Chapter 255: It turns out that I am not strong enough

"Xiaoying, why did you give away your puppy, don't you like pets? Aren't children supposed to be loving? ”

"No, Mom, I don't dare to raise it anymore, if I raise it again, I will really like it."

"Xiaoying, why can't you like it?"

The little girl pondered for a moment: "Mom, I don't want it, I will be sad if it is dead, and I will be sad if it is gone." A puppy can't always be with me, so I don't like it. ”

"Silly Kid ......"

For a long, long time, I didn't dream about my childhood because I subconsciously didn't want to face my past.

"Xiaoying, you seem to be ruthless, but in fact you are amorous, people like you can't easily fall in love with someone, you will be miserable, just like when you lost your little rabbit.

It turned out that it was because my rabbit died, and my mother was so sad to see me, so she gave me a puppy-

However, once I gave my feelings, I could be hurt, so I refused, and I never had a pet again......

Why am I thinking of this, and where am I now? What's going on?

"Woo-" I tried to shout, but I couldn't make a sound, and only a little whimper came out of my throat.

What's wrong with me? My eyes widened in horror, and I sat up suddenly, only to feel the thick bandage around my neck.

"Woo-" I tried all over the world to find someone I knew, but there was none.

Why? Why can't I even speak? I fumbled around and there was a teapot at the head of my bed, and I slammed it to the ground, "Ping-Pong!" A sound finally alarmed the people outside the door.

"Miss, you're finally awake!" Dong'er's voice gave me the illusion of a world away.

"......" mouth can't speak, I'm so anxious that I grab my hands, I have a lot to say, I have a lot to ask!

How did I end up here? Seventeen, how are they? How could Brother Fourteen and I not die? Where is this? How could I not speak?

"Miss, don't worry, I'll call the fourteenth elder brother." Dong'er couldn't understand my comparison, so in a hurry, Dong'er rushed out, and after a while, the fourteenth elder brother came in.

"Qiyun." As soon as I saw Brother Fourteen, I felt the urge to cry - great, we are not dead, although he is being supported now, although I can no longer speak, but we are not dead yet.

"Woo woo woo ...... "What about Seventeen?" Is Brother Seventeen the same as us, who survived the rest of his life after the catastrophe and with Dawn?

"Brother Seventeen is fine, but he has suffered a little flesh wound and can already get out of bed." The fourteenth elder brother saw that I was in a hurry to ask something, and hurriedly answered.

That's good, that's good, I cried happily - Brother Seventeen is fine, I don't have to hate Brother Fourteen, I still have hope.

"Qiyun, don't you ask yourself what's wrong?" Seeing that I was happy to hear that the seventeenth elder brother was fine, the fourteenth elder brother was a little angry, but my situation made him unable to get angry.

What's wrong with me? I couldn't speak, I asked with my eyes.

"That stab of yours hurt your vocal cords, and you won't be able to speak again for a short time." Elder Brother Fourteen's voice sounded very sad.

My knife?

I remembered that decisive twilight, when I pulled out my sword and killed myself—I thought I was going to die, but I didn't think I had just hurt my vocal cords. It seems that I am afraid of death after all, and in that situation, I still can't kill myself.

"Qiyun, you scared me to death, you know? You were bleeding a lot, and the doctor said that if it weren't for your life, you would have died instantly. ”

Just a little, just a little bit - hehe, it turns out that I still have a nostalgia for this world, even if I hated it so much.

"Woo!" I took the hand of the fourteenth elder brother and compared it to the scene of that day - that day, how dangerous it was, he was holding me who was about to die, how did we escape?

"Qiyun, don't be in a hurry, speak slowly." The fourteenth elder brother paused for a moment, and suddenly remembered that the word "talk" was a sarcasm for me now, and hurriedly changed his words: "You, I'll go find you a pen and paper, and you write down what you want to ask." ”

"Woohoo." I shook my head desperately, I didn't want others to treat me as disabled, I grabbed the hand of the fourteenth elder brother, thought about it, and wrote the word "escape" on his hand.

Fourteenth brother, can you tell me how we came back alive?

"Qiyun, that's what you're anxious to ask?" The fourteenth elder brother motioned for me to lie down first, and then covered me with the quilt: "I thought you were dead that day, I was desperate, and I wanted to rush over and die with them." You saved me, you know, Qiyun? Just as I was about to die, I suddenly realized that you were still breathing, but only faintly. ”

So you decided not to die? But did the rebels of that time allow you to think so?

"You know how grateful I was to God at that time, and I told God that since you are still saved, I must save you. So I hold you all the way and fight and retreat, I know that my soldiers will definitely come to save me, as long as I can protect you until that moment, as long as I can hold on for a while......"

Well, that short moment can be longer than a person's life......

I can't imagine how you did it - just such a lonely person, facing thousands of troops, no wonder you are injured like this, how much courage does it take?

"I want to see Brother Seventeen!" Why did the fourteenth elder brother come to see me when he was injured like this, but seventeen didn't come? Didn't you say he was fine? Is it lying to me?

Something must be hiding from me!

"I want to see Brother Seventeen!" Ignoring the silence of the Fourteenth Elder Brother, I wrote over and over again in the palm of the Fourteenth Elder Brother with my fingertips: "Where is the Seventeenth Elder Brother now?" I want to see him! ”

"Qiyun, your injuries are not healed yet, you wait a few days, and I will call the seventeenth elder brother to come to see you in a few days!" I stared into the eyes of the Fourteenth Elder Brother, and it seemed as if something was flickering in his eyes—I knew that it was a look that only liars have. Something must have happened to Brother Seventeen, he was lying to me!

