Dr. Nguyen Li has done a lot of research on what "Claudia White" is like, including my description of it in my diary, and of course, she is more inclined to what she sees in her cognition, which is understandable. In this repeater world, if the locals can perceive the "end of the world", they will be more or less aware of the problem of "White Claudia", but when their cognition intersects with the cognition of the invaders of the apocalyptic illusion, what will happen? There is no answer to this question for me, and the people close to me, Dr. Nguyen Lê, who is closest to this situation, completely regard us as "mentally ill" affected by "Claudia White".

Different from the reality of the hospital, and different from the apocalyptic illusion, in this repeater world, the meaning of "white Claudia" is the best expression of the "end of the world". Just like in a post-apocalyptic fantasy, any "incomprehensible situation" can be attributed to "fate and mystery"; In the reality of the hospital, any "weird production" can be regarded as "hallucinations of patients with doomsday syndrome due to the influence of the virus"; In this world of repeaters, anything "out of the ordinary" can also be considered "an apocalyptic phenomenon with White Claudia at its core".

And these three expressions all have a common characteristic—the source and core of the abnormality, the strangeness, and the contradiction, all of which have a certain degree of "difficult to know" and "incomprehensible". It can be regarded as either "the lack of human technology and the current insolvability" or the conceptual "absolutely incomprehensible", because in the process from the beginning of the apocalypse to the end, there is no theory and there is not enough time for it to become "solvable". Let's say "if there is enough time". Or to assume that "if only human theories could be one step closer" is pointless, hence the feeling of anxiety and despair.

I think that Dr. Nguyen Le made the previous decisions, as well as the changes in attitudes, contradictions, and hesitations, when she herself recognized the situation and experienced the anxiety and despair. In order to maintain one's own psychological balance, there is such a appearance. Perhaps, in a place I didn't notice, in fact, her mental uneasiness also made her have a delusion, or a wrong judgment. However, her strong ability to resist pressure allows her to maintain her image as a mainstay in front of everyone.

I think this kind of Dr. Ruan Li is very remarkable. Because I can feel firsthand how painful it is to try to fight against such a fate in the anxiety that "the end of the world cannot be stopped". It's not physical pain, it's more importantly mental overwhelm.

It was in this situation that I was pushed to the front by Dr. Nguyen Li. When I said it, I was willing to help her. There's no going back. Even if she is in this repeater world. A member of the Doomsday Shinrikyo Cult, and every thing she has done will be a factor in promoting the development of the Doomsday Shinrikyo Cult.

Mysterious experts, who are obviously enemies of the Doomsday Shinrikyo and the least willing to see the spread of "Paradise", must personally participate in the study of "Paradise" and may need to assist Dr. Nguyen Le in spreading it in the future. It is indeed extremely ironic. Although the Doomsday Shinrikyo in Dr. Nguyen Li's mouth is not the same as what I have known in the past, and it is not all negative, it has also shown the characteristics of the cult that I know in many details. And it's sliding down the abyss. I am almost certain that in this world, the Doomsday Shinrikyo Cult is inevitably going down the old path, and this change is a macroscopic change, as if it should be in harmony with the "end times", and has a deep connection with the reality of the hospital and the situation of the apocalyptic illusion. I can feel the apocalyptic process, or rather, a scripted fateful ending.

Even so, I cannot object to Dr. Nguyen Le and the collaboration of the seminar. The reason why she was willing to cooperate with the seminar to conduct research on "Paradise" was based on her own professionalism and analysis of "Claudia White". If she is completely sane, of course, not really, but I still believe that if she could think of a better way, or if someone told her a better way, she would have changed—and yet, no one had told her, and she herself could not find it.

I felt that she was also lonely before I promised her. She can't prove herself right, but she also needs to drift away from this unfalsifiable path. So, I couldn't leave her alone and go on like this. Of course, this is not only the rational thinking of her own plan, but also the sensibility of wanting to be by her side and witness her success or failure, survival or death.

In this way, I will not particularly object to one of her proposals, or even make my own opinions. Accompanying her, accepting her, looking at her, I feel that this is the only thing I can do for her.

