"Alas, you kid is still working with me, right, who has been feeling sorry for you all the way to take care of you, you said that you have only one arm left now, what can you do in the future, shout to me, you hurt your mother's heart too much, you ......"

I didn't want to listen to the rest of the words, I silently turned around and walked in the direction of my house with the big bag of candy, if someone said that about me, I think I would be angry, and I don't know what I will do.

But when my aunt said this about me, I didn't want my eldest brother to know that I heard it, and I was so sad that I couldn't tell why.

When he passed by the door of the house, Xiao Liu was playing there, "Ah! Fourth sister, where did you get so much sugar! Who gave it to you! “

"My eldest brother gave it to me."

He ran to me with excited eyes, "Really, didn't grandma say that the genius let us go, why did you go by yourself, isn't Brother Jiashu particularly spirited?" ”

I didn't say much, I shoved the bag into his hand, "You go tomorrow, you go and tell my grandmother, I'll go to my uncle's and come back in a few days." ”

"Huh? School is about to start, have you finished your homework, fourth sister...... Fourth Sister?!! ”

I didn't reply to him, I ran as fast as I could, as if as long as I ran with all my strength and ran hard, I could dissipate the depression and depression that had accumulated for months.

The whole way was smooth, find the door, get in-

It wasn't until I ran into my uncle's yard that I saw him watering the vegetable patch and opened his mouth slightly aggrieved, "Uncle." ”

My uncle was still smiling lightly, only glanced at me, and then continued to water the vegetable patch, but did not answer.

In front of my uncle, I didn't want to hide my emotions at all, I watched him take a few steps forward, and continued to speak with a pout...... I used to just think that my aunt didn't like my grandmother very much, but I didn't expect my aunt to say that behind my back, and that I was a mourning star, uncle, I was really hard, was it really a mourning star who killed my second aunt. ”

Uncle didn't hurry to put the water scoop on the stone platform on the side, looked at me, and pointed to his heart, "You ask yourself, are you?" ”

"I ......"

I shook my head, "No. ”

Uncle chuckled, "Ask again." ”

I sniffed and shook my head, "No, I'm not." ”

My uncle nodded, walked out of the vegetable field and looked at me carefully, "People have a hundred mouths, eat a thousand kinds of food, and the words that come out will be good everywhere, so you never need to go to others to find the answers you want, what you have to ask is just yourself, if you think you are, then you are, but you think you are not, you are not, it's as simple as that." ”

"However, I will be sad and unhappy after hearing this......"

My uncle touched my head, "Why are you unhappy?" ”

"Because, she's not right, I'm ...... Anyway, she has no evidence, why should she say that about me without evidence. ”

I don't know if what I said was too childish, but my uncle laughed softly, "Bao Si, since you think what she said is wrong, then why do you care." ”

I looked at my uncle, "I don't know, it's just that I feel very uncomfortable and aggrieved." ”

Uncle exhaled lightly, "You have to remember, the sea is not overflowing, the big mirror contains more than everything, if the heart is not strong, that ant can also step on your feet and hurt, you are still too young, the most important thing to sharpen is your heart, the heart is strong, some words, naturally I don't care." ”

I looked at my uncle as if I didn't understand, "Is it that I won't care about this when I grow up in the future." ”

"There's still a long way to go......"

Uncle took my hand and entered the house, "Uncle knows, you came to me, not just because you felt wronged today, right?" ”

I followed my uncle's side and lowered my eyes sullenly, "Uncle, I'm afraid I'm too stupid, I won't be able to be a big gentleman in the future." ”

The uncle shook his head with a smile, poured a cup of tea after entering the house, sat on the chair and looked at me lightly, "You mean you're stupid?" ““

I still nodded with my eyes down, "Well, I'm stupid. ”

Uncle gently shook the teacup in his hand, "Then you may not be the Bao Si I know, the Bao Si I know is a quirky little girl, she is not only lively and smart but also very bold, do you know, when she understands that she has been deceived, and dares to go to the dead man's ditch to vent her anger, you say, is she very powerful?" ”

I raised my eyes in surprise and looked at my uncle, "You, you know everything?" ”

My uncle looked at me happily, "Of course I know, I just want to see if Bao Si is the one she said herself...... Well, stupid girl. ”

I scratched my head and looked at my uncle, "I thought, I thought you ...... Then you know that the stele fairy is fooling me in a dream, right? So you remind me! ”

Uncle was still smiling, "I just want to see if Bao Si really doesn't want to be a gentleman." ”

"I, it's not that I don't want to do it, I'm just afraid that I won't be able to learn."

I looked at my uncle seriously and said what was in my heart, "But after I was deceived by that stele immortal, I don't want to be a gentleman at all, I have to be a gentleman, and I want to be a great gentleman, so that I can protect my family and help more people." ”

Uncle nodded, "Since you have made up your mind, then why are you afraid of being a bad gentleman." ”

"Because, I'm afraid I won't be able to be Mr. Big!"

