"Yes, how beautiful the beginning is, how bleak the ending is." Sister Wang smiled bitterly, put down the straw, leaned back in the chair, and said slowly, "He went to a construction site in the south after graduation, and I was still in school, and we started a long-distance relationship." But it was okay at that time, I had friends at school, and I went to class one day, made phone calls, slept and went shopping with my roommates, read novels, and time passed quickly. He came to see me once every two or three months. I started from the day I knew he was coming, and I made a mask every day, counting down. On the day he came, I got up early in the morning, put on beautiful makeup, put on beautiful clothes, blow my fluffy hair, spray on fresh and elegant perfume, and clean and bleached myself beautifully. I went to the station early to wait for him, he came to the festival, and my roommates laughed at me, it was so grand like the emperor's sacrifice, so I had a fast meal. ”

"Haha, girls in love are all so devoted." Li Xiaocan listened to it and felt the same way, wasn't she like this before Zhang Gang came?

"I was very happy when he came, he took me to eat all kinds of delicious food, took me to play, I was most touched by the fact that he once went to Suzhou on a business trip, bought Suzhou's specialty pastries, and temporarily went to Shanghai on a business trip, he carried a box of pastries around on his back. On the way, he was so hungry that he couldn't eat. Getting in the car, getting off, transferring, plane, getting into a taxi, he carried the pastries he bought for me around and brought them to me thousands of miles away. Sister Wang said this, there was still a faint smile in the corner of her eyes.

"What a beautiful memory!" Li Xiaocan couldn't help but sigh.

"I planned that year, when he graduated, I would go to him and be with him." Sister Wang was immersed in memories, as if she was still the little girl who was addicted to love back then.

"Did you go, then?" Li Xiaocan couldn't wait to listen.

"The ideal is very plump, the reality is very skinny, and after graduation, I realized how desolate his working environment is. His construction site is very remote, there is not even a road, I went to look for him, bumpy along the way, reversed the car several times, and finally took a local farmer's motorcycle, only to find it. He lived in a prefabricated house, the conditions were very difficult, the dormitory was a collective dormitory, and the room was chaotic and there was nowhere to stay. In addition to the mountains and deserted villages near the construction site, even high-rise buildings are rare, so I naturally couldn't find a job near him. Sister Wang said it vividly.

"You're still in a different place." Li Xiaocan gently clasped the marble dining table with his fingers. A beautiful saxophone sounded, quite lazy and leisurely.

"He promised me to marry me if I made a sum of money, and told me to wait two years before he changed careers and came to me. Both of us have average family backgrounds, both are ordinary people in rural towns, and his parents are not in good health and have not saved much money, so we can only rely on the two of us to get married. ”

"Yes, it's not easy."

"I got a job in the city where the university is located, and I just came out at that time, 3,500 a month, without food or housing, and I still feel quite satisfied."

"I just came out like this, and I only got 2,000 a month for my first job internship." Li Xiaocan smiled.

"We continued to live in different places, and as soon as we went to society, I realized that life was much more difficult than I imagined, and it was much more complicated than university. I'm a newcomer, I'm supported by old employees, and the master who took me doesn't want to teach me anything, I rely on my own exploration, and I will be scolded if I don't do things well. I was wronged and told him, and he told me to bear with it, saying that it was like this when I just graduated. Okay, I'll bear with it. Later, I rented a house and met a strange roommate, who owed water and electricity bills and didn't pay, and the trash can was full and didn't fall, I talked to him, and he told me to bear it. When I graduated, I just entered the society, and I had a lot of discomfort. A girl is isolated and helpless, he is the warmth and pillar of my life. With his comfort and encouragement, I felt that life was not so difficult, but he only said a few words at a time. After a long time, I am almost like a resentful woman. If I told him, he would say, 'What can I do?' I don't want you to do that', alas! ”

"Long-distance relationships are hard."

"Two people are not on the same channel at all. Do you know what one of my most hated words is? Sister Wang asked.

"What, bear with me, is this it?" Li Xiaocan guessed.

"'Drink plenty of hot water.' Every time I came, my aunt was in pain and died, and he said to drink more hot water; I had a cold and cough, my throat hurt and I couldn't speak, he said to drink more hot water; I am weak and afraid of cold, I sleep in winter, and my feet are still cold in the morning, he said to drink more hot water. Drink plenty of hot water to cure all diseases. "Sister Wang still has a grudge.

"Haha, it's good to drink more hot water." Li Xiaocan felt funny, but after laughing, he felt a little sad.

"But I'm so stupid, I should have felt that there was a problem at that time, and I should have solved it, instead of blindly looking for the problem from myself. I have been comforting myself that he is very busy, too far away, he is very tired from work, don't trouble him, I should be stronger, I want to be his strong backing. ”

"You're not stupid, you're kind."

