The days went by, and at first, I didn't have the time to realize it, but one day, I accidentally noticed that the blue desktop I had been using began to be mottled, and then I realized that the first time I had it was the summer vacation when I was twelve years old.

Maybe time will really dilute a lot of things, I still remember clearly that that summer, I was in the hospital in Bincheng, almost every day when I woke up, I had to think about Uncle Shen's headless unsolved case, and I had to find a place with my second aunt to analyze the situation of my parents together, and I was very anxious every day, and I felt that I could suffocate to death if I couldn't figure it out.

But as soon as I returned to Baishan Village, these things seemed to be left forever in the city with the sea along with the two railroad tracks that could not see the momentum.

At the beginning, I would talk to my second aunt when I was fine, and even when Xiaoliu asked me if I had seen Lu Xingyue in Bincheng, I would say twice, of course, I lied, I said that I had never seen him, the city is so big, where is it so easy to see, because I don't want Xiaoliu to know how embarrassed I was when I fell.

As soon as school started and the days were on the right track, I just wanted to ponder these things, I was very tired, because I couldn't touch them, it felt very far away, and I never dreamed of Uncle Shen again, and my mother still had no news for a long time like before, and so did my father, I think, he should have gone abroad, my daughter, for them, may be really dispensable.

The most unexpected thing is my relationship with Li Xue, because of the little white leather shoes, in fact, I can't tell who took advantage of it, wishful thinking, she feels happy, I am also happy to pick up two years of leisure, as the primary school class president, in addition to the desk, she has been very conscientious to check my homework in the most foolish way, and then arrange the most relaxed duty for me, and even, I have become a seemingly good friend.

I have to emphasize, it just seems, she has some style I really don't like, I always think of grandma said that she is shallow-eyed, she wants to be friends with me, I know, that's because she knows that I have parents in a big city, maybe in her eyes is still good, otherwise I can't have nice stationery and school bags.

Conservatively estimated, during the two years when we had a good relationship, she took away one of my pens, five or six pens with small stuffed animals, two hard-shell diaries with combination locks, and countless stickers, erasers, and correction fluids......

Because although my mother didn't come back, but in the next few years will mail me something, after I get the school, she will keep touching if she likes it, I am a person who pays attention to equivalent exchange, you like, you can, let's change, is it to write a homework, or to help me sweep the floor, I am relaxed, she is happy, so the two of us are quite harmonious.

This relationship has been maintained until the graduation of primary school, junior high school is not so smooth, junior high school in the town, riding a bicycle for about half an hour, her father asked her to live in the school, and I would rather go to and from school on the road to spend a point than live in school, plus not a class, two years of friendship is very natural to part ways, but it is not necessarily not to meet and not talk, not salty and not light, than when she was a child, she saw me inexplicably hummed much stronger.

Looking back, it's also true that a friendship based on material things is not worth scrutinizing.

And the reason why I don't live in school is also very simple, I have to see my grandmother every day, and there is an unspeakable thing is my body, sometimes you have to use the student bathhouse in the school, it's okay in winter, who doesn't wash once a day in summer, it's inconvenient for me to take a bath, I don't want to wash with everyone, and I don't want everyone to know that I don't have hair.

The hair is a big problem for me, I even secretly asked that Mingyue if I had time to take me to the county to see, I was afraid that I had some unknown disease, after all, I think the development of this body in all aspects is still very normal, although it is not as exaggerated as Li Xue's two water balloons, but at least I observed that I was similar to most of the girls in the class, but when I accidentally saw their armpit hair when they raised their arms in the summer......

When I look at myself again, I immediately get nervous, and I always feel that being too fair is a kind of disease that kills me every minute.

"Oh, you're not a problem, I asked, white spots are not good, white spots are advantages!"

That Mingyue didn't look nervous for me when she saw my dad back then, "A hundred covers and a hundred ugliness, this is what other little girls dream of!" ”

I was anxious, "I'm not white, I can't be white without hair, aunt, do I have albinism?" ”

I remember the surname Lu mentioned this disease, so when I realized that it might be a disease, I was really afraid of being told by his crow's mouth!

Na Mingyue raised her eyebrows, "I asked about people's diseases, it's not that there is no hair, it's that the hair is white!" And all over the body, even the eye hair, the hair is white, snow-white, you see what you look like except for the white flesh and skin. ”

I looked at her with a chattering face, "I also have to dye my hair, once every six months." ”

"Tsk!"

