I don't know, all my knowledge of her comes from the diary - the diary that I keep writing, I don't know when, even without me knowing, the word count is increasing, and it itself has become something mysterious. The pen and fun www.biquge.info obviously only look like the thickness of an ordinary notebook, but it can never be finished, even if it is not written in this diary, it will appear in this diary, whether it is "hospital reality" or "apocalyptic fantasy", when I think of it, it is always around. Is it a real thing? Or is it only in my hallucinations? I can't tell anymore. Even so, in terms of the style of word choice and sentence construction, I can still see my own shadow...... I don't know if the other Takakawa had the habit of keeping a diary, or under what circumstances they would use it, but I do know that I was the first writer of this diary, and that I did think about passing it on before I died.

I wrote a diary, flipped through it, woven my adventures into it, and found in it messages left by other Takakawa. As I read these stories, I felt more and more that the other Takakawa and I had in common, that I would not regret the choices I made before I died. I feel more and more that even if I don't have the recovery I have now, "Gao Chuan" is indeed transmitted in a deep philosophical world. What I left behind, what I knew, and what I made were all continued in this incomparably complex and incomparably simple transmission.

I don't have too strong feelings about whether I'm alive or not. I believe that my existence at this moment is not to replace another Takakawa that exists today, but only to add some options to "Takakawa". Of course, I am very sure that I cannot understand what "Jiang" who resurrected me was thinking, and that others did not necessarily view my resurrection from a positive point of view, but I could understand all of this. In the midst of these understandable and incomprehensible situations, I felt that a fate that I could not resist had been revealed.

Even if I don't think about anything, if I don't do anything, I'll emerge - a force that no one can understand, from a perspective that no one can understand, to interpret a need that no one can understand.

And there are very few things I can do.

My limitations lie in the few things I can do.

In the same way, all the things I did to her, everything I said to her, my thoughts and suggestions to her, and what I knew about her, all reflected their limitations. I don't think I'm necessarily right, but if I don't want to sit idly by, I have to help even if I'm not sure I'm right.

I rescued her, took her, and made her think with me - did she need this? I'm not sure, from an objective point of view, that her gratitude to me now is likely to be a source of her suffering in the future in the context of the apocalyptic vision, but, at least for now, she doesn't think so, and I think that's enough.

I am full of limitations, in this dark and unknown world, I can't see through the future and make absolutely right choices, so I can't become a real hero, but can only use my own narrow and ignorant criteria to protect what I can reach.

But, for me, that's enough. I think anyone who can feel their own stupidity will think like this.

I am special, but I am not unique.

I walked through a labyrinth of pipes, which was probably fast for him, but it was incomparably slow compared to the speed. However, there are advantages of being fast, and there is a truth that being slow is also slow, and for each specific goal, for each special environment, what is needed is the right rhythm, not just fast and slow - it is precisely because there have been too many high-speed Mercedes Benzes in the past that I have such an idea.

At the moment, what is needed is not a goal that has been determined, but to find it yourself. Until then, any rapid movement is aimless, exhausting, and easy to fall into traps – both psychologically and otherwise.

I don't have such a strong combat power as mine, and I don't have the support of my companions, but I need to face a large group of physical lifeforms, and the contrast between the strength and weakness of the two sides has opened a qualitative gap. Even so, she wanted to get into it. Therefore, she must think about what she can do, and what is within her power.

With my personal experience and understanding of the Truth of the Doomsday Truth, I continue to guide her. Of course, I can also help her make a decision directly and tell her that a certain goal is important, but what's the point? Fighting according to my instructions will not allow her to grow, nor will she be victorious, nor will it have any effect on my personal plans. On the contrary, although I interfered, if it was she who was the main cause of her decision, then whatever she could do, it must be very important to herself.

She couldn't understand why the Phytolites had gone on such a fanfare to hunt her down, to use her as a sacrifice so deliberately - she didn't see anything special about herself compared to the other Aborigines. Naturally, I can't find any special thing about her compared to others that prompts such a violent movement of the physical life, but since there is a shadow of the Doomsday Shinrikyo hidden behind the actions of the physical life, then I am used to thinking from a different angle: it is not the physical life craving, but the Doomsday Shinrikyo craving, but if it has irreplaceable importance and particularity, then the Doomsday Shinrikyo should not just act under the pretense of the hand of the physical life, but also act itself.

In previous battles, it is true that no Doomsday Shinrikyo was found to have interfered.

If you think about it in this way, you can conclude that it is not important in itself, but about what can be implicated in her center. To put it simply, for the Doomsday Shinrikyo Cult, the Doomsday Truth teaches that the Doomsday Truth gives the physical beings an illusion that they misunderstand the particularity and importance of the Cult and take drastic action against it, thus triggering the situations that will be associated with the Truth.

Take the previous battle as an example: the Doomsday Shinrikyo did not care whether or not it would become a sacrifice, but the actions of the physical beings centered on the Doomsday Beings led to my presence in the process, and perhaps, for the Doomsday Shinrikyo Cult, my appearance and action were exactly what they wanted to see, and they were likely to wait for the chain of events that my and Mi's actions at this moment would trigger.

