Grandma didn't understand why I suddenly said this, but she didn't ask much, and happily took me and Xiaoliu by the hand and went into the house to eat.

The second uncle came back very late that night, and his face was not good after entering the house, and his grandmother asked casually while serving him a hot meal, "What, I didn't find it?" ”

The second uncle didn't seem to have much appetite, so he took two bites sullenly and nodded, "Well, the door of his house is locked, and the number given to me is also down." ”

Grandma sighed a long sigh, "Forget it, it's not good to leave, don't add it up, there is a saying that it is a blessing or a curse, and it is a disaster that cannot be avoided." ”

The second uncle was a little depressed, "Mom, I don't understand, Mr. Shen and they have been back for so many days, if he finds out anything bad and doesn't come back, then forget it, but how can Xiao Sheng not be contacted, I just want to know what Mr. Shen's situation is now, otherwise I don't have a bottom in my heart." ”

"Didn't I tell you and Mingyue a few days ago, this time I go, there will be no good results, you don't go to find that Xiao Sheng, let alone think about who can come to our house to talk about this, even if someone comes, you just remember one thing for me, don't admit it, we didn't save that Shen Mingyuan, it doesn't matter to us whether he is good or bad, just ......"

"Mom, how can it be okay!"

The second uncle was a little anxious, "Then Mr. Shen is so good, even if he doesn't go back to check well, he won't contact us, he must know very well that our family also remembers him." ”

Grandma's face turned cold, "What's the use of being good at others, you know what his family is like, I'll tell you so, he walked out of the door of our house, once something happens, no one will read our family's good, only think that his bad is harmed by our family, you have to be clear about the importance of this, you have to remember it in the future, no one comes to the best, if someone is looking for an explanation, then our family has not saved Xiao Shen, do you hear!" ”

The second uncle still wanted to say more, and Na Mingyue, who came in with the futon, had already eaten all of her grandmother's words, "Ruowen, don't you understand Mom's words, our family has been passive in this matter, if that Mr. Shen is good, maybe he will talk about it, then their family will believe that our family helped save it, but once he is not good, then our family will be in trouble, if you want me to say, it has been so many days, I don't know the bottom of my heart, I still listen to my mother's words and rot this matter in my stomach." “

"Isn't there still Xiao Lu, hasn't Xiao Lu always seen clearly?"

That Mingyue frowned and spread the futon on the kang for me and Xiaoliu, "What's the use of him, to put it bluntly, isn't he just a child who is older than Bao Si and Liuzi, who will listen to a child, there are many people in the city, maybe his family will think that we are bewitching other people's children, people are talking based on the facts, as long as Mr. Shen is not good, then our family has a hundred mouths that can't be explained." ”

The second uncle shook his head, "I really don't understand, didn't Mr. Shen just go to the city to check his body, why didn't this person believe it, I'm a doctor, whether it's good or bad, I always hope to know about his situation, what's the matter with such a silence......"

As he spoke, the second uncle noticed me, "What's the matter, is Sibao okay?" ”

Na Mingyue nodded, "It's okay, won't the fever go away when you leave in the morning, I think about Mr. Shen, since they don't come back, let Bao and the four Xiaoliu move back to live, otherwise Xiaoliu will have to drill into the TV, and every day I know that watching those useless things, I will hurt my hands when I beat him!" ”

As soon as Xiao Liu heard Na Mingyue say this, he immediately said with a hippie smile, "Mom, then don't hit me next time, my hand hurts." ”

The bright moon glanced at it, "It doesn't hurt if I kick your feet!" Try it again with me! ”

I sat next to me and didn't say anything, and I was no longer surprised by Xiao Liu's behavior of chasing his son to find abuse.

It's just that after listening to the words of the second uncle and grandma, I can't help but feel depressed, I know that the second uncle went to the county to find Uncle Sheng, but I didn't find it, I slept for so many days Lu Xingyue didn't come back, in fact, my mind is the same as the second uncle, I don't want to forget them, and I can't do what my grandma said, just if I didn't save Uncle Shen, but this mood is very contradictory.

