"Woman, it's infatuation, you typical infatuated woman meets a negative man." Li Xiaocan picked up the cup and took a sip, but he couldn't taste anything.

"My parents disagreed, thinking that his family's conditions were not good, my father died, and my mother couldn't make any money, and they were afraid that it would be too hard for me to marry. But I couldn't listen to it at the time, and they couldn't help it, so they agreed for the sake of the children. After a simple banquet, we went back to the south, he went to work at the construction site, I didn't want to be pregnant and alone, I wanted to go to the construction site with him, he said that I couldn't endure hardship, didn't let me go, I should live better while pregnant, I listened to him. When it rains, the prefabricated house will leak, and when there are dirt trucks driving by the construction site outside, it feels like the prefabricated house is shaking and will collapse at any time. ”

"It's not a good environment for pregnant women."

"It really didn't fit, so I went back to work in the city. Everything is a person, a person in the car, a person to go to the prenatal checkup, a person to and from work, the first three months I vomited very much, I couldn't eat anything, there was no taste in my mouth, I wanted to vomit when I smelled the smell of oil smoke, I lost several pounds, but he told a few words on the phone, 'You have to eat more or less, for the sake of the child'. I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night hungry, and when I told him, he blamed me, is that an exaggeration? If you don't eat during the day, it's no wonder you're hungry at night. Seeing other pregnant women with their husbands, I was very envious, and I really wanted him to be by my side. I offered to go to him again, but he stopped me, and finally said that he didn't want to lose my free life because of me. He thinks it's good at the moment, and he won't quarrel with each other when he meets occasionally, and he won't get tired of each other. ”

"You're pregnant, he's responsible, he's a father." Li Xiaocan compared his pregnancy and felt that Zhang Gang still cared about his feelings.

"I'm tired, thirsty, hungry, I'm in a bad mood, it's all on my own. When I asked him when he would end his life away from home, he didn't answer. The more I chased, the more he wanted to run. I hate living alone, there is no difference between having him and not having him. ”

"It's so strong to be pregnant alone." Li Xiaocan felt that whoever married Sister Wang was really happy and never caused trouble to the other party.

"At 20 weeks, I had frequent contractions, went to the hospital to protect the fetus, he asked for leave to accompany me, he poured me water, fed me, wiped my body, took care of me meticulously, I think it is good for a lifetime, and I am very touched by his kindness to me." Sister Wang clenched the cup with both hands, as if she wanted to rely on the quilt to keep warm.

"He's hot and cold to you, good and bad for a while, I really don't understand what he's thinking?"

He gave me a little sunshine, and I remember it firmly, so as to ignore all the bad things he did to me, maybe it has something to do with my personality, I haven't been in a relationship, and I don't know if other girls are like me. ”

"Of course it's different, you're too sensible, too well-behaved, and you carry everything yourself."

"I have to be strong with him, if I can be a young lady, whoever wants to be a female man is forced. In the middle and late stages of pregnancy, I was hungry fast, and eating fast food at work was not nutritious, so he said on the phone, you need to eat something nutritious yourself, buy something delicious, of course I know. Say a few words and move his mouth, but in fact, he didn't pay anything at all. When I was six months pregnant, I went to the vegetable market to buy meat by myself, and it had just rained, and the ground was very slippery, so I walked over carefully, but I still accidentally fell. Because the belly is big, the center of gravity is unstable, and it leans backwards. Fortunately, I held it with my hands, and it was the meat that flew out. The aunt who passed by next wanted to come and help me, but I didn't dare to help, I got up by myself, the aunt helped me pick up the meat, the bag was broken, the aunt helped me pack the bag and handed it to me, I was very moved, and thanked me repeatedly. When I called him, I thought he would drive to see me, after all, it would only take half an hour, but he said that he was busy and asked me to pay attention to myself. I was already emotionally broken down at that time, I was very careful and careful, there were chairs in the bathroom, I was afraid of falling down; Those who walk up the stairs hold on to the handrails. Now I have nothing to eat, and I have to go to the hospital for a check-up, and I am blamed by him for being alone. Compared with other pregnant women's panda-level treatment, it is as precious as a national treasure, and I, who is worse than calling Hanako, sat on the side of the road, especially crying regardless of the image. I think the strange aunts are better than him. Fortunately, the child has a big life, and I have a big life, but my hand is broken, and there is nothing serious. ”

"It's really frightening, you have encountered so many things, and he is not by your side, what is the use of you wanting this man?" Li Xiaocan was indignant for Sister Wang.