Dr. Nguyen Le is lying, deceiving people, and using some inhumane means for the sake of some very unlikely realities - these circumstances have been hidden in her body, showing symptoms. I could smell the coldness and cruelty hidden in her calm, dominant conversation, and the deeper malice, which was a frightening, rotten smell. Especially during this workshop trip, after getting my answer from the villa, this smell became even more intense—it reminded me of crows, black life, unknown representation, scavengers, but there are some religious meanings that are as indispensable as theorems, and if they are missing, they will make the world work badly.

Dr. Nguyen Lê's terror is hidden in her middle-of-the-road attitude, and I wonder if the people who come into close contact with her, such as Mitsui Tsukao, fitness instructors, and soothsayers, have felt it. And in my feelings, although this horror is frightening, it is also reassuring and calm, as if it reflects what she once said: I used the image of her that I felt to shape "Jiang".

After she said this, maybe it was a psychological factor, but in short, I saw more and more similarities between her and "Jiang"—more precisely, she was similar to all humanoid "Jiang", but the difference was huge enough to be distinguished, but it was impossible to make people feel it completely. They have nothing to do with each other, as if they cut out a small piece from the "Jiang" and from the characteristics of the humanoid Jiang, and then piece it together to become Dr. Ruan Li.

However. This description makes me feel particularly contradictory when I think of Mae.

If Dr. Nguyen Li is such a being who has a close relationship with "Jiang" in this world of repeaters, then in the reality of the hospital, she should also maintain some contact with "Jiang" in terms of identity and background, and it is still not enough to regard her as a researcher of "virus". And. In the reality of the hospital, Dr. Ruan Li and "Zhenjiang" are completely two people.

No, if you think about it. What does the real "real river" look like in the hospital? I suddenly remembered that I had created an impression of the "dead Mahae" from the "hallucinations of suspected memory" and the description of "Mae" in the materials. And, irrefutably, this shaping. There must be an impact on the impression of the mentally ill Mae in the apocalyptic illusion. Even if it is preserved in the Zài Hospital. The archives on "Zhenjiang" are also very simple.

In this way, the one I remember is "the most real", the "dead", the "deeply loved". "Eaten by Takakawa", what kind of appearance does Mae who "entrust Sakuya and others" to? And how many elements of this appearance are truly undoubted?

I was a little stunned. However, no one can answer the question that I have in mind no matter what: how can a dead person leave the most vivid and true posture in the memory of a mentally ill person? And how do you know that? In the reality of the hospital, the dead Mae and even the photos are old and blurry.

I looked at Dr. Ruan Li and couldn't help but think, could it be that even when I was in the reality of the hospital, it appeared in my hallucinations, in my memory, the image of the dead Zhenjiang, because I subconsciously used the image of Dr. Ruan Li in the reality of the hospital to make up for those vague places?

In the reality of the hospital, there is no detailed record of the past in Takakawa's memory—the life in the orphanage, and the tragedy that occurred after being infected with the "virus"—this memory was completed in my mind in the form of hallucinations and associations after seeing the rudimentary information. In fact, it is impossible for the hospital to fully grasp the situation at that time, because, as specifically mentioned in the information, when their people arrived, the orphanage had been completely burned down, and there were many people who were burned to death, no, to be exact, Sakiya and I, may be the last survivors, as for "whether Takakawa ate Mae or not", there is also no detailed record, just an attitude when people mentioned the events of that year, which seems to be a somewhat ambiguous consensus.

Even when Dr. Ruan Li expressed his position, he often did not specifically explain whether this kind of "eating Zhenjiang" was a tangible biological behavior or an insinuating psychological behavior. When interpreting the existence of "Raven Quark", the focus is on the analysis of psychological mapping.

Yes, in the eyes of Dr. Nguyen Li, "crow" is the most representative psychological image of me as a patient.

However, at this moment, in my feelings, it is Dr. Ruan Li in front of me, who is getting closer and closer to the image of a "crow".

Dr. Nguyen Li and Mitsui Tsukao talked about the topic of "murderer", and although they had a break for a while, they still couldn't completely get rid of the mental impact and pressure brought to them by the mysterious incident at the rest point. It is Mitsukashi himself, and he is quite excited, no matter what, even if it is dangerous and the probability is very low, he wants to find out the murderer.

