1082 Emotional Talk
"Please come with me, this is not the place to talk......."
In the face of the strong pressure of the peak, it is not bad that Marthadi did not collapse on the spot. Trill asked Gao Feng, who then remembered that they were still on the ship, and the nameless anger disappeared a lot, and nodded and followed Marsati to the duty lounge next to the bridge.
The lounge is as simple and clean as the other rooms of the battleship, there are no extra decorations, only two single beds and matching tables and chairs, which can accommodate up to four people, even if there are only two peaks, they also feel a little cramped, after spending a long time in a spacious place, Gao Feng is already a little unaccustomed to simplicity and simplicity, when he sat on the chair, habitually took out his cigar, and found that Marsati frowned slightly, somehow, Gao Feng, who never took into account other people's thoughts, took back the cigar, crossed his hands on his lower abdomen, and looked at Mashadi quietly.
"Your Excellency, during this time, I have understood the original intention of the establishment of the Regulations on the Management of Non-Natural Persons, which has given me a deep understanding of how complex human emotions are, and at the same time, they also have certain harmful ......."
The opening remarks were not the theme, Marshady's eyes flashed with a fluctuating luster, and she looked at Gao Feng with full attention, making Gao Feng a little unaccustomed to this kind of sight, but he didn't interrupt, and the two of them were alone, which reminded him of the difficult days before, and gradually let his reason suppress anger and unwillingness.
"Before I met you, I only had monsters and darkness to accompany me, and the emotion triggered at that time was fear, and my first emotion was fear, when fear was about to turn into despair, I had decided to give up, and only the unwillingness generated in despair was still supporting me to fight with monsters, to drink the smelly blood, if you didn't appear, I only had two possibilities, either collapse, lose my mind and become a monster that would kill, or give up my life and be eaten by monsters.
When you appeared, I should be grateful to you at that time, but unfortunately I didn't, because I haven't learned to be grateful, and then I was terrified again, and the Chaos Front issued an order to purge me, if you didn't save me, I should have been sent to a psychological testing room for research, and then it was used as a biological material for recycling, just like the old practice, but you saved me again, which made me grateful.
But I still don't understand what gratitude is, so I create an opportunity to sleep with you, thinking that this is the way to repay you, I didn't expect that I am more repulsed by this kind of thing, because I subconsciously think that this should not be done, this kind of thing should not be regarded as a way to repay, I should be able to find a better way, and after the most I chose to be your right-hand man, maybe in my heart, sleeping with my boss is not awakened modulator, but being able to become a one-sided assistant is the best way to prove self-worth...... ”
Mashady babbled a lot, and Gao Feng suddenly felt ridiculous, she was like a psychiatrist, and Mashadi was receiving her own treatment, but the problem is, their theme today is not to play a doctor game, right? There was some impatience in his heart, but he still listened to what Mashati said, at least it made him know more about Mashati, and many times it was the misunderstanding caused by ignorance that caused the seriousness of the matter, especially now, since others said that he was wrong, after calming down. He just wanted to hear what others had to say.
"As the captain of a battleship, I have a busy schedule of tasks every day, and a fulfilling life makes me think that my choice is not wrong, this is what I want, I feel happy, the happiness of being satisfied, but when I see you and Kalea intimacy, I suddenly feel unbearable jealousy, jealousy is like an invisible flame, burning in my heart day and night, many times I have the urge to destroy you......."
"Ahem, cough, to the point, I can't blame you for your choice, but sometimes, there is no regret medicine to take if you choose, otherwise you will live in regret for the rest ......of your life."
Gao Feng hurriedly coughed and interrupted the increasingly intense Mashadi, at this time he couldn't use any explanation or consolation to calm down Mashati, after all, when he met someone who hated because of his love, it was just a small probability thing, and many people had never encountered it in their lives, in this way, Gao Feng suddenly felt inexplicably comfortable, and the previous nameless anger disappeared completely, even he didn't know what to do, he may not be in love with Kalea, just because of the sense of attention he needed, this feeling he found in Mashati again, Maybe he may not rekindle his old relationship with Marshadi, but all the depression in his heart is gone.
"In order to be able to forget the impulses that torment me, I put all my time and energy into the fleet, and unconsciously born the mood of ambition, I want to take everything into my hands, I want to get the same power and status as you, the freedom ...... that is not bound by anyone."
Gao Feng couldn't cry or laugh when he heard this, he really didn't understand Marshadi, this kind of thing was enough to think about in his heart, and he must not say it, once he said it, it meant that there was no possibility of realizing it, but all his dissatisfaction with Mashati was gone, this woman dared to say it in front of him, and she no longer had any reservations, but Marshady said such a lot of things, did it have anything to do with what they were going to say before?
