Chapter 676: The Man Who Lost His Self
I looked at myself in the mirror, the expression on my face was constantly changing, from surprise to silence, and the face in the mirror was also constantly switching, mature to immature, just like my inner feeling at this moment, I couldn't tell whether it was illusory or reality.
In the mirror, I seemed to see the life of this teenager, the life of a man named Haven, from the birth of life to the landing, growing up in the collapsed world, and the flickering of the picture seemed to be faster than the bullet that whizzed past me, but I didn't miss a single picture.
There is no time to stop for you to savor, the flow of the picture seems to have a hand pressing my head, the body can not resist, twist my neck, forced my eyes to stare in the mirror, watching a familiar and unfamiliar figure in the mirror constantly shuttle.
The picture came to a familiar scene to me, except that the blood on the floor became fresh, as if it had just crossed the floor, and the young man hid in the corner of the wall shivering, his hands covering his ears, and the horror in his eyes made a pair of eyes lose focus, as if he was looking at another world, and that world was an abyss.
On the third day, when the turmoil had completely subsided, the boy was found to be dying and taken to the hospital, where he remained silent for ten days, and after another ten days, he left the hospital very calmly, his eyes full of yearning for life, and his heart full of a sense of mission.
He went to a normal school in a safe quarantine zone and began his studies, and deep down he had a wish buried in his heart, a very bold and unbridled wish, which he never dared to mention to anyone, even if he showed a personality that made him popular.
He never told anyone about his past, he never told anyone about what happened to him, he was afraid, he needed the attention of others, so he tried to put the best foot forward, and the more he did this, the more afraid he became, the more afraid he was that he would suddenly say something that would make others change their opinion of him.
He lived alone in his former home, slept at night behind the door, he was waiting for a miracle, but the night was still the hardest, the darkness of the environment seemed to stir up the darkness in people's hearts, and the events of that night constantly stimulated him to recall, and then regret, regret his weakness in the past, regret his inaction now.
He began to despair, he felt that there would be no more miracles in this world, the attacks that broke out around the world were reported every day on television, the schools began to close every now and then, he picked up a knife several times and put it on his wrist, but he still had the most primitive fear of death, he was more afraid of what he would face after death, he wanted to be a person who paid attention to commitment.
In this way, after doing nothing and repeating a simple and boring life day after day, he finally found a goal, he wanted to be a soldier, but being a soldier was a high-risk job, he didn't want to die on the battlefield, he felt ridiculous, once a person had a goal, he began to cherish his life.
As I said before, life and time will wear away a person's edges and corners, and he will gradually lose the true meaning of life, in his eyes, in this world, to be alive is already a miracle.
He thought like this, ready to spend the rest of his life, and then die in regret, but the miracle that only belongs to this world and only to mankind has happened.
All over the world, there is a group of people who have surpassed common sense and have the ability to surpass imagination, he learned some facts in the army, his heart was a little excited, some emotional, and similarly, a little angry, why didn't a miracle happen to him, he is the person who wants to create a miracle in the world!
It seems that he has been abandoned by God, and his ideals may be fulfilled by others, so what is the point of living by himself?
The final despair was born, he began to be confused, and he began to forget the most painful memories in his heart, and at the same time he forgot his own ideals.
However, one night, in a line of defense by the sea, a seemingly accidental event finally happened.
When he woke up, everything was so illusory, life and time had completely worn out his sharpness, polishing him into an ordinary person with his own story, but when the facts were in front of him, he felt that a new life might be waiting for him ahead, in the ups and downs and a glimmer of anticipation, he re-remembered his ideals, and at the suggestion of a young man named Victor, he recalled the pain of being forgotten.
That night, in the open space of the villa underground, he burst out for the first time with a power that he could not imagine in his life, and from that moment on, he knew that he was finally capable of doing something.
He became a hunter, but the things in his body were so special, and the ignorance of Qimang's blood dust made him calm to a certain extent, he needed to think about it, and life also gave him more tenacity than ordinary people, but his character has not changed, he is still him.
I stood in front of the mirror and looked at Haven in the mirror, as if I was looking at the life of my best friend, and I even began to look forward to the future of this Haven's life.
After that, Haven became companions with six people with special abilities, they belonged to the same squad, the captain was a cynical-looking but intelligent and extremely dedicated man, he loved a girl codenamed Flower Crack, and there was a girl in it, and the girl looked at her with such a special look that she must be full of curiosity about the otherness in herself.
Then, in the first escort mission, the girl named Xiaoxin caught his attention, he looked at the little girl's eyes, and felt so similar to his past self, he began to want to take on some responsibilities.
In the Desert of Death, Chen Lan'er blocked the attack of the Death Worm for himself, his life was in danger, at that moment, his heart was really touched, for the first time, in addition to his parents, there were people who were willing to sacrifice their lives for themselves, the feeling of his family was really long gone, from that moment on, he had a real change!
