From the analysis of Dr. Ruan Li's past behavior in this world and Dr. Ruan Li's behavior in the hospital in the story, the two are connected in a deep way, and this connection has also been confirmed by me in the past, but it is mostly confirmed in the way that "Dr. Ruan Li in the repeater world is the projection of Dr. Ruan Li in the reality of the hospital". Moreover, from this projection hypothesis, Dr. Nguyen Li, who had imagined the reality of the hospital, was also infected with doomsday syndrome - and this hypothesis is of course consistent with the story narrated from the third-party perspective in the diary. However, this assumption is passive for Dr. Nguyen Le in this repeater world, and it is a continuation of the activities generated by Dr. Nguyen Lê as the main body of the hospital's reality.

However, now I feel that Dr. Ruan Li in the repeater world has become the active party - I may not be very clear, but "Dr. Ruan Li, who interacts with me in this repeater world, is actively influencing Dr. Ruan Li in the reality of the hospital in the story." "It's so intense.

I even think that it is precisely because of the deep, unconscious interaction between Dr. Ruan Li in two different worlds that they each burst out with stronger research capabilities than before. The knowledge they knew, the experience they had, and the different angles of thinking about similar things completed the interaction in this unconscious, as if "a dream that can't be remembered". In the case of their own indeterrence, one sees the other as a psychological pressure, a symptom of the manifestation of personality, but still completes a certain degree of unity under an incomparably strong sense of responsibility.

It's a very complicated state of mind. If the story described in the diary is true, then I don't think it's an exaggeration to describe it as "heart-to-heart".

My knowledge makes it impossible for me to decipher the secrets. However, I was still amazed and felt that it was necessary to treat the "stories I don't know" in my diary as if they had happened.

Because, for me, the "diary" itself is meaningful. Whatever is the concept of this carrier. Or maybe the content is from another angle, from another depth, depicting myself that I don't know, and through what I don't know, I reflect the world observed from the perspective of consciousness.

It's just that these meanings are so profound and complex that I can't figure them out at all.

Something that is meaningful, when it exists as a "thing". The connection may not be so strong, but when you think of it as a "connection in the sense of meaning", it makes you feel that the world you used to be familiar with has suddenly changed.

How difficult it is to interpret materialism with idealism, to observe and understand the world of matter from the perspective of consciousness. However. This is what consciousness walking has to do. In other consciousness walkers, there must be some special talents. Let them think of such things as instinct, so that they can do it as naturally as they can. However, for me, a half-ass, it can only be in the "hazy, unconscious", like a sudden inspiration. Suddenly getting into the same state can only be done occasionally.

If you are just walking in someone's state of consciousness, of course, it doesn't need to be so complicated, but if you want to target the whole world of material appearances. Or if an area completes the conscious walk, it must be able to fully understand the range of what you want to walk as a state of consciousness, and let yourself believe that it is a state of consciousness.

It's difficult, but I've done it several times in the past.

The hut has no doors, the only window is strangely sealed, and the entire space is locked, and it is completely impossible to find an exit, or to destroy the hut by violent means. Of all the abilities and tools I have, only conscious walking can get me away.

So, that's the only way to do it.

Even if it was extremely difficult, even if it seemed to take luck, or if I needed the help of something else, such as Jiang, I had to try.

Staying here and waiting for the ending is, of course, also a way. However, if I don't even struggle for a moment, and just fall from the position of a rescuer to the role of being rescued, then I am not me.

I suddenly felt that I was actually stronger and more proud than I had thought before.

Thinking like this, I naturally accept myself as such.

You can't be a hero, but if you want to be a hero, you can't do it without putting your place on a more active level.

I calmed down and flipped through the diary from the beginning, looking at the "stories I didn't know" told from a third-party perspective, and thinking about the complex psychological, spiritual, and conscious relationships. Imagine how the people and things that are full of "mystery" here are related to those who seem more "real" because they lack the smell of mystery.

I think, imagine, speculate, ignore the "correctness" and "truth" in it, and only accept the explanations I make with "subjectivity and objectivity that I can accept". Trust the judgments you make and the self who makes them.

Before I knew it, I woke up after an unknown amount of time.

I was still sitting in the hut, it was still pitch black outside the window, the occasional thunder tore the sky, the weak light was shining, and the scene exposed was no longer the natural ecology of the peninsula in the storm, but the more familiar, the temporary data hedging space of the peninsula that was devastated by mysterious forces. I seemed to see shadows like demons and monsters, flying in the frightening black curtain in the blink of an eye, as if I saw human figures shuttling, and saw many strange phenomena.

This barren peninsula, which can be compared to the natural ecology, is full of more incredible, terrifying and dangerous.

Leaving the hut is a battlefield - this feeling is conveyed more and more strongly in the scene of thunder and flashing.

Dr. Nguyen Le left the hut, had she already thrown herself into this battlefield? Is she going to face the Four Heavenly Courtyard Ga Coconut and the Black Water, the barren Peninsula Temporary Data Hedging Space under this observation? Or is she still on a level I can't observe, fighting in a way I can't directly experience?

But in any case, I've confirmed it. Dr. Nguyen Le has already appeared with her medication, and whether or not her actions can be observed, her actions will inevitably have a huge impact on the situation on the peninsula. I never doubted that Dr. Nguyen Lê's medication would work and that her plan would succeed.

