Chapter 5 What's the Use of Being Sorry?
Sun Ying habitually took beer for Jiang Ruofeng. When he first started working, he had to drink a can every time he came back.
However, although the beer is still the same brand as before, this time Jiang Ruofeng pushed it away with a smile: "I quit drinking."
The beer is still the same brand, but he is no longer the Jiang Ruofeng of two years ago.
"Shall we make a cup of tea?"
"Okay."
After boiling the water, when she was about to brew, Sun Ying remembered that she didn't drink tea on weekdays: "There is no tea, you wait a minute, I'll go out and buy some."
"Forget it."
After sitting silently like this for a while, Jiang Ruofeng really felt bored, so he had to get up and leave.
In fact, it can't be said to be boring, but it should be said to be awkward. What does it look like to stay in your ex-girlfriend's rental house.
This is the terrible thing about time, in just two years, two people who used to talk about everything have become relatively speechless. Moreover, when they were in the same room, they were only embarrassed.
Perhaps, they do have too much to ask each other, too many things on their minds to confide in each other. It's just that there are so many things to do, so where to start.
Talking about the past only adds to sentimentality, talking about the future, where is the future!
Sun Ying originally wanted Jiang Ruofeng to sit for a while, but when the words came out, they became: "I'll send you."
When he went out, Jiang Ruofeng didn't even say goodbye and wanted to leave directly, not that he forgot, but he just felt that between him and Sun Ying now, where was there still a need to say goodbye.
Say goodbye, it's better to never see you again.
Looking at his limping way of walking, Sun Ying felt an inexplicable heartache. Knowing that this leg was an eternal pain in his heart, she still couldn't help but ask, "...... your leg?"
She remembered very clearly that when Jiang Ruofeng walked in the past, he always strode and chased away, and the speed was very fast.
Look at his current appearance, hunched over, hanging his head, lame not to mention, at this speed, where does he look like a young man in his twenties. To put it mildly, an old antique in his eighties is much faster than him.
"It's nothing, isn't it just ugly to walk, and it's not completely crippled......", although this is not funny, Jiang Ruofeng himself smiled inexplicably.
"You go back......", in fact, there is nothing to worry about, but Jiang Ruofeng still doesn't want to stay here for a moment. It's just that after walking out for a while, he involuntarily stopped, and then turned back.
Sun Ying also rushed over suddenly, but she was silent for a while before she spoke: "I only heard from a classmate about your car accident a few days ago. If I had known, I wouldn't have ......."
"It's all in the past, and now it's all about it."
"Also to ......"
"That'...... Goodbye ......", they all thought that they would never see each other again, but for some reason, when they turned around, they still said goodbye again.
Watching Jiang Ruofeng walk away from him, Sun Ying hesitated for a moment, and finally asked, "I will get married next month, and the date has been chosen, are you coming?"
"Oh, that's hello! By the way, I don't know what date it is? ”
"The seventh of next month."
"Seventh, twenty-four today. So let's say fourteen days to go. ”
Jiang Ruofeng originally wanted to ask who he was marrying, but when the words came to his lips, he became: "Where is it?"
"Tianyu Restaurant."
"Oh, that's good. If I hadn't left, I would have come. ”
Jiang Ruofeng finished speaking with a chuckle, and then strode away at his fastest speed.
From afar, I heard Sun Ying say a useless nonsense in the world: "I'm sorry ......"
Jiang Ruofeng's footsteps paused slightly, but he didn't stop after all.
I'm sorry.
You didn't do anything to be sorry for me, so why do you need to say sorry.
In other words, if you have done something sorry for me, and now you are half-disabled, what is the use of this sorry sentence?
Sun Ying herself also knows that saying sorry in the vernacular can't change anything, let alone make up for the damage to Jiang Ruofeng. But she said it anyway, and she didn't just say it, she was doing it.
In the past, her parents introduced her boyfriend to her and forced her to break up with Jiang Ruofeng, but she has always been tough.
originally planned to resist to the end, but Jiang Ruofeng's sudden car accident made her finally calm down. At the same time, in order to prevent him from continuing to be harmed, she chose to break up with him.
The reason why I told him just now that I only heard about the car accident this year was just because I didn't want him to have too much burden on his heart.
Her parents forced her to break up with Jiang Ruofeng, forced her to associate with Liu Junyang, and arranged a proper job for herself, which she could accept. The only thing that is unacceptable and unforgivable is that they and Liu Junyang single-handedly planned Jiang Ruofeng's car accident.
She didn't understand why she had already done what they wanted, why she still had to make a move on Jiang Ruofeng, why she couldn't let him go, and why she had to use the extreme way of a car accident to solve the problem.
Isn't it just to let yourself marry Liu Junyang, okay, then I will do what you want.
However, things don't end so easily. Everyone has to pay for what they have done. She is no exception, Jiang Ruofeng is no exception, and Liu Junyang, who is the governor's son, is no exception.
"Ruofeng, I know that it's useless to be sorry, and it can't make up for the harm they have done to you. But please believe that those who have harmed you, one day I will let them taste the evil fruits of what they have sown. ”
Sun Ying believes that although there is no evidence to prove that Jiang Ruofeng's car accident was planned by Liu Junyang. However, given time, he will definitely find direct evidence that Liu Junyang hired a murderer.
This is also the only purpose for which he agreed to marry Liu Junyang.
When he came out of Sun Ying's place, Jiang Ruofeng didn't take a taxi, and walked aimlessly along Binhe Avenue alone.
As they walked, they walked to the park where the two of them used to play when they were students. Looking at the already unfamiliar park, Jiang Ruofeng finally understood that it was not just people, but many things had changed.
I remember the last time I came here to play when I just graduated, a few flowers and trees in the flower garden were still small seedlings that had just reached my waist, and now they had grown a lot taller than him.
It's as if he is no longer the Jiang Ruofeng of two years ago, and this park is no longer the park of two years ago.
This is the so-called right and wrong of things!
What Jiang Ruofeng didn't expect was that the bench he and Sun Ying had sat on next to the flower garden was still there, but it was obviously much older.
Although Sun Ying was missing, Jiang Ruofeng still sat down again, just like before.
The chair is still the same chair it used to be, and the person is still the same person it used to be, the only difference is the mood that it once had.
Once when he sat in this chair, Sun Ying would rest her head on his shoulder and sit next to him. At that time, he always felt happy and sweet in his heart, but now!
Jiang Ruofeng only felt as if he had drunk a large cup of strong tea that had been left overnight, which was bitter, sour and astringent.
This time I don't know how long I sat until dusk and sunset, and twilight came.
Jiang Ruofeng suddenly had a strong feeling, he felt that the darkness was engulfing him little by little, as if he was going to completely sink into this boundless night.
When the street lights in the park came on, Jiang Ruofeng staggered away, and then found a guest house nearby and opened a room. I don't know if it's a problem with the bed, he, who used to be able to sleep to death as long as he dipped his pillow, has been lying on the bed for more than an hour tonight, but the more he sleeps, the more awake he becomes.
The neon lights shining from time to time in the bar downstairs are even more inexplicably disturbing.
Faced with the endless darkness, he suddenly wanted to drink.
And so, he was drunk, and he was very drunk.