What did Dr. Nguyen Le say to me? When I got off the ship, I still thought so, the feelings that remained in my heart were not shock and surprise, it was because I knew that Dr. Nguyen Li was special, so when facing her, I was mentally prepared for her words and deeds - I think so, but the same words, when I say it in different situations, it gives me different feelings.

I don't know much about repeaters, and I can only rely on my own intelligence to guess what kind of existence the repeater world has been in for a long time, but I don't have an absolute conclusion. When my identity changed from Takakawa in the apocalyptic fantasy world to Takakawa in the repeater world, what happened to me and what I personally experienced in terms of multi-layered connections in identity was already very puzzling. Even so, I forcibly explain these situations according to my own perception.

Assuming that before I entered this repeater world, there was also a Zài Gao Chuan in this repeater world, then Dr. Ruan Li's perception of me must have extended from this Gao Chuan. However, before and after I entered this repeater world, what kind of connection was there between the two "Takakawa" deposits?

My answer is: the world of the repeater is attached to the apocalyptic illusion and exists, just as the apocalyptic fantasy is attached to the reality of the hospital. Although the conclusion that "the apocalyptic illusion is attached to the reality of the hospital, and the reality of the hospital is the real reality", in my personal opinion, there are still many uncertainties in the details, and I did not carefully look for what details make me feel uncertain, but there is a deep affection that makes me put myself at the height of "hospital reality" even in action. Psychologically, I can't fully believe that it is the "real reality", nor can I fully believe that "the apocalyptic illusion is based on the reality of the hospital in order to survive the zài".

Yes, even actions and thoughts, clearly tend to this conclusion, and. At least when dealing with the "apocalyptic process", the standpoint of "the reality of the hospital is the real reality" allows me to look at the mysterious events that are happening from another perspective, and I also feel that my actions have a valid reason, full of responsibility and possibility.

Even so. In the depths of my heart, there has always been such a voice, which is the voice that has been deeply imprinted when I was killed by the final weapon and woke up in the reality of the hospital: Is this hospital, which is full of reality anyway, really reality? Instead of being involved in the apocalyptic process, some kind of mysterious situation that was affected?

The concept of "virus" was learned in the reality of the hospital. In hospitals. Many sources have redefined the world of "Doomsday Vision". At the same time, it also redefined my identity, experience, and relationship with Mae, Sakiya, Hakkei, Marceau, Dorothy, and Setsu. It has almost upended most of what I knew about that apocalyptic fantasy in the past. But at the same time, it also brings some plausible explanations. It is these explanations and perspectives that make me have to believe that the reality of the hospital is the real reality.

But what if it's not?

If, I first woke up in the hospital reality. The kind of distrust that arises is the real thing......

Nowadays, it is difficult to imagine what your life will be like if you start with such assumptions. However, such doubts do exist.

The amount of information brought by the reality of the hospital is too huge, and the information I have obtained from my birth and growth in the apocalyptic fantasy for more than ten years, as well as the worldview composed of this information, have been extremely severely impacted. However, when I died in the reality of the hospital and recovered from this apocalyptic fantasy, there is one thing that I can never forget

INTERVIEWER In the reality of the hospital, I have never seen the world outside the hospital.

The time when I returned to the reality of the hospital made me feel a lot of pain, although the time was short, but because I experienced very complicated things, I guess I have grown a certain amount. However, all my range of activities and cognition was constrained by the hospital itself.

The hospital is an isolated island located in a certain sea area, and the external information is basically isolated by the ocean, and the hospital itself is established with the concept of "top-secret research", so it has never been lax in blocking information. I don't even know the name of the hospital, and people just use "hospital" to refer to their place, but it's obviously not a name, it's just a code name.

Just as "viruses" don't have names, "hospitals" don't seem to have names, they're more of a concept. Although the "virus" is scary, if there is no report from the "hospital", I probably would never have known the concept of "virus". However, the concept of such a "hospital" is very narrow, and it is just an island full of quirks.

What is it like off the island? Outside the islands, are there still zài humans and land? From the activities of the "hospital" itself, it seems that the world outside the island is a zài.