He began to see them as true companions, and cherished the friendship more than anyone else! He went on a rampage and exterminated the Death Worm without hesitation!
I watched Haven and these six people continue to go through various events, and after Tianzang finally killed Minghua Heya, he fell to the ground, crying from the bottom of his heart, crying and shouting the words home, at this moment, I seem to be the person who can best understand his mood.
In the Zhongren incident, he touched the darkness that had been buried in his heart for many years for the first time, at that time, he was surrounded by his companions, and he could already face up to that period of history, but his blood burned and broke through his reason, and although he still won in the end, he lost a companion in the end.
His heart was as painful as Victor's!
The Quettes incident and the Abranska incident have made things more and more complicated, and the royal blood dust named Qimang has come to the stage of history, and he has spied into Haiwen's heart and become the existence of Haiwen who knows Haiwen the most in the world.
The period after becoming a hunter is the most difficult period, but it is also the happiest period for Haven, he is no longer alone with the ideals in his heart, because these people around him are working in this direction all the time, on the way forward, he is no longer alone, he feels that he has been redeemed.
Haven really understood what responsibility is, and the painful experience of the past had made his thoughts extreme and extreme, but the group of companions had changed him, even if the group of companions had no idea that they had changed this guy named Haven.
I looked in the mirror at what Haven was going through, and I was curious, and I always had the illusion that I was the one who went through it, but in reality, it was more that I was watching the life of this person named "Haven".
So, what about my own past, why do I have such a strong sense of substitution!?
Thinking about it, I looked up again, and I found that the Haven in the mirror, who was already an outstanding young man, was standing opposite me, and beside him, there was also Xue Ji, Victor, and Qimang, as well as Tianzang, Chen Xue'er and Chen Lan'er, Stone, Sky Eater, Shinra, Felton, Allen, Sister Isabel, Sister Liu, etc., etc., and there were many people I knew but couldn't name, they looked at me with smiles on their faces.
I felt an indescribable emotion in my heart, waiting to explode but refusing to let it out, I felt like I had the same, but it seemed to have been lost.
Suddenly, Haven in the mirror turned his back to me and waved his hand, as if to say goodbye, and the rest of the people turned around and followed him away from me.
I wanted to stop them, walked quickly to the mirror, grabbed both sides of the mirror with both hands, how I wanted to rush into the mirror, but the glass through it was like a moat!
I felt a hint of despair, and when the figure of the group of people disappeared completely, suddenly, a figure appeared in the mirror again, and a name popped up in my mind, "Galactic Fusion".
Standing in a dazzling world, the Galactic Fusion spoke, "Why? ”
I didn't understand why he asked that, but I just listened to the Galaxy Fusion continue, "Why did it become like this, because of the words of the Blood Dust Ancestor!?" ”
I let go of my hand, looking a little confused.
"It's strange that you haven't regained your consciousness......" the Galactic Fusion said, pondering for a moment, "what happened to that thought just now, the final one...... Qimang, the strongest royal blood dust, and the spirit of the galaxy, plus Haiwen, these wills are fused to become me, why do you have a problem alone, do you want to separate them!? It's impossible! ”
I was a little confused, the Galactic Fusion seemed to be hesitant to tell me some facts, he sighed, "That thought makes me very concerned, but I want to tell you, you have forgotten everything now, because you are now a part of me!"
And you used to be, named Haiwen, the only existence in the human race whose will realm had reached the peak of the ninth dimension, of course, this was under the guidance and help of Qimang. ”
Hearing this, for some reason, I didn't feel a trace of surprise, but breathed a sigh of relief, it turned out that the Haven in the mirror, what he had, I also had, this sense of security, like an empty soul was filled in an instant.
"You've lost yourself, you've become a part of the will to merge, and you shouldn't be in a situation where you think alone, what the hell is going on with that thought!?" The Galactic Fusion seems to be talking to itself.
I looked at him and began to think that everything I saw in the mirror just now should be everything I have really experienced, and the reason why I am sometimes confused and sometimes feel like I have experienced it myself is also explained.
So, the problem that Haven is encountering now is the problem I am encountering now, everything that Haven has experienced, I know it deeply, should I say everything I have experienced, and that idea was born because of my galaxy fusion!?
There is only one possibility, the will of the universe!
I couldn't help but laugh out loud, and the Galactic Fusion looked over in surprise and asked, "What are you laughing at!?" ”
This is a question I have to answer, and the results that will happen after answering it seem to be already in my mind, like an answer that has been set up a long time ago.
"Lan Bao let you control the Sealing Starry Sky, not by you, but like the Blood and Dust Ancestor, to devour it!"