Na Mingyue threw down the work in her hand and looked at me, "You are gray, do you understand, gray hair, not white hair, then that white disease is snow-white hair, whiter than paper!" Relax, your grandmother said that you are this life, and your life is like this! In addition to finding a partner in the future, you have to work hard to pull a hard life, and nothing else will delay you! ”

I accept that my life is hard, but I can't accept that I am too much with the public, which makes me uncomfortable, I am troubled, Xiaoliu came in from outside the door, I don't know how much I eavesdropped, and I opened my mouth to open my mouth against the male duck in the voice change period, "Mom, don't listen to her, the fourth sister is showing off in disguise, you don't know how many people chase her school, people say that her only drawback is that her hair is short, if it is longer, it will be perfect, people give the nickname Seven Little Flowers, and what is called her hiterose......"

"Get out of the way!"

As soon as I interrupted him, this guy began to jump up and down quickly after he was in the second year of junior high school, and he looked like a big monkey, and I saw him go from a silly boy who wanted to be a boss of the underworld and knew how to play 4x4 to a poor boy who liked to disassemble household appliances and play basketball game consoles.

Although he has always boasted that he will be the Einstein of Baishan Village in the future, but none of the things he dismantled can be installed, but brainstorming to invent a solar flashlight, but that thing can't be used at all, solar, you have to use it against the sun during the day, who is sick and still play a flashlight during the day, which makes the family panic for a while, as long as he looks at a few more household appliances, the bright moon will immediately get a chain lock, for fear that he will be scrapped!

That Mingyue giggled and couldn't stop giggling after hearing this, "What shredded meat?" Witt shredded meat? What do you mean! ”

Xiaoliu gave her the whites of her uneducated eyes, "It's a white rose!" ”

Na Mingyue pouted, "I don't like roses, pierce that thing!" ”

"Yes!"

Xiaoliu looked at me with frowns, "Isn't it just a prick, my evaluation of my fourth sister is only six words, northern girl, special tiger!" ”

"Xue Xiaoliu, you can endure it for a long time, right?"

I glanced at him without smiling, and turned my face to look at Na Mingyue, "Second aunt, I have something to tell you, your future daughter-in-law, it is very likely that she is a sick seedling, she ......"

"Fourth sister!!"

Xiao Liu was shocked, and immediately made a zipper movement on his mouth and kept shaking at me, "Wrong, I was wrong!" ”

I gave him a white look, a little sample, I can't cure you anymore, when I love to say, you said that he has a spring heart and learns to write love letters to those boys chasing girls, just forget it, but the one he likes is in our class, I am not familiar with the girl for three years in junior high school, it's not that my popularity is not good, it's that she is on sick leave for half a semester, it seems that she has some heart problems, can't run, can't jump, I'm white, she's pale.

What I can't understand is that some of the girls in the class are still very envious of her, and they also want to have a heart attack on their heads, not to mention that the disease is the disease of the TV heroine, and with this disease, you don't have to worry about Prince Charming.

I'm different from them, I'm very sympathetic to that girl, of course, I'm afraid that I don't have a problem with sweat and hair, but it's also because it's very uncomfortable to look at that girl's pale face and purple lips, and I'm afraid that one day I won't be able to live like that, but Xiaoliu, this guy also asked me to send love letters, and told me not to peek, I promised to be good, and as soon as I turned around and found a place where no one opened, I looked at a line, and I couldn't stand it.

"Ah, my little Lin Daiyu, my whole body hurts when I don't see you for a day......

I almost wanted to beat Xiaoliu to the point that my whole body hurts!

This is more disgusting and cheap than what other boys write to me! As for the result, hehe, I just remember that Xiaolin Daiyu asked for sick leave the next day.

"What do you mean?"

That Mingyue seemed to have just reacted, "Why did I find out that you two are talking in the wrong way!" Why do you junior high school students know who to engage in now! Let you go to school to get a partner! What's going on! The two of you said one by one, Bao Si, did you do it! ”

"Second aunt, what do you mean, no! They were all afraid of me. ”

I replied impatiently, and glared at the culprit again, yes, it's useless to let you talk nonsense!

But there is one thing that Xiaoliu said is not wrong, that is, my tiger, no matter what angle I think about it now, I feel that my brick is right, first of all, no child in Shangtang dares to bully us.

My big name is like thunder among children, and secondly, this matter has also spread since I was in junior high school, and the guy spread it amazingly, saying that I dared to kill people at a young age, and it was not an ordinary explosion when I was in a hurry, and some people even gave my character a nickname, called Gas Can, funny, no, I was speechless after listening to it.

