"All hopes?"

I repeated the words softly, then turned my face to look at him again, "Am I going to kill myself?" ”

He was a little speechless at the calm river, "Who told you to kill yourself?" ”

After speaking, he faced me with a look of forcing himself to be patient enough, "Let go, is it suicide?" ”

I didn't answer, but he put the fishing rod in his hand to his side and carefully put it up, "I ask you, do you feel relaxed after you realized the white fox's stubbornness and put it down?" ”

Nodding, "Yes." ”

He turned his back on his hand, his eyes looked at me, bright but not sharp, as moist as jade, "Since you have understood it, why did you choose to commit suicide, the last taste you want to experience, although it is called all thoughts are lost, but who let you die......"

I'm confused.

"I, I'm not ...... if I let go"

He took a step closer to me and pointed to his head, "Since you have thought of the root of the phase and know the white fox's delusion, why take the most extreme step if you want to let go?" ”

Before the words fell, he pointed to his heart again, "You ask yourself, do you really feel that what you are doing is right, if you see everything that is not the same, that is, if you see it as it is, since you have been enlightened and got this sentence, then you should understand, after seeing through everything is not troubled, your realm is high, then nothing can affect your heart, you can choose to find a temple, beyond your white fox obsession, isn't it?" ”

I have nothing to say.

Looking for a temple to go to the White Fox?

You really don't have a backache when you stand and speak, and in that case, if I find a temple, I'll go straight to myself.

"My waist is good, don't talk about me in your heart......"

I shuddered as I listened to his teasing tone, and covered my heart, "Can you ...... that"

He raised his hand, his eyes still looking directly at me, "That's right, you got the last taste of love, and surpassed the white fox by an extreme means, and understood that all thoughts are lost, but is this all thoughts disillusioned by your fear or your deep avoidance?" ”

"I ......"

His hand raised and pointed to my chest, suddenly a little aggressive, "You ask yourself, Xue Baosi, you, really...... Put it down. ”

I looked at his eyes, my mind was unusually lucid, and my thinking seemed to be boundless, I thought of Lu Pei, thought of my second uncle, thought of Xiaoliu and An Jiu-

The mouth opened, "Isn't it, if you really let go, then your heart won't hurt?" ”

The master raised his eyebrows slightly, "Of course, if you see through the foundation of all things, you can become an immortal, and I can help you here......"

"Nope."

I shook my head, "I don't want to be an immortal, I don't want to lie, perhaps, I am a little extreme when I don't experience the last taste, and my thinking is also distorted, just like you said, in my body, there is the delirium of the white fox, I want to let go, I feel relaxed, but when I face Lu Pei, my heart will ache, I will be reluctant, but I don't dare to think deeply, because I have no idea, you are right, probably, it is my escape, I want to escape, escape far away......"

finally understood why he was still heartbroken with Lu Pei when he ended the white fox's delirium!

Because I am reluctant, I am really reluctant!

I talked for a long time, my heart was pantothenic, but my eyes were dry, I faced this master, and my mind was very clear, he would not appear here for no reason, perhaps, it was to enlighten me, or, he was some unknown god and asked me something.

If I say that I let go completely, or that I really saw through everything, then maybe that's the standard answer.

Every gentleman who treads yin and yang, in the end, is probably pursuing this.

But I want to be honest, this is also my original character, what I used to hate the most was death, I felt that it was the most unproductive, the most cowardly approach, but I was forced into a desperate situation, I would actually compromise with myself, what an extreme person I am, I dare to kill myself.

I found that at this moment, I really saw a lot of things, since I was not afraid of death, why didn't I dare to face my life.

"I'm sorry, maybe I was wrong......"

Looking at the master, I slowly lowered my head, my eyes were like this, but I really wanted to cry, "This is my love calamity, people eat grains, you need to know all the flavors, why do I, after I die, I will understand all emotions, and I will see my own mistakes." ”

There was a slightly cool liquid dripping from the tip of his nose, and when he raised his eyes, it actually rained in the sky, and it fell into the river, and the water splashed lightly, rippling in bursts—

He stood still, "If you are given a chance to start over, what will you do if you use your heart that has tasted all the feelings of Baiwei now?" ”

"I'll ......"

I looked at the river in a daze, smiled and smiled gently, "I will knock on my husband's door and tell him that no matter what happens, I will share life and death with him, I will not leave him alone in the world, I will not leave him sad in a dark room, I will hold his hand and give him all my encouragement, I will let him see my heart clearly, how beautiful it is to love each other, why hurt each other, obviously, I can ......"

