He has always lied to me, but he has refused to give me an explanation; Thou art loving me, yet ^ thou shalt be honest with thyself—just as every time I know that you are lying to me, yet I lie to you that I believe; It's like every time I know that you make excuses to lie to yourself, but let you be an ostrich for the rest of your life......

When the assassin's sword was only at your throat, I suddenly understood this truth - you can risk your life to save me from this dilemma that we will never get out of in our lives, but refuse to admit it; I, even if it's worth your life, don't deserve your admit—or maybe you can't forgive yourself for falling in love with me!

With this realization, it can actually be regarded as comfort, she is not purely using me, is she? Holding her and turning sharply - I could see that the female Assassin was showing mercy to her men, and I knew it wasn't worth it, but—

It has become my insistence to not see her in the slightest danger, and not to see her being hurt in front of me......

"Lu Siniang, if you dare to touch him, I will ask your senior brother and them to accompany him to the funeral. I know all about you, you have to think clearly! ”

It turns out that they have known each other for a long time, in fact, I can see from their eyes that she is reluctant to say this-she has long been in contact with these rebels, and even more, from her usual style, it can be inferred that those people must be used by her to the end, squeezing out the last of their value-just like me, knowing that she is in league with them, but still standing in front of her......

The wound on the shoulder brings not only a hot pain, but a desolation - the desolation that sees clearly, but still can't let go, understands everything but would rather understand nothing! The desolation was like the feeling of my blood that was constantly being drained, a chill, as bleak as my face, as sad as I still tried my best to clasp hands that I would not let go.

It turns out that all the strength in my life, the last strength, is used to hold her!

She looked at me, and I saw the damn forbearance in her eyes again—she was a dead-eyed woman, and her instincts told her that I was dangerous! It took me more than a decade to prove that I could make peace with her, that I would never plot against her, and that the outcome would be the same.

"Don't pass on the Imperial Doctor yet! I- I'll send you back first, the wound needs to stop bleeding. ”

I covered my wound hard, the blood loss made me dizzy a little, but I regretted that the assassin had gone too fast. The moment the sword pierced into my shoulder, I finally read the distress in your eyes all the year round - you can obviously take advantage of this situation, if I die, there will be no one in the entire court to fight you!

You've finally made a mistake too. Because I; Do you know. This small mistake is enough for me to forgive myself for all the mistakes you have made all the time......

"No, I don't. Qiyun. You can explain it well. How did you get up to the wire with these rebels? "You want everything to be clear to me, don't you? Good. I will fulfill you. Calculate it carefully with you. I want to know. How much do you think you can owe me! "Niu Lu Qiyun. Don't tell me you never knew the Assassin. I won't believe it. ”

"If I told you, I wouldn't say anything. What will you do to me? ”

I knew my grip hurt her. I was so cruel to ignore that. I love to see her trying to break free. But I was torn apart by the fact that it would tear my wounds. There is a time for land. I could only rely on her subtle movements to keep telling myself. She cares about my land. A little bit. Really—I was a heartless person. And to fall in love with such an indifferent woman. Even a heartless person like me can only persevere to this day by constantly searching for courage......

"Don't force me to interrogate you myself. Who is this Assassin? How do you know each other? ”

"Aren't you interrogating me now? Fourth elder brother. What are you going to interrogate me? Interrogating me, I blew myself up to save you. Still—still. Do you want me to regret coming to save you? ”

In less than a quarter of an hour, her sanity was all in place—she regretted coming to my rescue, and she regretted it only a quarter of an hour after she had done this stupid thing! gave me hope, but it only killed my hope after half a quarter of an hour, and cruelly treated me with the same attitude as every political enemy: "I am not the seventeenth elder brother, I don't need you to save me!" ”

"Wechen obeyed. The next time His Majesty is assassinated, Weichen will definitely hide far away, Your Majesty can rest assured. ”

"You-" I almost fainted as a result of my anger, I inhaled desperately—no matter what, I just didn't want to faint in front of her: "Niu Lu Qiyun, you are the most unconscionable woman in the world!" ”

I don't want to lose face in front of her, I don't want to lose dominance in front of her, and more importantly - I don't want to scare her, I don't want her to worry, even if I know clearly and clearly in my heart that this woman will never be scared, and she will never worry about me more......

"Your Majesty! Niu Lu Qiyun died a year ago, and it was His Majesty's personal order to force the Seventeenth Elder Brother to kill her......"

"Stop! Where are you going? ”

"I'm going home."

"You can't leave until things are figured out!" I struggled to get up, but I didn't succeed because of blood loss: "Unless you tell me about your relationship with those traitors, you-"

"How else? If Your Majesty is not at ease, you can ask the people from the Zongren Mansion to arrest me and go back for questioning. The slave seems to remember that the Heart Cultivation Hall has never been a place to interrogate prisoners, and I am not a prisoner! ”

"Zongren's Mansion is all your people!" She hates me, or because of Brother Seventeen! Because of her, I resisted the urge to break the old seventeen into pieces, as my only jealous revenge, completely

I got on me: "Okay, I can't touch you, but I don't believe in your business." T doesn't know at all. I don't have to ask you, I'm going to ask him! ”

"You dare! Aixinjue Luo Yinzhen, the two of us will solve the matter by ourselves. Don't threaten me with Brother Seventeen again, I won't be threatened by anyone again.

