(xxv) Pulling by the staircase
Zhang Gang bought a ticket for Li's father, and Li's father came as promised.
As soon as Dad Li saw the baby, he gave the baby a big red envelope, and said apologetically: "I wanted to give a little more, but I used a little bit of the round-trip fare."
After staying for a few days, Dad Li went back.
The mother-in-law poked her head and squinted: "How much did your father give?" ”
Li Xiaocan replied truthfully: "Eight thousand." ”
The mother-in-law pouted: "So little! Other families are giving 20,000. After a pause, he asked Li Xiaocan again: "If your brother marries a daughter-in-law, will you give money to the family?" ”
Li Xiaocan thought to herself, I am so poor that I can get the money to pay for my debts? Even if I give it, it's my own hard-earned money, and I don't need a penny of your money, what do I want to do with you?!
Since Li Xiaocan has been with her mother-in-law, she has developed a skill, that is, silence. In the past, at home, Li's father and mother would not criticize Li Xiaocan, and occasionally said a word or two, and Li Xiaocan would go back directly. It's different now, no matter what her mother-in-law says ugly, blameful, complaining, unfair, or unreasonable, Li Xiaocan can listen to it all, and she can chew it all up and swallow it until it rots in her stomach. It seems that this skill is not enough now, and it has to be upgraded again - camouflage.
So she reluctantly said "no", and her mother-in-law saw her reluctance, but it was not easy to persecute.
A few days later, Li Xiaocan forgot about this stubble, but her mother-in-law continued to ask her: "Do you give it?" ”
Li Xiaocan felt extremely awkward, but continued to hold back reluctantly: "Don't give."
One day, when her mother-in-law said that the daughter-in-law brought back 100,000 yuan, and the daughter-in-law brought three babies alone, and she was tired from taking the child and had back pain and leg cramps, Li Xiaocan thought, "I must leave this person!" As soon as you are out of confinement, leave immediately! ”
"Divorce!" The mother-in-law crossed her waist angrily and stood in front of Li Xiaocan, her right index finger stretched out, almost touching the bridge of Li Xiaocan's nose. Both eyebrows are about to rise upside down, "If you change your temper, you won't change!" Divorce! ”
Li Xiaocan was frightened and woke up, knowing that it was a nightmare.
Getting along with her mother-in-law made Li Xiaocan honestly afraid. She has become timid, she doesn't dare to answer the phone call of her mother's family in front of her mother-in-law, she doesn't dare to argue with her husband, and even when answering her husband's words, she has to avoid words such as "yes, should", and can only say "um, oh". Zhang Gang once said, "The whole family is the daughter-in-law, you are in charge", but now, don't talk about being in charge, you have to think about whether you should say a word.
She became inferior, in front of her mother-in-law, she didn't dare to bathe the baby, didn't dare to let the baby have a little scratch or mosquito bites, didn't dare to take care of the baby in a bright way, she was timid.
She has become sensitive and does not know what to do and what is not pleasing to do. She felt depressed and suffocated.
She hated being like that. What a confident and sunny girl she used to be, she was lawless in her mother's house, could quarrel with her parents, disobeyed their wishes and decided to marry Zhang Gang, and would take the initiative to do things in the company without letting the leader criticize half a sentence, but now, she has become submissive and flattering.
She didn't dare to say half a word to Zhang Gang about these feelings, it was not easy for Zhang Gang to repay the mortgage and car loan alone to support the family, and it was too pitiful for Zhang Gang to get involved in such a complex and delicate mother-in-law and daughter-in-law relationship. However, Li Xiaocan didn't know that even if he told Zhang Gang, Zhang Gang would not believe that his mother, who had always doted on him and loved him kindly, would do such a thing, so he couldn't understand Li Xiaocan's feelings at all. This point, in the future, Li Xiaocan will deeply understand. Counting on men to understand the relationship between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, counting on * on their own side, it is difficult, it is difficult to go to the sky.
The mother-in-law is still the mother-in-law, and she is still the same herself, only a few months, but why did she become such a contradiction after giving birth to a child? In fact, they are all trivial things, nothing more than a sentence, a look, I can't tell why, and I can't tell a red, blue, black and white, but it can just make the two hearts more and more farther apart. It's like a short fluffy hair that goes into your mouth, you can't find it, you can't spit it out, you can't swallow it, you just put it in your mouth, tickle and feel uncomfortable. Like stomach acid, it doesn't hurt either, you can eat and drink, but it's sour water, holding you back, making your internal organs uncomfortable.
You can't change it, you can only accept it. Li Xiaocan comforted herself, after all, her mother-in-law's starting point is for the good of the baby, compared to some mothers-in-law who leave it alone, and compared to some mothers-in-law who abuse their grandchildren, perhaps, I should be content.
Looking forward to the stars and the moon, counting with his fingers, he finally came out of the moon.
On the second day of confinement, my mother-in-law asked to go back to my father-in-law. The mother-in-law finally doesn't have to take care of this disobedient daughter-in-law. Li Xiaocan also regained his freedom. The two of them are separated from each other, and the world is peaceful.
After the mother-in-law left, Li Xiaocan returned to nature like a captive bird, crying when she wanted to cry, laughing when she wanted to laugh, saying whatever she wanted, losing her temper when she wanted to lose her temper with Zhang Gang, spoiling if she wanted to sit on Zhang Gang's lap, calling whoever she wanted, no need to hide, how to wash the baby as you wanted, no need to be afraid of someone pointing fingers, this feeling of pleasure and freedom, one word, cool!
