Chapter 40: The Heart of the Bottom
In a closed interrogation room.
Melinda looked at Chen Shiming, who was in handcuffs opposite, and asked, "How do you feel about having such an incredible dream?" ”
Chen Shiming said depressedly: "Life is better than death." ”
"But you don't want to die."
"Yes, my greedy and fearful personality makes it impossible for me to live well."
"You have been sentenced to death, and the day of execution is near, what do you have to say?"
"I deserve to be punished, I ...... Regrets. ”
"Not afraid of death?"
"Why aren't you afraid? Knowing that you are going to hell, how can you not struggle in your heart? ”
Melinda frowned slightly.
To hell? Chen Shiming has committed such a big crime, he really deserves to go to hell, if there is such a place as hell.
"The reason why I came to see you this time, I still have some doubts in my heart."
"The case is closed, what else is there to wonder?"
"That dream about you."
"What do you want to ask?"
"In that dream, did you already know that you were dreaming?"
"Yes."
"Have you ever thought that there's a good chance I'm looking at something in your dreams?"
"I've thought of it."
"In that case, you put out the people you have killed one by one, let us see, and I will understand what it means."
"You're going to think I'm crazy, right? It was a manifestation of my pain after losing my mind. ”
"It's also your catharsis for the unexplained tragedies that have been playing out again and again in the land of fate."
"At that time, I was terrified."
"But you can't change it, even in a dream."
"Seeing my wife and children die almost really drove me crazy."
Actually, you're already crazy.
Melinda wanted to say that to him, but after thinking about it, she didn't really say it.
"After you saw your wife and children die, why did that woman named Ye Qiao appear in your dream?"
"She's a nightmare I can't get out of."
"Your relationship with her...... Very unusual. ”
"What you're trying to say is ......"
"Why do you want to prove in front of her that you dare to face your fears? Why do you want to be like her? ”
"Becoming a ruthless person like her, maybe, I live, I will not feel so tortured, and I will be more or less comfortable."
"But, you're you, and you'll never be her."
"So, I'm in pain, I'm worse than dead, and I'm too afraid of death, but I have to live in pain."
"At the end of the dream, you showed me the truth......"
"You want to ask if I deliberately let you see it, right?"
"Yes."
"Then I tell you, it was indeed on purpose."
"Why?"
"Because I know you'll be able to see my dreams, and I want you to know what a terrible demon she is."
Melinda did know what kind of person Ye Qiao was.
However, Ye Qiao has disappeared.
Luo Feng had seen her.
He would definitely try to find that demonic woman.
But that's another story.
Regardless of whether Luo Feng can find it or not, the case related to Chen Shiming has ended.
It's time for this story to come to an end.
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In a dream.
It's still that minimalist dream.
A tree, a few flowers, butterflies.
There is an end in sight to everything.
And at the end is chaos made of infinite emptiness.
"Archer, I have a painful reflection on the question of human nature."
"Because of Chen Shiming's case?"
"Hmm."
"What do you have in mind?"
"I see too much of the dark side of human nature."
"There is no darkness, and there is no light, and only when you see the dark side more will you know how precious the light is."
"But when you're in the dark, you magnify your own experience of it."
"Oh?"
"Now, I've always thought so, the evil in human nature is really terrible."
"Sister, you're thinking too much. Now you should find a way to relax yourself instead of thinking about it. ”
"Perhaps, I should find a way to force myself not to think about it, but ......"
"Coming to this dream and telling me these words is the way you found it, right?"
"Yes."
"But, Sister, there is a limit to what I can give you. I think you should construct a dream that suits you and allow yourself to sit there in purity. ”
"But I'd rather talk to someone than sit alone."
"Okay then, sister, I'll accompany you."
The two men fell silent for a moment.
After a long time, Melinda spoke, "Archer, how evil do people become when they become evil?" ”
"I don't know. You can think the other way around, though. ”
"What do you think?"
"You should think about how good a person can be when he does good."
"Why?"
"Good and evil are born from the human heart, although they seem different, but the extreme, is similar."
“…… I don't understand. ”
"What difference does it make to someone who can feed a hungry eagle with his own flesh and someone who catches it for food and nourishes his flesh, if the former is good and the latter is evil?"
"The former is self-denial, and the latter is self-denial."
"Whether it's the former or the latter, they're all expressing themselves in one way."
"What is it?"
"Hurt."
“……”
"Sacrificing oneself for others hurts oneself, sacrificing oneself for oneself hurts others, it looks different, right? But the essence is the same, that is, there is always one side that will be hurt. ”
"Oh? I seem to get it......"
"If it is good to give oneself for others, then you will be hurt, and if it is evil to give oneself for yourself, then others will be hurt. To the extent that people dare to hurt themselves, in the same way, they dare to hurt others. ”
"So, there's no answer to the question I just asked, isn't it?"
"yes. Because we can't see that we are good, we will not see how evil we are, maybe now we think we have seen the extreme, but after a while, something happens, and we have to change our original opinion. ”
"I'm so relieved to hear you say that."
"Oh?"
"If you think about it, there is no limit to darkness, there is no limit to light, I can't just see the darkness in human nature and not see the light in human nature, can I?"
"So, we have to be optimistic and don't worry about nothing."
"Someone once said that, and I feel that it makes sense."
"Which word?"
"History is moving forward optimistically with the tragedy of the fate of the individual."
“……”
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While chatting with Su Che, Melinda suddenly thought of the last time she saw Chen Shiming, and another set of conversations between the two of them.
Melinda said: "There's one more thing I don't know. ”
Chen Shiming asked, "What is it?" ”
"When I posted a post on the Internet looking for you, not long after the post was sent, I received a phone call, and on the other end of the phone, a woman told me that she had found the person who was suspected to be looking for in my post."
"Well, there's such a thing......"
"What I want to ask you is, did she denounce you, or do you want to stand up and stop letting yourself live incognito and live in pain?"
"It's not important anymore, is it?"
"Maybe, but, I'd love to know."
Chen Shiming was silent.
He thought for a moment before he said, "She told me." After she called, she also told me that I had been targeted by the police. ”
As expected.
Melinda sighed, "Do you hate her?" ”
"If you're asking if she denounced me and I hate her, then my answer is, no."
"Why?"
"Because she doesn't want me to be a ghost on her blood-stained hands."
“……”
Melinda was shocked by this answer.
Chen Shiming went on to say:
"She's going to kill me sooner or later, once she doesn't feel so important about me anymore and wants to leave me."
"But she didn't, she chose another way to leave me......"
"From this point of view, our life together for so many years still affected her to some extent and made her have a certain affection for me."
"I've always thought of her as a demon, but even if she's a demon, there's something good in her heart."
"Before she disappeared, she didn't kill me, but left by denouncing me, perhaps, she still has such a thought......"
"I still have to go on in the dark, and I don't need anyone to accompany me. I hope that you who have walked with me will come out of the darkness and stand in a place of light and be redeemed. ”