When Mitsui Tsukao and the others left, their expressions were still a little dazed, and the seminar trip, which should have been a very happy one, not only encountered an inexplicable attack, but was frightened all the way, and in the end, they were told by Dr. Ruan Li that the invitation to this seminar had a different purpose. If you don't know about these things, you can at least open up and play until the end of the day, but if you are told, you can't assume that there is no such thing at all. It is precisely because Dr. Nguyen Le has always given people the impression of being trustworthy and disdainful of lying, so when she clearly told everyone that part of this seminar was shady, no one doubted Dr. Nguyen Lê, nor did they think it was a joke, except for the initial suspicion, they quickly believed it. Of course, there was no need for Dr. Nguyen Le to lie, what she saw was such a bad situation that it was impossible for others to volunteer or not. According to the Doomsday Shinrikyo style of action, the so-called "disposed of" hints can be thought of in a bad way.

I think they will probably have a feeling of betrayal at this time, but it is difficult to say how strong this feeling is, although Dr. Ruan Li's appearance has always left a very deep impression on people, and her identity and conversation will also add points in the relationship, but after all, we have not known each other for a long time, and it is difficult to say how strong the sense of trust is. Besides, being able to accept this fact so lightly, and when asking about the situation, he didn't show too much excitement, such a state of mind must be because he had made a psychological defense in advance.

Neither Dr. Nguyen Le nor I are worried about the appearance of the three of them. The people who can get invited to the seminar are basically expected to be in terms of ability and mentality. People who can withstand this kind of pressure. Instead, I think they should be thankful for their luck when an event is bound to happen. The intelligence gap between those who know the inside story and those who don't may work at a critical moment.

Even if it's just a nodding acquaintance, I don't want these three to really be "disposed of". Even with the participation of Dr. Ruan Li, the subsequent research does not guarantee anything at all.

"Are the drivers and the person in charge also from the Doomsday Shinrikyo cult?" I asked, looking at the backs of the three of them leaving.

"I don't know." Dr. Nguyen Le said: "Although I accepted the invitation, and. On the surface, the whole research is very much in line with my needs, but I'm not the one who is in charge of the big picture. I was just one of the researchers I was asked to assist. For the sake of confidentiality and security, the whole research was split into many parts, and I was only responsible for a few of the parts that I did best. ”

"Need to keep it a secret?" I asked.

"As I said before, if the starting point of the action is to prevent the end of the world. It's easy to die of bad luck. Although it may sound mysterious, it has been proven by other experts and seems to be a tendentious macro adjustment mechanism at work. Specific theories are troublesome and, moreover, are cross-border conclusions. I don't quite understand, but there are too many examples in the past that prove that there is a premise for encountering bad luck. Even Cheng dù can be classified, which is not an accidental case at all. Dr. Nguyen Le said, "So." All the research of the Doomsday Shinrikyo is dismantled, bringing together people with different attitudes to participate in the same research, and thus spreading the odds of doom. However, although it is true that in terms of the collected values, it proves that it can indeed resist bad luck, but because there are too many people with different ideas and attitudes, and when there are some differences of opinion, there are some undesirable troubles...... Even if precautions are taken, the intensity of the conflict is often unexpected. ”

"Someone died? In the course of research? I couldn't help but ask, I didn't expect that in a study that seemed to be like-minded, the battle had become so fierce, and it was indeed a desperate situation. Originally, people were able to come together precisely because they had to rely on the strength of others, and when all parties were taking action against the "end of the world", they also hoped that they could prove themselves right by producing results. However, even in the face of external pressure, the internal contradictions have not been eliminated, and even when Yan zhòng arrives, will he kill his companion Cheng Dù?

"Whenever research involves the end of the world, it inevitably involves Claudia White." "However, the process of studying Claudia is quite unpleasant, as if Claudia was deliberately creating a situation - if it is conscious, then it is inevitable to fight back against our behavior, right?" So, if you can, it's necessary to hide your thoughts deeply. ”

"Is it okay to say it now?" I say.