I expressed my opinion a little anxiously, "That stele immortal is very powerful, grandma said, she can't figure out the ability of that stele immortal, so I'm afraid that I won't be able to do that stele immortal if I don't be powerful in the future!" ”

The uncle didn't say much, but still pointed to his heart, "In the future, when you encounter this kind of problem, you don't need to ask anyone, you just need to ask yourself, you think you can, you can, understand." ”

"But...... Uncle, I don't understand a little, why should I cry to have understanding, to be able to water my Huigen, I hate to cry, and I don't want to cry......"

Uncle looked at me and shook his head gently, "The enlightenment you are talking about now is just some enlightenment given to you in the Tao, so that you can learn to be a gentleman, not a real enlightenment, you have to remember, a real gentleman is able to understand the seven feelings, know the eight sufferings, only after the vicissitudes of life, can you understand life itself, shocked and feel meaningless, and know peace, this is also the reason why many obsessed people can only realize after death, and you were born limited by the White Tiger Star, and you don't know the pain and sorrow, how can you be a gentleman?"

Bao Si, you remember, your crying, not to make you cry, but to let you understand the seven feelings, know sorrow, and only in this way, can you be a gentleman, for example, you used to be very bold and did not know fear, but when someone told you that you were afraid of sneaky things, what did you feel in your heart? ”

I looked at my uncle half-ignorantly, "I just don't know what they are afraid of, I feel very, very ......."

"Ridiculous, isn't it?"

I nodded, "Hmm." ”

The uncle patiently continued to speak, "What about now." ”

"...... Now"

I remembered the things that came to my house that night to hook Uncle Shen's soul, "I'm also a little scared, they are all different, how scary they are, and they will have charming eyes, which makes people ......"

"Then if I tell you that they're all out right now and let you out, will you?"

I shook my head, "No, the soul will be snatched away." ”

Uncle smiled, "But you are a gentleman, what will you do if someone comes to you to deal with this problem, you used to be bold, but you rushed out directly." ”

"Then I have to see what kind of thing it is, otherwise I won't be ......."

Saying that, I seemed to understand what my uncle meant, "Uncle, I understand, being a gentleman is to help others, if you don't understand anything, then you must not know the depths, and then not only can you not help others, but you will also harm yourself, right?" ”

Uncle nodded, got up and took out a box from a cabinet, the box was a little big, but I had never seen my uncle take it out, I looked at it carefully, until my uncle opened it in front of me, I was slightly stunned, "Uncle, here, how is it a straw man." ”

It was a small hay man, only the size of a palm, with a red thread tied around his neck, and a long needle tied in the back, my uncle looked at me and chuckled, took out the straw man and took out a piece of paper in the box, the paper was not small, it could be as long as my arm after unfolding, and it was all pictures, there were mountains, trees and houses, I looked carefully, and my eyes gradually widened, "Ah, this is our village, Baishan Village!" As I spoke, my hand pointed to a house on the map, "This is my home!" ”

Then I looked down the direction of my house, looked at a place with dirt bags painted and smiled, "Uncle, this is a dead man's ditch, but it doesn't look like a ......."

The uncle pointed to the little straw man in a gentle tone, "Then do you know who this is?" ”

I shook my head, "I don't know, who." “

The uncle didn't speak, he casually drew a talisman that I couldn't understand, lit it and circled around the straw man three times, then closed his eyes and his upper and lower lips and gently recited silently, then opened his eyes, bit his middle finger and pointed a little at the position on the strawman's head, "Get up!" ”

The straw man rose from the ground and quickly moved across the paper to a mountain-like portrait and stood still.

I froze, looking at the straw man, "Yes, it will move." ”

The uncle smiled kindly and kindly, "You jump." ”

"Huh?"

Although I didn't understand, I still jumped on the spot, and at the same time, the straw man actually jumped too!

"Yikes! It's, it's learned from me......"

I looked at the straw man in shock, and I jumped around, but the straw man was also jumping on the paper like a little neurotic, I was not convinced, and walked around backwards and forwards, and the straw man also followed me back and forth, left and right, I was in a hurry, and lay down on the spot, and the straw man also lay on the spot as if he was hanging......

"Uncle, it, how can it be exactly the same as my movements."

My uncle motioned for me to get up and pointed to the location on the paper, "Look, which mountain this mountain is, and where is the little house on it." ”

I watched carefully as the straw man got up as I got up, slowly rubbing on the paper, "Below is the Dead Man's Ditch, and then ...... Up there, it's you!! ”

"So what about ......"

I gasped and pointed at the straw man, "Is this me?" ”

Uncle raised his eyebrows, "Otherwise, how do I know what you have done, is it possible, Uncle is at home?" ”

"Wow......"