Anyway, it doesn't matter what I look like, at least everyone knows what kind of temper I have, and the note is the note, but I haven't met any stalker, but this may also be due to the fact that everyone is still very simple at the age of the beginning of love.

"Little Liu! You! What do you mean by what your fourth sister said!! ”

Xiao Liu stood there with his eyes down, his tone revealing a trace of perfunctory impatience, "Oh, I didn't do it either, I just wrote a note, and people didn't reply, and I never came to school after that, so it's just a little thing." ”

Na Mingyue glared, "What are you writing about, exciting people don't come to school anymore!" ”

I suddenly couldn't hold back my laughter, I really wanted Xiaoliu to read that love letter, and I promised that my second aunt would make him unable to get off the kang for a few days.

"No, it's because she's not in good health and has a heart ......"

"You can, you! You're quite positive about studying two hundred and five objects, is heart disease a trivial matter! You're still provoking people! I'll tell you, don't say you're not old, you're just old, and if you look for a partner, you have to find me a normal body, otherwise I won't agree to die! Tell me about the two of you, you're about to take the high school exam, and if you don't study together, you're making all this nonsense......"

"I haven't done any of this stuff, I'm not in the mood."

I seriously interrupted my second aunt's words, "I won't go to high school now, I'll be at home after graduating from junior high school, take care of my grandmother, and I won't go anywhere." ”

"Fourth Sister ......"

Xiaoliu was stunned, "You can study at least, don't you don't study, I definitely won't be able to get into high school." ”

I bit my lip slightly, "It's not that I don't want to read, I want to see my grandma's situation, anyway, there is no age limit for studying now, I'll wait for my grandma's body to stabilize before going to school." ”

When I went to high school, I had to go to the county, then it wasn't a matter of pedaling a bicycle, my grandmother's illness recurred when I was in the second year of junior high school, I didn't go to Bincheng that time, my second uncle took us to the city for an examination, the doctor said that grandma's postoperative control for four years has been good, and the survival rate of more than ten months is generally low.

I didn't even think about it at the time, so I said that I would send my grandma to the United States, find my dad, and use the best medical means to heal me!

The doctor looked at me and shook his head, "I know the feelings of your patients' families, from a medical point of view, I know that foreign treatment methods will be very advanced, but at the same time, this economic amount is also unimaginably huge, and going abroad for medical treatment is not just about going to go, for ordinary people, just some procedures, you need to wait for a long time."

Secondly, for this disease and the actual age of the patient, my advice is not to continue to toss her, this lesion metastases very quickly, and in the world, it is also a problem that has not been overcome, what you have to do is to be mentally prepared at any time. ”

I remember that I didn't even have any strength after listening to it, although I knew that I was talking urgently, and it was impossible to say that I would send my grandmother out of the country, but I was really afraid, I was afraid that my grandmother would go like Sister Chaoyang's grandfather, and leave like that.

When I walked out of the doctor's office, I saw my grandmother smiling at me, she said that she was very satisfied with picking up her life for a few years, so I could rest assured, I had to wait until I was an adult before she left, otherwise she was afraid that I would not be able to take the black mother, and she was not finished, so she was not at ease.

It's my grandmother's words that make me extremely afraid of being eighteen years old, so I thought about it, I will be at home after graduating from junior high school, anyway, I go to school a year later than the average person, and I am not afraid of a few years later.

"Bao Si, listen to me, you have to go to school, didn't you say before that you still have to take the university entrance examination or something."

I looked at my second aunt and nodded, "I'm going to take the university entrance examination, and my uncle also said that my study of culture does not conflict with being a gentleman, and learning is also a way to broaden my horizons, but I can't read it now, I want to accompany my grandmother, that's it." ”

"It's okay, your grandmother is taking care of her at home, she ...... now"

"You don't understand."

I interrupted my second aunt softly, "I'm just afraid, I know that grandma will stand tall and wait for me for a year, but I'm still afraid." ”

"No, your grandma will definitely make it to college!"

"I touched ......"

"What did you touch?"

I sniffed hard, and my voice trembled uncontrollably, "There is something on her spine, like a glass ball growing under the skin, several, I touched it, it is a metastatic tumor......"

Many times, I don't want to let myself sum up these things, I know, just like Sister Chaoyang said, to be strong, what I can do is to accept, I have even thought of countless ways to extricate myself, thinking that I am not immortal, one day, I will also leave this world, I and my grandmother are just a brief breakup in the long river of years, and later, we will meet below.