Right now, right in front of my eyes. Before you know it, the door of the hut has quietly appeared.

I didn't deliberately mobilize the power of conscious walking, but I believed that I was already in a state of conscious walking.

Last time, it was the alienated Youjiang who walked my consciousness, and I was passive. The time I experienced in this hut could be long or very brief from a conscious point of view, where I was when I was unconscious. The distance from here can be distant, extremely close, or even overlapping.

If you regard the seemingly material world as the world of consciousness, there will be a lot of inconceivable things, but behind the filaments, you will realize that there is an inevitable, complex and profound truth in it—just like this kind of inconceivability. It was bound to happen.

So, if I walk out the door. What I saw was the alienated right river, and I had just just walked out of the consciousness of the alienated right river, and I had actually been staying on the battlefield, for a long time for myself, for others, such as rivets, joints, and Novsky. It's just a snap of a finger, and it's not something to be surprised about.

I closed the journal again and put it back on the coffee table. Quark, which had rested on his shoulder, flapped his wings and flew up, but I ignored them and walked straight to the door. Put your hand on the doorknob –

With a little force, the door was pushed open.

The light came from the front like a tidal wave, and it was not at all the darkness that I had seen out of the windows of the house, and I could not hear any thunder or rain.

The tide of light is so dazzling, silent but cold, bringing death-like horror.

I felt that the fear in my heart was swelling, as if I had reached the moment of life and death, as if that fear was about to turn into a concrete outline.

The light completely engulfed everything around him. Then I saw a hand reaching out of the light, and it was almost pressed against my forehead. The next moment, I was swept away by a gray-black color, and in the blink of an eye, I was out of the reach of that hand, and then the light disappeared. The scene of the barren peninsula once again spread in my field of vision, and I myself was standing more than twenty meters away from the Alienated Right River.

"Coming out?" I couldn't help but talk to myself. Although I had been prepared, I was still a little shaken.

"Dodge?" It was an exclamation from somewhere else, it was Novsky them. I felt as if in their eyes I was in a precarious situation that could be observed during my time in the cabin. However, I only have a hazy feeling of what kind of situation it was, and I have no clear memory.

When my eyes fell on the alienated Youjiang, her expression was also slightly moved, this was the first time I saw this emotion called "accident" appear on her cold and crazy face.

Alienated Youjiang was not a silent fighting machine in the first place, and in the past, before she devoured the moon god, all her actions carried a clear purpose and the strength of pseudo-human nature. At the end of the day, even if it's a monster, she's a monster in human form, and the "human female shape" naturally makes sense.

It's just that probably the previous situation was what she expected, so there was nothing to express.

The first voice she uttered since the battle was such a surprised voice: "Hey, Takakawa, how did you do it?" ”

I took it for granted that she knew my name and called me by my name. Anyway, I'm also the only fourth-level Demon Pattern Emissary in this repeater world, not famous, but definitely not an anonymous pawn.

"What and how?" I do not quite understand.

"It just disappeared with a swish, and then reappeared...... And then, the power became stronger? Alienated Youjiang cracked a strange and dangerous smile, his left eyeball gurgling, but his gaze was locked on mine, "Consciousness walking...... It is a very peculiar walking consciousness, as if it is no longer in this world, so it cannot be observed. She licked her lips and made a swallowing sound, "It's better to be famous than to meet...... No, I always feel that we have met many times, but we are actually very familiar. In that case, the taste should also be familiar, let me think about it...... Sure enough, let's eat it as soon as possible. My eyes tell me that if I continue to let it go, something will go wrong. ”

Saying this in such a confused way, the alienated Youjiang touched his left eye—just like me in the past.

"Yes, yes, it feels close, but it's not the same guy named Carmen. In you, I smell him. Alienated Youjiang walked straight towards me, staring at me with a kind of greed for meat, "What is the relationship between you and that guy?" Well, if you eat it, you'll be able to figure it out. ”

Really, spare me, as soon as I woke up, I heard with my own ears that a crazy monster was about to eat me, and it was such a familiar face, I didn't find it funny at all. This battle was very hard and painful, and if it was a mentally normal person, it would probably collapse all at once. The terrifying aura emanating from the alienated Youjiang became heavier and heavier, but I don't know why, my heart was reversed from the previous depression, and I was able to pick and choose from this intense fear to comment on the monster in front of me.

Is it because you know that Dr. Nguyen Le is also on the move? No, I've always known about it before, but I really have to "witness it for myself" to have a real feeling.

The stories in the diary, Dr. Ruan Li in the story, and Dr. Ruan Li in this repeater world, Sakuya who lives in records and memories, and Sakuya who lives in the present, are like invisible and indescribable silk threads that run through each other one by one, forming a huge net. When I think that I am also a knot in the net, I suddenly feel that the loneliness I have always had is gradually fading.

Although the female monster in front of me who I called the alienated Youjiang without authorization will not weaken because of the change in my mentality, and my ability will not be enhanced because of the change in my mentality, if I have played 100% of my ability before, then I feel that my current self can reach 120%.

The gap lies in the conscious walking. (To be continued.) )