I couldn't believe it and looked at the straw man and shook his head, and the straw man also shook his head there, "It's too godly, my uncle is too godly, that, that straw man, no, how can there be a needle in the back of my neck......"

My uncle didn't say much, but when I was looking at the straw man intently, he reached out and touched my neck, and I hissed and grinned, only to see that the straw man fell as if he had suddenly lost his spirituality......

"Hey, it's down, uncle, it's ......"

I reached out and rubbed my uncle's fingertips, but I saw my uncle's fingertips pulling a grass thorn as long as a fingernail, "What is this?" ”

Uncle looked at me and sighed, "This is what I gave you when you were preparing to go to school, I don't know if you remember, you need to go to school at that time, and my uncle is also afraid that you will cause trouble at school." ”

I opened my eyes wide, "Ah, I remember, it was the first time I came here when my grandmother picked me up, the back of my neck suddenly hurt, uncle, you gave me a thorn?" ”

Now that I think about it, I thought that something in my uncle's hand had pricked me, it turned out to be this, no wonder the back of my neck hurt when I couldn't sit still, it was all the credit of this grass thorn!

Uncle didn't see an extra expression on his face, just picked up the straw man and pulled out the long needle behind him, "This is a kind of Taoist magic, to put it bluntly, this straw man is your stand-in made by me, it is composed of thirty-six grass sections, each section is your body, your person, the practice of sparse text needs to be read, open your body to open your face, open your eyes to see clearly, open your ears to listen to the sun, who you are born with the same year, the same month, the same day, open your head is to raise money, open your feet is to kick the fierce burden, if you want to punish the mountain, If you want to conquer the sea, you want to destroy the big tree, and you have no punishment and no protection, I serve the old king, and the gods are as urgent as the law. ”

As he spoke, my uncle looked at me, "Then, just use this needle to take some blood from your fingertips, pierce it to the back of the straw man's neck, tie it with red thread, and implant the grass thorns on the straw man's fingertips into your neck, you are this grass man and this grass man is also you, understand." ”

I looked at my uncle blankly, "Are you afraid that I will be disobedient, so you made one of me?" ”

Uncle sighed softly, "Bao Si, in fact, Uncle doesn't like to do such a thing, because this spell is despised in the eyes of the righteous way, and only crooked and evil ways like it, but your grandmother is really afraid that you will cause trouble, so Uncle must stare at you, so he made a straw man to prevent you from doing trouble and making your grandmother sad." ”

I opened my mouth, "Then why, let me know now......"

If my uncle doesn't talk about this thing for a day, then I won't know for a day, even if it's in the stories of those gentlemen that my uncle has told, then I can't think of it for a while, I haven't cried so much, I can't remember so many things.

Although I felt amazing at once, and then I felt that I felt as if I could be known about everything I was unhappy with no privacy, but now I have no privacy in total, and I don't care too much about this, and as long as I think about my uncle's good for me, he is afraid that I can't sit still at school, and I am afraid that I will cause trouble, I can understand him, and I will not be angry with my uncle.

My uncle touched my head, "Because your heart is fixed, since you are determined to be a good gentleman and understand good and evil, then I don't need to restrain you through this straw man." ”

After speaking, the uncle bent down and took a clay pot, lit a fire, threw the straw man and the drawing all into it and burned it, "Bao Si, as an elder, I am afraid that you will take detours and endure hardships in the future, but as your master, I think what I can do is to teach you the magic and educate you to be a man, everything in the future is suffering, it is difficult, it is all the calamities you have to overcome, all the choices are handed over to you for the teacher, do not interfere, do not do the cause of suffering, all the requirements of the teacher for you are to hope that you can be kind and have a conscience, so, To be a teacher is to be satisfied. ”

I looked at the clean-burned straw man and the big drawings, and my neck was more relaxed than I had ever been, "Uncle, then aren't you afraid that I will do something wrong in the future." ”

Uncle smiled meaninglessly, "No mistake is right, the ear will only form a shackle on you, so that you will have more restraints in the future and increase the pain, and its effect is only counterproductive, no benefit, I need you to remember, only good and evil, the rest of the way, as a teacher, you will be handed over to yourself."

Mr. needs to cross the catastrophe and rise, the person who becomes a great instrument will have a bad fate, if you read the vicissitudes of the world, there will be laughter and tears, everything, should be born with the trend, the uncle believes in Bao Si's own choice. ”

I still nodded as if I didn't understand, "Even in the future, if I have anything, I will ask my heart, as long as it is based on good thoughts, it will be right." ”

My uncle patted me on the shoulder, as if to say to me, and as if he was talking to himself, "There is no good and no disgusting body, there are good and malicious movements, knowing good and knowing evil is conscience, and going to evil for good is a thing." ”

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Regarding the last four sentences that my uncle said to me at that time, in fact, I didn't understand them, but I vaguely knew that my uncle's request for me was two words, good and evil.