However, I will still feel uncomfortable, I always think, if at that time, grandma will miss how many moments of me, if I really become a big gentleman, then the people I want to share the most are grandma and grandma, but grandma left in my ignorance, all my sustenance, there is only grandma left.

"Fourth Sister ......"

Xiaoliu looked at me trying to enliven the atmosphere, "Hey, let's talk about Xiaolin Daiyu again, I heard my classmate tell me about seeing her the day before yesterday, that guy is still fluttering, why do you think I think she is with a fairy spirit, hey!" Fourth sister!! Don't think about it, you'll only be eighteen next year, and grandma can at least ......"

"Little Liu! I'll sew your mouth shut while you're talking!! ”

I turned around and left the back room directly, and when I walked into the yard with my feet up, I saw at a glance the swing hanging on the crossbar that had been raised several times by my second uncle, this is the time, I have been growing taller, so the swing is also high.

Walked to the front yard, King Kong lazily lying there, in the past two years it has become more and more not moving, although there are outsiders at home it will also star, but I listen, I always feel that its roar has a lot more powerless bluff.

I don't want to admit that it's old, so I always try to tease it, and occasionally lead it out for a walk, but it doesn't go far, it has to lie down to rest, I hate this feeling, I will hold the rope hard, and tell it, go, go!

But it just can't walk, I know I'm not disgusted that it can't walk, I'm just afraid, I didn't have any friends in my childhood, and some, it's just a few relatives in the family who can be counted with one hand, of course, you have to add King Kong, at least, it's my earliest and most loyal friend, it has never disliked me for being a fool!

There was a time when I went crazy to my uncle's to gnaw on the book, not for anything else, but to find a way from the book that could make people or animals not get sick and not die, I knew that I couldn't please Xian'er, and I couldn't rely on Xian'er, I had seen it from my grandmother, so I wanted to find Taoism, but my uncle looked at me and just shook his head expressionlessly, "People are suffering, do you have to think about what she pursues is wrong in itself......"

I was not convinced, "Uncle, you can help grandma, right?" If you have so much ability, why don't you go down the mountain to help your family and stay here, aren't you selfish! ”

My uncle looked at me indifferently, "What should I do to be considered unselfish?" ”

"If you have the ability, you are selfish if you don't save people! You tell me about your kindness, but you don't save people! Don't save your own family! ”

That was the first time I quarreled with him, to be exact, but I was blowing it myself, and my uncle still didn't react as usual, bowed his head and continued to read, "I can do it, I will do it, but I should accept it, I don't reject it, I don't resist, let it be." ”

I felt that my uncle didn't understand me, so he looked at him very broken, "Aren't you afraid of your family leaving, I'm afraid!" I'm afraid my family will leave! I hate that I'm the only one left in the end!! ”

The uncle sighed softly, "My heart has its own bright moon, and the eternal reunion will never be missing." ”

I held back my tears and watched him nod, "Uncle, I really don't understand what you said, I want to take them to heart, but I can't do it until the last moment!" I can't watch my grandma die, now I just want to find a way, find a way to get grandma to stay with me for a few more years! ”

My uncle was not answering, and I didn't know what to say, so I put down those books and ran down the hill with my feet up, but when I crossed the Jizui ditch, I saw Chen Blind, I was not in the mood to greet him, but he heard my footsteps and stopped me, and it was also on that day that I accidentally knew the story of my uncle.

It turns out that the uncle has not always lived in the mountains, in the words of Chen Blind, in terms of understanding, he is far beyond his grandmother, and because he is very young, he will use techniques such as Qimen Dunjia, and he is famous in his teens, because at that time, the Xue family was not defeated, he was naturally sent out by his grandfather to study around with the glory of the family, and I heard that the uncle also went to Hong Kong at that time, because he could be given space to study feng shui formations, and stayed there for many years.

It wasn't until he came back in the early 60s, in the words of Chen Blind, that he was not blind at that time, and he watched my uncle enter the village with a suitcase in his hand and an English suit.

Chen Blind said that there was some emotion, "My life is your uncle to save me, at that time he glanced at me, and said that my eyes have seen too much yin house, there are yin and evil, not to help point points, otherwise, within a year of blindness, within three years, the soul is scattered, I didn't believe it, to be honest, at that time, I saw your uncle dressed in a foreign head, I feel that Mr. can wear like him, we have to wear a coat, your uncle was also in the prime of life at the time, he said not to believe it then make a bet, as a result, I don't need to say, you also see what I am now, I am blind." , also responded to his words, in order to save his life, he will never look at the yin house again, now, just get some yellow finch hexagrams, and eat with a mouthful of food. ”

"What about Grandpa Li, why did he ...... too?"