"I'm kind, what about him? I told myself that it would be good to stick with it for two years, and after two years we would be together, and there would be no problems. At that time, we were more than 1,000 kilometers apart, and we met once every two or three months to once every six months. As soon as we met, we were very good, and there were only the two of us left in the world, only to eat, drink and have fun, and not to think about anything. The memories of just a few days are my motivation and spiritual pillar. All I have on my phone are pictures of him. His round-trip tickets, the ticket stubs for us to watch movies together, and the receipts for our meals were all kept by me and made a collection, which I plan to make as a souvenir when I get married. At that time, two years was the goal, but then gradually he said that it would take three years, and it was not easy to mix on the construction site, and the money he saved was too small, so I waited. Soon, he said five more years, and then, it was far away. My heart slowly cooled down, and I became more and more suspicious of the value of this relationship. ”

"Sister Wang, you are very careful, and you still leave so many memorials."

"Now that I think about it, I feel so stupid, I may be used to being in a different place with him, I feel like I'm in love with my phone, it's better to be single than single. Whenever I have negative emotions, I have always been optimistic to enlighten myself to open up. Once I went to buy groceries on the street, and on the way back suddenly I saw a man in front of me, * dressed and with messy hair, I realized that he was a madman, and remembered that a madman does not have to bear any responsibility for hurting people, so I quickly jumped to the side and wanted to stay away from him. Suddenly, my right leg was hit so hard that I was lying on the ground and the food in my hand flew away. When I turned around, a man hit me on a motorcycle, and I was embarrassed to cause trouble to others, and he also yelled loudly, 'Why don't you have eyes!' Suddenly turning around and don't know what to look behind? I apologized again and again, and he rode away quickly, and when he was gone, I realized that I should have taken him to the hospital for a check-up. My leg hurt a lot, and I had a bone headache inside, and I moved to the side of the road and sat on the side of the road for a long time before it didn't hurt so much. I limped looking for food. I live on the third floor, it is not convenient to climb the stairs, and I have to go to the hospital for a check-up. I had to go to work the next day, I was very helpless, shouting that every day should not be yelling that the ground is not working, I called her, do you know what he said? ”

"Hey, there are inevitably some accidents in life, have you been hurt? What did he say? ”

"I'm fine, no bones, but it hurt for days, a palm-sized bruise, and it took a whole month to go away. I paid for the filming myself, which is nothing, what is more painful than a leg injury is his attitude. He asked lightly, where is the injury? Then he began to blame me, I knew that I was also at fault, but the other party caused the accident and ran away, and he only said that I was stupid, and did not blame the other party for the hit-and-run behavior, like an indifferent passerby. There are too many little things like this to say too much. Maybe feelings are like this, it's not a vigorous and singable event, but it's this kind of trivial thing, accumulating over time, more and more disappointments, and feelings are slowly deteriorating and depleting. ”

"Alas, I don't feel that he cares about you." Li Xiaocan sighed.

"But at that time, I was obsessed, I don't believe that the relationship for more than a year has deteriorated and faded, and I am still looking forward to marrying him. After the injury recovered, I wanted to improve our relationship, so I quit my job and ran to his province to find a job in the city, 40 kilometers away from him. Although it is still a long place, after all, it is much closer, I am satisfied, we see each other more often, and he is also a little nicer to me. I want to marry him, maybe if I get married, I can save my relationship for the rest of my life, so that he will no longer be cold and hot to me. At this moment, I found out that I was pregnant, and instead of the surprise he imagined, he had a trace of impatience, and when I proposed marriage, he began to dodge. I was so angry that I wanted to beat the child out several times, but I was reluctant. I never had the courage to entangle and argue with him, after all, I still had expectations for him. When it dragged on for two months, he suddenly agreed to get married. ”

"Why?" Li Xiaocan was surprised.

"I was very happy at the time, thinking that he had figured it out, so I took a leave of absence and went home with him to get married."

"Is that the end?" Li Xiaocan was very curious, and stepped forward to ask.

"As soon as we got home, I found out that his dad had had a stroke, and in order to reassure him before leaving, he agreed to get married. No matter what he thinks, I am satisfied to be able to agree to get married and give me and my children an explanation. ”

"Why are you so humble?" Li Xiaocan was so angry that he wanted to slap the table.

"To like someone is to be humbled to the dust. Whoever loves me and him more, and who loves more, will be hurt more, just like the two parties are pulling a rubber band, and the one who is the most reluctant to let go is injured by the one who let go in advance. Sister Wang looked at the sleeping child and continued to add water to Li Xiaocan's cup.