Lovers of books*/first. On the ninth day of August in the thirteenth year of Fazheng

"Gege, go back, Your Majesty said that he won't see anyone!"

I stood on the cold white marble steps, and I couldn't remember how many times I had asked to see Emperor Yongzheng, but the answer I got was no. I don't know what it is, in the past, when you and he found out about my deception, they would come to me angrily and ask me about it, but this time it was different - was he scared too? Afraid you're going to get out of control and kill me? Or are you afraid that once we meet, things won't be cleaned up again?

"You go and tell Lord Banzai that I will come again tomorrow, and I will always come until I know that he is willing to see me." If he is willing to see me, I will have a chance to redeem myself. Maybe I don't have to kill him, even if it ends with my life, as long as this matter can end here.

However, we were both too smart to know that he would not see me at this time, for the same reason as I did - seeing me would make many of his decisions unbearable, and now it was not a problem that he could not bear to solve.

I asked myself, Zhang Xiaoying, why aren't you so ruthless? If it weren't for the fact that your final plan had been launched, you had already forced Lu Siniang's killing intent, if not, would you dare to come and ask to see him? Aren't you afraid that you will be soft-hearted, and you would rather be burdened than be burdened?

"Auntie, you're here to beg too. See the Emperor Amma? "Hongli hurried over, and just ran into me standing in front of the jade steps in a daze—he had gone out to practice for a few years, and the death of Ma Jia's family had made him mature rapidly, and he was becoming more and more like an emperor. But everything about his future may be ruined by my hands - I don't know what history will become if I fail, and how can I make up for this gap without the history of the Qianlong Dynasty for sixty-one years?

I don't even dare to imagine that in the distance. In the twenty-first century, if I were a little weaker, what would become terrifying?

"Ah, Fourth Elder Brother, Your Majesty said it, and no one will see it." The eunuch stopped Hongli with the same words he said to me.

"Dog minion, don't bully here. How could the king's aunt, the emperor, not even see me? You get out of the way of this king, believe it or not, this king killed you! Hongli suddenly grabbed my hand: "Auntie, I'll take you to see Huang Ama!" ”

"Hongli!" But you don't understand the current situation, if you dare to break into the palace and provoke your emperor Ama, I don't know if you can see the moon tomorrow again: "Go back!" It's none of your business here, go back to your Prince Bao's Mansion! ”

"Auntie!" Hongli. His eyes were red. The suppressed grievances for so many days made his voice tremble: "Huang Ama hasn't summoned me for more than two months. He also asked me to meditate on myself in the house—aunt. Hongli has been careful in handling errands over the years. Lest something go wrong. Hongli really can't think of what mistake he made! He endured it for two months. I finally made up my mind to ask what happened. Even if it's wrong. He would rather admit punishment. But there are no trumped-up charges. He couldn't stand it.

Hongli. I know you're baffled. It's not your fault. It's my fault. "Go back. Go back to my aunt immediately. Believe in my aunt. Like when I was a kid. My aunt will definitely take care of the land. Believe me. ”

"But-" Hongli suddenly raised his head: "I haven't even seen Eniang in the past two months." I heard the center of the uterus say......"

I glanced coldly at the few little eunuchs who didn't know each other and stood there stupidly. Years of accumulation. They crawled away in fear just because of the look I made. Hongli came up to me and whispered: "Eniang was called by Huang Ama to the Heart Cultivation Hall to accompany him to dinner. He never came back. This matter in the palace has become taboo. The emperor ordered that no one should say anything. Aunt. Tell me about it. No matter how much Huang Ama favors Eniang, she will not keep her to live in the Heart Cultivation Hall for so many days! ”

"Who said it couldn't be. Old husband and wife. Maybe at this time. Your emperor Ama suddenly found that your mother is the best woman? I comforted him with a pale face. But I can't comfort myself - it's not a favor. This is seizure. From the moment I got I couldn't have children. Yongzheng is like a great enemy to me. And now my sister. It's the best weapon he's ever used against us.

I don't hate him. From the angle he looked at me. I have indeed become the most terrible woman in the world in his eyes now—and now he no longer believes that I was forced to be used by Brother Jiu. Even he has already recalled, why did I destroy the Eighth Elder Brother and the Ninth Elder Brother.

In his eyes, I am a sinner who used him, used a child of unknown origin to control the government, and even almost overthrew the entire Qing Dynasty......

"Auntie, do you believe what you said?" Hongli looked me in the eye and asked directly.

"Fourth Elder Brother, if I were you, I could only choose to believe, what else could I do but believe in you?" I approached him, "Fourth Elder Brother, I didn't call you for so many years to make you brave and resourceful. Even if you don't believe it now, you don't know anything, what else can you do but make trouble? ”

"I ......"

"For your mother, for me, can't you even bear this?" I put my arms around him, like when he was a child: "Hongli, good boy, believe in my aunt, it will be over soon, believe in my aunt ......"

Is it really time to have to end? Why am I so sad, my sad heart is like being stabbed hard......

