When Zhang Gang heard this, he clenched his fists angrily: "Li Xiaocan, shut up!" That's my mom! My mother's mind, if you don't take it, forget it, and scold her viciously, you are really bold. ”

Li Xiaocan looked at Zhang Gang's posture of clenching his fists, he didn't dare to say more, and he went down again, but he was afraid that Zhang Gang would get up again, and the hero would not suffer the loss in front of him, Li Xiaocan suppressed his anger, he was silent and sulking, and he was about to suffocate himself from internal injuries.

"Xiaocan, the doctor said that he was allowed to be discharged!" Zhang Gang hung up the phone and said to Li Xiaocan excitedly.

Li Xiaocan was also overjoyed, and clasped his hands together: "Amitabha, thank God, thank you to the doctor, it's been a month, and the baby can finally be discharged from the hospital!" Li Xiaocan became excited and wanted to send a pennant to the hospital that saved his life.

At six o'clock in the afternoon, the mother-in-law came back in a taxi with the baby in her arms.

Zhang Gang opened the trunk and took off the luggage of the large and small bags.

Li Xiaocan limped to take the baby, happily. Looking at the pink baby, Li Xiaocan couldn't put it down.

"Mom, you see how much Xiaocan loves the baby, she will hold it as soon as she comes back, and she won't let go of her meal." Zhang Gang and his mother-in-law were eating. Li Xiaocan hugged the baby and kissed the left and right, making the baby giggle.

"Not really! As soon as the baby cries during the confinement, she is very annoyed, and she doesn't want to feed the baby at night," said the mother-in-law.

Li Xiaocan only listened and didn't say a word. Looking at the baby waving his little hands, there was a sour feeling in his heart - does the baby still recognize me as a mother?

"Wow, wow, wow" The baby cried, and the diaper turned blue. Li Xiaocan squatted in the luggage of the large bag brought back by her mother-in-law from the hospital, looking for it.

"There, the innermost compartment of the backpack." The mother-in-law was chewing the vegetables and directed.

Li Xiaocan limped to the backpack, opened the zipper, and reached in to dig it out.

"Wow, wow, wow", the baby can't wait and cries impatiently. Finally, at the bottom of the bag, I took out a diaper. Li Xiaocan hurriedly wrapped it. The baby finally stopped crying.

Li Xiaocan looked at the baby's bright eyes in his arms, and he couldn't love it in his heart, touching the baby's little hands and feet over and over again.

"Wow, wow, wow", the baby cried again, and ate with small hands.

"The baby is hungry." The mother-in-law took a look at it, took a piece of meat and put it in her mouth.

Li Xiaocan limped around in his bag again, and after a while, he pulled out the bottle. I reached out again, touched the can of milk powder, and pulled it out vigorously.

The bottled water at home has been drunk and has not been delivered. Li Xiaocan picked up the kettle and boiled the water.

The baby has been crying for a while and continues to cry heartbreakingly.

The mother-in-law put down the bowl and picked up the baby, and the baby stopped crying.

Li Xiaocan soaked milk: "Mom, you go eat, I didn't eat a good meal in the hospital, I'll feed it." ”

Li Xiaocan held the baby in one hand and shook the bottle with the other, pouring it into the palm of his hand from time to time to test whether the water temperature was suitable. I poured it a few times, but I didn't see the milk come out. The baby began to cry again, Li Xiaocan was in a hurry, so he could only shake it hard, but he didn't expect the milk to "brush" all of a sudden, and it got on the baby's clothes, and the "wow" baby cried even more fiercely.

The mother-in-law couldn't see it anymore, and sighed, "Alas! Put down the bowl and come over to pick up the baby: "I'll come!" Li Xiaocan embarrassedly handed the bottle to her mother-in-law, and stepped aside.

"Mom, Xiaocan misses the baby, this time I will go to Dad's with you, it will be better for you to take care of the baby together, I can't be busy here, Xiaocan's feet are not good, you may not be able to eat here." Zhang Gang has made arrangements.

"Okay," the mother-in-law said, as if she remembered something, "Or I and your father will take the child in the future, and go to work when Xiaocan's feet are better, anyway, the baby won't eat milk now." ”

"Okay, you have experience, and you can bring" Zhang Gang hurriedly replied.

"But if I take care of children, I won't be able to make money, my family has not paid off more than 100,000 yuan for your marriage before, and you have to pay back this debt." The mother-in-law said again.

Li Xiaocan was dizzy and didn't know how to choose between taking care of the child and paying off the debt. More than 100,000 yuan, according to the current situation that she and Zhang Gang are even borrowing medical expenses, the car loan and housing loan milk powder diapers are estimated to take three or five years to pay off.

Two to one agreed to this decision. Li Xiaocan, there is no choice.

After the meal, the mother-in-law went to wash the dishes, Xiaocan played with the baby, the baby's lotus-like little arms shook excitedly, and Li Xiaocan was amused by the baby's cute appearance. I haven't been so happy in a long time.

"Oops, the house is so dirty, the walls of the toilet are moldy, the water in the bucket is smelly, and the toilet is dirty! I brushed hard with a brush and wiped hard with laundry detergent to wipe it clean! It's so dirty that it grows bugs! The mother-in-law said, "The house should be cleaned up and ventilated more, otherwise it will be too dirty!" The mother-in-law rubbed her waist, "I'm more tired here than in the hospital!" ”

Looking at his injured leg, I don't know what my mother-in-law meant, Li Xiaocan felt uncomfortable, and the feeling of sincere fear came again.