Chen Blind shook his head and smiled bitterly, "He is too poisonous in his mouth, although capable gentlemen like to cut straight with an iron mouth, but he is also really guilty of tongue, he used to be the most dissatisfied with your uncle, because Lao Li is very powerful, you were born with a life that he directly wore at the door, your uncle said that he would eat a big loss on his mouth sooner or later, he was not convinced, and criticized your uncle's life and said that he was ambitious in his early years, and he was miserable in middle age, and he had no wife and children all his life, and he was lonely and helpless......"

"The result?"

"The two of them sat there and counted each other, and they were all right."

Chen Blind seemed to be immersed in the scene of decades ago and couldn't extricate himself, "It's just the first fulfillment of your uncle's calculation, when Lao Li gave a person to see things, that is, he said it too bluntly, offended others, people wanted him to recalculate, where did he care about that, saying that there was no back and forth calculation of the order, the more he calculated, the thinner it became, and the result was that the family was a violent temper, blinding his eyes, you said, isn't this just a mouth, and a mouth is lost." ”

"Where's my uncle!"

"He ......"

Chen Blind couldn't laugh, and faced the mountain with some sadness, "He was beaten by the wave a few years later, he had a chance to go, but your grandma was married and had children at that time, a large family, it was very troublesome to walk, he couldn't let go of your grandma, and he didn't agree to leave by himself, the people at that time were red-eyed, I don't know who reported it, saying that your uncle was a spy and a traitor, so he was tied up and taken up the mountain, and I and Lao Li together, but the three of us, the worst is your uncle."

They lit cigarettes on the ground, lit them and inserted them into the soil, inserted five or six in a pile, and then asked your uncle to step on them, saying that it was a rocket that went to the sky, tortured him and fainted, and asked him to explain, and he didn't say anything if he could explain anything, because the three of us had a good relationship, so they beat me and Lao Li, took the whip and kept whipping us, and asked him if we were his comrades.

It stands to reason that the three of us were cleaned up by those people in shifts, and your uncle could still have time to rest for a while, but your uncle couldn't stand it, so he admitted that he was a traitor and a spy, saying that he had no comrades, but just used the two of us, but the two of us didn't know how to lift up and didn't divulge the secrets he wanted, so he also hated the two of us, and when people beat us, he applauded, saying that he would beat us to death, and he would relieve his anger when he beat us......

I couldn't imagine it, and asked in a trembling voice, "After that." ”

Chen Blind wiped his tears with his hands behind the black lenses, "The two of us were naturally taken down and sent to the shed to work, blind, I can't see it, even if I do some work, but at least I don't have to suffer, but your uncle is miserable, I heard that all the tricks have been used, and the people who came down also asked each other what kind of tricks they had, saying that his mouth was too hard to pry open, and others said that he would pull out his teeth, open his mouth, knock it with an iron hammer, knock it out, knock it out, and he said it, if he didn't say it again, he would pick up his pants, heat up the iron stool and let him sit, and sit twice to be honest......"

I couldn't bear it and began to cry, "Grandma, where was my grandma then, why didn't you save my uncle." ”

"How to save it, most of our people in the village have not escaped, your grandma and grandma are parade streets every day, go to the next village, I heard that adults and children are throwing things at them, spitting, beating them, saying that they are cows, ghosts, snakes, and gods, the only thing your grandma is stronger than your uncle and grandfather is that she has never left the village, so the gang didn't catch her up the mountain, I heard that few people from other villages can survive, your uncle is not dead, even if it is a big life......"

"Later, my uncle didn't go down the mountain like this?"

Blind Chen nodded, "In the end, the tide passed, saying that the investigation was clear, and we followed your grandmother to find him, but your uncle said that those years were like experiencing countless lives and deaths, and he saw that everything in the world was nothing he wanted, and in this life, he stayed there and didn't leave, which can be regarded as responding to Lao Li's words, without a wife and children, and lonely and helpless."

I and Lao Li's life, he saved, if he hadn't changed his tone and saved us in disguise, otherwise, we two blind people would have been there, counting, he saved me twice, those sins, really not people, people in those years were really like crazy, I don't dare to say, your uncle, really not afraid of life and death, before we went down the mountain, how much it hurts, he laughed and exhaled until he fainted, I and Lao Li, what I admire most in this life is your uncle, arrogant and free, from him, we see it is true. ”

The cry in my mouth made a hissing sound because of excessive forbearance, and I immediately began to blame myself, how can I scold my uncle for being selfish, what qualification do I have to blame my uncle!