"I'm going to see you now!" The more my fingers scribbled, the harder I became—Brother Fourteen, you saved me, and I appreciate your feelings for me, but you can't hurt Seventeen, and I can't let you do that!

"Qiyun, I'm for your good!"

"I don't want it!" His dodgy eyes made me angry, and I angrily threw everything on the bed at him, the pillow, the life......

"Don't move, be careful of the wound splitting, do you want to be unable to speak for the rest of your life?" The fourteenth elder brother was angry and anxious, and finally had to compromise: "Okay, I promise you, but you can only watch from afar, and you can't be too excited." ”

"Okay." I nodded in agreement.

I just want to know that Seventeen is okay, just take a look......

I later learned that I wasn't as great as I thought I was......

Northwest Battalion. Partial accounts

Because I am still in the army, it is inconvenient for me to walk around as a woman. So I wore an ordinary soldier's clothes, put on a helmet, lowered my head, and came to this place with the fourteenth elder brother, but I saw the last thing I wanted to see in my life......

Outside the tent, the seventeenth elder brother was leading the horse—he did not look bad, but he still had gauze wrapped around his shoulders.

Hehe, you can lead the horse for others, of course you won't be seriously injured!

And immediately, it was none other than the other object I was worried about just now—Dawn.

The sun was setting, the morning sun was smiling shallowly on the horse, and Seventeen was silently moving forward in front - what a beautiful pattern, this picture is so fucking beautiful!

I feel the urge to destroy the world!

"Seventeenth brother, it's getting dark, where are you going?" The fourteenth elder brother was still a little bad at walking, he leaned on my shoulder, intentionally or unintentionally trying to cover my vision.

Fourteenth brother, I blamed you for it!

You did everything possible to prevent me from going to see the Seventeenth Elder Brother, just because I was afraid that I would see this?

It's useless for you to block it now, I see it—just a glance, and I will never forget it in my life!

"Oh, Dawn wants to see the sunset here, and I don't get in the way anyway, so I want to take her to see it." The still gentle voice, the same slightly shy smile, but not at me......

"That, Seventeen, aren't you tired?"

"Don't be tired, let's hurry a little longer, and when we get to the campsite, you can rest early." The seventeenth elder brother wiped the sweat from his face and said indifferently.

You rushed so desperately as soon as you came up today, just so that I could rest early? Do you know that I couldn't have slept well last night because of that, so I forced myself like this?

"But I'm so tired." I pressed my waist and pretended to be sad - from the events of last night, I could clearly understand that I really couldn't change the decision of the seventeenth elder brother - unless he would change his mind for my good.

"That's good." As soon as the seventeenth elder brother heard me say this, he hurriedly came up and helped me get off the horse.

"Yinli!" I stared at the dark red marks next to his shoes - if I hadn't known earlier, no one would have seen it without looking closely, it was a blood stain from walking for a long time: "Give me some time, I will fall in love with you, I will definitely fall in love with you!" "This kind of affection is not allowed to be rejected by anyone, even me.

"Qiyun, don't be like this, you really don't owe me anything, I told you a long time ago, I volunteered, I was willing!"

Looking back, I fell in love with you from that time, the way you led the horse for me, and the heart you had for me......

How similar is it to today's picture?

It's just that the object of the moment has been changed to Dawn - just when I just brushed shoulders with death, when I can't speak now, you want to watch the sunset with Dawn?

I thought you were going to lead me a horse for the rest of my life, but I forgot the fact that you can lead someone else's horse too—and Dawn is even more qualified than me......

"Woo-" I bit my lip, knowing that I couldn't cry anymore, but I still wanted to bite my lip - I didn't want to be embarrassed, I didn't want my love to be exchanged for tears and prayers, and I didn't want to cry in shame under the premise of such a high profile as Morning Sun......

"Qiyun?" The fourteenth elder brother leaning on me keenly felt the tremor of my whole body.

"I'm fine, you can't look back!" I wrote quickly on his back.

Biting my lip, I lowered my head and let the tears run wild......

"Brother Fourteen, who is this little bit? How could you bring such a timid pro-soldier? "Is it because my body is shaking too much? Even the Seventeenth Elder Brother noticed me?

"Oh no, he's probably not feeling well." Sensing that I was tugging at his clothes, the fourteenth elder brother lied for me.

Brother Seventeen, you owe me an explanation, but I don't want to hear it.

I don't dare to stand up, I don't dare let you find out that I know, I'm afraid you'll say sorry to me-

I'm sorry I can't love you anymore......

"That's the case, then I'll go first, Qiyun, don't tell her anything for the time being." The seventeenth elder brother didn't seem to be interested in what kind of illness my "little soldier" had after all, so he took the morning light and walked away without looking back.

He knows, he knows my situation, he knows that he still can't choose to be like this for me, and he still can't choose to say anything to the fourteenth elder brother!

I fell to my knees, unable to control myself any longer, and wanted to cry out loud—

"Woo-woo-woo-"

It's a pity that now I don't even have a chance to cry out loud......

My throat is like being smoked by fire, the fire hurts, but I don't want to care, I just want to cry, I want to cry all the grievances in my heart!

"Qiyun, don't you, your throat hurts!" The fourteenth elder brother couldn't persuade me, and he remembered that he was about to cry with me.

Unfortunately, he said it late, and I was just about to say to him (on his hand, to be exact) "I'm fine." ”

Suddenly, my throat was sweet......

"Hehe......" I heard the sound of my laughter as ugly as a knife scraping in the sand—it turned out that the voice of a witch was my voice now......

It turned out that the blood I coughed up was the same as my acting, and it was also bright red......

It turns out that I am not as strong as I imagined, and I hate myself for surviving and letting me live at this moment today!