1951 Towards the Solar System

Omi is in a state of anomaly that has been documented for a long time, and in the past, he had always felt a little bit like seeing flowers in the fog when he only conceived the situation of "Takakawa" literally and in terms of data, but now he realizes the horror of it, and realizes that it is not controlled by his own subjective will. The pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info completely control his body physiologically, which does not help in the slightest to cope with such a state, and does not help to escape from this kind of torture in terms of mental psychology. All attempts to make oneself one's own theories, to try to control every cell of oneself, every muscle and nerve, seem superficial and even false at this time—all the logical systems that have been built up based on the observation of oneself and the observation of others who are similar to oneself collapse like a sandcastle beaten by the waves in this intense involuntary feeling.

The self-proclaimed rationality of the past seems superficial and narrow in today's self-observation and self-feeling—just like the meaning of the word "rationality" itself, which restricts one's own growth, and thus produces a strong impulse to break free from rationality in the heart.

This impulse contains a violently chaotic negative emotion, a sensual germination as if it should have been, bathed in an atmosphere that can only be called "mysterious", and thrives. This is accompanied by more and more, clearer, and more profound anomalies: hearing sounds that are not normally heard, seeing things that are completely hallucinatory in rational terms, and yet even assuming that they are all auditory hallucinations, or using strong logic to deny the reality of these anomalies, will not help to free oneself from them. And the reactions that arise from these heard, the hallucinations seen, are real, both good and bad.

In other words, there is a feeling of oppression, which makes me have to believe that these anomalies, and the impact of these anomalies on myself, are real - I will die because of fear, not because I believe that I will die, but because I will die, but more objective facts, all the evidence and clues that I can observe, are pointing to the reality of this fear and death, and the more rational people are, the faster they will fall into this reality before finding suspicious evidence.

Obviously, he should not be shaken by this vague dream-like dynamic, and he has his own theory to explain it from the bottom of his heart, but the intense sense of fear still involuntarily erupts in Omi's heart, wave after wave.

Omi's eyes twitched, and the sights he saw were ghosted, as if the two worlds were next to each other in a nearly overlapping form, but not at all times. There are many theories that can be found in the physiological system of vision and the brain, but the violent emotions force Omi to subconsciously reject these theories, as if he had changed from an objective researcher to a subjective mystic.

In this predicament, which is full of contradictions and cannot be extricated from itself, Omi sees the prosthetic Takakawa, the man who once seemed to have turned into a mist full of tentacles in her observations, and has reverted to the human form. However, there was an anomalous background, hazy around the humanoid, floating like an illusion in the mist, and when she looked over, it was as if she saw a deep and dark universe, in which the light escaped, but seemed so slow, her gaze seemed to be glued to some meteors of different sizes, along a huge unspeakable trajectory, sliding towards the depths of the universe, they were so determined, as if they had a definite destination.

That voice, as if it was Omi's heart, sounded again: when the stars were in the right place......

The sound that had been squirming towards him without knowing where it was was became clearer, and Omi looked at the deep and dark universe, only feeling that the wriggling thing was crawling in the universe, and it crawled slowly but surely towards itself through a passage or path that could not be observed on his side.

Omi also felt that it was a mistake to describe the "slowness" of this feeling in the first place. Because the movement of that thing is not slow, but its presence is so huge, and it is so elusive, and the distance between it and itself is so far away, under the background of so many factors, it produces the feeling of "it is slowly wriggling".

In fact, it is fast, even faster than a normal asterism, because it cannot be directly observed, and it has not reached the end, so it is impossible to measure the number of that astronomical unit.

In Omi's mind, all kinds of information about "KAEKESA" that she couldn't tell whether it was her own fantasy or real information kept replaying in her heart, as if she was talking to herself. There is a strong sense of persecution that is dragging her rationality and distorting her most basic worldview, and all kinds of doubts arising from those dream-like hallucinations will eventually become a denial of self-existence, and also disintegrate her own outlook on life and morality from the most basic level.

The mysterious and twisted power is distorting a person's self-perception, whether thinking or not thinking, it seems that a new perception will sprout from within - it is so heart-wrenching, terrifying and exciting. Omi felt this mysterious and distorted power, and only felt that this power was as magnificent as the cosmic galaxy, as if to confirm that the source of this power was exactly what he had guessed before, the unknown thing with the size of an astronomical unit in the Pleiades star cluster.

With common sense three-dimensional coordinates, it is impossible to define where it is. It squirms in an invisible "channel", seemingly slowly but in fact it is unusually fast to approach the Earth, close to itself on Earth - no, it has already come, and when it feels that it is still squirming on the other side of a distant universe, its "future" has reached the edge of the solar system, and it seems that in a second, it will be close to the Earth. It had never been so close to the planet, and the sun was in its shadow like a speck of dust. Then, at some point in the future, the planet that nurtured intelligent life will collapse completely - not from a physical disintegration, but from an unpredictable metamorphosis of structural form.

