Chapter Eighty-Seven: Is It Okay to Stay?
After crying fiercely, Zhao Jingshu broke free from Xia Qi's embrace, and then wiped the rain mixed with tears on her face, and said to Xia Qi:
"Tianqi, we have become strangers. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 info”
"Actually, I thought about what we would say when we saw each other again. However, I forgot all about it. ”
"The only thing you and I am talking about is Yang Zhongpeng, we are now unfamiliar to each other, and we need to find a topic through an outsider."
Zhao Jingshu said it very bluntly, and Xia Qi was embarrassed and speechless after hearing it.
Because it is true that as Zhao Jingshu said, they basically have nothing to say now.
What to talk about?
Talking about the past? It will only be full of sighs.
Talking about now? They haven't seen each other for a long time.
Talking about the future? Is there a future between them?
It can be said that the only thing they can talk about is the experiences of the past when they were together, but when they were together in the past, they almost talked about everything, so he wanted to talk about the present more than memories.
"You are an amazing man, you hold all of us on your shoulders, so you dare not stop, you dare not enjoy happiness without security.
And I, on the other hand, am a woman who looks quite strong, but is very fragile in her bones, so even if you accept me, we are not suitable.
Because I love you so much, I love you so much that I can't lose it, as you said.
And you don't love me, you just care about me like a friend, like a relative.
The closer we get, the more reserved you are and the less we talk about it.
You don't ask me why I'm staying here, I know what you're thinking, just like I don't ask you why you haven't shown up for so long.
You have something to do, I have my own ideas.
But the wrong person is not you, but me, and the naïve person is not you, but me, because I never think about the future.
There is nothing bad to say about these words, we are friends, so it is time to say them. ”
Zhao Jingshu said this, took a deep breath, and said:
"Speaking of which, the moment you just hugged me, I felt strange, and there was no satisfaction in my heart.
I am a paranoid person, and this paranoia has made my liking for you into a mere get.
But when I heard what you just said, and you wanted to agree to be with me, I panicked.
So I didn't let you go on because I didn't want you to regret it, and I didn't want to make myself regret it.
Laid down, really let go at that moment.
This entanglement, this paranoia, is meaningless.
You will lose a friend, I will lose a lover, I am not stupid for such a loss, how can I do it. ”
After Zhao Jingshu finished speaking, she hung her wet hair behind her ears and smiled at Xia Qi, who was looking at her blankly.
At this moment, Xia Qi's originally restless heart also became calm, as if all the barriers had disappeared.
Because he could feel that Zhao Jingshu was no longer talking to him like a vindictive person, nor was he pretending to be strong to say let go, but really walked out of this matter.
Xia Qi can be said to be a person who is cruel to the enemy, but he is unwilling to hurt half of the people around him.
He was afraid of losing Zhao Jingshu, a friend like a relative, so he always felt that he owed Zhao Jingshu and felt that the problem was all on his side.
But in fact, there is nothing right or wrong in emotional matters.
If you don't like it, you don't like it, just like Zhao Jingshu said, if he agrees to Zhao Jingshu, it will be a kind of torture for himself, and turning over will be a huge harm and deception to Zhao Jingshu.
If two people are together just to be cared for and cared for, then every babysitter fits the bill perfectly.
The problem between him and Zhao Jingshu seemed to come to an end with Zhao Jingshu's letting go before he left reality.
But in fact, after that, they left a knot in each other's hearts.
So Zhao Jingshu began to deliberately alienate him, so he had several opportunities to come to this inner domain in advance, but he didn't come.
It wasn't until just now, as Zhao Jingshu stabbed the last layer of window paper open, that the two of them could be considered to have completely put it down.
Yang Zhongpeng stood on the opposite side of the bridge, clenching his fists and looking at Xia Qi and Zhao Jingshu in the distance.
He knew a lot about Xia Qi from Zhao Jingshu, and every time he talked about Xia Qi, Zhao Jingshu would behave differently from the usual coldness.
He knew very well that it was a sign of mentioning a person he liked.
He originally thought that Xia Qi would not have the courage to come to the Inner Domain, and he would not think about letting Zhao Jingshu go, but what he never expected was that Xia Qi still came.
And he still came with an absolutely strong attitude, and he was a big guy who could walk sideways in the inner domain.
Compared with Xia Qi, he, a senior manager, is an ant.
How can he get Zhao Jingshu back, and how can he stop Xia Qi?
He couldn't think of an answer.
So what can he do?
Maybe you can only watch them go away in front of your eyes with blessings and unwillingness.
It's like when he came to his fiancée's house that night with flowers, only to see blood and corpses all over the floor.
What could he do but accept this harsh reality?
No! He can't just compromise like this, he still has a chance, he can't give up, maybe Zhao Jingshu won't leave.
"Let's go back and talk again, everyone misses you so much, and we can finally be reunited."
Xia Qi felt that since he and Zhao Jingshu had already talked about it, and Zhao Jingshu had already said that he would go back to the outer region with him, he could have something to say back.
"Well, but I have to say goodbye to Yang Zhongpeng, in fact, if you didn't come to pick me up, I don't think she would let me go easily.
So Tianqi, do you know why I will let you go? It's because I've tasted this kind of emotional captivity myself.
You really have to thank him.
But no matter what, I take his care for me and his protection of me in mind, and he is also a good man, unlike the others in the underworld, he will never kill innocents indiscriminately. ”
"Then I really have to thank him for protecting our Jingshu so desperately."
Speaking of this, Xia Qi smiled and said:
"It seems that we don't need to look for him, he has already come to us."
As soon as Xia Qi finished saying this, he saw Yang Zhongpeng walking briskly towards them along the long bridge.
"Xiao Jing."
After approaching, he whispered to Zhao Jingshu.
Zhao Jingshu saw Yang Zhongpeng, the senior manager, her eyes were red at this time, but she opened her mouth and didn't speak.
"Xiao Jing, I know that Director Xia is here to pick you up, and I can't stop him, but I want to persuade you to stay as much as possible.
Although I am only a senior manager, I will work hard, as long as I am alive, no one can hurt you.
So it's okay to stay...... Please stay......"