To be honest, I'm afraid, I'm afraid that as my grandmother said, Uncle Shen's health will be serious as soon as he leaves my house, so whether Uncle Sheng comes back or Lu Xingyue comes back, I think they will more or less question my grandma and second uncle.

Even if I explain to them that it is the relationship between the leap and the little five, and the relationship between Uncle Shen and Uncle Shen who can't leave for a single step, then will they believe it, probably not, in the face of the facts, I think the conventional model of adults is to shift the responsibility to others.

And this other person, just like my grandmother said, will be us, our home is washed and unclean, then we can only not admit it, it seems, the best solution for today is not to admit it, although, I feel that there is a trace of self-preservation and helplessness in it.

I really feel helpless, it's obviously very simple, and things that are developing all the way in a good direction can suddenly turn around and become so complicated, I can't tell, but after all the emotions in my heart accumulate together, what I want most is Lu Xingyue, I want to see him, I want him back.

Whether Uncle Shen is good or not, whether he believes me or not, I want to make it clear to him, and even if he wants to leave, I want to say goodbye, I don't want to, he just disappeared.

The second uncle didn't talk much because he was so heavy that he just glanced at me after eating, and then looked at his grandmother, "By the way, Mom, I have something to tell you." ”

Grandma's mood has not been high, and she cleaned up the leftovers on the dinner table, "What's the matter?" ”

"It's what Sibao will do in the future, I think, she's still young, don't you ......"

"Second uncle!"

I interrupted my second uncle's words in my throat and looked at him very seriously, "I want to be a gentleman!" “

The second uncle looked at me and was stunned, "Didn't you mean ......?"

"I'm just going to be a gentleman!"

I emphasized that although I thought that I would definitely make my second uncle faint with such a two-faced knife, I didn't mean to, "I used to be afraid that I wouldn't do well, but now I'm not afraid, I will learn from my uncle seriously!" ”

After speaking, I added, "Second uncle, I mean really, I didn't lie to you." ”

The second uncle looked at me and was still a little puzzled, "Sibao, did anyone tell you anything?" ”

Grandma was also puzzled, "What's the matter, what do you want to tell me?" ”

I looked at my second uncle and shook my head, "No one said anything to me, I wanted to be a big gentleman myself, I don't believe you asked Xiaoliu!" ”

After Xiaoliu was named by me, he looked at the second uncle in a daze and nodded, "Yes, the fourth sister said that she wants to be a gentleman, and she will save people, and she will take me to save people together, and we will be heroes together in the future!" ”

Seeing this, the second uncle could only nod, glanced at his grandmother and opened his mouth softly, "It's okay, I was afraid that Sibao didn't want to take over your class and be a gentleman or something, but now that she likes it, then she can be happy, and I won't say more." ”

Na Mingyue looked at his son and chuckled, "You, bear right." ”

Xiao Liu is not at odds, "Who said I was a bear!" My fourth sister said today that I helped her, don't believe you asked her! ”

The more I talk about this, the more chaotic it becomes, I don't really want my grandmother to know about the tablet fairy, I am afraid that my grandmother will be worried, so I hurriedly opened my mouth, "Second aunt, Xiaoliu is smart, if I can be a gentleman in the future, Xiaoliu will definitely help me!" ”

Grandma smiled when she saw this lively situation, glanced at the second uncle and said, "I understand what you mean, don't worry, I also asked the child what she thought before I made plans for her, our Xue family is full of blood in our bones, and the four treasures will definitely not disappoint our family......"

……

At night, I couldn't sleep while lying on the kang and tossing and turning, and my mind was full of thoughts, and after holding it for a long time, I simply hugged the pillow and went to the ground.

Opened the door of Grandpa's house, I groped and began to climb up the kang, Grandma was sleeping soundly, and when I turned over, I saw that I was drilling into her quilt and was stunned, "Sibao? “

I didn't say anything, I pressed hard against my grandmother's body, and then I reached out and hugged her before closing my eyes, "Grandma, I want to sleep with you......"