"You still remember the year you were born, it's strange to say, you were born before the waterlogging, but after you were born, the village began to drought, and the crops had no food to eat, so they all starved to death.

He set up a formation at the mouth of the forest, we couldn't get in, so he shouted outside, saying that it was too dry, let him help find a way to ask for a rain, a total of three shouts before and after, but we just finished shouting, Lao Li heard thunder, just walked down the mountain, it rained, before and after the two of us counted, exactly three, it was considered to make everyone tighten their belts that year, you said, your uncle's ability is not great? ”

I looked at Chen Blind with a pout, "But didn't you tell me, that was restrained by me, you always liked to talk about me when I was a child, I was ...... about this."

Chen Blind took it for granted, "You think it's not your business, your life is not ordinarily hard, White Tiger Star, of course I'm going to beat you, who knows that your girl will make me suffer when she comes back, looking stupid, in fact, the most refined is you!" But I also have something wrong, you say that I always have something to do with you as a child, no matter how sad I was that year, didn't I come over, don't you be angry with grandpa. ”

I shook my head, although he couldn't see it, "Where would I be angry with you, when I didn't open my mind, I got into too many troubles, you said that I deserved, but I didn't expect that my uncle had done so many things before, I misunderstood him, I thought that he didn't care about his family, and he only had himself in his heart......"

"Which is, he is a kind of detachment after despair and great sorrow, otherwise, ordinary people are tortured and abused by him is not crazy but also full of hatred, you will have a future to be promising, the first thing to thank your grandma, is that she has been protecting you, protecting you, the year you were born, your grandma arranged dozens of people just to arrange the hall, just to recruit you for virtue.

The second thank you is that your uncle, you can survive, I am sure that he also gave your grandmother a way, as for what, then I don't know, but sure he won't ignore it, so many years, although he doesn't go down the mountain, but your grandmother will look for him when there is a big event, he is your grandmother's eldest brother, where will he not care about his family! ”

I didn't continue to listen to the rest of the words, I only remembered that I was crying and running frantically towards my uncle's residence, and when I ran into the house, I saw my uncle watering the little orange tree, so I cried and knelt down to admit my mistake, "Uncle, I was wrong, I will never talk nonsense in the future, I am not good, I know that grandma's illness can be used in all the methods, I should not use words to hurt you, you forgive me, don't be angry with me......"

Uncle smiled lightly and pulled me up, "Choosing words shows that you are anxious, you are anxious, you just feel powerless, the more this is the case, the more it means that you can't let go of your family, although the way you express it is wrong, but the heart is good, it means that you know how to raise and understand kindness, I understand, how can I blame you." ”

I was crying that day and I couldn't speak, just looking at my uncle's face that seemed to have seen all the vicissitudes of life, in addition to self-blame, or self-blame, he is my most respected elder, how can I hurt him with my own selfish desires, wrong, I really feel that I am very wrong!

I cried for a long time, until the sun was about to go down when I wiped away my tears and told my uncle that I wanted to go down the mountain, and now I can't live here, I have to look at my grandmother every night, and I want to say sorry again, but I feel that the language is humble and weak, where will my uncle care about me I'm sorry, what I can do is to prove myself with practical actions, and try to read his books in the room, so as not to disappoint him.

When I left, my uncle only said to me gently, "Bao Si, if you become a big thing, you must calm down first, if your heart is messed up, it is small that the exit hurts people, and it hurts the overall situation." ”

I stood at the gate of the courtyard and looked at him as if he didn't understand the nod, before leaving, he still knelt down and kowtowed to him three times, one day as a teacher, a lifetime as a father, but I was disrespectful to my teacher, and my words were mean, if it wasn't for my uncle's tolerance, wouldn't I regret it for life!

The memory was slowly withdrawn, I touched King Kong's head and exhaled softly, meditating, it is the two words that my uncle taught me, I want to force myself to accept it for more than a year, and even, when my grandmother called Li Jianguo to fight the coffin in advance, I still held back my emotions to play against Uncle Li, I was afraid that he would not live well and fool us, so I went to the backyard where he worked after school to take a look, even the wood, I chose it with one hand.

Originally, I wanted to use Jin Sinan's, for these things, I think it was influenced by the surname Lu, when I gradually became sensible, I always like to go to Uncle Li to set this knowledge, occasionally go to the county, but also go to the antique city a street around, I know that Jin Sinan as a coffin is the best one, so at the beginning of the grandma secretly to Li Jianguo to discuss the coffin for herself, the first thing I said to the past was to ask for Jin Sinan's coffin!