Li Xiaocan returned to the room and whispered to Zhang Gang: "Zhang Gang, I don't want to go to your father's place, my feet will be healed soon, I want to come back to work, I don't want to run again, I get motion sickness, you know." ”

Zhang Gang returned to the living room and said to his mother, "Mom, Xiaocan doesn't want to go to you, and I don't want to go either." ”

Li Xiaocan only hated Zhang Gang for not being tactful, and hurriedly helped: "Mom, I have to go to work in a week or two, and I have to run back and forth, forget it, I won't go to save the road fee, and I will work hard for you to help take care of the children." Li Xiaocan squeezed out a flattering smile.

The mother-in-law's face fell, so she didn't say anything more, and was silent for a while: "Well, then I'll take the baby over." It's getting dark, too. ”

Looking at the car going away, Li Xiaocan felt all kinds of tastes in his heart. Yes, she was afraid, she retreated, even if she was reluctant to give up the baby and wanted to accompany the baby, but when she thought of getting along with her mother-in-law day and night, that kind of restrained and depressed feeling, she never wanted to experience it again, she was afraid that she would be depressed.

"Zhang Gang, can't you be tactful when you speak?" Li Xiaocan felt uneasy when she thought of her mother-in-law's gloomy face before she left.

"How tactful? You didn't want to go in the first place. Zhang Gang closed the door.

"Don't you see? Mom is not happy, you can explain a little, and then I won't go. Li Xiaocan was afraid that her mother-in-law would feel uncomfortable.

"What can I do if you want to make her unhappy, no matter how tactful, as long as you don't go, she will be unhappy." Zhang Gang doesn't care about so much.

"Is it because I want to upset my mother! Zhang Gang, you make it clear. When Li Xiaocan heard the accusation, he was more wronged than Dou E.

Originally, I quarreled with her in the hospital. If the baby finds a daughter-in-law in the future, who is more than 20 years younger than you, and quarrels with you in public, will you be happy?! ”

"Who am I upsetting about? I'm still not happy, who has considered whether I am high or unhappy, as soon as your mother comes, it is dirty here and dark, tired here and painful, what do you hear about your feelings? Doesn't that mean I'm lazy? Say I don't like to clean up? ”

"You don't like to clean up in the first place, my mom is telling the truth."

"Zhang Gang, if my foot hadn't hurt, would I have made my family look like this? If I'm disabled, who of you will care about me? Do you think I'd like someone else to say it? Originally, the baby was discharged from the hospital, and I was very happy today, but I don't know why when your mother came, I felt cramped! I really don't like to hear what your mother said about me. If my parents say the same thing about you, will you feel comfortable? ”

"Li Xiaocan, what's wrong with what my mother said about you, it's all the truth and you don't let people say it? Did your parents say I said less? Black, skinny and short! You know how much it hurt me? I always dream, your mother thinks my family is poor, thinks I have no money, and forces us to divorce, which of us is hurt more?! ”

"Well, since this is the case, everyone can't stand it, and they are all forced to divorce, so it's better to separate. Since everyone doesn't want to live a good life, why should I wronged myself and seek peace in the world! ”

Li Xiaocan didn't want to explain anything to Zhang Gang anymore, she couldn't express the panic and helplessness in her heart, let alone let him empathize, and she couldn't untie the knot left by Li's mother to Zhang Gang. She only felt tired, she desperately wanted to leave, she had enough, after marriage, she had already restrained her temper a lot, and every time she quarreled with Zhang Gang, she would stop in moderation. And this time, she couldn't take it anymore. She can't figure it out, in this marriage, the once fiery relationship between him and her has been consumed by increasingly trivial trivialities, the mixing of parents on both sides, and the cruel reality. Marriage is like a labyrinth, she goes around and around in it, can't find the direction, and life is like a puddle of mud. In getting along with this man who is already a stranger, he is consumed and lost, he is responsible for his obligations, filial piety, he is tied up by money, and he can't move.

As she walked, in the reflection of the window of a small car, she caught a glimpse of a scruffy middle-aged woman—bloated, with a pile of fat on her waist, and the sleeves of her pajamas rolled up high and hanging low, like a farmer. Wearing old slippers, showing a few toes, his hair is scattered and draped, and his bangs are uneven, sticking to his forehead, like a refugee; There were vegetable leaves between his teeth, and his slightly swollen eye bubbles were full of troubles and sorrows.

It's not me! She hates herself like that! She finally became a vulgar shrew who fought for the shortcomings of her parents, a middle-aged woman trapped between her husband, children, and mother-in-law. A sorrow rose from the bottom of her heart like smoke, and her eyes were confused.

She limped and walked hard, ignoring Zhang Gang's call behind her and not caring about the frequent sideways glances of passers-by. She shed tears as she walked, not knowing where she was going, she was penniless and had nowhere to go.

She hated herself for being the way she was, why she was hurt, a burden to others, blamed by others. She didn't know how life had come to be like this. She has always been arrogant, but she has never felt that life is so embarrassing.

The wind blew through his face, carrying with him the heat of the day. The red neon sign grows larger and blurs in front of the eyes until it shrinks in the water light and becomes clear. In the droplets of water dripping from the spectacle lenses, the magnified fences and pedestrians, the gray-brown asphalt road, there is no end in sight. Li Xiaocan limped and walked.