Grandma smiled and gently patted me on the back, "Scared of nightmares?" ”

I answered, "I'm afraid you're going to die." ”

Grandma's warm breath crossed my forehead, "Silly boy, anyone will die, and grandma can't be with you for a lifetime." ”

"I don't want you to die."

I hugged her tightly, my head buried in her shoulder blades, "If you die, I will die." ”

"Nonsense."

Grandma exhaled heavily, "If Grandma goes to see your grandma that day, when the time comes, she will be with your grandma, Sibao, you remember, no matter where grandma is, whether it is above or below, it will always be with you in your heart, and grandma will never leave you, you know." ”

I shook my head, I didn't want to say anything, I just hugged her tightly, "You can't die, I don't agree with you to enjoy happiness, you can't die, otherwise I'll be angry, I'll be disobedient." ”

Grandma smiled helplessly, "Okay, grandma listens to Sibao, let's sleep...... Sleep ......."

I actually couldn't sleep, although I knew that what the stele fairy said was a lie to me, but I was still afraid that something would happen to my grandmother, and this feeling made me as uneasy as Uncle Shen's sudden departure.

And in comparison, I'm more worried about grandma, I'm afraid that grandma will have some accidents, so what should I do, don't say if grandma will really have an accident, just this kind of thought is enough to make me tremble.

Maybe I thought too much about the miscellaneous things in my head, and I started dreaming when I fell asleep in a daze, this time, what I dreamed of was that Lu Xingyue came back, I saw him driving in the tall car from the entrance of the village, but looking at my face, it was still as ugly as before, and I asked him why he came back so many days.

He said that he hated me and my family because my second uncle and grandmother did not take a good look at Uncle Shen's illness.

I was also very angry, and replied with my mouth open, who told you to leave as soon as you said, can't you wait for me and my grandmother to come back after going to the grave before leaving?!

He said that what does this have to do with you going to the grave, you just didn't cure my uncle at all, liar, your whole family is a liar!

I was so angry that I kept yelling at him before I woke up, you are a liar, you are a big liar who doesn't talk much!

Until I opened my eyes, I knew I was dreaming, but I tried to control myself in the dream to explain it to him, but it turned into a meaningless shout.

My heart is still full of uneasiness, I am afraid that my dream will come into reality, if one day, Lu Xingyue comes back, but it comes back with the same way as in the dream, what should I do?

For several days, I have become grandma's follower with a heavy heart, except for a quilt with grandma at night, as long as I leave the school, then I will definitely follow grandma every step of the way, and grandma is a little uncomfortable, "Sibao, why don't you have fun." ”

I shook my head and didn't answer, if my grandmother took medicine, I would keep an eye on it, for fear that my grandmother would vomit blood when she turned her head and wouldn't tell us from us, so I stared at it strictly for more than a month, until the day when the fairy said in my dream, my heart was temporarily released.

Occasionally, when I get out of school, I still go to the shop near the bright moon to hang out for a while, time passes day by day, and my grandmother doesn't let me mention it, Uncle Shen's matter seems to have really been forgotten, but I know that Uncle Shen will not be forgotten, but everyone in the family is afraid, afraid that something will happen to Uncle Shen, and that someone will come to find trouble.

I will still wait, with that faint anxiety in my heart, I think, even if Uncle Shen really goes to the city and becomes seriously ill, even if Lu Xingyue's family will be angry with us and will put the responsibility on our heads, then Lu Xingyue should not be like in my dream, the dream should be the opposite, isn't it.

Lu Xingyue said that I have a privilege in him, I can call him my name, and he will put up with me to let me, even if he is unreasonably angry, then he should come back and make his words clear, and leaving quietly is not his character and style at all.

For a long time, I felt conflicted in my heart, thinking about Lu Xingyue, but I was afraid of hearing bad news, although I was in a tangled state, I still couldn't help but walk to the entrance of the village to look.

It's a pity that there is really too much rain this summer, and in the heavy rain one after another, my mood is also wet in contradictions and complications.

Xiao Liu sometimes waits with me, his thoughts are obviously simple and pure, he just likes Lu Xingyue, and, thinking about the four-wheel drive car he wants Lu Xingyue to buy, he asked me that I can call Lu Xingyue secretly, so that we can find him.