Unlike my ignorance, limitations, and short-sightedness, the Doomsday Shinrikyo religion, although morally evil in human nature, does possess wisdom and perseverance that I cannot match. Faced with the same incomparably complex causal web, they only need to gently shake one of the nodes to see more node movements. This is the pressure that every person who tries to oppose the Doomsday Shinrito must endure in any apocalyptic vision. The more you try to meddle in their arrangement, the more you will feel your own powerlessness and the irresistible apocalypse that seems to surround them.

"Am I bait?" After a pause, he asked, "So, who is the real prey?" ”

"I don't know, maybe it's me, maybe someone else after me, but in my mind, you're just the beginning, but it's not the most important thing." The actions of Shinrikyo doomsday have swirled and patched together in my mind more than once, and I have tried to organize the clues I know into a cohesive outline, regardless of which apocalyptic vision. Perhaps it is because the Doomsday Shinrikyo itself is so complex and deep, and their actions are imbued with some kind of ultimate destructiveness that makes people feel extremely stressful and fearful, that people tend to overlook an important piece of information, which is often overlooked by themselves and others: the Doomsday Shinrikyo also has prophets.

Although in the mystical world, the "prophet" is often seen as a positive force, a heroic guide, and a kind of praise existence, and almost all occult organizations will also package the "prophet" in this way, and most of the "prophets" do many positive things because they can see the end of the world, so as to avoid the destruction they foresee. However, both logically and objectively, the "prophet" was not exactly such a figure.

The prophets in the apocalyptic vision can and can only foresee the steps of the end times, so different attitudes towards the "end times" will change their own thoughts and positions.

And, judging from the clues that apocalyptic visions arose when I was born, the prophets of the Doomsday Shinrikyo are closer to the First Prophet in the true sense than the Prophet Mayne of the Netball: both in terms of ability and in the chronological order in which they become prophets, they have more powerful characteristics than Prophet Mayne.

Although it is a pity, the cyberball prophet "Lady Mayne", who is recognized and respected by many occult experts, is only recognized as the "first prophet" in the camp against the Doomsday Shinrikyo religion. And the NOG, who has Prophet Mayne and other prophets, does not have an advantage when it comes to facing the hidden prophets in the Doomsday Shinrikyo.

I'm not sure if the Netball knows, but I do: the Doomsday Shinrikyo Heavengate Project has four core sacrifices, and in past Doomsday Visions, these four have also been called: the Base, the Core, the Prophet, and the Guardian.

Since the Doomsday Shinrikyo Relay is closely related to the Heavenly Gate Project, it means that the "prophets" in these four sacrificial cores are not simply "prophets" in the usual sense.

Although the construction of repeaters on all sides today is based on the Doomsday Shinrikyo Tianmen Project - because of some circumstances, the Tianmen Project flowed out of the Doomsday Shinrikyo Sect, and I think this is deliberate by those "old acquaintances" who designed and promoted the Tianmen Project - from what I know, most of them, including the network ball's own repeater, have made certain changes in the infrastructure, turning the four sacrifices that support the Tianmen Project into three: it seems that there is a "more stable triangle, While being closer to the source, it also has a rich and expansive mystery." I have made a more detailed analysis of the situation of the sacrificed, and it can almost be assumed that they chose to cut back on the "prophets".

I don't know much about the specifics of the Repeater, but since it is based on the Tianmen Project, it means that the foundation of the Tianmen Project affects the foundation of the Repeater to a greater extent, and all the sacrifices that become the basis of the Tianmen Project will have their own unique and strong influence. In my opinion, the Heaven's Gate Project, which lacks the sacrifice of the "Prophet", is incomplete - perhaps in the eyes of others, it is an optimization that can be advanced or retreated, but with my understanding of the people who designed and promoted the "Heaven's Gate Project", it is almost impossible to make a gainful transformation on the basis of the geniuses like those people.

Although, my perception of the initiator and executor of the "Tianmen Project" and the "Mar Jones Family" is stuck in the era of the apocalyptic fantasy where I was born.

However, since even the file and the fire have appeared in this apocalyptic illusion, I don't think that the "Mar Jones family" as I know will change much.

Erin: The last heir of the Mar Jones family, and the "core" of the Tianmen Project.

Munch: Suspected of being the real First Prophet, Erin's husband, the "cornerstone" of the Heavengate Project.

Snent: Genius, the chief designer of the "Tianmen Project", and the "guardian" of the Tianmen Project.

Little Sent: Sent's son, the promoter of the "Heavenly Gate Project", the ideal heir of Sent, and the spokesperson of the Mar Jones family after Irene.

Marseille: Erin and Munch's son, the "gate" between the "temporary data hedging space" created by the Tianmen Project and the normal world. The existence of this "door" makes the impact of the Tianmen Project on the normal world more deep, and has a higher controllability and sustainable development.

Sauron: Unlike Munch, who is suspected of being the First Prophet, the "First Prophet" is directly proven to be after Munch, and although it looks like a child, it has existed for a longer time than the "Mayne Prophet", and, in some clues, is obviously more capable than the Mayne Prophet. However, he was captured by the "Mar Jones Family" from the stage when the "Tianmen Project" was still in the draft stage, and he was a key pawn of the "Tianmen Project" and a sacrifice "prophet" predetermined by the "Tianmen Project".

I don't think these people exist in today's apocalyptic fantasy, in today's Mar Jones family. On the contrary, compared to their final fate in the apocalyptic fantasy where I was born, they may be more "successful" in a sense.