"Bao Si! Bao Four!! ”

Pang was frightened, hurriedly turned off the radio and began to support me, "Don't sit on the ground, it's cold." ”

"I'll go back and say Han Lin, I'm sick, I'll give you this kind of song, he doesn't have any memories with you, yes, he's also amorous, ah, it's okay, it's all over, isn't it, it's all over, it's all over......"

I cried so hard that I kept shaking my head to signal her not to touch me, just let me stay like this, just stay like this.

The tip of my nose was slightly cold, and I reached out and touched it, it was very cold......

"Bao Si, it's snowing."

Pang squatted beside me in a trance, "Why did it snow so early this year?" ”

I stretched out my hand, looked at the small ice crystals in my palm, and after my brain gradually became a little conscious, I gently spit out a few words.

"I want to go home."

Pang nodded beside him, "Yes, go home, go, I'll take you upstairs and go home now." ”

I shook my head slightly, "No, I'm going back to my own home...... Went back to my hometown......"

"What?!"

Holding his arms and shaking up, his mobile phone was still ringing from time to time, he raised his eyes and looked at the dark tube building again, and turned around, "Fatty, can you take me to a hotel or hotel tonight, I don't want to go back to this home." ”

Pang looked at me, turned his face to look at the entrance of my house, and then nodded, "Okay, let's find a hotel nearby, otherwise your mother will definitely scold you when she sees you like this, and ...... go."

She put her arm around me, and when I turned around, I heard the voice next to Pang exclaiming, "Who is that......"

I glanced at the figure standing not far away, I couldn't see it clearly, but I knew that it should be Qin Sen.

Without waiting to get closer, he turned around and went back to the car, slammed the door shut, and didn't turn on the headlights, the purpose of which was clear to me, just to see if I would go home safely.

Do you want to be moved, I don't know, I don't have the strength.

The body was very cold, Pang next to the body was very warm, very warm, she supported me, found a small hotel in the front street of my house, opened a standard room and took me into the room and ran downstairs.

After a while, he came back breathlessly, "Bao Si, that person is gone, and he said that I should take good care of you, what kind of situation do you say, I am confused." ”

I sat in the corner of the bed with my legs bent, shaking my head, not wanting to say anything.

She looked at me and sighed, and when she saw that the phone kept ringing, she took it and picked it up, "Hey, ah, that song......"

Glancing at me, Pang Bi cleared his throat, "I didn't listen, we are rushing home, the signal is not good, the mobile phone search is still difficult, Bao Si, she, a little sleepy has been squinting, what time is it, we are both going to rest, I can't talk to you, well, you wait for her to wake up, okay, hang up first." ”

Putting down the phone, Pang Bi answered another one, and his tone immediately changed, "Ah, Auntie, I'm with Bao Si, don't worry, she didn't walk around, she came to my house, I, my aunt's house, yes, help me study, isn't this my grades have always been average, just let Bao Si make up for me, don't worry, she's fine, go, go take a bath."

Well, I've been studying and I've been muting it just now, school? What's going on at school, ah, the teacher said that her academic performance has dropped, it may be too much pressure, I turned around and said to her, okay, don't worry, hey, I have time to pass, okay Auntie, this thing is wrong with us, we shouldn't be muted, let you worry Auntie, okay, then hang up first, you rest early, okay......"

Putting down the phone, Pang next to him breathed a long sigh of relief, wiped his sweat and looked at me, "I'm scared to death, your mother is worried, she still thinks you lost it." ”

I sat motionless, and it was a long time before I looked back at her, "Thank you, fatty." ”

Pang sat next to me and put his arm around my shoulder, "Tell me something, how many times have I told you, can you tell me something, I can help you share the burden, I feel sorry to see you like this." ”

I leaned my head over and smiled softly, "It'll be fine in the future, it's all over, I'm still alive, isn't it......"

"Bao Si ......"

"I'm sleepy and want to sleep."

Pang nodded and dragged the quilt over my body, "Then sleep for a while, just wake up." ”

It's really sleepy.

The body is sleepy and heavy.

With my eyes closed, it soon seemed like I had entered a dream, and in the dream, I was seven or eight years old, smirking and jumping around in the fields, grandma and grandma were still there, they were standing at the door and smiling at me, waving at me from afar, saying Four Treasures, come back......

I smiled and stood still, and said confidently, I won't go back, I haven't played enough, I haven't played enough......

In a hurry, I want to go back.

My consciousness asked me to pull out my leg in the dream, but I couldn't pull it, I shouted loudly, go back, I've had enough, I have to go home, but the seven or eight-year-old me stood still, she laughed, she just laughed, laughed I wanted to tear her apart, and die with her in the dream.

There is a chirping sound in my ears, very crisp, smooth and rhythmic, I listen to it comfortably, but my heart is inexplicably anxious, not a rooster crow, what is that sound?

