Chapter 238: You Have to Say It
Li looked at his fiery eyes and hurriedly raised his hand, just now he was very kind to defend T|in front of his heart and liver. And in her view, their current situation is very similar to that of modern divorced parents, facing a shared child together. Think about yourself, I worked hard to maintain Yinzhen's image in front of Anthracene, just because I was afraid, because I was afraid that the child would really give Yinzhen a look, Yinzhen would put the responsibility on herself, compared to what Yinzhen did today, he obviously seemed a little utilitarian.
It's been two years, she ran away in a bad mood, and since then she has to be a stranger to Yinzhen, she has never been in the mood to sit down and have a good talk with Yinzhen, even if Yinzhen wants to talk about her, she refuses, she blindly escapes. I never want to think about what their problem is, and desperately say, 'I just don't want it, it's your business to disagree.'" So the deviation between them is getting bigger and bigger, maybe the two-year cooling-off period has passed, and then two months later, there may be a process of going out and coming back, there is a distance, and then going deeper into it, she began to reflect. Because of this, Su Li finally made up her mind to talk to Yinzhen properly.
Yinzhen looked at her, and then looked around, could it be that she wanted to talk to herself in this big courtyard? Who knows how many eyes are waiting to see in this shadow?
"It's in the pavilion over there! Everyone can see it, and no one will dare to eavesdrop. Su Li looked at him and looked at the environment, and hurriedly pointed to the rockery pavilion in the middle of the courtyard just now and said. really find a secret room with Yinzhen to talk for an hour or two, and she doesn't have to stay in the backyard, and she can't get rid of the suspicion of melon fields and plums. Of course, I had to find someone who was open and could see it, but I didn't dare to get close to the place where I was eavesdropping.
They can see it, but they don't dare to eavesdrop. Yin Zhen smiled bitterly, when did Su Li do things so carefully? What has become of his own backyard in Su Li's eyes? Although he was dissatisfied, he still didn't make a sound, and walked over slowly with his hands behind his back, and Su Li took a lantern and followed behind. Hang the lamp and you can see them sitting across from a distance. Xiao Mingxin sent hot tea and snacks, and put the cloak on his arm to Su Li before retreating.
It's been a long time since I've sat down face-to-face with Yinzhen, and she can't think of how to speak for a while. I had to look around, I used to walk here with Yinzhen after dinner, but now it seems to be different from before, and I sighed softly.
"After two years of leaving, I came back and felt that everything was different." It's early spring, and it's still very cold in this night, although Su Li's legs are much better, she still tightens the cloak on her body and wraps herself tightly.
"It's different, it's you who are different." Yin Zhen glanced at her, poured herself a cup of tea, and gave Su Li a full meal when she thought about it. Yinzhen is not in a hurry, Su Liken is sitting down to talk about it.
Su Li thought about it and nodded, yes, I always say who has changed, who has happened, in fact, it is my own mentality that has changed, because I have changed, but I unconsciously put the responsibility on others.
"That's right! When I entered the house, I was a husband and remarried, but I didn't expect to marry the royal family again, at that time I was honestly afraid, and the old man didn't want to see me, it would be good to be alive, and I had to be careful when I took a breath, for fear of hindering the eyes of others. Look at it now, I don't want to see it anymore, it's too flamboyant and too spicy. Su Li said seriously and calmly.
This is a reflection on the more than two months since returning home, people can only think about things when they are idle, and they will think about all kinds of past thoughts in their minds, and suddenly realize that they are not bold, but stupid and bold. Like an ostrich, he thinks that if he buries his head in the dirt, no one will see it. It's always a matter of putting the word dead on your lips every day, but you're actually still afraid of death.
I went home. Two months before and after. Five people died in Prince Yong's mansion. Except for the old mother who was 'raised by Yinzhen'. How the other four died was just a wordless end. How about Fuyi being the emperor's grandson? You can only report illness and death. Those three were said to be in remembrance of the old master. I can't bear to be separated. It was hidden. Look at them. Su Li understood. It turns out that it's really easy to die. Silence makes it impossible to grasp any handles. Why should I protect my son and daughter? But let her whisper to Yinzhen. She couldn't pull her face. She was always looking for opportunities. And today seems like a good time.
Yin Zhen looked at her deeply. She said 'husband remarrying' so calmly for the first time. So calmly. Don't mind anymore. Because I don't mind anymore. So she could mention it again. What does this mean? Yin Zhen was a little confused.
But he smiled cooperatively.
"Originally, you just wanted to find a yard to eat and die. Rich to the end of the world. You were so cute at that time. Yin Zhen sighed softly. Decided to let your guard down. Have a good talk with Su Li. It's so easy for her to talk to herself. The atmosphere is so good at this time. It seems that I have regained some of my old feelings.