Omi suddenly knew a lot about the changes in the Earth's past, and about the changes that would take place in the future of the Earth, but the information was extremely vague, as if he had been frightened and had conjectured from the information he had known in the past, and could not find any basis for it - even so, his instinct was still screaming to believe in this knowledge and information.

Omi wondered if the other patients with doomsday syndrome, including Takakawa and the former Mae, were forced to indoctrinate such a huge amount of information as she is now, and she even suspected that the so-called "prophets" who existed in her own world—in this apocalyptic vision—were the recipients of this future information.

The existence of that vast and majestic thing, and even the time and space that composes it, are not linear, and even make one wonder whether there really is such a concept of "time" and "space" in its perspective. It is just an instinctive habitual activity, which cannot be described by the concept of human common sense. The meaning of dimension and quantum is not reflected in their existence, so it is also very chaotic in the perspective of three or four dimensions. Its very different way of being causes human beings to have abnormal sensations that are difficult to describe and understand when they unconsciously come into contact with it, or when they consciously try to observe it, which are not intended to be clearly recognized, but to protect human beings, and are an operation of survival instinct.

Omi didn't understand, what she suddenly knew now was too much and too heavy in terms of weight, whether these things that she suddenly understood were true or false, but the load caused by her volume was obvious. Even if they are as intelligent as themselves, they seem to be completely different from their past perceptions at any time, but they can't deny the perspective of losing common sense in their knowledge. It is as if these intelligences are forcibly allowing themselves to observe and perceive the world from an inhuman perspective, and then turning themselves into an inhuman existence mentally.

If both "Takakawa" and "Mae" have been washed by information on such a scale, then how does "Takakawa" maintain the basic point of its own cognition, leaving aside for the time being that it has obviously changed its mode of existence? Just by that ability to reincarnate the personality? Omi felt that it was impossible, so he could only guess that it was the "river" that shared the pressure of the "Takagawa", and it was precisely because the "river" had completely changed the form of existence that he could share most of the pressure for the "Takakawa".

Omi wasn't sure why she had come into contact with part of the truth about this terrible monster so suddenly, as if she had been more deeply connected than everyone else, and this doubt was the last thing that made her suddenly understand whether this terrible monster was what she suddenly looked like. However, perhaps it was his identity as an "Omi trap" and his unclear relationship with "E" that caused this special situation - such an idea emerged from Omi's mind, but the timing of this idea was so coincidental that she had to suspect that it was just another pretext for speculation.

However, Omi can't help but take a closer look at the "Omi trap": if he succeeds in capturing the "river" in this trap, then does the loss of the "Takakawa" of the "river" mean the loss of the "buffer zone" in the spiritual, psychological, cognitive, and physical structure? Dorothy's "Super Takakawa Plan" is not only a bait for the "Omi Trap", but also a follow-up plan that can only be truly completed after the success of the "Omi Trap". If the "river" cannot be captured, or temporarily "isolated", the "super Takakawa" will still be contaminated by the "river", and such a finished product will still fail in Dorothy's standards, so in these plans, it is inevitable that the "river" will be separated from the "river" - it seemed necessary in the past, but now, in the midst of this huge amount of new information, Omi is beginning to worry about whether the "Omi trap" is truly feasible.

However, for the time being, these worries are not directly related to the transformation of the current prosthetic body Takagawa. Even in Omi's state of distraction, all the procedures of the transformation are still carried out in an orderly manner according to the established standards -- as if every variable is predetermined, and all factors that may cause sudden changes and accidents are strictly controlled by a mechanical standard, and in the "mystery", this 100% certainty is simply the greatest "mystery".

"Sha" did not pay attention to Omi's condition, and could not directly understand her situation through the other party's virtual projection. Therefore, she noticed the result of such a standard transformation, and felt a kind of inevitability from it - she could not understand the risks of prosthetic transformation, and the transformation based on the mystery of the gray fog itself could not be 100% accident-free, and it had transformed Father Xissen, even if the whole process had been carefully calculated and planned, but there would still be unpredictable situations that could not be predicted in advance, and she had to take the initiative to think and manually solve these accidents.

However, its perception that "there will inevitably be some accidents" was shattered by the transformation of the prosthetic body in front of him. It suddenly felt terrified, as if it was being reduced to a predetermined script, and everything was running according to the rhythm planned by the script. It tries to use its own knowledge to find the existence of this "script", and it feels that if there really is such a "script", then it must determine its position in this "script" - because this is the basis of all confrontations.

However, it was not found, everything was so natural, a naturalness that made such an inhuman being as it creepy as it was.

Just as the prosthetic Takakawa is destined to complete this transformation, and he is also destined to be able to get a large amount of support from outsiders, it is also as if he is destined for everything that will happen in the future. That is all inevitable, and I don't know the result, whether it is good or bad, I can't stop and reverse it, and I can only naturally accept the result that is unknown to me, but has already been predestined.