"Go home ......"

"Go home ......"

Open your eyes again, and look white.

"Bao Si, wake up."

On the side of my face, I saw Pang Bian, "What's going on, where is this?" ”

The lights were a little dazzling, and I thought about it, and I was exhausted.

"This is the hospital."

Pang next to me whispered a reminder, "You have slept for two days, the fever is confused, the sweat, has been talking about what to go home, I am afraid that something will happen to you, that day in the hotel for a night called 120 to call an ambulance to bring you to the hospital, you can rest assured, your mother does not know about you, I called the ambulance to change your clothes for you, she thought you were sick at my aunt's house, you must not say that you missed it......"

I nodded with a calm head, "Why didn't you go to school?" ”

Pang Bi frowned, "If you don't wake up, how dare I go, I'm afraid that if you wake up, you don't know what's going on and accidentally tell you about that night, then your mother won't beat you." ”

I still had the strength to laugh and shook her hand, "Thank you." ”

"Thank me for what, it's okay if you're fine, it's nothing if I take a few days off."

As he spoke, Pang Bi looked at me with a look that couldn't suppress the doubts in his heart, "Bao Si, has your hair been dyed, why did you work hard all night, when you had a high fever, I saw that it changed color when I saw it, and I was scared all the time, and when I pulled it away, it was gray and gray......"

I smiled faintly, "I have a problem with less white heads, it's okay, my mother knows it, it's not a big problem." ”

She exhaled, "Your mother didn't say how your hair was, she just scared me, and it was no big deal." ”

I held the corners of my mouth, looked at Pang next to the door of the ward cautiously, and whispered in my ear, "The teacher told your mother about the decline in your academic performance, and your mother also asked me if you were in early love, I was afraid that your mother would move your mobile phone and initialize your mobile phone secretly, don't blame me, or if your mother moves your mobile phone, I'm afraid that she will find out something." ”

I hummed, it's time to initialize, whether it's my phone or me, it's going to go to zero.

After chatting for a while, my mother came in, and when she saw that I was awake, she let go, and after saying a few words, she greeted Pang very warmly, "Xiao Pang, come over and have some food, I'll trouble you in the past two days." ”

Pang Bian carried his schoolbag on his back, "Don't bother Auntie, that, I'll let go of my heart when Bao Si wakes up, I'll go back to school first, just call me if you have something." ”

"Don't, eat some food and go!"

Mom was still letting go, Pang kept waving her hand, "I really don't need Auntie, you can talk to Bao Si more, but don't talk too much about studying, the pressure of our senior year of high school is really great, I understand your feelings as parents, like my parents, they all want us to be admitted to a good university, but the more you talk, the easier it is for us...... Hold yourself back and ......"

I was lying there, how fortunate I was to have such a good friend next to Pang.

Mom nodded in response, greeted Pang for a while, and after walking back to my bedside, she still reached out and touched my forehead, "Baosi, you tell your mother the truth, where did you go that night." ”

“……”

"Don't lie to me."

My mother sat on the chair next to my bed as if she had come over, "Tell me honestly, are you in early love?" ”

"Mom, I don't miss it."

Mom was shocked, completely unaware that I would suddenly say this. "What are you going to do if you don't read it, go to work, what can you do at such a young age, you ......"

"I want to go back to my hometown."

I calmly explained my wishes, "By my uncle's side, wholeheartedly, do what I want to do, do what I should do well, my uncle's books have a whole room, but over the years, I have read too little, my heart is not quiet, I want to work hard now, go to read his book with peace of mind, I want to be a gentleman, so that the Xue family has a bright face." ”

Mom's tongue seems to be bad, "You, you ......"

Ignoring my mother's reaction, I said to myself, "You said before that there is no major for the university entrance examination, what major should I choose, in school, I have to study professional courses, and I have to read my uncle's books, or I am dedicated to two purposes."

Learning this thing, I can learn by myself, I need a lot of time to recharge, not just to study a certain subject, I want time to be my own, Mom, I think you promise me. ”

This place, I don't want to stay now.

Many of my mother's words were stuck in my throat, according to common sense, she should veto me immediately, but our family environment is different, the things we come into contact with are different, and my mother's thinking is also contradictory.

Like all parents, she feels that academic qualifications are very important, and because of the living environment, she also wants me to become a gentleman, adding glory to the Xue family is one thing, and there are many aspects, all of which are the convenience that I will bring after becoming a gentleman.

I have someone to protect, if I were an ordinary girl, then my mother might still be on the way to eat a cannibal fetus and stay young forever, and she wouldn't even have a chance to turn back, wouldn't she?

This is a very realistic thing, and I believe that my mother understands these realities better than I do.