"Old lady Wuya sent me to the royal family to make amends. Second, I also think I'm a safe place. Find a small yard. I was lucky enough to have a son for the elderly. If you are unlucky, you can eat and wait for death in peace. That's when I
Make move. And luck was good, too. I have a son and a daughter. In fact, if you take care of the children and make some food. We should always be doing well. ”
"Then it changed, why?" Yin Zhen nodded, all kinds of things in the past are vivid, how dependent Su Li was on her own at that time, but at this time, Su Li and herself were on an equal footing and talking to each other on an equal footing.
"My sister took me into the outer study, I wanted to escape, but you grabbed me. That's your suspicion of me! Su Li smiled bitterly and sighed lightly, "I never wanted to get involved in your outside affairs, you are a man, you have been doing well, you don't need us at all, besides, you don't know what kind of character you have?" Whatever you are, you get angry; Regardless of you, you will be suspicious, in fact, we finally came to this point because of the bane planted at that time. ”
"You blame me?" Yinzhen glared at her, he remembered that it was before the abolition of the prince, he was in the outer study, that day Su Li accurately grasped the old man's vein, and that day Yinzhen also had a new understanding of Su Lier. But now Su Li pushed the mustard between them to that time all of a sudden, and she also felt uneven.
"Nope! I had my own problems, and it would have been better if I had insisted on staying out of the way that day, or if I hadn't heard anything. I have always envied Sister Geng, I like her state of existence, live her life in peace, and no one will trouble her. Never worry about whether your head is safe or not. But in fact, I can't be her, I'm too strong. Su Li was blunt.
"Why don't you just say you have ambitions yourself? You want to fight for your baby, do you want to fight against me? Haven't you been showing me all the time that you can live well even if you don't rely on me? ”
"Fourth master, I hadn't given birth to a child at that time!" Su Li was a little weak, but she also nodded quickly, she agreed with part of Yinzhen's point of view, "If you don't rely on you, I can live well, that's a lie to people." In fact, I have always understood that if it weren't for the name of Prince Yong's side Fujin, I wouldn't have been able to do anything, and if I was older, I might have died a hundred times. Everyone gives me face, in fact, it is to give you face and face to the baby around me. You're right, I've been working hard to earn a career for my baby in the past two years, but not out of ambition, but because of my head. I can't point to you, I can only point to my son, the more secure the baby's status, the safer I and my heart and liver. ”
"Why can't you point to me? Have I done you a wrong? Yin Zhen jumped up again, although he knew that Su Li was really being honest with himself when he said this, but he was still depressed. She just said to herself, without herself, she died a hundred times, and now she comes to resent herself for not being able to count on it, the logic of women is terrible.
"But you didn't save us either? When something happens, you keep trying to make me back down and make me patient, and people pour dirty water on me, what did you do? I didn't even cough! Forget it, it's all in the past, and it's no longer interesting to say it now. Su Li shook his hand and suppressed the anger, it turned out that time could not cure everything. But reason kept her awake, she had to reach a consensus with Yinzhen today, and she couldn't waste the opportunity in mutual disputes.
Yinzhen looked at Su Li, it turned out that she was still angry, which was why she was angry, so she left without looking back, and said ruthless words. 'Yinzhen and dogs are not allowed to enter! Is this what she hates? Yin Zhen was really speechless, how could this woman's brain grow, she was obviously very smart and cautious enough, why couldn't she turn a corner at this time? What is protection? Silence is protection, and it insults a pig to say that she is a pig's brain. But looking at Su Li's endured angry face, Yinzhen still explained.
"There are things that cannot be spoken, heard, or reacted! A sucker! Yinzhen finished speaking, but she still couldn't help but throw her two big and white eyes. He squinted his eyes, looked her up and down, and gritted his teeth and said, "You are stupid, and Nian is stupid!" "After saying that, his jaw soared to the sky, as if to say to the sky, 'Alas! What is my life? ’
Su Li looked at Yinzhen's angry look, but couldn't help laughing. It's been a long time since I've seen Yinzhen and just want to hear him say it, but now that he said it, she felt that the resentment that had been pressed in her heart for two years was suddenly released, and her heart was extremely comfortable. I breathed a long sigh of relief, the night breeze was no longer cold, but I felt that it was not bad to wrap a warm breeze in the cold night.
"You don't just want me to scold you, do you?" Yin Zhen saw that Su Li didn't react, and his demeanor was more relaxed than just now, and he couldn't help but wonder a little.
"I'm not a! I understand the truth, but if you don't say it yourself, those are what I am making excuses for you in order to whitewash the peace, so if you don't say it, I will treat you as if you don't care, when you are biased! Su Li argued. (To be continued, if you want to know what will happen next, please log in to 6, more chapters, author, genuine reading!) )