However, the content and rhythm of the conversation have always been in the hands of Dr. Nguyen Li. Her calm, meaningful tone, like a crow standing on a telephone pole, surveyed every pedestrian who passed below her, and that gaze seemed to be cast from another world, full of a mysterious attraction that made the atmosphere seem somewhat unusual.

Dr. Nguyen Li's voice is very hypnotic, and in particular, she is particularly good at hypnotic guidance in this way, so much so that it seems to be imprinted in instinct. I could already smell the strange smell, but listening to her talk to Mitsukasu and others, I didn't feel it at all. In my opinion, it's a somewhat bizarre scene.

The conversation inevitably leans towards "White Claudia".

"In any case, the murderer always needs Claudia White." "Coincidentally, according to my investigation, it is here that the white Claudia originated in proven history," said Dr. Nguyen Lê. We are going to visit the psychiatric hospital, which was a convent a long time ago, and Claudia Blanca was in the process of founding and destroying the convent. It has a special significance. I've heard that in the neighborhood too, you often find artifact-like objects with flowers depicting flowers that resemble the white Claudia. ”

"You mean, we just have to wait and see?" Mitsukasuka seems to feel that he has hit the nail on the head, "psychologically. White Claudia plays a central role in the murderer's success, so he will inevitably do a lot of research on White Claudia's situation, and even have some deep complexes. ”

Dr. Nguyen Lê's statement weakened his relationship with the seminar and instead strengthened the relationship between the alleged "murderer" and the local community. If you follow this line, you may find out the secrets of the seminar.

However, what exactly does she think of the issue of "murderers"? Whether it's really as she says it is. Is there really such a "murderer" lurking in the travel procession? If so, who would it be? These questions, from the perspective of the apocalyptic illusion, are difficult to stand up to scrutiny. That mysterious incident, in the information I have obtained, was not the work of a single murderer, but the result of the interaction of several mysterious forces. However, in the eyes of Dr. Nguyen Li. The "mysterious" factor does not exist. Well, it can be speculated. Compared with the explanation of "the interaction of several forces", of course, it is more "reasonable" to think that the differences within the Doomsday Shinrikyo intensified, and then the situation of "murderers" was produced.

And regardless of whether the "murderer" exists or not, whether it is a person or not, it will eventually be involved. Of course, it's the Doomsday Shinrikyo itself. Because, the Cult of Doomsday Shinrikyo is the most active party in the study of Claudia White.

It is hard to imagine that if you look at the same thing from different angles, the differences can be so big.

However, no matter which way you look at this seminar. It is certain that the Doomsday Shinrikyo will inevitably be one of the protagonists and occupy a dominant position. From the perspective of Doomsday Vision, NOG is also one of the sponsors of the seminar, and the expectations of the seminar itself are also quite "just", and the means are extreme, which should probably be just a normal situation for NOG. Then, the elements of the Doomsday Shinrikyo in the seminar will appear even more obscure under the backdrop of NOG.

In this way, Dallas, which may not be exactly the same as the research of the seminar, has emerged with more and more definite colors of the apocalyptic truth that I am familiar with. Thinking of his identity in "hospital reality", it is a bit surprising that he should play such a role here. I'm beginning to feel that this Mr. Dallas, who used to act together in "hospital reality," is more than just an "independent journalist." His motives for looking for color and Dorothy at that time, and the timing of his search for me, were not as simple and accidental as they were at the time.

He is clearly associated with the "lurkers" who oppose the "hospital" and Dr. Ender. And the so-called "lurkers" are, to put it bluntly, some spies, and what they will do is very easy to think of. Dallas was involved with these people, and now it seems that he was not "involved in ignorance", perhaps, he was one of them for a long time, and he was also a veteran.

I remembered the clues I had planted before my death in "hospital reality" and the disappearance of Dallas...... I'll see you again when I go back.

In the case of "Claudia White" and "Paradise", Dr. Ruan Li uses the skin of words to hide the truth deeply, but because it still reveals the taste of truth, it can also make people fall into such an explanation.