But I can only tell him one unfortunate news, that is, the note left by Lu Xingyue for reimbursement in the muddy water when I ran towards Grandpa Chen, those pinyin, those numbers, just like Lu Xingyue, there is not even a shadow.

Until the summer vacation, I didn't rush to my uncle as before, either around my grandmother, or around the entrance of the village, waiting and waiting, but I didn't wait for Lu Xingyue, but I waited for my eldest brother to come back.

That's right, it's my big brother of the family tree, he was gathered back as a hero.

In the late part of August, just when I thought it would be my most hated and memorable summer, he came back, and instead of going back to the village directly, he first went to the county to make a report and read the newspaper, and then the village chief organized the village people to beat gongs and drums to welcome the eldest brother back.

I followed the back of the crowd, watching my eldest brother walking towards the village in civilian clothes with a smile, and my aunt following him, all the way she kept saying, "Second-class merit!" You know! Our family's home tree is second-class merit!! ”

But when I looked at my eldest brother's smiling face, I couldn't laugh at all, because the left half of his arm was gone, and the half-tied cuffs stinged my eyes for a moment.

The village chief organized everyone to applaud, holding a loudspeaker and kept saying, "In this flood relief, Xue Jiashu not only won glory for our village, but also the hero of our entire nation. We have only heard of third-class merit, who has ever seen second-class merit! Only those who have made outstanding contributions to the country and the people are eligible for this military merit medal!! ”

The three fat chewed his tongue in front of me and whispered, "What's the use of this thing, you see the family tree is happy, this son has been put in, and he will be disabled in the future, and it is not easy to find a daughter-in-law without an arm." ”

"Not really."

The woman next to her nodded, "This is no matter how great the honor is, it can't be worth a good body, this tree can only be cated at home in the future, fortunately, the left arm is missing half of it, if the right arm is gone, this is even more inconvenient." ”

"The left and right arms are missing that line, don't say anything, the family tree is a little back, who told him to hit this flood that has not been encountered in a hundred years, this is also an arm, and he will take back a military medal, which is a meal or can be used as money......"

I didn't speak, I walked back to the Mingyue store sullenly and directly touched the bag and scratched it out, and stood behind the two old ladies secretly, 'wipe' and stretched out my hand, and then threw it at the feet of the two of them and flashed directly.

After the ringing, the two old ladies jumped to their feet in fright, "Hey! Whose unlucky child is so damaged! Playing with firecrackers will not be far away!! ”

I stared at them both from afar, thinking to myself, I'm saying that I don't like to hear it, I'll throw it at you's head!

Wave after wave of people went to the house of the eldest brother of Jiashu to express their condolences, first the village chief of our village took the team secretary and the women's director, and when they left, there were also the team leaders of each team and the village backbone.

I wondered, why can't these people come together, every time they say the same thing, why can't they send a representative to work together, I watched my eldest brother sit on the kang in the house and couldn't sit steadily, and my heart was angry, plus I have been squeezed behind, many times I have obviously entered the house and been pushed out by these adults, this fire makes me nest, I just want to say a few words to my eldest brother why is it so difficult.

From noon to afternoon, I had to come in from outside the house, holding the door frame and looking at the eldest brother who was sitting on the kang to take a breath and drink water. Come on in! ”

I haven't seen him for more than a year, and when I see my eldest brother again, I am a little instinctively shy, and I raised my feet and walked in front of him, "Big brother." ”

He looked at me with a smile, very kind and excited, "Ah, I've grown so much taller, Xiaoliu, didn't he come with you!" ”

I shook my head, "Grandma said, there must be a lot of leaders in the village who want to come to see you today, let's not come to disturb you, and come together tomorrow, but I miss you, so I came with someone." ”

"Big brother misses you too!"

As he spoke, stretching out his arm to take his bag, I saw that he was a little inconvenient and wanted to help him carry it, but he didn't lift it for a while, and the eldest brother looked at me and couldn't help laughing, "Sibao, you are much more sensible than before!" ”

I didn't say anything, and when I looked closely, my eldest brother was really a lot darker and thinner, which was really different from my previous impression of him who was weak and weak with a sketchpad on his back.