My mother sat there thinking about it for a long time, and after a long time, she threw me a sentence, "I'll think about it." ”

"Okay."

I chuckled and closed my eyes, it would be as I wished.

Unexpectedly, Dad came.

On the day he came, I was about to be discharged from the hospital, and when I was packing my bag, I raised my eyes and saw my father standing at the door of the ward looking at me, I stopped what I was doing, chuckled and called, "Dad." ”

Dad came back to his senses and shook his head helplessly, "You are sometimes very much like your mother, but not like you." ”

I pursed my lips and smiled, "Why are you here?" ”

"I heard that your teacher said that you are going to drop out of school, I want to ask you what's going on."

I didn't look at him, and continued to wrap things in the book, "I just want to go back to my hometown and do what I love to do." ”

After cleaning up, I pulled over the chair and looked at my dad and smiled, "You sit down, Dad, my mom will be back after completing the discharge procedures in a while." ”

Dad didn't sit down, looked at me and sighed, "I won't stop your decision, but I think it's better to study more." ”

I nodded, the corners of my mouth smiled widely, and after I had the strength to do it, this was the expression I was most willing to do.

"I know, do you want to study hard, I will, it's just that I just go back to my hometown to study, it's all the same!"

"Then won't you come back?"

I was stunned for a moment, and then I became heartless again, "I don't know, let's talk about it, but I think I'll have to run all over the country in the future, and I can't be here all the time." ”

Dad nodded, and looked at me with a deep breath, "That beautiful body of your mother, you really broke it?" ”

I smiled hesitantly, didn't answer, and when I raised my eyes, I saw my mother come in, and when she saw her father's face, she changed her face a little, and said hard, "Why are you here, aren't you busy?" ”

Dad looked at Mom's eyes a little hurt, "Ruojun, can you talk well." ”

Mom waved her hand impatiently, "I don't want to say anything, I have said everything that needs to be said, you let me, I will go back with Baosi." ”

I watched all this calmly, this pattern between them, I saw too much, and I got used to it, but what I knew was that I did what I could do, and I couldn't change the rest.

I didn't have to go to school, I had plenty of time, I first called my hometown and told my second uncle that I was going back, but I didn't expect the second aunt to answer the phone, and it blew up as soon as I heard what I said.

In the end, I had no choice but to call my mother, let my mother communicate with my second aunt, I heard my mother say for a long time, the last sentence was heard very clearly, she said, second sister-in-law, I know what you and my second brother think, but now that the school is over, the road is the child's own walk, let's respect Bao Si's decision.

Bao Si's decision, yes, is my decision.

I didn't rush too quickly, I went to see Sister Chaoyang first, went to the welfare home with her to see the children, and when I was working, I specially told her that if I wanted to go abroad, I would leave as soon as possible, and I always felt that the mole on her forehead was delaying.

She was very surprised that I was leaving, and I didn't understand why I didn't want to go back to my hometown at this juncture, I didn't explain too much, and said with a smile that I didn't like to miss it.

Write down her phone number in the notebook, I am ready to throw away the mobile phone card back to my hometown, and the mobile phone is useless at my uncle's house, and there will be no signal, so it is safer to write down the phone number.

I cleaned up and put on a trip back to class, three years down, my popularity is not bad, some people say I'm relieved, some people feel sorry for me, just cry the most fiercely, behind her back she said why do you want to go, what's good about going back to your hometown?!

I don't want to cry anymore, the taste is not good, when I packed the book and left, Pang next to the class skipped, she said how many classes she skipped, the teacher didn't ask much, anyway, she was just waiting to go to the college, the two of us held hands and went to the beach, it was very cold, the wind was very strong, and the clothes had to blow through when the waves came over.

Pang asked me why I came here, it was fine in the summer, but I was guilty of coming to the beach in the winter.

I said that I grew up at the foot of the mountain, and that it was rare to see the sea.

The city, my favorite, is the sea.

Rounding my arms, I threw a glass bottle containing a clear liquid into the sea with a strong force, Pang asked me what it was, and I squinted at her with smiling eyes and replied loudly, "Useless thing!" ”

Pang Bi's round face was a little complicated, "Bao Si, it's not so easy to forget, actually, I think you still like each other, right?" ”

I put my arms around her shoulders, and my eyes looked in the direction of the sea, "Fatty, the only thing I ask you is that I hope you don't mention him again in the future, not a word, okay." ”

Pang didn't answer, looked at me, but nodded.

I laughed, my heart was sour, I made trouble, I lost people, I lived like a fool.

However, I still want to say from the bottom of my heart, I want to thank you, Lu Pei, thank you for helping me make a decision, thank you, so that I can make a happy choice for my confused life.

If at any point in the future, you are unfortunate enough to think of me, then I wish you, always, no, luck, and blessings.