"Just say it once in a while, and it should be fine...... I think. Dr. Nguyen Le said, "At the very least, when the organization absorbs new blood, it will inevitably tell people about these things." If you want to be in a group, it is necessary to clarify the general direction of the group's activities. Earlier, in fact, the Doomsday Shinrikyo did not contain the same researchers, but because the attitude was too clear, it was as if they had encountered bad luck when they were active, and every time there were some accidents, which caused terrible consequences. Because the personnel losses are too heavy, they have to recruit people who are not so professional, whose personalities are not conducive to collaboration, and even have diametrically opposite ideas and attitudes. ”

I see, it is precisely because it is not pure that the doomsday Shinrikyo in this world has more possibility of developing towards the doomsday Shinrikyo that I am familiar with. Referring to the Doomsday Shinrikyo in the Doomsday Vision, it can almost be concluded that the rapid deterioration of the Doomsday Truth Church that Dr. Nguyen Li knew was inevitable. Whether it was circumstances that forced the organization to change, it can also be argued that a factor related to the end of the world had an impact on the cult long before it was founded.

"The organization is becoming more and more dangerous, but even so, it is still the organization with the most knowledge of White Claudia and the end of the world in the world, and it is also the most theoretical and technical organization." Dr. Nguyen Le said, "This is one of the reasons why I finally decided to bring you here. ”

I looked around, and the image of a fifty-meter radius was outlined by the chain judgment, with many seemingly incongruous outlines, giving people the feeling of being surrounded. The feeling of being watched.

"We're under surveillance all the time?" I asked.

"Except for my room." Dr. Nguyen Le said she didn't seem to want to talk about the topic. I think it's probably because this kind of thing is even known. It is also impossible to undo. Dr. Nguyen Le changed the subject and said to me, "Where else do you want to go today?" The scenery here is not bad. If you want to relax, just take advantage of the now, and when the research begins, even if you are prepared, accidents are inevitable. She said in a tone that seemed to be accustomed to "accidents". I can't think that even a mysterious event happened at the rest point. Are they all in her habit?

"Nope. I didn't have any places I wanted to go. "I'll be honest.

"Well, then, I'll give you a rough idea of how to get Claudia off the ground." Dr. Nguyen Le said, "Although I don't know when you will forget this conversation again, but. It doesn't matter if you want me to say it a few times, as long as you want. She said this, looking at me with tiredness and persistence in her eyes.

I didn't refuse, and so it was all afternoon. We all stayed in the room. Compile the information that Dr. Nguyen Le has gathered so far about Claudia White. Both the information of the NOG and the soothsayer at the mysterious time mentioned that someone was planting and collecting Claudia White, but the information about the subject of the activity is very vague. Now, it seems that it is not groundless. Although it is easy for the NOG to judge that it is the behavior of the Doomsday Shinrikyo Religion, there is a discrepancy between the "Doomsday Shinrikyo" they call and the "Doomsday Shinrikyo" of this world.

Although, this deviation is probably due to the illusion that "the position of the person standing is different". But I still can't help but think of the Torchlight, a mysterious organization that believes in deviant mysteries.

In the past, it was such a view. The deviation of the torchlight is subjective, that is, although it does not produce an effect by the will of the torchlight, it is because the torch light exists that it will bring about that deviation. But now, it seems that it is more like that the deviation has always existed, but it will always be attached to the torchlight.

If we look at other worlds based on a single world, what we see, and the connections and contradictions in our understanding, are extremely complex. However, this does not mean that when we think of these worlds as real, we can alleviate the contradictions. Why did things turn out the way they did? What prompted them, and how did they change during that period? Most of these questions are unsolvable to me.

All I can do is memorize everything I can know, but in the eyes of Dr. Nguyen Li, such a seemingly frivolous act has failed many times.

The appearance of the white Claudia was very vague in my impression, and although I always felt that I was familiar with this thing, I could not describe its appearance in detail. Dr. Nguyen Le has kept a part of the white Claudia here, but even if we all look at the same thing, we have different perceptions of the appearance of this thing - Dr. Nguyen Le seems to have had experience for a long time, and asked me to describe what I saw beforehand, and then let me listen to her description, and the result is quite obvious.

In the eyes of Dr. Nguyen Li - and she had described it earlier - the white Claudia was a plant that resembled alfalfa (also known as clover or clover), but in fact it was shown not to be a real plant, but only in its observable form to meet the definition of a plant, and in the context of a quantum state that could not be directly observed, and by theoretical mathematical and physical inferences, it was something else.