Grandma was shocked, she thought she was doing what I didn't know, I endured my emotions and looked at my grandma very calmly and said, I know that she is preparing to put on old clothes, and even in the family except me and Xiaoliu, everyone knows what grandma is preparing, just like the departure of grandma back then, in reality, since the result can be predicted, then no one wants to be at a loss.

I said, I can accept it, grandma, leave it all to me, I have grown up, I am not so fragile.

Grandma looked at me with tears in her eyes with a smile, and kept nodding, "Okay, grandma's four treasures can think like this, then grandma is relieved to go, really relieved!" ”

Li Jianguo was playing a round next to him, he said that ordering a coffin is actually nothing, people in ancient times were booked in advance, not only did not make mistakes, but also had the effect of rushing to joy, the coffin was wealthy, and the southerners also had to make small gifts!

I couldn't listen to him, I just pretended to be calm in front of my grandmother, but at night, I lay down on the kang, and I always wanted to cry unconsciously, but I didn't dare to cry, for fear that Xiaoliu would hear and ask me, in the morning, I would get up like no one else, day after day, waiting for that, the eighteen-year-old I didn't want to face.

Li Jianguo asked for 20,000 ta, saying that Jin Si Nan was a precious wood, and the ancient emperor only used it when he died, because my grandmother was an old neighbor, so he gave a discount, 20,000 ta, saying that there was no such price anywhere.

The second uncle was naturally surprised, saying that the price was too high, and the family had been empty for treating grandma all these years, where could they take out 20,000 yuan, but the second uncle didn't dare to say no, behind my back I heard him discuss with Na Mingyue that this time he really had to carry the money, which was the last thing that could be done for my grandma.

But I stood up, and I said, "Change to red pine, not golden silk." ”

Li Jianguo was a little impatient, "Bao Si, it's you who said Jin Sinan, why do you want to be red pine again?" ”

I looked at him seriously, "Uncle Li, don't be deceived, Jin Sinan is very expensive now, I heard that the big material is very small, a few days ago, I asked the landlord's uncle to inquire in the county, he said that he knew a big boss who was doing logistics when he left, he sent it with Jin Sinan's coffin, guess how much?" ”

Li Jianguo's eyes rolled, "That must be more expensive than what I did!" I'm giving you a neighbor's price! ”

I nodded, "Yes, the so-called bed is not separated from seven, and the coffin is not separated from eight, since the size of the big coffin is about the same, but its golden silk nan cost more than 80,000 ...... Uncle Li, don't make a coffin upside down......"

Li Jianguo didn't move, "What do you mean, you don't know that the varieties of Jinsi Nan are different." ”

I smiled, "It's different, but the gold wire is the gold wire, once it is confused by what big leaf nan, or camphor wood or something, it's not good, it hurts feelings, after all, we spend the price of golden silk nan, so I think, it's easy to suffer a big loss by taking advantage of a small advantage, or the red pine of the insurance point, I used the red pine when my grandmother left, I think it's very good, you say." ”

Li Jianguo was a little angry, gritted his teeth and looked at me and snorted, "You are the owner, naturally what do you say I did!" ”

After speaking, he turned his head and left, indignant as he walked, "I've been a carpenter for so many years and let a little girl give a lesson!" ”

The second uncle felt that it was inappropriate, "Bao Si, you said that we wouldn't make the family ...... if we exchange it like this."

"It's fine."

I directly interrupted my second uncle's words, "Spending money must be spent on the blade, you can't hold back because you have been a neighbor for many years and don't say something, isn't that waiting to be killed, I don't care, if he dares to fool, I will let him redo it for me, it's a big deal to find someone else to do it, the carpenter has it!" ”

After saying that, I'm also leaving, who are you playing with, I'm now suppressing a belly of fire every day, it's best not to mess with me!

That Mingyue was very satisfied with what I did, and carefully chattered to me behind her back, saying that I did the right thing, my second uncle is too good, and he always can't wipe off his face, Li Jianguo is definitely not a person who does a loss-making business, and she wants to fool our family, if she doesn't see that grandma is not in good health now, she doesn't want to make trouble, so she will go to Li Jianguo and say!

I don't think it's necessary to say, after all, Li Jianguo also wants to make more money, but he definitely didn't expect that I would go to the county seat to inquire about these, wood is the easiest to do tricks, there are few people who know how to do it, the difference between various kinds of wood is really subtle, it is difficult to distinguish, plus no one can dig it out to see it when it is buried, so it is a hammer deal, but he touched me, then we have to break it well, to be honest, I have the heart to accompany the funeral!

