After Han Xiucao's mood stabilized a little, she lit a cigarette and said faintly: "I'm so depressed, I feel more and more like I can't break free from the cage, I don't know what to do." ”

"Since it's painful to be together, it's better to be separated."

"It's not that I haven't thought about separation, I don't know how many times I have been divided and combined in the past eight years, and I can't remember the big and small quarrels, but every time I slapped my mouth and said that I wanted to separate, but I was really separated, and I felt uncomfortable, and I thought that I might never find the innocent feelings that came out of the campus era again."

"In order to buy a house, we have both obtained the license for more than a year, and we live together every day, sometimes without saying a word, that feeling ......" Han Xiucao was very painful.

"Last year, she had a child that she didn't keep once, and I thought that if I had a child, it would improve, but I didn't expect it to be like this." Han Xiucao couldn't help crying, this relationship has experienced too many ups and downs in the middle, the initial simplicity and beauty, too many quarrels and contradictions, and there is no way to get along peacefully anymore.

Liu Ze let out a long sigh, after he ran errands with the woman he had just met, his heart would be extremely empty, and he would also think about what it would be like if he hadn't broken up with Ning Xiaonuma at that time.

"Now she's just a responsibility to me, but I don't feel the slightest feeling."

"Then we will resolutely separate."

"It's not easy to talk about, our family is average, the pressure of life in the capital is too great, not to mention anything else, the common housing can't be dismantled, I always feel that she has been with me for so many years, and now her health is not very good, if I leave her, I will be a complete bastard, and that moral condemnation will make me unbearable."

This is a besieged city, Liu Ze sighed, and said no more.

Kan Kang's wedding was a success.

After attending the wedding, Liu Ze left on the way, his mood fluctuated greatly, Kan Dang is undoubtedly the bravest of the four, love without hesitation, another person is still crazy, he and his current wife are very happy, you can see from the smile on your face.

Han Xiucao's dilemma can only be solved by himself.

And he himself, lost in the parting of the year, has not been able to find a way out.

After breaking up with Ning Xiaonuma again, he became selfish and didn't cherish his feelings.

Liu Ze sometimes thinks that if he meets Yan Ling before Ning Xiaonuma, maybe it will be a very perfect relationship.

He never wanted to repeat his parents' path, but in the end, he repeated his parents' path.

The unfortunate emotions of parents are like a swamp for children, and the more they struggle to get rid of them, the more they cannot extricate themselves, just like the invisible shackles that are trapped in it, drawing the ground into a prison and unable to find an exit, repeating the tragedy of parents.

Love begins with innocence and dies in the years.

Youth.

Where?

So much.

Fine.

In fact, in 2014, Liu Ze had seen Ning Xiaonuma and her mother in Wuhan, and over the years, she didn't seem to have changed, but she was dressed a lot more fashionably, and even dyed her hair, and still didn't talk much.

But her mother has changed a lot, and has become very fashionable, and she must mention success in her words, and tell that the old days are all in vain.

In a separate meeting, it was embarrassing to talk about the past.

Intuitively, Liu Ze felt that something was wrong.

One day at the end of the year, what day it was, Liu Ze couldn't remember, he received a text message from a stranger.

The man said: "Ning Xiaonuan's mother and daughter are all pyramid scheme leaders, and they have pitted their relatives and neighbors very badly. ”

The man told Liu Ze not to be fooled.

said that Ning Xiaonuma seduced a few men who liked her and deceived people into bankruptcy.

In fact, after seeing Ning Xiaonuma, Liu Ze was a little suspicious, but he didn't think much about it, this stranger's information was just confirmation.

That day, he was in a very bad mood, why did the girl who used to be taciturn and the girl who refused to obey death become like this one day?

Actually, Liu Ze once asked Ning Xiaonuan, why are you just unwilling to take the last step?

She said she was scared, and her parents used to quarrel about this when she was a child.

Mom was infected because of Daddy's uncleanness.

There was also a hard fight.

Liu Ze was silent.

After parking the car in the neighborhood, he lit a cigarette and smoked it, and stayed in the car for three quarters of an hour before going upstairs and opening the door, feeling very tired.

"I'm back."

"You still know to come back." Yan Ling's tone was very explosive, "I don't care about anything at home, my mother is not feeling well, and the child also has a fever, what are you doing?" ”

"Socialize."

Liu Ze said weakly, go to hug the child, kiss the baby daughter.

He has always adhered to the principle of not quarreling in front of children.

But today Yan Ling is too unrelenting, and Liu Ze's mood is also very bad.

After arriving at the bedroom of the two, a quarrel finally broke out, and even a big fight.

"Mom and Dad......

The obedient girl pushed the door in with a Bingbing sticker on her forehead, and saw the scene of her parents arguing.

At this moment, Liu Ze felt extremely uncomfortable and blamed himself.

The suffering he suffered as a child was repeated in the child.

For the next few days, he was so depressed that he couldn't breathe.

After taking a few days off, he didn't know where to go, he drove back to Gyeongju, didn't go home, opened a hotel, and the whole person was in a daze, he really wanted to commit suicide.

Numbly, he came to Gyeongju No. 1 Middle School alone, sat on the edge of the stadium and watched those students in a daze.

A slender teenage girl running with two children caught his eye.

I saw the girl leading the child towards him.

"Liu Ze, it's really you."

"You...... Su An'an? ”

"Am I getting that old? The old classmates didn't recognize it. ”

I haven't seen each other for too many years, and I didn't react at once, Su Anan has hardly changed, but she doesn't want to be a mother of two children.

The two chatted for a while.

She is now a full-time wife who takes care of her children, often goes to Gyeongju No. 1 Middle School to play, carefree, just like back then, and her husband, who has always liked her, is the Qian Bing who has always liked her, and repeats his studies with her and goes to the same university.

Speaking of the year.

Su Anan asked about Liu Ze's situation again.

"You must have married a big beauty, Xueba, with such a high vision."

After a while, Qian Bing came to pick her up, took the child, and held one in one hand.

The family is very affectionate, and Su Anan is also very happy.

Returning to the hotel from Gyeongju No. 1 Middle School, Liu Ze lay alone in bed for a long time, pulled the curtains, turned off his mobile phone, and I don't know how long it took.

He sighed faintly and said to himself, "I'm too much of a competitor to myself. ”

Perhaps, as he heard many years ago, if you define the ultimate goal as a happy life, whether it is work or relationship, as long as this goal is met, it is a good job and a good relationship.

You don't have to think about a perfect relationship.

Or your woman is not first-time.

Whether there is deception in life.

He jumped out of bed, opened the curtains, the sun was shining, his eyes couldn't be opened, he left the room, bought some gifts and went home to see his parents.

Deep down, he hated the pain caused by his parents' quarrels.

He does not forgive his parents and punishes himself all the time.

How can you live a good life?

[End of the book]