The white flowers, with fine hairs, have no heart, and are so delicate and fragile that they seem to rise from the stem when the wind blows. However, it is actually very tough, and adults will feel considerable resistance when they pull hard, and it is theoretically impossible to be blown away like a dandelion.

"And, although invisible to the human eye, under the microscope, extremely complex pipes can be seen under the epidermis of the petals and rhizomes, which carry liquids, but ...... And it's not just plain water. Dr. Nguyen Li paused here and said, "Claudia White is actually a man-eating plant in the usual sense, and under certain circumstances, it will take root in humans and suck blood, or use secretions to melt human tissues into blood-like juice and then absorb them. ”

This kind of thing is not surprising, although I have not really seen it, but there are memories of "blood-red flowers" in my impression. It's such a pure name as White Claudia, but. But it was accompanied by the appearance of corpses. I'm afraid that in Dr. Nguyen Li's opinion, the "demon plants" described in my diary are different from the current white Claudia. It's the setting that extends from her description.

"Under certain circumstances?" I asked.

"For the time being, the requirements for summarizing are not satisfied, but, judging from the number jù, it generally occurs when the emotions of people who are hallucinating fluctuate violently." Dr. Nguyen Le said: "This change is very obvious to those of us, but people who are hallucinating are completely unaware of it. This kind of emotional xù fluctuates violently. Possessing a strong contagion, to date, the record is an entire city of people. Within a minute, you will be caught in that kind of love. Then......" Dr. Nguyen Li's expression was solemn, "they all had blood-red white Claudia growing on them. Moreover, we are completely unable to prove it. Those white Claudias were already on them in the first place. Some have theorized that the seeds of Claudia are white, floating in the air like fine dust. However, when the air at the site was sampled, no similar composition was observed. Finally, it is the theoretical mathematical and physical models that prove that this is indeed possible at the level of quantum states. ”

"Do the methods of existence, growth, and diffusion basically have to be proved in terms of quantum states?" I'm a little pensive.

Actually, even if it's a theoretical formula. It can be proven that the way they are stored is different from what people think, however. The quantum physics we recognize is also limited by our vision and cognition, and is full of limitations. Dr. Nguyen Li said: "I don't think that when we measure Claudia in a quantum state, what we see is what it really is, but this is the only way for us to know and see how high it is." ”

"That is, it may be more complex than what quantum theory can portray?" As I said this, I thought to myself, isn't this very similar to the "virus" described in "Hospital Reality"?

"Yes." Dr. Ruan Li seemed to see through my thoughts and said, "The 'virus' described in your diary is probably the sublimation of the cognitive form of Claudia White. However, the 'virus' does not exist in Zài, and it is 'Claudia White'. ”

I didn't argue with her, but I couldn't help but think in my heart, is this "white Claudia" she knows really the prototype of "virus" and "river"? Maybe it's because in my heart, I'm looking forward to the existence of "Jiang", so I can't just deny the existence of "virus", so I can't agree with the term "prototype". If there is some kind of relationship between "Claudia White", "Virus" and "Jiang", I think it should not be the relationship between "archetype" and "imagination", but a more tangible relationship.

For example: Will white Claudia give birth to "viruses" and "rivers"? Such thoughts flashed through my mind. However, in that vague idea, the word "gestation" is still not quite correct. Moreover, such an idea is also inappropriate to put it in the "hospital reality" and "doomsday fantasy".

Of course, I am also very aware that such thoughts are more mixed with my own subjective factors.

"You don't depict Claudia white in the hospital reality, but I think it's still there, it's just a different image." Dr. Nguyen Li said: "In my opinion, the 'virus' in the hospital's reality, the 'Jiang' in the apocalyptic fantasy, and the 'White Claudia' in reality actually refer to the same thing. Do you know what conclusions will be drawn from this point of view? ”

I was silent.