'Ahem cough cough ~ cough cough ~~'

Grandma's coughing in the house completely pulled back my attention, I lightly leaned to the window, raised my eyes slightly, and saw my grandfather full of distress to give grandma a needle, "Bear with it, this medicine will not hurt anymore......"

"Hurry up...... Put it away completely, and when Brother Mingyue comes, let him go to the hospital in the town to get the hemp card and change it more, don't let Sibao see it, worry about ......"

Grandpa frowned, "Why do you say you're always looking for Brother Mingyue, I don't feel like a serious person when I look at that kid, his eyes are dripping and old, and he asked me what our little black pill is doing that day, as if he wants to hold back and do bad things." ”

Grandma coughed lightly and sighed, "Doesn't he have a way to change more medicine, otherwise this medicine can only be exchanged for one empty bottle in the village, in the place where he knows, he can change a few more, I play more now, don't you have to beg someone, you don't squeak when he asks, what do you say, it's all Mingyue's younger brother, no matter how good a person is, he can't hurt his sister." ”

Grandpa nodded, put away the medicine bottle and hid it under the pillow, "Okay, you can rest for a while, don't talk all the time." ”

Grandma snorted, her eyes were gray without a trace of light, "Hide it, don't let Sibao see it, that kid is serious, he's going to take the high school exam, don't delay the child's ......"

I slowly squatted down against the outer window, covered my mouth and didn't dare to make a sound, desperately raised my eyes, I could only look at the sky hard and hold back tears, and I had to go into the house to study for a while, I didn't want my grandmother to see that I had cried.

It's just that why is it so difficult these days, the feeling of forcibly walking on thin ice is tantamount to slowly cutting flesh on the heart with a blunt knife, and the heartache is getting worse every day, day after day......

God doesn't have long eyes, why do you torture our family so much, what did we do wrong!

……

During the May Day holiday, I rode my bicycle to the town at noon to buy a trough cake for my grandfather, lifted the butt of the car into the door, and as soon as the car entered the yard, I smiled and opened my mouth and shouted, "Grandma, I was lucky today, I just caught up with the pot!" It's still hot! ”

As soon as the words fell, I saw Li Jianguo come out of the house, and I kept agreeing when I turned around, "Don't worry, it's been a long time since the oil was brushed!" If you always want to see it, feel free to go and see it! ”

I frowned slightly, only to see my mother, who I hadn't seen for a few years, following Li Jianguo and raising her feet, "Excuse me, I don't know why my mother had to call you over to ask today...... Bao Si, you're back. ”

"Yo, Bao Si is back, Shoufang, you won't take a look today, it's okay to go to my house to read a book with Xiaoxue on vacation, don't keep running around, your grandma said that you are bent on going to university!!"

I didn't pay attention to Li Jianguo, who walked past me, my eyes looked directly at my mother, and just about to open my mouth, I saw my grandmother coming out of the back room in high spirits, "Sibao, what a god, buy the trough cake and pull it back, enter the house, your grandfather is still waiting to eat!" ”

With a slight step back, I shook my head and looked at her, "Why did my mom come back?" ”

Grandma smiled, "Why can't your mother come back, enter the house, grandma has something to tell you." ”

"I don't listen to !!"

I blew it up right then and the bike 'poofed'! fell to the ground with a bang, watching her uncontrollable emotions out of control, "What do you want to explain, what do you want to explain!" ”

Grandma was stunned, "What's wrong with you kid, grandma is not happy to see that you are strong, the cake is dirty!" How to eat!! ”

"What to eat!!

I stepped on it a few times before I stepped up, "You lied to me!" You say I'm eighteen, and there's still a year to go! Another year!! ”

Mom couldn't help but turn her face and cry at that time, Xiao Liu trotted all the way from the back room and came over with a half-gnawed apple in his hand, "Fourth sister, what's wrong with you." ”

I didn't know what was wrong with me, so I watched my grandmother collapse in various ways, and looked at the trough cake that I stepped on into mud and knelt on the ground as soon as her legs were weak, "I don't want my mother to come back, I don't want my mother to come back......"

"Four Treasures ......"

Grandma looked at me and was about to come over, "You listen to grandma, grandma is ......"

"Don't come here! ~！ ”

I looked at my grandmother's figure with teary eyes, "You can do it, you can do it, you will be fine, I don't want to hear anything, you let my mother go, you tell her, you will be fine for a year, you tell her!" Speak!!! ”