Chapter 193: Is there any resentment?

I have been sick for half a month, and when I heard that I came back, my body was so hot that I almost scared the doctor to death. I had a high fever for three days, and I only talked nonsense every day - fortunately, thanks to the undressed care of Brother Seventeen, I almost never closed my eyes, and wiped my body with cold water over and over again to cool me down, so that I could survive.

Finally my fever subsided, but he was sick - since he came to Chengde, he has been worrying about me, worrying that I can't ride a horse, worrying that something is wrong with me, worrying about my condition, and finally, the iron man has fallen ill like this......

"Yinli, let's be a real husband and wife!" I reclined in front of his bed and wiped his pale and emaciated cheeks with a hot towel: "Don't be too busy refusing first, you can listen to my reasons first." ”

"Qiyun, my illness has nothing to do with you." He took my hand, a little coquettish: "Besides, you are just right, I have my own maid slave to take care of, you still don't have to work too hard." "The eyes fell on my face—the same pale and emaciated face, and now we really looked like a couple.

"If I am what I want?" Keeping one person can't make everyone a guest in my life - if I really have to choose to take the initiative to keep someone, I hope it's you - because you deserve it.

"Qiyun, I forgot everything you said when you were unconscious, you don't have to take it to heart." Because I want to hear it too much, it seems unreal, and because I don't want you to be embarrassed, I can assume that I didn't hear it.

"Oh, wouldn't it?" I smiled mischievously: "You can forget such an important thing?" This is the first time I've ever confessed to someone with all my heart! You really should fight! When he was gone, he snorted heavily to express his dissatisfaction.

"Huh?" If the confession he confessed a few days ago that he could still lie to himself because I was not awake and pretended to be ignorant, now my confession is obvious enough - obvious that he has begun to have the courage to do things that he did not dare to dream of.

"I mean, I'm a woman, I need a real home, a child, a mother, and I hope that one day I can have children and grandchildren, and I can ...... happiness......

It's so far away, so far away that it takes a lot of courage to say it......

Seventeenth brother, I know that you have always refused to accept that I am considering my feelings, but I ask you to think about it for yourself, whether it is good or not - you take care of me like this, it is also a harm to me! You're sealing my selfishness, you know?

Now I convince you with a reason that is acceptable to you in your time, can you be a little selfish?

"Qiyun, you don't look like a woman who would think like this." The seventeenth elder brother said the key point.

"Yes, but I'm still a woman after all......" I slowly lowered my head and imprinted a kiss on his neck - how difficult is it to fall in love with someone who understands him like this? Yinli, hehe, now, I can only kiss your neck......"

Hehe, you can't grow taller, otherwise kissing is really a very difficult thing!

"Qiyun!" Brother Seventeen's face turned red in an instant—in this era, he hadn't thought that there would be a woman who would take the initiative like this, right? Or a woman he's been in love with for a long time, haha, he must not be able to accept such a change, right?

"Huh!" Just like that, he began to breathe unsteadily, and this little guy really couldn't stand the teasing—no wonder, no matter how precocious he was, he couldn't change the fact that he was not yet sixteen years old.

I chuckled, deliberately lifted his quilt ambiguously, and was satisfied to see that his body began to tremble with excitement: "Qiyun, what do you want to do?" "Alas, this voice is shaking, saying that you don't want me, who will believe it?

"Don't you want to do anything!" I winked innocently: "People just want to put your quilt back on!" ”

"Oh!" Seventeen's big eyes were full of disappointment, but at the same time he breathed a sigh of relief.

Oh, look, the mind is evil! I laughed like a demon, and now the seventeenth elder brother could also see that I was there for him to find fun: "Although people also want to want it very much, but now it can't - your body is important, I have to endure it......" Coming, and also sent a very aggrieved and aggrieved look - sample, internal injury!

"Qiyun, although I knew that you were hateful, I didn't expect you to be hateful like this!" Brother Seventeen was dumbfounded by my changing expression for a long time, and finally gave a more sincere summary.