Dr. Ruan Li stared at me for a long time and said, "This means that in reality, you can't find 'Jiang' in your hospital, you can't find 'virus' in the doomsday illusion, and you can't find the other two at this moment. But even if you can't find them, you can feel them all the same, because they're always around you, different images of the same thing. And this is one of the keys to your hallucinations getting deeper and deeper into your bone marrow. In fact, you have already realized it, so in the story, you can conclude that 'virus' and 'river' are two in one. But in fact, to describe it in such religious terms, it is actually Trinitarian. ”

White Claudia, Virus, and Jiang are actually a trinity - this is the most basic interpretation of what Dr. Nguyen Li has given to me in my diary in combination with her perception of reality. However, in my opinion, there is another kind of enlightenment: if I say that the world I have experienced is a side of reality. They also represent the truth. From the perspective of this repeater world, the real gesture is "White Claudia", and "virus" and "river" are just hallucinations caused by the former. So. Is it possible to think that from the perspective of the reality of the hospital, the "virus" is the reality, and the "white Claudia" and "Jiang" are the illusions; In the same way, standing in the apocalyptic fantasy, "Jiang" is also real?

However, in this conjecture. There is a situation that needs to be explained, if "Jiang" is real in the apocalyptic fantasy, and "virus" and "Claudia White" are illusory. So, what happened to me being killed by the final weapon and the spread of the "paradise" made by the white Claudia? If "Claudia White" does not exist. So. How is "paradise" produced? If the "virus" does not exist, what will happen to the attack on me with the final weapon that is exactly the same as that of Mae?

Starting from these questions, I feel that only one exists, and the other two are "illusory" hospital reality and repeater worlds, which are even more unreal than apocalyptic illusions.

The Trinity has created a more complicated situation than in the past. I think. We should not try to understand the causes and consequences and the problems that arise, but focus on the meaning of the Trinity itself.

This meaning. For me, it's very simple: the Trinity, although it is observed from different sides, is indeed the only being, and can interfere with different aspects at the same time. And isn't this the theoretical height that Super Takagawa wants to reach?

The question is whether the will of "Claudia White", "Virus" and "Jiang" is unique when it comes to different interventions. If it's just Cheng dù, which is similar to "split personality", isn't it the same as the current "Gao Chuan"? And if the will of the three is unique, making people feel different, only the angle of observation is different, then the view of super color and super Dorothy in the reality of the hospital is correct: "Jiang" is "virus".

In this way, is it naïve to hope that "Jiang" can replace "virus"? Because there is nothing to replace, and nothing can be replaced.

My actions against the "virus", even from the perspective of "Jiang", are only errors in my own understanding, and the actions are still aimed at "Jiang" itself.

I felt confused and painful, and once I accepted the premise that "every world is a side of reality" and "Trinity", my past actions and claims showed obvious flaws and mistakes. Is it impossible for a person to stand on a comprehensive and true perspective to look at the one qiē full of contradictions?

Perhaps, it is precisely because of the contradictions in my vision, way of thinking, and behavior that the disappearance of "Jiang" in a specific situation is the reason for this? Because, I deny it from another perspective, but no matter what perspective I perceive it, it is actually the only one. So, when I reject the "virus", will the "river" I expect disappear in front of my eyes? Then, only in the form of a "virus", it appeared in front of my eyes.

Thinking of this, I suddenly felt that my heart was full of sighs. As a result, is it still the perception of Super Color and Super Dorothy that is closest to the real situation?

However, I can't put this confusion on my face. I didn't want Dr. Nguyen to know what I really thought, because I knew that I couldn't change her mind at all, and I didn't want to explain her in its entirety.

Moreover, even the "Trinity" assumption made me realize that my past may be full of mistakes. However, it is not without the right decision.

What would happen if we could observe the completely real super high river, and observe it as a "river" in the "Trinity" all the time?

At present, I can't keep the observation of the "river" all the time, even if it is the observation of the humanoid river, and the separation from Tomie and the others is inevitable. However, after becoming a super Takakawa, maybe you can do it, right?

In any case, this is an extremely tempting idea.

I want to let her stay by her side forever in a more tangible form where she can see, hear, touch, and communicate.

In the occult, this is a séance ritual known as the "fall of angels", and similar rituals exist in various cultural areas, even in science, there is also a saying of "lowering dimensions". Its original meaning is: to reduce the high-level storage that is beyond one's own existence and cannot be seen directly to the low-level level where oneself is located.

The act of "observation" itself is central to the completion of this ritual, but it is also very common in occult descriptions of rituals to find ways to temporarily elevate oneself in order to complete the first step of "observation".

What I'm going to do, though not in a step-by-step manner of the occult, is the same. (To be continued......)