He put the duffel bag on the kang with one hand, then unzipped it with one hand, took out a large bag of candy and handed it to me, "This is what I specially brought back to you and Xiaoliu, don't keep it for yourself, when you become a sister, you want to eat it with your younger brother, you know." ”

I didn't answer, looked at him and shook his head, "I don't want it, you eat." ”

The eldest brother was stunned, "What's the matter, I don't like candy anymore, I remember, you used to like candy the most." ”

I looked at his arm, but my eyes were a little red, "Your arm is gone......"

The eldest brother looked at me in a daze, then pulled the corners of his mouth again, and touched my head with his hand, "It's okay, isn't there another one, don't delay the ...... of the eldest brother's painting"

I sniffed hard, and my eyes looked at my eldest brother's tied sleeves, "But, there's still one ...... missing."

The eldest brother looked at me very seriously and shook his head, "The eldest brother knows that you feel sorry for me, but it doesn't matter, I won't delay anything, do you know, in this flood fight, I have several comrades-in-arms who have sacrificed, do you know the meaning of sacrifice, that is, the people are gone, the eldest brother is very lucky compared to them, and I feel very honored, because I have helped others, right?" ”

I nodded and wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes, "Well, you are a hero, and Xiaoliu and I also want to be heroes." ”

The eldest brother exhaled softly, "Sibao, my family used to want you to cry, but I think, don't cry, everything, we have to think about something, the eldest brother is just missing half of his arm, but the eldest brother can still draw, run and jump, right?" Come, take the candy and go back to eat it with Xiaoliu. ”

I took the big bag of candy and said, "That's too much." ”

"Not much, the previous four treasures will not be too much!"

The eldest brother took out something from his bag the same, "This is still for grandma, I don't need you to bring it, it's too heavy, I'll give it to her tomorrow when grandma comes." ”

I didn't have words, I watched my eldest brother want to say a lot, but I didn't know what I could say, but I felt uncomfortable looking at his missing half of his arm, and I felt that the sleeves tied together were particularly eye-catching.

"Yo! Bao Si is here too! ”

After the eldest aunt sent the guests into the house, she looked at me and immediately opened her mouth, "Hurry up and go home, let your eldest brother rest more!" ”

"Mom, I'm fine, let Sibao play here for a while."

The eldest aunt frowned, "You've been tired all day, Bao Si, come back tomorrow......"

I answered, carrying the big bag of candy out of the house, walking to the gate of the courtyard felt really too much, after thinking about it, I still felt that I had to leave a part for the eldest brother, but as soon as I returned to the door of the house, I heard the voice of the eldest aunt coming out, "Jiashu, it's not that my mother said you, why are you so close to that Bao Si, so much sugar, why did you give it to her, I don't know if I want to leave some for your grandma's younger brothers and sisters!" You don't know how far and near! ”

"Buy it again, where can I buy sugar......

"Shhh Is that a sugar thing? How many times have I told you, stay away from that kid! You don't know if she's a mourning star, whoever is close to her is unlucky!! ”

"Mom! How do you talk, Sibao is just a child, why is he unlucky, okay, don't bother me, I want to lie down by myself for a while. ”

"You still don't believe the damn! Look at your grandmother's family, there is a good person! Your father, that leg was broken before and after she was born, and then your second aunt and your second aunt's child were gone, and your second uncle still had a convulsion, and you were too ...... grandmother."

"My grandmother is old and will die at the end of her life, don't you do everything to a child's head!"

"Are you tough with me, you look at your grandmother's current physique, saying that the stomach is not good, that thin, let me tell you, maybe your arms are all from this child, the most treacherous of them is her parents, throw her here, hey, just the people around her, who treats her well, she is who! You can give me a long memory, how far away from her can be! ”

"You're not done! My arm is flood fighting! What does it have to do with the Four Treasures! I'm in a hurry with you when I say this again!! ”