-in-law should have diarrhea in the baby, and the skin near the anus is broken due to too many times.

Li Xiaocan and her mother-in-law hugged the baby to find a doctor, and the doctor pushed the glasses: "The baby is easy to have diarrhea when eating breast milk, and the sugar content is too high." ”

Li Xiaocan thought carefully, could it be because he drank brown sugar water in the past two days? According to the habit of her hometown, she had to drink brown sugar water during confinement, so she drank a pack in two days.

As soon as I came back from the hospital, my mother-in-law instructed: "Throw away the milk and give the baby two days of milk powder to try." ”

Zhang Gang also squeezed her: "You bad mother! Poisoned milk! ”

Li Xiaocan smiled awkwardly.

After stopping breastfeeding for two days, the baby did not have diarrhea and everything returned to normal.

A few days later, the baby began to cry again at night, presumably it should be colic, just when the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law were helpless against the crying baby, Li Xiaocan suddenly remembered, "Did I eat tender pumpkin at night?" It is said on the Internet that tender pumpkin is flatulent, and gas can cause intestinal colic. But Li Xiaocan soon regretted his "reflection on his words and deeds whenever something happened".

The mother-in-law was angry: "I didn't eat anything during confinement, I ate black beans every day, and the baby wouldn't cry like this." Now that the conditions are better, they can eat everything, and they can't help but be jealous at all, which will cause the children to suffer! People, you must abstain from mouthing appropriately, for the sake of children, don't eat what you can! I don't know what you ate when you were pregnant, and the baby has a birthmark on his shoulder. Li Xiaocan didn't know what to say, just frowned.

"Milk out, baby drink milk powder for two days." The mother-in-law commanded again. Although Li Xiaocan was unhappy, he still obediently squeezed away.

A few days later, the baby cried for unknown reasons, and everyone couldn't sleep at night, Li Xiaocan saw the plate of braised pig ears with red oil left on the table, and wondered if it was because he ate four or five pieces for dinner. The mother-in-law's eyes also fell on the plate of pig ears: "You can't just try to be happy, you have to eat, only eat the tasteful, the baby hurts so much." Squeeze it and drink milk powder for two days. ”

The baby has diarrhea and is lost; baby colic, squeezing and loss; The baby's unexplained crying and squeezing; I accidentally ate a few bites of food that I shouldn't eat and lost it......

Again and again, Li Xiaocan's milk was questioned and denied like poison, Li Xiaocan looked at the milky white milk with a light sweet taste, the milk turned from her blood, the precious milk that absorbed the nutrients in her body, was squeezed and thrown into the dirty pool, like disgusting excrement, was treated as useless garbage, and was rinsed away, she felt pity.

I don't know if it's repeated tossing, and I don't know if it's related to emotions, when everyone accused Li Xiaocan of having a problem with her milk, her milk suddenly became less.

When the baby was hungry and cried, Li Xiaocan stuffed the nipple into the baby's mouth, and after the baby ate a few bites, he began to cry again. Li Xiaocan opened it and saw that there was no milk left, once a milk could make the baby drink a round belly, but now it is not enough to eat. The mother-in-law looked at Li Xiaocan with strange eyes: "Drink milk powder, it's not enough to drink." ”

Li Xiaocan's self-esteem as a mother was hit, and the time she enjoyed the most was breastfeeding. When the whole family felt helpless about the baby crying because of hunger, but as soon as it came to Li Xiaocan's hands, as soon as he held the nipple, he immediately quieted down, this kind of quietness can only be done by her Li Xiaocan alone, only Li Xiaocan, a mother, can do it, and it is useless for anyone else to coax her. Breastfeeding, the most natural, direct and instinctive relationship, this intimate and belly-to-belly relationship with the baby, shows that in this home, she is the closest person to the baby. Li Xiaocan likes to watch the baby lie in her arms and feed happily, and then fall asleep happily and contentedly. This feeling made Li Xiaocan experience the happiness of being a mother.

And the frustration of "you are a mother, but your child will not be able to feed" made Li Xiaocan extremely depressed.

When he was asked to express the milk for the fifth time because of the baby's crying, Li Xiaocan couldn't bear it: "I'm not a faucet!" What is it to drink when you want to, and to be squeezed away when you don't want to drink? I have milked too much milk and gone back! Once the milk returns, you won't have to eat it if you want to. Is it that easy for me to produce milk? ”

When the mother-in-law heard this, she put the baby next to Li Xiaocan, turned around and went out.

From the birth of the baby, it is the mother-in-law who takes on the responsibility of bathing, dressing, changing diapers and other technical tasks for the baby. Li Xiaocan played beside him, handed a towel, took a prickly heat powder, looked for clothes, rubbed dirty clothes, mopped the floor, took out the garbage, and flatteringly rewarded his mother-in-law spiritually: "Mom, you are really capable, the baby is so comfortable to wash, you see, the baby doesn't cry." Or change the phrase: "Baby, are you comfortable?" Grandma gave you a bath, and now I'm a fragrant baby! Li Xiaocan understands that although her mother-in-law is willing to take care of the baby, after all, it is my own child, and she should not trouble her mother-in-law to wash it.

Mother-in-law, as a person who has come over, of course she will wash, Li Xiaocan's first time as a mother is obviously not as skilled as her mother-in-law. But Li Xiaocan is willing to practice, but it takes time. Li Xiaocan didn't want to flatter her because her mother-in-law took care of the baby more, so she took the initiative to ask Ying to bathe the baby by herself: "Mom, you can rest for a while, this time I will bathe the baby, I also have to learn to wash it myself, and I will wash it when I learn to do it in the future, otherwise you will work too hard alone." ”

The mother-in-law handed the baby to Li Xiaocan, and as soon as Li Xiaocan took off the baby's clothes, the baby began to cry. Li Xiaocan's heart is horizontal, and he has to wash his crying! Hold your baby's head while watering with a towel. Maybe it's the wrong posture, which makes the baby uncomfortable, and the baby cries more fiercely.

Seeing this, the mother-in-law sighed and stretched out her hand to take the baby: "You are only suitable for being a wet nurse, the baby is uncomfortable bending over, I am anxious to look at it!" Wash so slowly, what if the baby catches a cold? ”

Li Xiaocan listened to her mother-in-law's words, and said in her heart: "With you, an almighty grandmother, what else can I do as a new mother?!" On the one hand, they blamed me for not doing this, and on the other hand, they didn't give me a chance to practice! Li Xiaocan's heart was extremely aggrieved, and she really wanted to ask her mother-in-law: "A daughter-in-law who has taken care of children and is very good at taking care of babies, do you dare to ask for it?" ”

According to custom, when a daughter gives birth, her mother's family will come to visit and give a sum of money.