"I'm too forgetful, I let him be in control, let him go in and out of my heart. One time I fainted in the office at work, and my colleague took me to the hospital, it turned out that it was malnutrition that caused low blood sugar, and as soon as I said it was okay, he didn't even come. I felt that the baby in my belly was my own and had nothing to do with him. When I was eight months pregnant, I felt that I couldn't be alone, otherwise I wouldn't have anyone around when I gave birth, and if I had cramps and sat on the ground, no one would help me up, so I had to quit my job and go to his house and live with my mother-in-law. Fortunately, I met a good mother-in-law, my mother-in-law stewed soup for me to drink, covered me with a quilt when she slept at night, treated me very well, washed my clothes and took care of me, much better than her son treated me. I no longer complained in front of him, all his expectations for him, his mother fulfilled them one by one, accompanied me for prenatal checkups, and the two of them crossed the road cautiously, like mother and daughter, which is one of the few warm memories I have with him. ”

"I'm finally a little lucky, and it's rare to have a good mother-in-law." Sure enough, there are thousands of kinds of people, each with his own life.

"When I was nine months old, I was itchy, my neck and back were full of red spots, the red spots were swollen after scratching, I went to the hospital to check, the doctor said cholestasis, to take out the child as soon as possible, so I had to have an early caesarean section, I signed the operation sheet myself, looking at the rows of life-and-death risks, I trembled, if I died, would he still be so indifferent? When I was pushed out of the operating room, how I wished that he could stay with me outside the door, how I hoped that he could give me the strength to accompany me through the most painful and critical moments. It wasn't until I was discharged from the hospital on the fifth day that he rushed back to see me, if it wasn't for his mother's presence, if it wasn't for my lack of strength in pain, I really wanted to fan him, he wouldn't come when I gave birth, what else would I want him to do? Sister Wang was still angry when she said that he was still angry, and the hand that grabbed the cup trembled slightly.

"If you don't meet a good man, how much hardship does a woman have to suffer."

"I really want to get a divorce, but I can't bear to have children, the child is so young, how can he grow up in a single-parent family? The thought of my daughter put the thought of divorce down. ”

"Then after he has a daughter, has he been nicer to you?"

"Hmph", Sister Wang sneered in her nose, "Dogs can't change their-eating nature, he is as indifferent as before, my mother-in-law and I have children, and he only sends me some money." When the child was sick, my mother-in-law and I took it to the hospital, and the mother-in-law with rheumatism ran up and down. In my life, he only played the role of sending living expenses on a monthly basis, a string of cold numbers, and all the hardships of raising children, needless to say. ”

"I understand you, having a child is a difficult time, and the first three months after giving birth are also difficult, which is not easy."

"In fact, I can endure these, let the days go forward in a daze, hope turns into disappointment after a long time, disappointment will become despair after a long time, despair will become numb after a long time, I have no expectations for him, my heart is like stagnant water. I only have a daughter who is growing up day by day, which makes me happy. Sister Wang turned her gaze to the daughter next to her, her eyes full of tenderness.

"Jiang Bao, very cute, well-behaved and sensible, very much like you."

"yes. When Jiang Bao was more than a year old, I happened to find a message in his mobile phone that he sent room numbers to other women, and I was confused. I wrote down the number, called him when he wasn't looking, and in a few words, I knew that she was a young lady, and he recruited a prostitute. Sister Wang looked at the remaining red cabbage wrapped in a little salad dressing in the sand table and said calmly.

"Ah, why is he like this?"

"I just realized that he always didn't want to be with me, always wanted to be in a different place, always wanted to be free, that's what I was referring to, I felt disgusting at the time, how did I have a child with such a child, I asked him, didn't you once say that Miss is dirty, don't you even touch it? He was silent and didn't speak, so I quickly divorced him. After four years of youth and dedication, I only got one child and a mere 20,000 yuan. But I just wanted to leave, I just wanted to end it all quickly, I didn't think too much about it at all, I should slap him a few times, relieve my anger and leave. I moved out of his house with my daughter. Poor my mother-in-law is in her 50s, separated from her granddaughter. I said that if she wanted to come to see her granddaughter, she would be welcome whenever and wherever she wanted, just don't let my ex-husband get closer to my daughter again, I feel sick to vomit just thinking about him. ”

"Maybe it's a good thing to get rid sooner."

The strange thing is that when I learned the news, the word divorce naturally popped up, without a trace of entanglement and hesitation. I felt like I was numb, and the divorce might have been hidden in my subconscious, but I didn't find it myself. It is said that a cheating man is like dropping money in the toilet, continue to use it, I feel disgusting, I don't need it, and I feel a pity. But I don't think so, there's nothing to be sorry for. My mother-in-law begged me, but I didn't relent, and I resolutely wanted to leave. He may have contracted this habit a long time ago, but I never noticed it, so I thought it was too risky to be away from home. The general environment is there, there are too many temptations in this society, no more than before, one person guards each other, never abandons each other for life, and is bound by moral concepts. Now it is much more free and open, and the risk of cheating and divorce is also large, but the cost is very small. Sister Wang's eyes dimmed, and the dim light cast a shadow on her face.