"Do we need to take all the white Claudia off or burn them?" The soothsayer sighed, "I wish it hadn't grown in many places. ”

"No, if you want to find a lot of white Claudia, you have to go to that mental hospital." Dr. Nguyen Le said.

"Wouldn't it be worse if something like that happened in a mental hospital? Said the fitness trainer.

"But on the other hand, in order to ensure the safety of psychiatric hospitals, the best measures in preparedness are also the best." Mitsui Tsukao said: "What does Ms. Ruan mean is to wait until the murderer throws himself into the urn, right? But since the murderer also came along, it is likely that he wanted to get the support of the seminar. I don't think the seminar will refuse to be able to achieve results that are already visible. ”

"What do you think the purpose of this event is being held here?" Dr. Nguyen Le asked rhetorically, "The research on White Claudia at the symposium was the earliest and has always been the largest. Don't do evil just because you don't want to, not because you don't have the ability. The murderer is definitely not the only one who can use white Claudia as a raw material to make something. Outside, perhaps the ability of the fierce watch is amazing, but at that time, he can only be regarded as a little kid in this seminar. Suppose you catch this person, then it is more likely that the final review will be carried out. ”

When Dr. Nguyen Li said this, the three of Mitsukasuka looked at me together, and one of them said, "I remember that Takakawa's diary wrote that White Claudia is a specialty of a cult called Doomsday Shinrikyo, so is there any necessary connection between that Doomsday Shinrikyo and this seminar?" ”

"Of course, but that's something you don't need to know until you've become official companions." Dr. Nguyen Le took a cocktail from a passing waiter and said, "We must first focus on White Claudia and do as much research as possible to ensure that the information we have is not inferior to that of the murderer, and as long as we are sure that we are not affected by White Claudia, we can ensure our own safety in the face of the enemy's psychedelic drugs." ”

As soon as the high-sounding words came out, everyone thought that this was the truth. Since the enemy is bound to act around the "White Claudia", it is still noncommittal whether the seminar, which is also studying the "White Claudia", will be happy. At least, from a researcher's point of view, it is certainly impossible to expect others to peer into the same veins of their own research.

Mitsukasuka seemed to feel that he had cleared his head, and the expression on his face couldn't help but relax, as if he had completely acquiesced to Dr. Nguyen Li's statement.

"Is there any information about Claudia White?" The fitness trainer asked.

As if by magic, Dr. Ruan Li placed three disks in his open palms to everyone: "This is the more detailed information I found as much as possible, and the seminar refused to release it." ”

Mitsukasuka took the disk, took another bite of barbecue, and said goodbye to us: "I want to go back to my room to see these materials first." ”

No one stopped him. After Mitsukasuka's departure, the fitness instructor and the soothsayer also said goodbye one after another, and they seemed to be fished with curiosity, and their steps back to the villa were a little excited. But as far as I'm concerned, I don't find the White Claudia profile so appealing.

"Is it appropriate to beat around the bush to inspire them to value Claudia in white without mentioning the end of the world?" I asked Dr. Nguyen Li, "White Claudia has an effect on people, doesn't it?" ”

"What we need are experts who will not be affected by Claudia White, no, it should be said, will not be affected in this kind of dissolution." "So, exposing them to the white Claudia is the best way to verify it," says Dr. Nguyen Lê. ”

"It's like — to verify whether you will die if you eat arsenic, how much you eat to die, you just need to let people eat arsenic a little bit - this feeling?" I said, "It's a primitive and brutal way." ”

"Because we don't have a better way." Dr. Nguyen Le said: "Even if you talk about the end of the world, people who can't escape the influence of Claudia White will not believe it at all. Instead, they focus on other places – places that don't align with our research topic, or even contradict it. Time is running out, and we cannot tolerate this. ”

"So, how much of that explanation is serious when you talk about the mysterious events of that night? Mom. I asked.

"It must have something to do with White Claudia, that's for sure." Dr. Nguyen Li said calmly: "But, is the murderer one, or several? What exactly is the identity? What is the ins and outs of the incident? Not an easy question to answer. However, I don't think it's the result of personal behavior. (To be continued......)