However, it is important to mention that although the "hospital" claims to collect and manage "patients", it is true that I have never seen any sign of a decrease in "patients", nor has there been a shortage of human products, yet I have never been able to distinguish between new patients and those who have actually seen "patients" being sent to the island.

In addition, my perception of my "past" has been in a state of hallucination and memory flashing, and there is a lot of information that surfaces out of thin air when I am unwell around me, and some of the information is learned from the report of the "hospital". However, it is precisely because the hallucinations appear too frequently that the memories are not very clear. In psychology, "memory distortion" is not an uncommon occurrence. I've been wondering if I'm really sure that the information I've learned, and the memories that keep coming to my head and reconstructing them, are really not "distorted" at all.

Is there some definite and real evidence of Takakawa's split personality, as well as my own death and resurgence?

Unfortunately, no, my perception of myself does not have an absolutely true and correct basis.

When I can't believe in the "hospital reality", the information brought by the "hospital reality" is also flawed.

However, the apocalyptic process of Doomsday Vision. and those exciting but somewhat unreal mysterious events, which are also more like a kind of dark adult fairy tale fantasy story.

I don't even need to embellish it and write it in my diary, I can be treated as a fantasy novel by someone like Dr. Nguyen Li.

For me, "Doomsday Vision" and "Hospital Reality" are such interdependent relationships, but for the time being, it seems. "Doomsday Vision" is more attached. However, when I discovered the "Repeater World" in the Doomsday Fantasy and experienced the connection between the "Repeater World" and the "Doomsday Illusion" and the "Hospital Reality", the relationship between the "Repeater World", the "Doomsday Fantasy" and the "Hospital Reality" became extremely complicated.

Dr. Nguyen Li's Preservation made me try to accept the conclusion that "the world of the repeater is the inheritance and reorganization of information that constitutes part of the apocalyptic illusion, and only by relying on the apocalyptic illusion can Zài be saved". It also makes me wonder how strong this attachment really is. Because, in this repeater world, not only is the completeness of the world's information not inferior to that of the doomsday illusion, but also, before I substitute the "Takagawa" of this world, the "Takagawa" of this world exists, and. Others other than "Gao Chuan" are also zài. There are many obvious differences between them and those in the apocalyptic fantasy, but the whole life is also complete.

It is precisely because it is complete and full of order, as if every qiē has a cause, and every qiē change has an order. So this repeater world is very real—even more real than the apocalyptic illusion before the mysterious spread, and on a par with the realism of "hospital reality" for me.

My experience in this repeater world was not as impactful as the impact on my worldview when I first entered the "hospital reality". However, it is undeniable that the shock is still alive.

Even if I take the "reality of the hospital" as a foothold and observe Dr. Ruan Li in this repeater world, I can put myself in her shoes and look at myself outside the scope of this repeater world from her point of view, and then I can understand most of her attitudes and words. Theoretically, it won't be swayed by her saying things like, "The world is real."

But in reality, the shock is still happening.

The realism and completeness of this repeater world have been further supplemented in Dr. Ruan Li's words, and now, it seems that it can be used as a foothold to look at the "apocalyptic illusion" and "hospital reality", and it is precisely because of the particularity of Dr. Ruan Li's unaffected mystery, as well as her own insistence on the attitude towards "mystery", that this repeater world reflects more rationality and authenticity in her.

"It's me, not you, who has really experienced something really amazing."

"I told you, but you forgot that the prototype of one of the three giants of the Doomsday Shinrikyo in your story is my family, and now, I am the only one left."

"The archetype may be wonderful and weird, but it is by no means mysterious, this world is very realistic, Achuan, there is no zài superpower." Paradise and Claudia Blanc are the embodiment of wonder and not mystery, and they are the only thing in your story that is closest to reality. ”

These words of Dr. Nguyen Li still echoed in my mind even after more than an hour. Whether it is me, or Gao Chuan before me, my perception of Dr. Ruan Li is very pale in front of these words, and even makes me feel that I have never really understood Dr. Ruan Li as a person.

