Dorothy originally thought that she had already gotten rid of her fear, and originally thought that if she became a super Dorothy, she would be able to have a more volitional resistance than others. Whether it was the achievements she had achieved in the past or the performance of the color center, she thought that she had already been conscious, and she was aware of the implementation of her plan. In fact, she feels that she is more stable and patient in many ways than "Gao Chuan", who is constantly refreshing her own personality, and more free than the constrained color center, and can give full play to her abilities in more ways - she believes that she has advantages that no one else has, and these advantages make her extremely adaptable and comprehensive.

However, when the anomaly that deviated greatly from the plan occurred, he retreated and declined. She knew very well that the reason for doing this was not because "you can also contribute in the rear", or "someone has to stay in the rear to support the front", or "the color center is standing in front of you, so you have to retreat".

I'm afraid. Because I can understand better than most people how desperate the situation is now, I am more afraid than most people. The strength of the enemy can only be felt more clearly when you continue to grow stronger, have more knowledge, and grow your cognitive range. That comes from the feeling of oppression in the dark, and only by feeling what kind of speed is your own growth can you feel it more clearly.

The various changes that occur in oneself, whether it is regarded as growth or mutation, this kind of self-perception is the most intuitive benchmark. And what you have to face far exceeds the limits that this benchmark can reach. It's like, in a race, after trying my best, I can only see the figure of the opponent in front of me getting farther and farther away, what a huge sense of powerlessness. After that, I tried my best to train, breaking my own record in the competition again and again, however, I didn't close the distance with my opponent, and that back was still getting farther and farther away, what a huge sense of despair.

The gap between the two sides is like being locked up from one of the most basic conditions, even if there is the possibility of change, but when you are alive, you can't actually change it. The unattainable theoretical possibility is so ethereal, like a lie, but it is not a lie at all—what could be more depressing?

Huge mood swings run through Super Dorothy in the hospital's reality, chasing her into the shell of the "android" of the Doomsday Vision. Whether it is in the reality of the hospital or in the apocalyptic fantasy, her form has obviously eliminated the generation of emotions from the physical hardware, however, the emotions that make her tremble still ignore those physical "impossibilities", and come from all directions through channels that transcend physical nature.

It is as if these emotions themselves are beyond what she has known in the past, she thinks they are spontaneous, but they are never spontaneous, and the "self" she thinks is never "herself". And the so-called "self" is just a layer of oil residue floating on the strange and cold "not-self".

When Dorothy had such thoughts, she knew that she could not continue to think about them, and this kind of thinking that tried to deny her own existence was one of the characteristics of the onset of doomsday syndrome. If she can't control herself, she'll just sink deeper and deeper, and she's not at all like "Takakawa", a person with a self-personality refresh mechanism, and once she collapses, it's a complete collapse - probably like the three of Hakkei, Marceau, and Sakiya, even if they don't immediately turn into a puddle of LCL, or spontaneously combust, they will shatter into countless tiny pieces from the personality level.

When the names of "Hachikei", "Marceau", and "Sakiya" flashed through her mind, she suddenly remembered that she hadn't thought of them for a long time—whether it was because there were too many things to deal with, too busy, or something else, she hadn't thought about the three of them for a long time. The last memory of them is that Hakkei and Sakuya seem to have been plugged into the repeater......

However, it is only possible to use a vague statement such as "it seems" and cannot give a positive answer. What is their situation today? Dorothy thought, but couldn't find any memories of it. It seems that during this period of time, the sense of existence of the three of them suddenly disappeared into this world, not only have they not seen it, but they have never remembered it until this moment.

It's weird. is obviously such an important family, and everything he and others have done was originally to save everyone. But why do you suddenly forget? Dorothy's pupils shrank suddenly, and she confirmed that her desire to protect everyone, to let them get rid of the "virus" and return to health, had not changed, and was still so strong.

However, before I thought of them again, it was as if I had even put aside such strong emotions and desires. Obviously, the motivation has not changed, but the time to bring up the motivation is so short, as if there is never time to think about why you want to defeat the "virus" - as if this act is the end itself.

Something must be wrong with me. The more she was able to think of more things, the more Dorothy felt cold in her hands and feet. It's not just the apocalyptic illusion that the deviation caused by the Torchlight is at work, and in addition to the anomaly that almost destroyed the plan, there are certain equally anomalous situations that continue to occur - if the deviation ritual of the torchlight brings a strong and violent impact, then, before the deviation ritual takes place—I can't be sure how long ago - the anomalies that may have occurred are quietly eroding one's heart like a silent spring rain.

No, it's not that Hakkei, Marceau, and Sakiya have completely forgotten about the trio. Dorothy could now remember more, that everything she had observed in the past, including what she had done, had not been forgotten, but merely had been ignored by herself like a meaningless archive of data.

Yes, not to forget, but to ignore. Even when their names were mentioned, they never paid much attention to them.

Dorothy doesn't feel anything wrong with her usurpation of the London Repeater's sovereignty, but since she ignores Hakkei, Marceau, and Sakiya, it's logically problematic in itself. Because, it is clear that Marceau is one of the core three pillars of the London repeater, and he also relies on Marceau to control the London repeater, but Marceau is one of the people who is ignored.

From any point of view, it is very important and crucial, and it should not be ignored in any way, but it is naturally ignored. For Dorothy, it's hard to imagine that this is her doing.

