However, before I hit the car, someone behind me grabbed me, I was in no mood to see who it was, struggled hard, yelled, let go of me, let go of me, in addition to tears in my eyes, only the speeding car remained, I hoped that a car would come and kill me next to Hu Huihui.

I struggled a few times, as if a few more people came over, arms, waist, and even two legs, all of them were dragged by them, I couldn't struggle anymore, and dragged a few people backwards to the side of the road, and they pressed me to the ground again, I looked at Hu Huihui not far away, screaming and crying in despair. At that moment, in addition to Hu Huihui, there was only one in my eyes, death!

I don't know how I got home, I don't know what happened to Hu Huihui, I don't know how I got a high fever while lying in bed.

Lying down for several days, the whole person seems to have taken out his soul, only a remnant of the flesh shell remains, he can't think, he can't move, he just stares blankly, what am I looking at? I don't know.

Suddenly one day, I remembered something, something I had to do.

I climbed out of bed, put on my coat, and felt that my pocket was empty, and I was in a hurry.

What about the love letter I gave Huihui, isn't it in my pocket, why is it gone, Huihui is still waiting for me to send her a love letter, my love letter, my love letter......

I searched the whole house and didn't find it, and finally sat on the chair of the desk, reading, where are love letters, love letters? Suddenly, where is Huihui, where is Huihui?

In front of me, there was a piece of blood, Huihui was lying on the blood, I opened my mouth wide, but my mouth couldn't make a sound, I took out a needle from my body, and read it over and over again in my mouth, Huihui, Huihui, Huihui...... Read it again, prick it in the palm of your hand with a needle, and the straight hole is full of blood and blood.

threw the needle, shook his head, no, Huihui is still waiting for me to send her a love letter, I still have to write a love letter to her, panicked to find a piece of paper, dipped the blood in the palm of his left hand with his right finger, and wrote on the white paper: You are my true love......

Full of "true love" written.

Holding a bloody love letter, I stumbled out of the bedroom, my parents were not at home, my grandmother was at home, and my grandmother seemed to ask me, Huang He, are you up?

I glanced at my grandmother and felt that she was so strange, and I asked her, what about Huihui?

Grandma's face darkened and she sighed.

I ignored her anymore, took the love letter out of the house, the ghost sent the gods, I got into Qiang Shun's house, Qiang Shun was at home, I stuffed the love letter into my pocket, grabbed his clothes with both hands, like a child who couldn't find a mother, begged him, take me to find Huihui, take me to find Huihui.

Qiang Shun didn't speak, but took me by the hand and dragged me all the way to a wasteland in the north of the village, where there was a lonely new grave.

Qiang Shun pointed to the new grave, and said in a trembling voice, Huang He, this is ...... This is Hui Hui......

Ahh

I screamed hysterically and threw myself on the new grave......

I don't know how long I cried, I got up, knelt on the grave, took out the blood love letter from my body in a daze, and looked at the grave weakly: Huihui, I brought you the love letter you wanted, you can marry me......

Marry me, I know you're going to marry me, I've been in love with you since the first grade of elementary school, I've been in love with you for many years, I miss you every day, I remember the song you taught me, I've always remembered it, can I sing it to you now?

True love is like a vast grassland, layers of wind and rain can not be blocked, there is always a cloud open and sunrise, the sun shines on you and me......

True feelings are like plum blossoms, cold ice and snow cannot be submerged, blooming on the coldest branches, seeing...... Seeing spring coming to you and me......

"Yellow River, stop singing!" Qiang Shun on the side cried bitterly.

I fell headlong on the grave......

On that day, I don't know how I got home, maybe it was Qiang Shun who carried me back.

When I got home, I just lay down on the bed, no one paid attention to me, I didn't say a word, and I lay down for a day, day by day, and so on......

Maybe a month later, a phone call suddenly came from home, I was still lying on the bed like a dead man, I was too lazy to answer the phone when I heard the phone ringing, Huihui was gone, my heart was dead, all this around me, all of it was none of my business.

I don't know who answered the phone, but I heard a voice saying, you are the head teacher of Huangshan, and Huangshan is in school......

Halfway through the sentence, the person who answered the phone seemed to be stunned, and there was no more follow-up.

At noon, it seems that there is only one grandmother left in the family, grandma cooks food, and brings it to the head of the bed for me, I am lying on the bed with my face flushed, and I hear grandma put down the dishes and chopsticks, and sighs softly.

In the afternoon, the house seemed to be lively, because I heard someone laughing in the living room, but there were still people sobbing and crying, what happened, but no matter what happened, it had nothing to do with me...... I thought so. After a while, the sound of footsteps came to my bedside.