Are these things that Dr. Nguyen Le said true to herself? Or is it just an identity assumption based on my diary? These questions, even if the other party gives the results in person, can you accept such an answer?

Simply based on this repeater world, looking at things like "Dr. Nguyen Le is one of the three giants of the Doomsday Shinrikyo Religion" makes people want to say, "What are you kidding!" ”

However, in terms of interpretation and theory, since Dr. Nguyen Li said such words, it is entirely logical to interpret the story I recorded in my diary from these words—which also means that she can explain what happened to me in the apocalyptic fantasy and the reality of the hospital from her own perspective, and even explain the "apocalyptic vision" and the "hospital reality" itself.

After all, with Dr. Nguyen's personality, if he still can't figure it out, he can't say it.

Dr. Nguyen Le stands in his own perspective to observe the world. From the perspective of this world, it is very natural to observe the "world described by the mentally ill Takakawa". And the reason why I am uncertain is precisely because of both theory and intuition. However, once you believe in it, the qiē you experience and the qiē you know will be destroyed by the tide in an instant, like a sandcastle.

"Gao Chuan" is a mentally ill person, if this is the reality. That's nothing, but if "Gao Chuan" doesn't care about zài, that's a terrible thing.

I carried my luggage and silently followed Dr. Nguyen Li. Mitsukasuka's face was a little better, and he was a little excited after getting off the ship, probably because of physical discomfort, when he stepped on land. It calmed down. Fitness instructors and soothsayers also looked around curiously, as it was quite a vast green space on the peninsula. On the local map, the entire area is shaped like tentacles protruding from the riverbank. Because of the lush shade of the trees, I couldn't see the villa hidden in the shade when I was on the boat. At the place where we disembarked, though. A long embankment can be seen along the bank, spreading into the distance and is said to cover two-thirds of the riverbank.

The entire peninsula is a scenic area for villa development, but the development of the associated attractions is only half complete. After arriving on the island, I found a lot of traces of construction work, the most conspicuous is undoubtedly a scaffolding not far from the pier, and the orange-red light above the scaffolding, it is close to midnight, but the sound of construction can still be heard. If the place where the villa is located is also such a semi-construction environment, it will not be too good to come and experience it.

With this in mind, we got on the sightseeing bus in batches and headed towards the island along the only visible concrete road. In a short time, we arrived at the place where the villa complex is located. During this time, Dr. Nguyen Le did not talk to me about the diary and identity again. With a sense of apprehension and curiosity, wanting to know more, but also afraid to know more, I accepted the assignment of the villa room with the others.

It seems that the villa complex is not fully completed, the place where we are is the second phase of the project, and it is the second phase of the project, the largest area, the most luxurious home configuration of the five villas, an average villa can accommodate ten people, the internal rooms are also enough. From here, it only takes a 10-minute drive to reach the river beach where you can swim, and in the other direction there is a trading market. To be more specific, the person in charge gave each of us passengers a sightseeing guidebook, which even had functional instructions for the villas assigned to us.

There are many functional areas of the villa, but the appearance does not make people feel luxurious, nor does it have a sense of high-tech, and the style is more natural and fresh, and there is a softness that is biased towards oriental culture. For me and Dr. Nguyen Lê, the style is quite gracious.

Mitsukasuka, a fitness instructor, and a fortune teller were naturally in a group with us, as well as three people who stayed with us, and the other party was also a partner we met during the trip, and when we greeted us, they were very polite. We follow the cobblestone path, through the courtyard and the pond, into what appears to be wooden, but in fact uses new materials.

With a scrutinizing eye, Dr. Nguyen Le prioritized the construction of the villa and confirmed the specific location of emergency safety measures such as fire prevention and escape. The others were not in such a mood, and after a long journey, everyone was already very tired, both mentally and physically, and said goodbye to us after a while, and even Mitsui Tsukafu, who had been in a slightly uplifted mood before, quickly wilted the expression on his face. When the midnight clock echoed in the house, I was the only one left, still accompanying Dr. Nguyen Le around the villa, which covers a considerable area.