Not only that, Dorothy rummaged through her own memories - there were still quite a few memories of Marceau, but now it seemed that it was full of indifference, as if she were dealing with inconsequential little things. However, no matter from what point of view, when he intersected with Marceau at that time, the role played by Marceau was by no means dispensable, but a key role. But he didn't have any ideas, no ideas at all, just like marionettes, intersecting and separating as a matter of course.

Marceau is already like this, so, what about Hakkei and Sakiya? Since when have you not observed them at all? The more Dorothy reminisces, the more she has an inexplicable sense of horror.

What is the current situation of Hakkei and Sakiya? When was they last mentioned? Dorothy felt like she was about to remember, but she couldn't. "The last time" turned into a very vague situation. What kind of occasion, which characters, and what time and place will this last time be?

Yes, I seem to think about it.,In order to preserve the personality information of Hakkei, Marceau, and Sakiya.,Everyone went to great lengths to collect the "Spiritual Integration Device" and the "Personality Preservation Device.。 These two things, called "devices", have never appeared in the past apocalyptic illusions, only this one

- So, where did you get this information? Is it from the "river"? It's "Jiang". It is the information that he and the color center work together to get from the "Jiang". That's how it should be.

At what stage of contact with "Jiang" did you obtain the information? This part of the memory is blurry again. It seems that it is not just from "Jiang", but also involves the young Gao Chuan. It is a kind of conclusion that comes to the conclusion after comprehensively sorting out all the information fragments that have been obtained: the spiritual integration device and the personality preservation device are very important things that must be obtained in order to deal with the "virus".

"Ah, I remember." Dorothy said to herself, "According to the judgment of the time, the essence of the spiritual integration device and the personality preservation device is what the 'virus' needs. It is also something that will naturally arise after the birth of so many patients with doomsday syndrome. Just like a plant that blossoms and bears fruit, it is the most important fruit. ”

It is precisely because it is what the "virus" wants, so the "virus" cannot be obtained, and furthermore, "Jiang" cannot be allowed to get it, nor can it be allowed to "young Gao Chuan". And so, the scramble began. Through various layouts, confrontations, and transactions, he competed with the young Gao Chuan, and the "Jiang" in the body of the young Gao Chuan, and the "virus" that completely lost its body.

The final "Psychic Unit" was used to complete the repeater, and was an integral part of the transformation of the Valpurgis Night into a repeater.

So, what about the "personality preservation device" that is the opposite? It seems that at that time, it was thought that it would bring benefits to the personality state of Sakiya, Hakkei and Marceau, and that it was an important tool to save the three of them, so Omi underwent surgery.

It was here that Dorothy's mind paused abruptly, and she realized that the most likely cause of the anomaly she was feeling.

- It's Omi!

Dorothy was on the verge of jumping, but she wasn't excited to find a plausible answer, because it would most likely represent an even worse unfolding - all of her actions in this apocalyptic fantasy were all related to Omi without exception. It can be said that in everything he does, Omi is involved. However, in her own feelings, Omi has never had much presence.

This feeling...... It's like after "Dorothy" was revived by Omi with her skills, Omi himself gradually retreated to the auxiliary position, giving up the most central protagonist position, and even the eye-catching supporting role.

At least, in Dorothy's senses, Omi has been doing her orders for a long time, and has never taken the initiative to mention what she is doing.

When did it start? Is it after the completion of the "time machine"? Or was it already set up when the revival of "Dorothy" was made? I didn't think of a striking turning point, it wasn't something that happened suddenly, it seemed like a natural change. To use an analogy, it's like the new characters are too eye-catching, so that the old characters are ignored - although they are not completely unremembered, they must still be remembered, but the focus of vision and consciousness is no longer on the old characters.

However, is Omi such an old character with no sense of existence? Is it a supporting character with mediocre ability? The answer is no.

Dorothy knows very well that even if Omi is called Omi Trap and is included in the plan as such, the mystery she has is elusive. Omi was able to do something that neither the Color Center nor Super Dorothy could do - he had such a strong presence, but he ignored it?

Omi, where is Omi? What are you doing? When Dorothy stood up, she only felt clammy and cold behind her, it was not a cold sweat, her body did not have the structural mechanism of this kind of normal human physiological reaction at all, but it was completely a psychological illusion. In this apocalyptic fantasy, her Dorothy appeared in the form of a "replica of the final weapon", which was originally only a half-finished product, and even had defects in her movement function, so she could only be used as an ornament, and after the formation of NOG, under the leadership of Omi, the research experts of different mysterious organizations collaborated to finally complete this "final weapon" that was nominally exclusive to NOG.

She, Dorothy, is the "ultimate weapon", not a "human". However, her "ultimate weapon" and the "ultimate weapon" of the Doomsday Shinrikyo are not exactly the same type.

However, no matter which kind of "ultimate weapon" is, it will abandon the structure and physiological mechanism of the human body, and complete its most basic structure from a more ruthless, efficient and growth-oriented perspective.

However, from this point of view, Dorothy felt that she was not qualified. Because, by now, I can already perceive that I have always had fluctuations in many aspects, and the "stability" I have always felt is more like my own illusion.

"Damn, Omi." Dorothy stared solemnly at her surroundings, convinced that Omi was staring at her, "Did you do it in the first place?" ”