"Yellow River, ......"

Grandma's voice came, "You have to get up, you can't do this anymore, now...... Now ......" Grandma's voice trembled, as if she was enduring great grief, "Now our family depends on you, your brother Huangshan...... Huangshan he is crazy......"

I seemed to hear a loud thunder, and the whole person was shocked, and I slowly turned my body outside, and glanced at my grandmother, whose eyes were full of muddy tears, and the expression on her face was indescribably painful.

Grandma wiped her tears and then said: "Yellow River, did Huangshan show Huihui's family feng shui during the New Year?" ”

I looked at my grandmother and didn't speak.

"Did you give Huihui a hexagram?"

I still looked at her, still didn't speak.

"Do you know what his hexagram turned out?"

I still looked at my grandmother, but finally shook my head stiffly at her.

"As a result, the ovary is dim, empty and dead, and the golden fire comes from the north, and the fire extinguishes the disaster...... Any idea what that means? ”

I shook my head again.

"The golden fire comes from the north, the fire extinguishes the disaster, the hexagram says, Huihui can not die, there will be a person with a golden fire life to block her ......"

"Really?" I slowly sat up from the bed, and finally spoke, I didn't even expect my voice to be hoarse and almost speechless, "So, why didn't anyone with a golden fire stop it for her?" ”

Grandma trembled all over, "Because...... Because the person who lives with the golden fire is you, the fire extinguishes the disaster, you block it for her, and she can live if you die! ”

"Then why didn't I ......" I was stunned, I remembered the phone call my brother made to me at that time, what a classmate was on the hook, he was deliberately delaying my time!

"Liu Huangshan!"

I screamed and jumped out of bed, ran out of the bedroom like crazy, and rushed to the living room.

In the living room, his younger brother Huang Shan was actually sitting on the floor of the living room, with his waist hunched, as if he had no muscles and bones, his mouth was still drooling, his face was stupid, hehehe was laughing, his mother was squatting next to him, sobbing, and his father was sitting next to him, sad.

I rushed over and grabbed him, shaking his body fiercely, "Liu Huangshan, why are you calling me, why are you calling me!" ”

My brother looked up at me stupidly and smirked at me.

Behind him, there was a trembling voice from his grandmother, "That's because he wants to save you, he became the way he is now, just because he saved you from heaven!" ”

Ahh

I immediately screamed, rushed out of the house, ran to the wasteland south of the village in one go, and plunged into it.

Heartbreaking, painful!

The tears were dried up, and he looked up to the sky and shouted: Huangshan...... Hui Hui...... God, I hate you, why don't you call me dead! Why don't you call me dead!

………………

pretended to be crazy and crazy, and broke free from the pain of transformation;

Youth is one dream after another;

Guarding the lonely night sky, recalling the past like a rainbow;

Who will accompany me in this sentimentality;

I wandered the world;

You who can't go along;

Waiting for each other's hope to meet;

The years have returned your past to my blue sky;

A white cloud is all I have;

You who can't finish your dreams are accompanied by your endless youth;

I can't finish dreaming, accompanied by endless dusk;

Maybe there can't be an encounter, maybe there's a miracle;

As long as there is a dream, there will be a dawn......

――Excerpt from Wu Qilong's "You Who Can't Finish Dreaming"

One day two years later, my younger brother Huang Shan suddenly ran away from home in the middle of the night, and his whereabouts are unknown. My father took me, searched around, took the leaflet printed with the photo on my brother's ID card, and gave it to people on his knees when he saw them, but in the end, there was no news. I have only one belief now - he's alive!

Huihui, because I'm gone, brother, because I'm crazy, what the hell was I born for? Is it just to harm the people around me? It would be better if I died in that car accident.

Grandma said that I was born for these crafts in our family.

For our family's crafts? I hate our craft! For the sake of these crafts, the people I love the most have left me, and my only brother has gone crazy and disappeared.

God doesn't open his eyes, whenever I get drunk, I always look at the night sky with tears in my eyes, look up to the sky and scold: the sky has no eyes!

I wasn't born to laugh, and since then, I'm really never going to laugh again, I really can't laugh, my experience is going to be you, can you laugh?

At that time, I didn't dare to have suicidal thoughts anymore, because my life was exchanged for two lives, and I died, and I was sorry for both of them.

The last sentence of the song "You Who Can't Finish Dreaming" gave me great encouragement: as long as there is a dream, there will be a dawn.

I have to continue to walk, I have to continue to live, not only for myself, but also for the girl I love the most in heaven, for my only brother, for my grandmother, for my parents, for ...... These crafts in our family are alive.

(Thanks to the crown of "yycdtu" for the tip, thank you)