The rain was a bit heavy.

'Bang~', he held up an oil-paper umbrella, I have to say, his umbrella appeared suddenly, that's it, I'm in such a bad mood that he only holds himself up?!

Seeing that I was a little stunned, he didn't care, and his chin gestured, "Do you have hatred?" ”

I sniffed and didn't cry, but I still wanted to sniff, and the rain came into my mouth, so salty.

"Yes!"

I raised my face to look at him in the rain, "For me, or for everyone, the most important thing is nothing more than three things, family affection, love, pursuit, family affection and love are all that allow me to enrich my heart and help and support me to realize my dreams, what I hate the most is this injustice!" These three are obviously feelings of mutual dependence, why did he force me to make a choice! ”

The master nodded slightly, "So, do you regret it?" ”

I sneered, "You asked me this question, even if I die, I committed suicide to escape, but I still have no regrets, I Xue Baosi, all the way to enlightenment, even if I have done something wrong, the merits and demerits after that are enough to offset it, even if my body is all yin, I am also working hard, if I don't die, I will continue!" ”

He smiled, "You mean, it's never been a multiple-choice question for you, right?" ”

It's weird.

The rain was pouring down on his face, but his hair and clothes were not wet.

My eyes fell on the small splash of rain in the river, "This, you also asked, for me, of course not, but the master, you say that you are not a god, but you seem to have seen through everything, so can I ask you a question?" ”

"Okay."

I sighed, turned my face to look at him and smiled, "Your mother and your wife fell into the river, who are you going to save?" ”

He suddenly couldn't stop laughing, "Should I blame you for being disrespectful?" ”

I was a little puzzled, the rain, but at this time it was a little smaller, "Why blame me, it's my question you won't answer, this multiple-choice question, many people can't understand, in my previous opinion, the logic doesn't make sense at all, now, I just want to know your answer." ”

Isn't it to temper me?

At the very least, let me understand something.

He cleared his throat, looking at the river and the corners of his mouth were still smiling, "In this way, I will change the parties to your question a little, and become four, a god, a monk, a Taoist priest, and a mortal, if two people fall into the river in front of you at the same time, and the god passes by, who do you think he will save?" ”

I smiled softly, "The gods can save both, he just needs to wave his sleeves, and these two people can go ashore." ”

Simple, isn't it.

He continued to speak without any expression, "The monk is passing by." ”

I frowned slightly, "What kind of monk?" ”

"A monk who sees through everything, but these two people are close relatives of monks, oh, the premise, this monk is not very good at swimming, and if he goes down, he may also die."

His voice was soft, but I was a little silent, and after a while, he spoke, "The monk will chant on the shore and surpass his two most important people, because he has seen through everything, naturally, he looks down on life and death, and his mission is to save more people, so he has to live to save more people from the sea of suffering, and all living beings are equal in his eyes." ”

He still didn't react when he heard my answer, "The Taoist priest is passing by, the Taoist priest's situation is similar to that of the monk, he has seen through everything, but he is not very good at swimming, but in the water, there are his two most important people, what should he do?" ”

"Taoist ......"

Thinking was open again, "The mission of the Taoist priest is to maintain the balance of yin and yang, he can't die, for more people, he knows his mission, so he won't save anyone, if these two people drown in front of him, then he will rise the altar to help the soul die, if the soul does evil, he will be eliminated." ”

"Okay."

He nodded, "The last one, it's a human, he can't swim, what do you say he's going to do." ”

"He ......"

I was thinking hard, but I couldn't get an answer, people who couldn't see through everything were entangled, painful, and tortured themselves all the time.

"He might jump off and die together."

I shook my head, "No, even if he doesn't die, if he saves any of them, he will live in pain and self-blame for the rest of his life, and life is better than death." ”

"So, it's only people who suffer here."

He turned his face to look at me, "And the root cause of its pain is the feelings you need to understand, this is not a multiple-choice question, but you want to see through human nature, understand." ”

I looked into his eyes and raised my hand to my chest in a daze, "Mortal heart, mortal heart." ”

He raised his lips slightly, "There are two strokes of human characters, one is blood, and the other is meat, so people are born of love, and they are painful, as far as your question is concerned, it is not a choice, I will return the question to you, try to ask, what is the most important thing in human nature!" How, so as not to continue to suffer?! ”

I suddenly realized, "I have a clear conscience!!" ”

took a deep breath, "The reason why I am suffering is because I have a mortal heart, which is also the heart of a person, and being a human being is nothing more than what you choose, the most important thing is to have a clear conscience, and to do the right thing for heaven and earth to parents!" Then be fearless! ”

He smiled and nodded, "I just like your temper, rushing, but happy." ”

I also smiled, all the internal organs are relaxed, I once saw through the first step, in the entanglement of Lu Er and Dao Xing's multiple choice questions are extremely painful, I said to choose Lu Er, but I couldn't make up my mind, until I thought of attachment in the box, I can fight with the sky, fight with the earth, I want to protect my happiness.

