Chapter 39: I already have feelings for you
In the dream, Chen Shiming killed people again and again.
He seemed to want to prove to Ye Qiao that he was an emotionless person.
He kills with a lot of blood.
And Ye Qiao just coldly gave him an answer-
"You're not me, you can't be like me."
"Why?"
"Because you can't do what I can."
"What can you do? Why can't I do what you do? ”
"Because of whom I have slain, you dare not kill."
“……”
"Remember the night you and I first met?"
"That night, you killed someone......"
"Do you know who I killed?"
“…… I don't know. ”
"That man is a man who has lived with me for a long time, and I think of him as a boyfriend."
Chen Shiming couldn't help but feel creepy.
"I fell in love with him, and he fell in love with me, and then we lived together, and I gave him sex, and he filled my loneliness."
“……”
"However, maybe we don't have any feelings for each other, so we only have physical collisions, but we can't give birth to emotional sparks, so it doesn't take long for us to get tired of each other."
"And then?"
"He found another woman and slept with her in front of me...... He wanted me to have feelings for him, but I remained indifferent. ”
“……”
"I watched their performance in bed, and when the woman left, I killed him."
"You hate him?"
"It's not. He's become a redundant character in my life, and I don't want to be haunted by him, and if I hadn't killed him in the first place, he'd definitely be pestering me. ”
“…… That's why you killed him? ”
"Maybe. However, maybe it was for other reasons, for example, I felt very lonely at the time, life was not at all, and I had to find something to stimulate and prove that I was alive and well. ”
“……”
"I didn't expect to kill him, I still feel that life is so boring...... However, I was lucky to meet you at the time. ”
“……”
"Didn't I tell you that I had been paying attention to you for a long time? Observe you, it was also part of my boring life at the time. ”
“……”
"What I didn't expect was that when I killed someone, we just had the opportunity to really get to know each other. So, I seized this opportunity to get closer to you and into your life. ”
“……”
"I don't need to say anything more about the rest of the story, right? To this day, we still live together. ”
Chen Shiming's courage was all gone, "You won't kill me too, will you?" ”
"Why do you think that?"
"Someday, you'll have no interest in me and hate me."
"So, you think I'm going to kill you?"
Chen Shiming looked at her, his eyes overflowing with fear.
Ye Qiao gave him a cold smile, "Those who are born afraid of death are useless to live." However, being with you has added a lot of fun to life, and I will not let you die. ”
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"But, you're going to kill me sooner or later, aren't you?"
Chen Shiming is worried.
His fears were not unfounded.
Ye Qiao is a very scary woman.
She lives without emotion and is only obsessed with the world of one person.
With him, she seemed to have changed.
But in her heart, she still enjoys the loneliness of being alone.
She killed her boyfriend just because she had no interest in him and was afraid that he would entangle her.
A person's life is simply a mess of mustard that can be trampled on at will.
- I don't know why I've been able to live with her for so long, and I haven't been killed by her.
"Maybe." Ye Qiao gave him an ambiguous answer.
"Not maybe, for sure."
"Why do you think so?"
"Do you remember what you told me about your past?"
"My past? Of course I remember. ”
"Your stepmother was killed by you, right?"
"Well, yes. It was my first time killing someone, so I remember it very well. ”
"Your father was also killed by you."
"He lived so badly, and letting him live in this world, only reminded me how unbearable and painful my past was."
"And that friend of yours, too, died at your hands."
"She has degraded me again and again, plunged me deeper into loneliness and pain after being drunk on money, and she herself is a woman corrupted from body to soul, and killing her is also one of the rites of farewell to my unbearable past."
"In addition to them, you've killed a lot of men you've been with, haven't you?"
"They are like beautiful snakes, they look very tempting, but when they get into your body, they spit venom into your bloodstream, paralyze your nerves, and gnaw at your organs, so that you can't survive or die...... You can only live if you kill them, and if you want to live, you have to use their lives as an antidote...... I did this because I wanted to keep myself alive. ”
"This is a high-sounding excuse for the mistakes you have made, in fact, you are already an out-and-out murderous addicted pervert, even with me, you will never be able to quit this addiction."
"Oh? How do you know that when I was with you, I also killed people? ”
"With me, you suddenly disappear from time to time, before you disappeared, you were emotionally unstable, restless, and even a little crazy, and after you disappeared, you returned to our home, and you became emotionally stable, quiet and introverted, and you seemed to be a very virtuous woman again."
"You seem to have been watching me for a long time."
"If that weren't, how could I have thought of you killing someone? The same person, different time periods, but with two different emotions, you don't have to think about it to know what you did during the time you disappeared. ”
"I could do a lot of other things, not necessarily kill people, would I?"
"You dare to say you're not going to kill someone?"
Ye Qiao looked at him and gave him a very warm smile, "You guessed right, I did go to kill someone." ”
"Who did you kill?"
"I don't know who they are, anyway, mostly men. They were both midnight loners, and they both had a lustful heart for me. I killed them because I needed to vent, and because I couldn't get used to their dirty faces. ”
Chen Shiming's heart rose to his throat and eyes.
He was speechless.
Ye Qiao approached him, and the distance between him and him was only between breathing.
"The reason why I don't want to kill you is because you have brought me some human joy somewhat."
“……”
"You let me be like a normal person, be an ordinary wife, and give me the pleasure I want as a husband and wife, with you, I feel that life is very real and promising."
“……”
"Perhaps, I already have feelings for you, although I don't want to admit it, but I can't lie to myself......"
“……”
After saying this, Ye Qiao suddenly disappeared.
Chen Shiming knelt on the ground, and the palpitations in his heart were difficult to go away for a long time.