”

She approached me, her eyes full of anger, completely ignoring my current weakness: "Seventeenth elder brother doesn't have many years to live, I just want to be with him while he is alive." If anyone doesn't fulfill this wish, then even I don't know what I'll do! ”

Shaking off my hand fiercely, the pain of the wound tearing made me more awake at this moment - she finally overcame all the intolerance in her heart for me, because another man ......

Because of him, an obstacle that I couldn't cross in my life, she finally didn't have me in her eyes......

"You care so much about him?" Covering her wounds fiercely, all the persistence became ridiculous at this moment - she protected Brother Seventeen because she felt that he needed protection; She kept hurting me because she thought I was strong enough: "I'm hurt too, I just want you to stay with me." Why are you always so patient with me, Brother Seventeen doesn't have a few years to live, do you think I can live a long life? ”

For the first time, I hated the cold and hard mask I had worn for so many years, and I won the country with a cold heart and cold face, but in exchange for your neglect and hurt again and again - it was you who reminded me that in fact, many, many years ago, little Yinzhen was actually so fragile, and he would cry every night because he had never been hugged by his biological mother......

"My sister can accompany you, so many women in the harem are rushing to accompany you. Forgive me, Brother Seventeen, he only has me, he only has me......"

Just because Brother Seventeen needs you more, just because you think I already have a country, so you are so cruel to me? "Those women aren't you."

"And you, it's not the Seventeenth Elder Brother ......"

"I see. You've been lying to me......"

Lie to me. And deceive yourself—Niu Lu Qiyun, do you think you are a god? Do you really think that you can control your feelings, that you can divide your feelings so clearly, and that you can be so fair and reasonable?

"I'm sorry."

"You didn't care about me at all, so why were you back then? Why, you say? What did I mean for you at that time, that you wanted to frame me like that? ”

Seeing you deceive me again and again, and now I have to watch you force yourself, you are really cruel, I don't hate you for plotting against me, but I hate you - again and again, you want me to watch it with my own eyes, watch this deception again and again, but I can't go back......

"I ......"

It's this damn expression again, it's like this again!

Because she has always been strong, I can't stand the slightest panic in her eyes, every time I force her to become like this, it is difficult for me to force her again-every time she looks at me with such a hesitant and helpless expression, I can suppress all deception and all anger - I have been poisoned by her a long time ago, and now I am drinking to quench my thirst, poor me, a person who drinks to quench my thirst, I am not even willing to ask her for poison - I am delaying the time of my own death, I can be poisoned by her a few more times, I can see her ruthlessness a few more times......

August of the 11th year of Yongzheng in Chengde

When the assassin fell at my feet, my original horror turned into anger, because the two words he spat out before he died—Shaojun.

He was shouting Hongli, and I looked at my son's miserable white face - at the moment of life and death, my first thought was to keep Hongli - it was me and her son, her blood and bones, and I even trembled in front of Hongli......

Hehe, it turns out that I was deceived again, it seems that there is someone in this world who looks the same as Hongli, is this a coincidence? Or—

I look at the person in front of me who maintains a handsome posture even when he dies, and when he is dying, he looks at Hongli with the same eyes as he used to be, is this my delusion? Or is this also a poor man, with the same parting feelings as me, all because of the same woman who is like arsenic?

"Huang Ama! This assassin dared to offend the heavens, and his retainers wanted him to be dragged out and whipped to show the public! ”

Huang Ama?

I looked at Hongli, and it turned out that the admiration in his eyes for me could even be the source of all my pride, but now I only felt glaring—I allowed the Nian family to kill Hongshi for his sake. I have always believed that he is my blood and blood, and I insist because I hope it is like this - he is the concern between me and Qiyun, and with him, Qiyun and I are no longer strangers!

Are you lying to me again? What else are you not lying to me?

The alternation of rivers and mountains, how important is the imperial bloodline, you even have to lie to me about such a thing - do you know that I let you go of Huang Ama's death and have made me bear so many charges, if Hongli really - how do you want me to have the face to see my ancestors and ancestors after I die?

"No need, Hongli." I waved my hand and looked at the man in front of me - to be able to be looked at by Qiyun, he can be regarded as a dragon among people, right? Is his fate a warning to me, the consequences of falling in love with a poison, which has always been the case?

"Drag it out and bury it well......"

He's dead, he's useless, will you shed one last tear for him? If one day, I fail like him, you will bury me like him...... (To be continued, if you want to know what will happen next, please log in to **com, more chapters, support the author, support genuine reading!) )