Chapter 192: Love to the Depths

It's so hot, I want to be burned. I was panting hot, and everything in the past was gnawing at my ** and soul like a poisonous worm, so that every time I thought about it, I would feel as painful as cutting flesh from my wrist bone.

A cold sensation came from my forehead, and I grabbed him instinctively: "Please, don't leave me, please, whoever you are, please don't leave me......"

A six-year-long crush, I was pushed from the clouds to hell in an instant, my friends went their separate ways, and every day I repeated what I didn't want to do at all, constantly tested my conscience, constantly misunderstood, slandered, and hurt others......

Even if I am destined to be lonely, then I hope that there can be someone to accompany me and accompany me to be lonely all the time - even if there is a mountain of swords and fire in front of me, even if there is a cliff behind me - as long as there is someone with me, as long as there is someone who is willing to believe in me, I will not be afraid, and I will have the courage to continue walking!

"Don't go, don't go now...... desperately hold on to the only thing I can hold on to right now, even if I'm dead, I don't want to be left with nothing - so, whoever you are, please stay, stay and see my lonely soul......

"Qiyun, don't be like this, I've always been there, it was in the past, it will be in the future, it will always be ......" another hand held my hand in turn: "I'll go and see if the medicine is good, you let me go first, I won't go, I swear!" ”

"Don't." I don't believe in eternity, eternity is too far away, there are too many changes in this world, eternity in this world is a deception, and it is all fools like us who yearn for eternity.

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"Miss Zhang, may I ask, can you be my girlfriend?"

The hand holding the coffee shook violently, and I didn't even feel that my hand was burned by the coffee, and I could only look at him in a daze—five years of crushing, how many midnight dreams, how many tear-wet pillows—and when I thought we could only maintain this relationship, he suddenly took the initiative to open up to me......

Is this my dream? When the prince walks towards Cinderella, can Cinderella take it all for real?

Is it God's despair that pities me, so he also secretly falls in love with me as well?

"Mr. Lin?" I struggled to get my near-stalled brain running: "Hehe, are you kidding me? I took a sip of coffee, only to find that there wasn't much coffee left in the quilt - I was shaking so much? I thought I was desperate for my crush, but now I know that I still have great hopes in my heart.

You, you, I've taken it seriously, so you can't go back! Otherwise, the feeling of falling from a great height, I will go crazy!

"Really, I've wanted to say this for a long time." "He" also lowered his head and took a sip of coffee to hide his embarrassment: "This is the first time I have asked a girl, you must not refuse me in person!" ”

How could it be, I no longer dare to imagine waiting for this day......

"Can't you say no to your face?" I held my forehead and pretended to be very troubled: "What should I do then!" What can I say? ”

"Forehead......" I was satisfied to see the original confident appearance on his face, which was instantly replaced by worry - after five years of gains and losses, I didn't expect that the other party also had this feeling today, this feeling is called "sweetness", right?

"Haha, lied to you!" I put down my cup and picked up my bag: "Don't worry, I'll think about it." ”

"Huh?" A look of astonishment appeared on his calm and capable face: "You wait for me, I'll send you back!" ”

"No!" With him opening the door for me, I walked out of the door with a big stride: "Don't worry, I'll think about it when I go back, and our lawyers have always been efficient, so you won't wait too long, hehe." ”

I've had a crush on you for five years, and I'll let you taste this feeling of not being able to hold it and not being able to let it go! Don't worry, I love you, so I really won't keep you waiting long - because I'll be afraid of missing you, fool!

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In the end, I lost you—is God punishing me for my self-cleverness? Waiting for the approach of the goal, if the attitude of leaving, always deliberately pretending not to care about you, always dare not explain to you how much he loves you......

I'm afraid that if you know, you won't cherish it anymore, and I'm afraid that if you understand, you'll get tired of me being so calculating - can't there really be a conspiracy in love, so I'll lose you?

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"I love you, Zhang Xiaoying, do you love me?" Under the Christmas fireworks, perhaps because he was too excited, he would take the initiative to pour out his love to me.

"Oh? How much do you love me? "Deliberately not answering the question, I hooked his neck, obsessed with my own question - love, love, love? Do I love you more?

"It's so much that you can't imagine ......" "He" laughed like a fox: "I love you, Zhang Xiaoying, forever!" ”

How far away is forever, probably so far away that I don't even know where the end is......

"What about you?" Seeing that I just hugged him and didn't answer, he asked nervously.

I lay on his shoulder, secretly weeping - if I had known that this was the end of the day, I would have been willing to die at this moment - at least at this moment I can be sure that you really love me a little......

"I don't know......" silently wiped away tears - really, I don't know how much I love you, I don't know how much more I can love you, and I don't know what reason will one day stop me from loving you......

So I don't know...... Because I love you so much......

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"I love you, I love you, I love you......" I desperately grabbed the only driftwood I am now, and told the words that I wanted to say but never had the opportunity to say: "I love very much, I love you so much that you can't imagine it, I love it so much that I can't help myself...... So please don't say anything like disappointed in me – because after waiting so long and being misunderstood for so long, I've never been disappointed in you! ”

Why didn't I have the courage to say it in the first place? Why should I worry about so many things that don't exist at all? Why would I make such a low-level mistake?

I didn't tell "him" that I loved him until we broke up—I loved him very much, and I had been in love for six years......

He must have thought that I was an emotionless woman, right? That's why his breakup will be just as ruthless as this......

"Qiyun, Qiyun, be sober, I'm Yinli!" Although he had waited for these words for a long time, so long that he did not dare to dream of this day, he could not accept this confession - because, he understood, these words did not belong to him - what kind of bastard could get such a deep love from Qiyun, but never knew to cherish it?

"Yinli......" I muttered the name—a name that was just as important to me, but which I always forgot in the corner.

"I'm here, I'll always be by your side!" Whether you love me or not, whether you need it or not, I will wait until I no longer have the ability to wait......

"Yinli, I love you......" love, this word, it's not very difficult to say - I'm too stupid......

"Yinli, I love you, do you love me?"

I have always been young and limited, and it is easy to part. Wine feasts and songs. The mountains and rivers are empty, and the falling flowers and wind and rain hurt the spring even more. It's better to take pity on the people in front of you.

I always want to grasp what I can never grasp, but I never want to grasp what I can grasp now, grasp what I have - I don't want to lose it, I don't want to have regrets, so ......

"You don't say it, you don't say it, it's enough for you to know that I love you......" Dreams overlapped with reality, and I never thought that I would catch the only and most real love in my life in a nightmare......

I'm just so lonely, so lonely that I need someone to love......