However, this refreshing feeling only lasted for a few days.
The baby refuses to sleep in bed, and wakes up as soon as he puts it in bed. In order to support his family, Zhang Gang has increased the difficulty and intensity of his work in the competition for the position of manager. In order not to affect Zhang Gang's rest, Li Xiaocan shared a room with the baby alone. Li Xiaocan opened the superman mode of a person with a baby 24 hours a day.
Swing the cart with one foot and chop vegetables with one hand, hold the baby with one hand and stir-fry vegetables with one hand. Li Xiaocan was anxious, while the baby was asleep, hurriedly got into the toilet, and after a while the baby woke up and began to cry, she hadn't finished it, the baby cried louder, so she had to clean up and hold the baby and turn around and go back to the toilet.
24 hours need to be held by the baby toss so that Li Xiaocan can't be separated, can only take advantage of the baby's squinting for more than ten or twenty minutes, quickly eat, drink, go to the toilet, mop the floor, wash clothes, wash dishes, the baby successfully improved Li Xiaocan's efficiency in housework. Cooking a pot of noodles in the morning can deal with breakfast and lunch meals, if you can eat steamed eggs, you can eat fried rice, how to save trouble and how to come.
The baby has a red fart and can't go diaper. The one-month-old child has a lot of feces and urine, Li Xiaocan's basin of diaper water has not been poured out, "wow, wow" The baby peed his pants again, but it has rained in the past two days, and the clothes have not dried. Li Xiaocan looked at the bed full of urine and poop flowers, a pot of diapers to be washed, the baby was still crying with his bare buttocks, holding wet clothes in his hands, his sore waist that he hadn't slept well for a few days, Li Xiaocan's heart tended to be on the verge of collapse, and he roared at his husband who was cooking in the kitchen: "Husband!" Husband! ”
Zhang Gang's day was not smooth, the customer's requirements were quite high and his attitude was tough, the delivery date was temporarily advanced, and the products he worked hard to make, but the quality was out of order, and the backlog was in the warehouse.
Zhang just managed to get out of the burnt work, and when he returned home from work, he was so hungry that his stomach was full of sour water, and when he entered the kitchen, he saw a mess: two salivating flies flew by the side of the bowl of beating eggs, there was a ball of meat and blood on the cutting board, and there were dishes and chopsticks in the pot, with a layer of oil stains floating on them, and a lot of anger had accumulated in his heart. ”
"Hold the baby." Li Xiaocan said angrily.
"Won't you hug?" Zhang Gang looked at Li Xiaocan, who was bare-handed, and asked, "You will really block me."
"I want to take a hair dryer" When Li Xiaocan heard it, Zhang Gang not only didn't help her, but also scolded her.
"Then you're not going to put the baby in bed?" Zhang Gang didn't bother to listen to her explanation.
"Don't forget it." Li Xiaocan was so tired that he didn't want to talk anymore, and he was extremely disappointed.
Her heart sank, sinking into the ice cellar, and a chill rose from the soles of her feet, extinguishing Li Xiaocan's imminent collapse, and this chill went straight to Li Xiaocan's brain, turning into incomparable sobriety and sanity.
The man in front of him is not Zhang Gang. He's changed. He had once been able to stand all night to see her, but now he had turned a blind eye to her toil; He used to be nervous when he coughed at her, but now she was in dire need of help, but he stood far away and questioned and scolded; He used to be very caring and considerate of her, but now she has gone through pain to give birth to a child for him, but he yells at her loudly; Gone was the man who had tried to tell stories and jokes to amuse her, replaced by a strange, indifferent, unspeakable man who said a word, a grumpy man who pointed at her nose and yelled at her at every turn, a man who was inconsiderate of her situation. She's had enough of it all. Not to mention the fatigue of taking a baby, a strong mother-in-law made her unbearable, and the only Zhang Gang who could be relied on was also so violent.
Li Xiaocan was desperate, she didn't say a word, silently wrapped the baby in a blanket, picked it up and walked out the door. She didn't know where she was going, she just knew that she was going to leave the person in front of her.
"Where are you going?" Zhang Gang looked at Li Xiaocan, who had walked out of the door, and asked loudly.
Li Xiaocan didn't seem to hear it, and was still walking towards the stairs.
"You come back to me!" Zhang Gang strode out and grabbed Li Xiaocan, who was already stepping on a step.
Li Xiaocan turned his face and burst into tears. The child in his arms also seemed to feel the angry quarrel between the two people and began to cry.
"I'm leaving, I regret it, I regret it......" Li Xiaocan cried uncontrollably and couldn't cry.
"Don't go!" Zhang Gang pulled Li Xiaocan and dragged him back, Li Xiaocan had to go. Between the pulls, Li Xiaocan stepped on the air, lost his balance, fell down with a "grunt", and rolled down the stairs. rolled down the stairs with Li Xiaocan, as well as a child who was only a month old in swaddling clothes.
Zhang Gang was stunned, and Li Xiaocan screamed "ah" and hit the wall, bounced back before stopping.
The child lay on the ground and did not cry, but the swaddling clothes spread out and fell on the ground not far away.