The people returning from the tower were praying in the shelter, and their mental state seemed to me to have changed considerably from the first time I met them. They still remember me, but there is another explanation for my appearance and disappearance in their eyes. Ignoring what kind of phenomenon my behavior manifested in their eyes, I did not find them suspicious in my conversation. The rumors, the changes, and anything that seemed unusual to me in my eyes and feelings in this sanctuary were taken for granted in their eyes. And this attitude is exactly what worries me.

Treating something that is abnormal as normal, even if the results of the observations that lead to changes due to different perspectives, are necessarily relatively abnormal for themselves, what they observe, and the environment in which they live. This nightmare is accompanied by the arrival of the deepest night, and there is a terrible change that is quietly taking place, and people are also making subtle changes along with this change. Their consciousness, thoughts, and mental state, compared to what I used to be, are clearly in a situation that I would consider "distorted."

"Prayer to the gods in the depths of your heart", "witch of gold", "heretic", etc., it is difficult to imagine that the hunters of the past could have spoken from their mouths. And when they say these words, they are even more like a group of terrorists who believe in cults. The thoughts of these people imprisoned themselves in the mansion, refusing to continue the battle against the Strange and the secrets of the deep night.

Now, I'm alone again.

The phrase "gods deep within" has spread throughout the sanctuary, and I have observed that there are very few people who have not been affected. And those who accept this statement are interested in people and things outside the mansion. They all show indifference, even rejection. The only people who could talk a little more normally were the ones who had returned from the Tower, probably guiding the sanctuary, even so, for the expression of my attempt to get to the bottom of their situation. They also made it clear that they resisted.

"Please leave, hunter." The person inside refused my request to enter the mansion, "Although I am grateful for the qiē you have done for us, in the face of the deepest night, what you have done will be meaningless in the end. There is only prayer, only prayer, praying to the gods deep down, not asking for forgiveness. Because we haven't done anything wrong, it's just that the distinction between right and wrong is meaningless to the gods. Don't care about what you've done, only prayer can make the gods hear us and save us from the depths of the night. ”

"Why can the gods save us?" I asked rhetorically.

"There's no need to think about why." The person inside replied so firmly: "Just believe." If there are doubts. They will not be saved. ”

This is already an obvious, religious answer. I studied the occult and psychology. It is abundantly clear that a person who does not think about why but only stubbornly believes what cannot be persuaded by reason. However, even with the power of a fourth-level demonic emissary, I still can't violently open the door of this mansion with their refusal. Or find another entrance. The shelter, these inhabited places, is like an expression of exclusivity in their hearts—they cannot be entered without being invited, without permission.

And in the occult. This power, which originates in the will and takes on the appearance of phenomena, is also quite common and powerful. In religious studies, even demons that are regarded as extremely terrifying cannot be directly and violently defeated, but can only choose to lure them around the bush. But on the other hand, whether it is occultism, religion, or some works full of humanistic thinking, there are stories that express the danger of using this "self-isolation". Although external forces seem to be unable to break through this closed protection, from another point of view, the power of salvation is also unable to lend a helping hand.

These people who refuse to have contact with the outside world and are closed to themselves in the mansion will find themselves in a desperate situation once they undergo a vicious change. And what gave me an ominous premonition was the thought that if, before these men shut themselves up in the mansion, they were already corrupted by the vicious nature of the night.

In this nightmare, the deepest night is a macro concept. It didn't start now, and it didn't start when the sky became like this. The birth of the nightmare itself may be very short in the timeline of external observation, but in the midst of the nightmare, the night of the solstice has the concept of "since ancient times".

"The deepest night has begun since the past, and there will be a zài in the future, what is happening now is only inevitable, and it is not just beginning, but gradually tends to be intense, and gradually manifests itself as a manifest phenomenon, but before these obvious phenomena appear, the deepest night has already begun." - Whether it is Old Hawke, the humanoid "Department" or the Old Hunter, his description of the deepest night can be summed up in this way.

According to this conception, the deepest night has always existed in this nightmare, going on all the time, only in some strange phenomenon, showing a wave-like undulation, which is not obvious and unobservable, but develops to be obviously observable. Then, everyone in the nightmare, of course, is affected by the deepest night every moment, and there is no such thing as zài closing himself off and not being affected.

I knew very well that I couldn't understand all the weirdness of this nightmare. But the fact that these people stayed in the mansion and prayed, and resisted contact with the outside world, was in itself a consequence of the deepest night, and that possibility seemed to me to be high. What's more, the source of the reason why they pray, the object of prayer, and the act of praying itself are strange enough.

Because of the strangeness of these people, the atmosphere of the whole shelter became more and more unsettling, and even the few people who did not pray became more restless in their attitude of conversation than in the past.

However, in the face of these changes, there is nothing I can do more for them. They rejected me, and they rejected the qiē outside the house, even though this was the shelter they knew, just like the concept of "shelter" was coming with the arrival of the deepest night. And in terms of scope, it has shrunk significantly.