The ninth day of August in the thirteenth year of Yongzheng. Prince Guoyi's Mansion

When I returned to the palace, it was getting late, seventeen

Waiting for me at the door - I know this is an extraordinary time, I will never come back every time I enter, and it is impossible for him not to stand at the door and look forward to it. At this time, what I'm saying not to worry about is too fake.

"Who is he?" Unexpectedly, I saw a half-grown boy standing at the door waiting for me with Brother Seventeen, a boy I had never seen before - I don't think Brother Seventeen would have an illegitimate child behind my back, even if he did, he didn't have the courage to come to the house with the child, not to mention this critical juncture, so this child's life experience made me very curious.

"It's called Auntie.

Seventeenth Elder Brother was a little embarrassed and didn't know how to explain to me: "Qiyun, he-to be your nephew to be exact, he is your younger brother Niu Lu. Zhan Peng's son ......"

"Zhanpeng?" My chaotic mind was constantly searching for my entire experience in the Qing Dynasty, and suddenly a picture jumped into my mind-

"Bad guy, bad woman, kill you bad woman!"

Only seven or eight years old. The child, with a milky voice, threw a stone at me: "Bad guy, you killed my mother, I will definitely avenge you for my mother!" ”

"My mother's surname is Chen, it's you. Kill my mother, you still don't let me call her mother, I am you, I am you! ”

Chen Jia's grandson? That me back then. The little child in my impression, now his son is older than he was then?

Also. Yes, more than 20 years have passed, but I can't imagine that I can still see the sequelae of the sins I did back then: "What about you, Amma? Why are you the only one? ”

"Auntie! I'm Amma, I'm Amma......" he. Wiping his tears, he looked at me pitifully: "The year before last, there was no food in Heilongjiang, and my Ama was not in good health......"

"You're gone?" Sky. Ah, how old is he? In my memory, he was always so young, a child who hadn't grown up. Because of my determination to cut down the grass and eradicate the roots, he was sent to the bitter cold land of Heilongjiang, so that he ......

So young that I'm all. What did you do?

"Auntie! The family is very poor, and Eniang still has to take care of her younger brother, she can't afford to support me, so I have come thousands of miles to join you! Auntie, you are kind enough to take me in, I am very capable, and I will never eat in vain! He raised his head, and I saw his appearance clearly, and unconsciously gasped - he was actually born very beautiful, not a boy at all, if it was a girl, he would be very good-looking.

"There are many slaves in my house, and there is no shortage of people to work for me." Thankfully, the Niu family didn't end up because of my cruelty, but my current soft-heartedness is very likely to kill this strange-looking child - all kinds of circumstances are not in my favor, I am a person who may not even have tomorrow, how can I take this child in?

In case the Niu family is going to be wiped out, this child is here, why don't you just add vegetables and accompany us to die in vain?

"There is no shortage of people in our family, and I don't have any younger brothers, you get out of me, if you don't get out, I'll send someone to sweep you out!" I looked up at Brother Seventeen, his eyes were painful and helpless when he looked at me, and I held his hand gratefully - he understood me, he didn't reproach me for being ruthless, just a glance he understood my painstaking intentions.

However, the person who knows me best in the world wants to accompany me to the end to make the wicked person to the end.

"Auntie!" The child's eyes were full of tears: "My Ama said that he was ignorant when he was young, he blamed you, and he didn't let Eniang trouble you when our family was so difficult." Auntie, Amma is still thinking about you and your aunt when she is dying, hoping to join the group with you, why are you ......"

That kid, think he's wrong?

My eyes widened, how could he understand what I was doing in the midst of the ravages of the years to come?

Covering my mouth, I gasped in pain - this child was harmless to me, it was me who was too careful, it was me-

It's okay, if you stay here, he will also be implicated by me, since I was already ruthless at the beginning, then I might as well ......

"You want money, don't you?" I turned my head, as long as the seventeenth elder brother could see the tears dripping from my face: "Give him the money, and send him away immediately!" ”

"Auntie, aunt ......"

The door was closed, and I couldn't hear the child's cry, but his little face, full of snot and tears, had already overlapped with Zhanpeng's back then, and he kept accusing me of being ruthless......

I couldn't help but slip to the ground against the door......

"Qiyun, you get up!" The seventeenth elder brother rushed over and hugged me: "You get up, your sister is waiting for you, Hongli is waiting for you, so many ministers of the Manchu Dynasty who have taken refuge in you have to rely on you, you can't fall, you can't be beaten by yourself......"

"Seventeenth elder brother, it's really not good, it's really irreparable, we can only ......" Take that last step of helplessness, I'm going to kill him - I have to kill him, kill him who I always think is indebted and always regret that I don't have a chance to compensate......

"Qiyun, are you scared?"

"No, I'm not afraid......" I searched his face with empty eyes until I saw a reflection of myself in his eyes: "I'm afraid of myself, I'm more and more afraid of myself as I am......"

Conspiracy is a double-edged sword, and when you decide, you will hurt yourself before you kill the enemy......