"After experiencing these positive and negative emotions, I found that the emotions themselves are terrible, natural people are born with these emotions, so feelings are their instincts, the possibility of being controlled is very small, and the natural people who are strong in their hearts can adjust their emotions at any time, but modulators and clones are different, they are easily captured by emotions and become slaves of emotions, and the first emotion after most modulators awaken is repression, which will make people's hearts sick, so that they have the idea of destroying themselves and the world, It just so happens that what I awakened is fear, and you saved me from fear, I can get a sense of security in you, security is the first, anyone can betray you, but I won't, because without you, I will be overwhelmed by fear....... ”
All the foreshadowing is for this sentence, Marshadi through inner confession, all the psychological changes during this period of time are open in front of the peak, like a miser opening his treasure house in front of others, without any privacy at all, the last sentence of the peak sounds a little wrong, but I also know that this is the instinct of Mashadi's concoctoring people, even if they have emotions, they will not express emotions.
"What do you mean by saying so much, do you think I'm emotionally wrong?"
Gao Feng suddenly thought of a possibility, this possibility made him feel ridiculous, a modulator who initially had emotions, but didn't even know how to express himself, actually thought that there was something wrong with his emotions, which made Gao Feng sneer in his heart, he has lived two lives, what kind of joy, anger and sorrow have not been experienced? Need someone else to talk to him about this?
Marshady took a deep look at Gao Feng and lowered her head, her hair slipped down and blocked half of her cheeks, making her already gorgeous appearance hazy beauty, Gao Feng was a little upset, it was this sudden restlessness that made him quiet again, he knew that his emotions were really problematic, he was easy to be irritable, he was really not like this before.
"I can't know if there is a problem with your emotions, I just say that I have changed during this time, I think if a person is different from before, it must be a change in himself, if you get rid of all the negative thoughts and reflect on what you have done during this time, maybe you can find the problem ......."
"In your eyes, how am I different from before?" Gao Feng didn't care about the other party's feelings, took out a cigar and lit it for himself, and his consistent behavior made him feel again, and he had some ideas.
"When you appeared in the darkest of fears, it felt more dangerous than the monsters and the darkness combined, and I had the idea that I would never be able to resist you, and that night, when you faced the beasts on the ground, and in that level of dangerous battle, you were always in control of everything, you never made any mistakes, and in the end you won the victory.
And in the face of flying creatures and insect cloud pursuit, you always stand at the forefront, always maintain your own concept, and will not change because of anyone, you at that time are definitely different from now, more oppressive, and more deterrent ....... ”
Marshadi's words were like a twilight drum and morning bell, Gao Feng immediately understood the problem, he used to rely only on himself, now he relies on the fleet, compared to before, now he is like an eagle in a cage, he seems to be strong, but in fact he shows weakness, in addition, he also figured out the reason why Kalea is angry with him, maybe the reason why Kalea is really angry is that Gao Feng would rather nest on the battleship and wait, rather than go to the center of the horror vines to find her in person, so that she is disappointed in herself.
"What's going on with the Maple Leaf Maniac's challenge?"
Gao Feng asked the last question, Marshady didn't say much, handed him the electronic notebook, the picture is the battle between Maple Leaf Maniac and Kalea, in the picture on the edge of the slender white fingertips, Maple Leaf Mania rolled up countless whirlwinds and rushed towards Kalea, and was surrounded by thousands of silver long hair, the blue arc jumped on the silver hair, constantly hitting the whirlwind around the Maple Leaf Maniac, in less than a minute, the arc and the whirlwind canceled each other, and then the Maple Leaf Mania rushed into the middle of the hair, at this time Gao Feng keenly found, There are dozens of tiny cracks that are not visible around the maple leaf maniac, if it weren't for the clarity of the picture and the good enough of Gao Feng's eyes, ordinary people would not be able to find it at all.
When the Maple Leaf Maniac broke through the barrier of the hair, Kalea took the initiative to stop and appeared on the screen, and the Maple Leaf Maniac said a few words to Kalea, and the two came back together, seeing this, Gao Feng's heart had both ups and downs, and the Maple Leaf Maniac found the problem one step ahead of him, so when Kalea was most proud, he defeated her with thunder means, and the Maple Leaf Maniac used the name of the challenge to find face for himself, but unfortunately he just thought about the problem with his own thinking, but did not expect that the problem of the peak was not in the combat power, but in the psychological change.
"I know the way, you go out, you have done a good job during this time, you can tell me anything in the future, in my eyes there are no natural and non-natural people, you are a human being, a human being of flesh and blood, there is ......no doubt about it."
Gao Feng tiredly instructed Marshadi, this is mental fatigue, he thinks he really needs to reflect on it, Gao Feng's verbal recognition makes Mashadi's rigid cheeks melt like ice and snow, no matter what, she is a woman physiologically, women need the recognition and care of others more than men, stepped forward and tried to stretch out her hands, but she was uneasy, Gao Feng smiled, took the initiative to hold Mashadi in her arms, and patted her back slightly, this is the first time that the two have hugged without any lust, But Gao Feng felt that Mashadi's feelings for him were even stronger.