At first, I tried to find out from this group of people the patients in the Peninsula Psychiatric Hospital, even if they were only one-sided, but this was also impossible to do so. So, until now. I still can't make a concrete connection between the people here and the patients in the Peninsula Psychiatric Hospital. Because there are no examples, all the previous suspicions are still stuck in suspicion.

It's not the first time for me to make judgments and act just because of suspicion. This kind of situation is a common occurrence for most occult experts. Want to find all the clues. Determining the truth behind the scenes, and then touching the vine and ending the mysterious incident is a theoretical possibility. Instead, in the midst of plausible clues, based on one's own experience and observations, one makes suspicions in a certain direction, in the absence of conclusive evidence. Acting on the basis of suspicion is the most common case.

When the mystery begins. There are many questions until the end of the mysterious event, but in the end it is impossible to get answered, which is an extremely uncomfortable situation for the more serious people. However. If you can't break through this level of psychological cleanliness, you can easily die in a mysterious event.

The so-called "mystery" is such a thing that seems to have logic, but it is actually illogical. The so-called "mysterious events" cannot, of course, escape the insolvability brought about by the "mystery".

If every clue. If each reason has logic, has a conclusive explanation, and can be reasoned and analyzed through nuanced observation and rich experience, and even luck, then it is only a "detective story", not a "mysterious event".

"Mystery" is theoretically a concept of "no instance" in the absolutely realistic, completely real world, a kind of relative insolubleness, but not absolute. The grand unification theory is a theory that theoretically can explain all problems from the bottom of the world.

However, in the apocalyptic illusion, it does exist, and from the perspective of the apocalyptic illusion, when looking at the world, the world is more like a "mystery". The theory of great unification, in such a world, is instead a "fool's delusion".

Observing the apocalyptic illusion from the reality of the hospital and observing the reality of the hospital from the apocalyptic illusion, whether it is the "hospital reality" or the "doomsday illusion", will produce a great, almost fundamental contrast.

The experience of receiving information about the reality of the hospital in the tower of nightmares made me understand this contrast more deeply - because, at that time, the reality of the hospital was like a kind of "enlightening precognitive dream", or a kind of "dream that allows people to come into contact with reality", but no matter what, there is no escape from the feeling of "dream". I don't know how other people who have gone crazy by receiving the information about the reality of the hospital have felt, but for me, the reality of the hospital that was supposed to be very realistic has become less realistic. Although, cognitively, it is still one of the most realistic worlds to date, in terms of feelings, it is completely different.

The deepest night that is happening in the nightmare is such a "mysterious", but very realistic situation. It exists only in this nightmare, but the source of its birth and the impact it can have are not isolated. It seems to have clues that can be parsed and parts that can be logically inferred, but it is impossible to rely solely on logic to dig out its secrets.

Looking at the night from beyond the nightmare, whether it is based on the repeater itself, or on the apocalyptic vision, or on the reality of the hospital, there are different interpretations, and these interpretations are also related to each other and affect each other. But, on the other hand, none of these explanations can dissect the truth of the deepest night from a complete perspective - and I think that the "mystery" of the deepest night is reflected in this.

In my theory of the "real side", it is a phenomenon that is closer to the "real", while other observations and interpretations based on the perspective of a certain world are only a "side" of this "reality".

Personally experiencing, observing, and contemplating into the night, I seem to have a vague glimpse of the path that will lead to the perfection of the plan.

I don't know if other repeaters will give birth to something like "born in the nightmare of people in the world inside the repeater, and can connect to the reality of the hospital in the deep night". But in the Las Vegas repeater, it was unfolding in a wonderful way.

The apocalyptic fantasy in the hospital's reality, the repeater in the doomsday illusion, and the world composed of the repeater. The nightmare in the world of repeaters, the deepest night in the nightmare, the hospital reality in the deepest night—here, the world as I know it, forms a loop-like unity, and the basis of the whole loop. It's still a "virus".

Although I have been worrying about the impact of certain actions in a mysterious event or a mysterious phenomenon, I am committed to making this influence benign. But at the same time, I also try to look at it from a higher-level, more macro perspective. Look at these mysterious events and mysterious phenomena themselves.

I try to integrate macro cognition and micro behavior, and use micro actions to promote macro changes. For example, what I do in the spirit of the Peninsula, and even what I do in nightmares, against the deepest night and other mysterious organizations. It doesn't matter who you are protecting or who you are against. For the most part, it is based on the criterion of "making these situations produce a benign response to the plan in favor of each world that one observes." It's not just to save someone in the repeater world, or just to avoid the end of an observed world.

And such an attempt, so far. There is still no obvious effect, and the giant wheel of doom is still crushing in an orderly manner. I also sometimes wonder if my approach is really effective, but. Every time such doubts arise, they are immediately discarded. I am well aware that there is no room for self-doubt in the current situation.