As the voices faded away, the interior of the villa seemed particularly empty and lonely, and the lights decorated with candles had an obscure taste, but at such a time, there was no sense of surprise at all. In my opinion, it is completely unbelievable to say that the designer does not have a hint of a different idea.

Even if there are lights, the corners still feel dark, as if there will be ghosts passing by at any moment, and when the footsteps sound, it is as if someone is following behind. These sounds, sights and tastes all constitute a kind of terrifying atmosphere, which is completely inconsistent with the concept of villa decoration in the normal sense, even if it is special to pay attention to characteristics, it should not be designed to "make people unwilling to live for a long time".

The interior decoration of the villa, which is full of malice to ordinary people, is just a pleasure for people like me, but I also know it. This kind of taste is quite niche.

Furthermore, from such a niche style, it seems that you can peek into the inside story of the seminar.

When I think about the identity of Dallas, I feel that this place is very wrong.

Although I was infected by this kind of "mysterious" feeling, Dr. Ruan Li, who decided the course ahead, did not seem to feel it at all. When we finished a circle in the villa. When he returned to the courtyard again, Dr. Nguyen Le suddenly noticed something and walked straight towards the flower garden, where there were several empty flower pots and some tools for garden repairs. She filled the soil with her own hands, took the white Claudia out of the plastic bag and planted it in a flower pot. When these white flowers are uprooted, they are rooted and replanted. After watering, the recovery was immediate.

"What are you doing? Mom. I couldn't help but ask.

"Have you ever seen what White Claudia really looks like? Achuan. Dr. Nguyen Le took off his gloves and asked me.

"Maybe." I said, "It doesn't always look the same." I wrote it in my diary. ”

"In fact, under the observation of ordinary naked eyes, it only has one appearance." Dr. Nguyen Le threw my luggage to me, picked up the flower pot himself, and said to me, "Its flowers have four petals and are white. Have you ever seen a four-leaf clover? Think of it as white, and it's a bit similar. But, specifically, the two are completely different. What did you see this pot of white Claudia look like? ”

"Just like you said, Mom." I replied.

"Nope. When you think about it, it doesn't seem like what I did after I painted it, but what you saw before that. Dr. Nguyen Li said as he walked forward.

I thought about it. But strangely, instead of a clear impression, Dr. Nguyen Li's description seemed to be replacing the hazy memory.

"Can't remember? Don't care. Dr. Nguyen Le said, "Actually, many of the places that you take for granted are not so taken for granted. You think you remember it very well, so you rarely remember it clearly, but in reality, your memory is not as deep as you think. In fact, you have forgotten so many things that you have become unable to discern what the information you have been given is as it is. Dr. Nguyen Li looked at me with a sad, caring and determined look, "Do you believe me?" Achuan. Do you believe that the world is completely different from what you know, see, and feel? Have you ever doubted what you take for granted is the truth? ”

"I ......" I didn't finish when I was interrupted by Dr. Nguyen Li, who said, "I don't need to answer, I don't need to do it now." ”

I fell silent, vaguely aware of what she was going to say.

"White Claudia looks like a plant, but, in our study, it doesn't quite follow the definition of a plant." Dr. Ruan Li suddenly changed the topic back to Claudia Bai, her tone seemed to know Claudia very well, as if she wanted to prove that her previous words were not a lie - the experiences recorded in my diary actually had a story prototype, and this story prototype was actually her own story, and mine was indeed just a mental patient, adapting the stories she heard from her, substituting herself into it, and creating a huge and obscure illusion world.

In Dr. Nguyen Li's calm narration, the origins of this qiē—including those I have to believe, the setting of the "apocalyptic vision" and the "hospital reality", as well as the mystery and fate intertwined in the story, and even the truth that Dr. Nguyen Li knew—actually originated from Claudia Bai, not the "virus" I learned from the "hospital reality". (Want to know more exciting updates from "Restricted Doomsday Syndrome"?) Open WeChat now, click on the "+" sign in the upper right corner, select Add Friends to add an official account, search for "Qidianzhongwenwang", follow the official account, and never miss every update! (To be continued......)