Yes, my husband, you finally understand now that it won't be a good thing to be in love with me, right?

"But, Qiyun, I even like you to look so hateful, you say, am I just as hateful?" The seventeenth elder brother is really speechless, and he is endless.

“……”

Forehead...... All I can say is, let the hateful people be together and go as the good people say!

When the seventeenth elder brother's illness is also cured, this trip to Chengde is almost over, and the seventeenth elder brother is just in time to help me pack up my things - but thanks to the seventeenth elder brother's illness, I can finally use the excuse of taking care of the seventeenth brother and not have to participate in the hunt, for this reason, I am a little skeptical, is the seventeenth elder brother's illness a real disease or a fake disease?

"Seventeen!" I yelled habitually, and he shrank his neck in fright—after a few days of deep understanding, he knew that when I called him so affectionately, there was absolutely nothing good about it.

Now that I have decided to love again, I have deliberately not concealed myself from him—my bad nature, my calculations, my quirks—and this time, I don't want to use hypocrisy to get love again, but I hope that this truth will not scare him away.

"Qiyun, is there a- is there something?" Brother Seventeen looked at me with blank eyes, a little timid.

"I clearly remember that ten days ago, your illness had obviously improved, but as soon as I heard that you were going to delay your return, you immediately became seriously ill." Why are you planning all this alone behind my back? Doesn't my incomprehensibility give you courage? Or don't you believe that I can be as strong as you are?

"Didn't the Imperial Doctor say that? It is normal for the condition to recur. Seventeen Elder Brother tried to pass it lightly.

"Then, you heard that you are going back to Beijing today, so it just happened?" It's not that I suspect it, it's too much of a coincidence, but what I know about you, you can do anything for me. "Yinli, you tell the truth, I don't want to be deceived by the person I like."

All right! I'm a bad woman, so even liking this kind of thing can be used as a tool for clichés.

"That, I just asked Xiao Tongzi to add something to the medicine prescribed by the imperial doctor......

Medicinal properties? Do you want to kill yourself? No wonder you suddenly repeated such ferocity - the medicinal properties are compatible, which is equivalent to drug poisoning, no wonder you were so sick in those days: "What else? Actually, I don't know if there is, it's just my habitual phrase.

"Uh...... At night, after you leave, secretly kick off the quilt...... "Brother Seventeen lowered his head, like a child who had done something wrong. (Excluding the fact that he is precocious, he is technically a half-old child)

"What else?" This sentence I asked about the weakness of the qi, and if I continue to ask, I will feel that I am suspected of abusing children - I think that in order to pretend to be poisoned, I soaked in hot water in cold water and suffered a lot, so he wouldn't be learning from me, right?

"No, don't think about it, it's really gone." Brother Seventeen spun around in front of me excitedly.

And really—I clenched my fists, secretly letting my nails slowly sink into my flesh—and I needed pain to calm my own anger at myself.

This time I really swore that I would be good to Seventeen for the rest of my life, but I still let him suffer under my nose - Zhang Xiaoying, you useless thing!

"Qiyun, Qiyun, what's wrong with you?" He looked at me a little worriedly: "It's me who is not good, I shouldn't hide it from you, don't be angry!" ”

Of course I'm not angry, I'm mad at myself! "Seventeenth elder brother, please promise me that no matter what you do for me in the future, please let me know!" This feeling of not knowing that you are being kept in the dark is really terrible!

"I promise you." But not for your own good.

"Seventeenth brother, thank you."

Because of you, I have finally slowly stepped out of the shadow of the past, and I can finally stop blaming myself for the past - because I have always thought that I have loved him very much, and I love him until I am jealous of the heavens, and it will end in failure......

It wasn't until I met you that I realized I had lost......

True love doesn't care about gains and losses - you taught me this and made me have no regrets about the past.

But now I sincerely hope that you—can you love me a little less, and can you also take care of yourself as I did back then?

Because in front of you, I feel more and more that my love is so humble......