I can only do my best, based on my own suspicions, to act before I get the truth, when I am not ready.

I think that for some thoughtful people, such an approach is completely unacceptable. Because, this means that the fault tolerance rate is reduced, and the luck component is improved, and even once a mistake is made, the vicious consequences will be more severe, which is "absolutely not cost-effective". The best course of action, of course, is to understand every key, determine every detail, and advance step by step according to your own preparation, rather than taking all the plunge like a bad gambler.

However, nowhere in the world I can observe is that it can be done in such a step-by-step manner. The development of events is always worse than imagined, and the speed of development in the bad direction is always faster than imagined. When you think you can solve a problem and improve the situation, you will find that solving the problem makes the situation worse.

If this is only a problem that has arisen in me alone, then I can think that it is my own inadequacy. But if this is the case in everyone I observe, then how do I look at it? If we regard this as the fault of the world, then surviving in a wrong world is a very real problem -- when you are powerless to change the mistakes of the world, but you want to live in the wrong world, but the wrong world does not let people live, then what should you do? How to think? What is the answer in the end? And what is the right answer?

For me, what I've observed, the world I'm in, is terrible. But none of them made me feel that they were "wrong" and should be "resented". Whether I want to accept it or not, it's just like that, it's developing like this, it's ruining like this. And I and the people I love are just some of the many victims, and all of them are equal in the face of this kind of ruin. Even so, I still hope that I can change it, even if all the evidence proves that I can't change it.

Yes, I knew that maybe my struggle was pointless, but I just wanted to do it, and I did it.

I want to be a hero.

Thinking and doing it are never equated, can they?

So, I forgive myself for thinking so and trying to do it, but I couldn't do it anyway. Forgive this world, which is really wrong in my eyes.

I walked through the alleys of the mansion and listened to the low, sticky prayers of the self-contained room, the lights on, and the murmuring. I think that what they are doing is wrong, and this qiē itself is a change brought about by the deepest night, and their behavior, which seems to be trying to solve the problem, is in fact only speeding up the problem and making the solution to the problem troublesome, bad and insoluble. However, I never reproach them, I do not resent them, and I do not think they are stupid. Because, as they say, the source of this qiē error does not come from them.

The night is here, and there is no one to escape.

What is the difference between it and the end times that every world is facing that I have observed?

If it is absolutely impossible to survive the deepest night, then what is the difference between staying in the mansion and praying and going out to hunt the strange and find the truth of the deepest night?

All efforts are only meaningful if they "make a difference", or "if they are not sure if they can change". In the face of the absoluteness of "must not be changed", every act is futile, compared with the mind, there are more possibilities. The phrase "praying to the gods within" may be hinting to me that if there is peace of mind, even if it leads to the worst outcome, it will be a salvation for me. On the other hand, if the heart cannot be calmed, then no matter what you do, you cannot be saved, and "struggling" itself is a painful punishment.

The people here have no intention of educating me with such great truths, and they may not have thought about it so much at all. But their actions themselves seemed to be a huge, invisible will that was hinting at me, making me stop, making me feel the peace under the end of the world, or rather, trying to make me face the future with such a calm and serene attitude.

Yes, I can feel the will that is high above and everywhere.

The result of seeking the inward, and the result of seeking the outward, are cut apart in this suggestion.

However, this is not what I wanted.

I didn't mean to stop, and these suggestive things gradually faded from my mind. The reason why I am struggling with pain in such a bizarre, weird, and desperate world is not for the sake of peace of mind. In other words, if it's just for peace of mind, you just need to close your eyes, close your heart, stubbornly believe that you will be saved, and then die unconsciously. Now, those who stayed in the mansion must have gained peace of mind, right?

However, I'm not them, I'm Takakawa. Gao Chuan did not live in this world simply for his own peace and happiness.

This idea has never been erased. Or rather, it is precisely because of the constant search for inner answers that this idea is deeply rooted.

What I want is something bigger and more complex than "peace and tranquility of the self." And the inability to obtain such things is the source of my suffering. But that's not a reason for me to give up, if the flame of pain will keep burning, let it burn until there is not a drop left in my soul. It was with this realization that I embarked on this journey.

Now turn back to the shore, become a Buddha, give up that painful enlightenment, and gain your own peace? Are you kidding!

With this in mind, I stopped on the mountain path outside the shelter, and in the cemetery halfway up the hill, as if to punish my stubbornness, some hostile figures faintly appeared. Although I can't see it clearly because of the environment, the hostile smell can be smelled even from afar.

They are digging graves. As far as I know, those graves are buried with people like Old Hawke. And the names on the tombstones are all "Takagawa".

No matter why it's all "Takakawa", and whatever they're doing it for, it's enough for me to see him as an enemy. (To be continued......)