The chaotic and hazy world, my participation in this huge and complex historical event is also a very fortuitous reason, at least at first, I think it is accidental, as Haven as a human being, witnessing all this, everything that happened vividly, as if my own personal experience, and as if watching others perform an intricate and twisted drama on the incomparably huge stage of the world and the universe.

What a miraculous human being able to participate in this huge historical event, and what is the reason for this, I looked at the exact same self that appeared in front of me, and fell into deep thought.

"You're starting to think nonsense again......" Haven's laughter came, and I looked up and saw that it was a very young boy, and the old clothes on his body were stained with blood, I knew who the blood stains came from, the parents of this teenager, which made me feel a little sad, very weird, I felt extremely intimate in this teenager, but this teenager was strange to me.

"I'm not cranky." I opened my mouth to answer, but suddenly there was an illusion in my heart, I will stay in this place forever, with someone, forever, this will always be the literal meaning, and the teenager in front of me seems to be the only existence I can communicate with now.

"You're scared, scared to stay here alone." The boy's eyes were full of provocation, as if he wanted to express that he could see through everything I thought, which made me a little unconvinced, but after thinking about it, it was just a little brat, and I could still tell that this little fart boy must have been imagined by himself, and he didn't necessarily exist.

The boy smiled, bitterly bitter, I was curious about the expression, it seemed that he had a lot of stories, I laughed too, but suddenly I felt a wave of trepidation, what about myself, I myself seemed to have endless stories, but these stories seemed to be moving away from me, and I didn't seem to remember anything.

I live in a big city by the sea, the society seems to be very turbulent, my own heart is also very turbulent, I grew up in a very chaotic environment, I always think that laughing at life, life will be kind to me, but the self-righteous strength is still affected by what happened in the past, I am surprised, this teenager's smile can make me think so much, I feel irritated at the same time, but also full of a certain anger.

Anger without warning, is it anger at one's past, doing a lot of things that make oneself regret, these things have all become memories, and it is impossible to break away from them for a lifetime, people, that's it, say to forget the past and look forward to the future, but who can really do this, those who have successfully broken away from the past, must have made some achievements in the future, or found their own true happiness, so, I haven't found true happiness yet.

"Do you think you're the unluckiest?" Young Haven suddenly asked again.

I nodded subconsciously, then shook my head suddenly, and the boy smiled again, as if to mock my struggle.

"What are you laughing at?" I wanted to say this, but I just complained in my heart.

The young man's gaze sharpened for a moment, then gradually became dull, and he stared at me intently, which made me feel uncomfortable!

"Why do you think you're unlucky?" Young Haven turned around, and in front of us, a blue sea suddenly appeared, and the sea breeze blew on my face, so that I couldn't tell whether it was illusory or real for a while.

"Although we have lost the most important person in our lives, there are so many people with the same experience in this world, and you are not special at all." Young Haven said, walking towards me step by step, giving me a meaningful look, and walked alone into the depths of the hazy world.

I looked at his back, the road appeared the moment he lifted his foot, and the road behind him didn't disappear, for some reason, I felt like he wanted me to follow.

I followed all the way, the road under my feet gradually turned into a road, wider and wider, a world was created in a hazy world, I watched all this in amazement, so dilapidated, so dark, like hell after the end of the world!

The boy walked to a house, which was in a dilapidated state, and he pushed away some of the stones that had fallen in front of the doorway, and with a gentle push of the door, he went in, and I followed him.

At a glance, you can see that the floor of the entrance is dried blood, and there is a small shoe cabinet next to it, and after the shoe cabinet and door are pushed inside, the angle formed with the wall creates a relatively hidden space, and the blood stains have spread to that place, spreading into the darkness.

I passed by the boy who stopped at the entrance and stopped moving, and walked into the house, there were some picture frames on the wall, on which were pictures of the boy and his parents, looking at these, for some reason, my tears fell unconsciously, I wiped away my tears in surprise, I panicked, I wanted to ask him why he brought me here, looking back, the boy gently opened the door, and hid himself in that corner, blocked by the shoe cabinet, only a little knee was exposed.

I walked over and stood in front of him, the shock in my heart made me dumbfounded, and the blood on the boy's trousers matched the blood on the ground.

"You, like me, are a person who is afraid of being alone, and every time I feel uncomfortable, I will come here and squat, sometimes for hours, and when I am tired, I will sit against the wall, thinking about nothing, and thinking about a lot of things." Young Haven said, his expression was calm, calm and terrifying.

