Chapter 46: Abin, I'm all for you
Now the style of painting has changed suddenly, and it's Ali who is crying at the moment!
I didn't react for a while, Ali cried?
I stupidly watched Ali's tears dripping down my cheeks like this, and I felt very uncomfortable, and I didn't expect that my ordinary words would make a ghost cry in front of me.
I just looked at Ali like this, and I didn't know what to say for a while.
I just watched as Ali's tears flowed down her furrowed face?
Well?
I wondered why I was describing it that way.
Only then did I realize that the carrion on Ali's face was constantly falling, and with the sudden momentum of Ali's tears, it was even more out of control, not to mention the potholes on the whole face, and even the white bones of Sen Sen were leaking in some places, and what made me even panic was that those cold white bones seemed to be ...... It seems that there are still a lot of white worms out there...... Crawling ......
I suddenly felt a little clogging in my throat, as if a fish bone was stuck in an almond, I couldn't swallow it, I couldn't spit it out, and I could feel a tremor from deep in my throat even when I spoke.
I moved my throat and cleared my throat to make sure nothing happened, vomiting and nausea and retching and stuff like that, and only after making these preparations did I look at Ali closely.
Ali seemed to notice that I was looking at her, and hurriedly wiped away her tears, her hands were rubbing her hands on her face that was already unrecognizable, and the carrion was falling at a faster speed under Ali's touch, even if I wasn't afraid, I would feel sick to see this scene......
I endured the disgusting feeling in my heart, and dragged Ali's hand that was wiping tears on her face, and then whispered to Ali, Ali don't wipe her tears, it won't look good if her face is broken.
Although I was saying this, I was really almost fainted by the pungent smell, I bit the tip of my tongue to keep me awake, not suffocated and unconscious for this reason, I really mustered up all my courage from childhood to adulthood, and only then did I spit out this sentence fluently and coherently.
After saying this, I felt like I was going to collapse.
I sensed that Ali didn't do any more of the so-called "clothes" that would change her clothes, and I let go of Ali's arms, which were cold enough to freeze my hands, and stepped aside and gasped for air.
Ali looked at the series of movements I made and nodded.
When Ali nodded, she dragged her neck and nodded very stiffly, not only did I worry, but she seemed to be worried that her head would jump and fall to the ground.
But fortunately, the head did not fall off.
I was sweating in my palms, and if that happened, my heart really couldn't bear it anymore, and I had to explode into a piece of minced meat on the spot.
After looking at my frightened expression, Ali nodded at me timidly like a little girl who had done something wrong and was afraid of being beaten by her parents, and then stepped aside, deliberately keeping a distance from me.
The two of us sat on a bed, eyes looking to one side, and silence was so quiet that it was palpitating.
"Abin, I'...... I...... I'm going to go againโ"
It took a long time for Ali to break the deadlock, and she was about to leave.
I interrupted her directly, I had a very wonderful feeling in my heart, spreading, and it was not an exaggeration to say that I was angry, my mind echoed with the half of what Ali had just said, and my heart was very uncomfortable, every time you come to see me, come to save me, come to me, just to tell me, are you going to leave me again?
That...... Is there any difference between you and a woman like Sun Xiaoxiao?
I forcibly endured the endless thoughts and the inexplicable sense of anger in my mind, closed my mouth tightly, and held back a sentence for a long time: "Why? I just want to know why, Ali ......"
Don't leave me, okay......
It's just that the second half of this sentence was pinched in my throat, and my eyes looked at Ali because she didn't dare to look at me, and deliberately turned to the side and felt really uncomfortable, really unpleasant, really ...... It's true.
I couldn't say anything, and I didn't know what I wanted to say, but my mind kept echoing, Ali's words, self-deprecating smile, do you want to go again......
Are you leaving me again......
Even if the anger in my heart is vented at this moment, I am afraid that I will not be able to help but change my words and beg Ali not to leave......
I found out that I really liked Ali, it seemed from the moment she rescued me, it seemed from the moment she rummaged through the morgue just to find the most beautiful corpse just so that I was not afraid, it seemed to be from the time she came to the hospital in the middle of the night to see me, peeled me blood oranges, peeled bananas for me, and seemed to be ......
From the moment she appeared next to me, I realized that I could no longer live without her, because ......
I couldn't say it and I couldn't believe it, but I realized that I really liked Ali and I really couldn't afford to lose her anymore.
I don't want her to leave, really, really.
Hearing the words that I had been holding back for a long time, Ali never dared to turn her head, I could feel her mouth seem to move through the curvature of the faintly visible bones on her cheeks, but I didn't hear her make any sound.
So Ali just touched the muscles at the corners of her mouth, a little like a slightly bitter smile, but this smile was more ugly than crying.
Ali's expression did not escape my eyes, but it was also fleeting, and her face returned to its previous expression, very calm and cold, but when I looked closely, I vaguely felt that Ali seemed to be more painful than me now.
Looking at Ali's appearance of wanting to speak and stopping, I thought that Ali would tell me something about what she was going to say next, and other reasons and words.
But this time I guessed wrong, Ali didn't say anything, didn't even explain it to me.
She was silent for a long time before she said to me, "Only you are qualified to know about your affairs, and no one is qualified to tell you the truth of your affairs except you." โ
I was tempted to interrupt her and ask her what it was, but looking into her eyes, the solemnity in them made me hold back the thought.
"Sooner or later, you will know, Abin, believe me, everything I am doing now, including my departure, is all for you, because ......"
Ali was silent again, didn't say another word, turned around and walked towards the door of the ward.
Ali, are you really leaving?