It was I who strengthened my determination to be a gentleman and understood some simple principles of good and evil, so my uncle took out the grass thorn on the back of my neck, because he said that he really didn't like to do this, in fact, this grass thorn should have been taken out after I cried, but because of my hesitation, he didn't move.

Now that I have made up my mind, then he will not use a thorn of grass to control my own actions, everything will be left to myself, as he said, he is only responsible for teaching me the magic to cultivate my conscience, the way, I will go by myself.

In fact, I think that even if my uncle doesn't take out the grass thorns, he doesn't like to interfere with me, at least I know that he can control me, he can let me do what he wants, I thought about it carefully for a long time, and I can probably be sure that when my uncle controls me, it will make the back of my neck hurt, like a thread tied to me, of course, this must be the credit of the red thread on the straw man's neck, but he except for making me sit still when I couldn't sit still in school before, the rest of the time, I was allowed to develop freely.

Although I think this thorn in the grass under my uncle hurts me a lot, but from a realistic point of view, if he doesn't go, then the school is tantamount to a torture ground for me, I must not be able to sit still in a class before I open my mind, and I don't know what kind of basket I will poke out.

And the most important thing is that he didn't let this grass thorn stay in the back of my neck for many years, he took out the grass thorn when I knew some responsibilities and knew the need for self-restraint, although I knew that he gave me a grass thorn, but his action not only did not make me uncomfortable, but I understood my uncle's hard work for me.

Although I am still young, I am old enough for me to understand any truth and have my own careful thoughts, to be honest, although his education mode has always been 'free-range' after taking me as an apprentice from my uncle, I am also a little afraid, afraid that one day my uncle will be like a grandmother or a teacher and forbid me to do something when instilling some life principles in me.

It's like grandma doesn't like me to be with Lu Xingyue, she doesn't say it directly, but that kind of roundabout reminder will make me nervous, I don't know why I can't contact Lu Xingyue, but I'm afraid that my grandmother will be disobedient and make her unhappy, so I choose to hide my heart and try to make myself satisfied with my grandma but I can't really hate Lu Xingyue.

And the teacher doesn't talk about it, what she often talks about is that if you don't study, then you will be scum in the future, I don't understand, I want to ask the teacher why he will become scum if he doesn't study, learning is linked to ideology and morality, and some people should become scum if they study well.

Of course, there are countless questions at my age, but there are very few people who can give me real answers.

When you are in a hurry, adults will always throw out a sentence, 'I am for your good'!

It's these five words, but they can't give you a reason to accept the bondage with peace of mind, it makes no sense, it's like all the rules in the world are prescribed by them, and you have to do what they tell you to do, they say that if it's not good, it's not good, if you break it, it's not following the rules, then you will be punished.

In fact, I know what is good and what is not, but I don't like someone to prescribe a preconceived framework for me before I have even been exposed to something that can even be said to be illusory.

For example, the teacher said that if you can't get into college, it's a waste, and the second uncle said that you should stay away from Lu Xingyue just because I'm a girl, and these can't stand scrutiny.

Is it a waste if I really can't get into college, Lu Xingyue bullied me at the beginning, I naturally stayed away from him, but he didn't bully me anymore, he was good to me, can't we still be friends.

The heart can be very tiring, and these boxes that have been with me since birth can sometimes be really tiring.

Therefore, when my uncle said that all the choices were left to me, and he would not restrain me more, I was relaxed, as if I could suddenly spit out a breath of breath, I knew that my uncle just wanted me to be a good person, and I would go and choose the rest of the way.

Uncle said that when a fortune teller debuted, what he wanted to prove most was accuracy, and this accuracy depended on his mouth to keep talking, but how to evaluate his realm depends on when he understands the truth of 'not saying'.

Of course, the word realm is too far away for me, and I am glad that I will be my uncle's apprentice, even if he sometimes looks at me and sighs, saying that he feels sorry for me, but from my master's point of view, he will not restrain me or restrict me while educating me.

I think, in the eyes of my uncle, now I am like a young bird, he teaches me how to take off, how to hunt, until I am full-fledged, he is letting me fly by myself, he will not deliberately remind me where there will be an eagle's nest, where there will be a hunter's muzzle, whether it is a blessing or a curse, it depends on my heart's choice.

As he said, how can there be a gentleman who does not need to cross the catastrophe, whether he can climb high and look far, or give up halfway, everything depends on his own creation.

That's right, I am myself, what I need to do is to tell myself that in the future, I will fly bravely and hard, and I will do it with my arms in my arms, and I must not disgrace my uncle's reputation and give up halfway!

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