I shook my head, "You said I was also afraid of loneliness, but I wasn't, you're wrong. ”

The boy looked up at me, his expression still unchanged, and I could only ask, "Then what are you thinking about staying in a place like this?" ”

He didn't answer directly, "At school, I don't show my truest emotions to anyone, because I think that saying the things that make me miserable, the emotions that torture me, is a kind of hope to be sympathized with others, and it is cowardly, this is a sign of wanting to be comforted, and I want to be a strong person, so I don't say anything, as long as I am strong enough, I can get through anything." ”

He began to say to himself, "Do others have an obligation to let others suffer with you because of their own pain?" No, why let others share your own pain, isn't it enough to bring them joy, because happiness, others will recognize you, no one wants to stay by your side, but what you feel is pain, especially in this world. ”

"You've experienced too little." I replied, although I don't know what this teenager has experienced, but I always feel that it is too tiring to live like this, and such thoughts should not appear in a teenager.

"Do you think I'm shady? Others don't think so. The boy smiled lightly, "My classmates like me very much, I am the most active person in school, I have a lot of friends, I study well, and the teachers also like me." ”

As he spoke, an extremely sunny smile appeared on the young man's face, in the dim light.

"Happiness does not exist." Young Haven quickly restrained his smile, and his expression returned to flatness, and the feeling of such a transition was terrifying.

"Happiness is like a cherished beast, driven by curiosity, people rush to touch it, in the face of people's enthusiasm, this beast will show a docile side, but the beast is always wild, when the two are mixed, people may be attacked by the beast, but people are still the most eager to get it."

I didn't know how to answer, so I could only reply, "Then you have a lot of friends at school, why do you say that you are afraid of loneliness?" ”

Young Haven didn't speak, and I felt like I had the upper hand in the conversation, and continued, "Because you never show them your lonely side, they won't know that you're also a person who is afraid of loneliness, and you've always shown your optimism, and people will be happy to be around you, but there's not just one way to get happiness, and when those friends find other things that make them feel happy, they need you a lot less, so you feel lonely, don't stay here, If you don't say the pain in your heart, others will never understand, you will always think that you are good, you don't need to worry, the feelings between people are worried about each other, so they will not cool. ”

I hoped that my words would make this young man feel something, but his expression seemed to be full of disdain, "There are many loopholes, if you have been living an optimistic life, and suddenly show the dark side of your heart, won't people think that you are a weirdo?" ”

I froze, "How come!?" ”

The boy stood up from the corner, "Not everyone will accept the darkness in other people's hearts, when you show it, you will feel that the people around you will look at you differently, can you still laugh with them?" Can you go back to the way you used to live? ”

"You care too much about other people's eyes!" I'm a little angry.

"It's just human nature, what I care about is not what others look like, but whether I can accept it, my happiness is to let those who care about me be happy, so that many, many people need themselves, so I want to make a big career, at the cost of my own life!"

"It's too extreme, do you want to be recognized so much!?" I was a little surprised by the teenager's idea.

"Only success can erase the misfortune and hatred of the past, what has been experienced, can never be seen through in the heart, the happiness brought by success can erase all this, and it must be successful, for example, to become a hunter." The boy squatted in the corner again, "If I can have such an opportunity, I will not hesitate to lose my soul, I will always work hard to live, looking forward to such a miracle, I will look forward to a miracle every day, when that day comes, I will change the world, so that my heart will be at peace, because I survive, there is a price, this price took away the two most important people in my life, I must live a worthwhile life!" ”

"But I don't appreciate the value now, I've been thinking, the meaning of living, why I didn't die at that time, someone wanted me to live, and continued my life at the cost of my life, I want them to watch it well in heaven, I will succeed and change this world that is gradually dying!"

Listening to these words, it is impossible for my heart not to be touched, this young man's eyes are looking ahead, motionless, so determined, I appreciate this idea, but this kind of thinking is too unrealistic.

When this kind of opportunity really comes, why will it befall you, I looked at him, and thought to myself, when you grow up, you will get used to this kind of life, a life with a mask, always hoping to show your best side, work hard to get the approval of others, hide your wild ideals and dark pain in the deepest part of your heart, and then gradually accept your fate, and gradually lose the meaning of life.

However, the rewards of hard work are not necessarily positive, and occasionally worse memories will form, and you will always be in extreme emotional conflicts.

Thinking about it, I sighed, but the young Haven shook his head, "Isn't the ideal already realized?" ”

As he spoke, he looked ahead again, and I followed his gaze to the other side of the wall, and at some point a mirror appeared, and I looked over, and in the mirror, it seemed that the person squatting in the corner of the wall was myself!

At this moment, in the sealed starry sky, a thought suddenly appeared in the mind of the galaxy fusion, and the final break ......