The choice was very clear, even if I didn't regret it, but it was true that I was annoyed that my body was full of yin and hated in my heart, but now, I understand, it's just because I have a mortal heart, joy, anger, sorrow and fear, all I want to accept, what I want to do is just to formalize myself, accept myself, and cherish myself.

Don't hate yourself.

I looked at the river, "I understand that I will be in pain, but I can't accept myself, so I will do something to hurt myself, I am just a mortal." ”

"Then do you think about it now, do you think you took the wrong step?"

I shook my head and looked at him very firmly, "Except for the last death, all the roads ahead of me are unconsciously wrong......"

Seeing the smile in his eyes, I lifted my breath, "The suffering of the world is my calamity." I live, I will live, I die, and I have no regrets. ”

Rainwater Stops –

I watched the umbrella in the master's hand disappear with a little stunned, and touched my clothes, which were still dry.

"Why did it stop?"

The master sighed and sat back in his position and continued to pick up the fishing rod, "What do you say?" ”

I'm confused again, this, what's going on?

Why did he come out for a while, and looked around, "Where the hell is this, why is it still raining, after the rain, my face is wet, why are my clothes still not wet......

"You still don't understand?"

He looked at me gracefully, "This is your heart." ”

"My heart?"

I touched the remaining rain that had just fallen on my face, "So this is ...... My tears? ”

I looked up at the sky, so I cried not from tears in my eyes but from the rain?

Turning his head to look at the river again, "I cried all this?!" ”

O God!

In my twenty-four years of life, I cried out a big river with wide waves!

There was a terrifying feeling in an instant, as soon as this feeling came out, there was still a little wind, he frowned and looked at me, "Don't be so fluctuating in the mood...... Calm ......"

I didn't care about this god, I turned my head to look at the flowers and trees beside me, "I don't have this in my heart, I have dreamed that my heart is all loess, very dry......"

He didn't pick up the stubble, he just left me time to digest it by himself, I patted my head, "Did I cry because of the birds and flowers here?" I'm emotionally rich, so my heart isn't full of loess? ”

Mom, I was stupid, I thought of the scene when I was a child, and suddenly I saw a figure from under a tree, and I took a few steps forward with some surprise, the tree seemed to open a curtain, I saw a three- or four-year-old child desperately drilling into a chicken coop, and the old man behind was shouting loudly, "Four treasures!" Come out! It doesn't lay eggs in the bucket!! ”

My eyes widened slowly, the child was me, the old man, my grandmother.

The picture seemed to follow my thoughts, and the next second, it became the scene of the seven or eight-year-old me listening to my grandmother's story with my face drowsy.

It's very real, like a fast-forward movie I made, I watched myself grow up little by little, and I watched myself spit on Lu Pei's millet porridge -

"Poof."

The master actually chuckled, "You were really funny when you were a child." ”

I looked back at him, he was sitting by the river with his back to me, and he didn't turn his face back, he knew everything I saw, he didn't think too much, I looked at the picture again, I grew up quickly, and my eyes and smile seemed to be so clear-

When I came to Ben Thanh and even went to school, as long as I calmed down slightly, I could see the details.

Until I saw myself in that warehouse, I was huddled in the pile of cardboard boxes with misty eyes, I deliberately looked at this place very carefully, a car broke in, that week the madman really stood on the railing, very surprised to see Lu Pei shouted, and Lu Pei, but ran straight towards me, he hugged my shoulder and called my name, but I touched his face like a blind man......

The rain began to fall again.

I covered my mouth and watched the madman jump down with his head down, but Lu Pei whispered nervous comfort to me, he ran into the car with me in his arms, his face was full of anxiety, I was confused, my eyes were half open and half closed, and Uncle Lei, Uncle Lei did come over and say a few words to me, and then got in the car-

With a sniff, I waved my hand to stop the scene.

"Why don't you continue?"

I don't want to deal with him, can I let you see what happened later!

After a long pause, the rain finally stopped.

I turned around in a daze, sat down beside him in a few steps, and looked at the river in a daze.

After a while, he spit out a sentence, "Master, when will I go on the road?" ”