Huihui and my younger brother, are two of the five pains in my life, these two chapters, are written by me with tears, write a paragraph, cry a paragraph, stop, stop and go to the group to chat with people to divert their attention, and then write and then cry, in general, my whole person in the past two days is like taking off a layer of skin, the heart is uncomfortable, indescribable, I only ate two meals in the past two days, especially last night, I was sad and had a stomachache, it was simply worse than death, but, no matter how big the pain I survived, now this is nothing at all

Yesterday, after uploading the chapter, in order to distract myself, I took my wife to the place where I used to open the mountain and smash the stones, the mountain is still the mountain, but it has long been unrecognizable, a few years ago, it was transformed into a forest park, and now some places are still under construction, but it has begun to take shape, the pavilion Taoist temple, the mountains and rivers are beautiful, but the place where the cave was blown out in the past, I turned around several times and didn't find it, and I felt a lot better when I went there, quoting the sentence I just said in the WeChat group, I'm alive and kicking again now.

Life, in fact, is like this, the ups and downs, joys and sorrows, and when you get old, you can say a sentence in vain.

Road, let's continue to move forward, my story, I will continue to write, or the same sentence, as long as I don't die, this book will not be a tragedy.

Straight to the point. My brother and Huihui have been doing this for about half a year, and I have struggled to recover a little from the pain, but I don't want to go to work in the glass wire factory anymore, because there can lift my scars and cause me pain, especially the place where Huihui was lying in a car accident, I didn't dare to go there, let alone go to that piece of ground is my unforgettable pain!

At this time, my younger brother had not run away from home, but he was crazy, and he went to the hospital and the doctor said that he had severe schizophrenia and was hospitalized. Grandma said that this is not a disease, and he can't be sent to a mental hospital, or he will become more and more crazy.

My parents can only bring my younger brother back, but my younger brother needs to be fed when he eats, I feel uncomfortable and guilty, for me, the price he paid is too great, if he is good, he will definitely be better than me when he graduates from college in the future.

God, it's so unfair.

Every day my mother cooks food, I rush to feed him, I am sorry for him, if it weren't for me, he wouldn't be like this. Facing his younger brother, he felt unspeakably uncomfortable in his heart.

Grandma persuaded me, Huang He, don't think about it so much, if you two change, you will do the same.

For grandma's words, I thought for a long time, if I changed my position, he was me, I was him, what would I do? The answer is yes, I will also save him without hesitation, but even pity my Huihui, she shouldn't have died, she has become a scapegoat in my fate. When I think about this, I feel more sorry for her.

After that, I would go to her grave every year, sit on the grave to accompany her, and write a love letter to her every year to burn, which is still my biggest personal secret. Sometimes I think, when this book is published, burn a copy to her, and make her proud, if her stories are published, she will be very happy.

Alas......

Sometimes, I still hate my grandfather, why didn't my grandfather pass down the method of collecting souls? If he comes to me, I will take Huihui's soul, and then find a suitable pregnant woman to put the soul in, just like when I was too grandmother Xiaoyu, that is, I want to wait for ten years, twenty years, or even a hundred years, I am willing.

Alas, still a sigh.

Going back to my brother, the water tank that my brother moved at Huihui's house at that time, grandma said that he wanted to change the number of days, and wanted to make it rain on the day we met, as long as it rained, the meeting time between the two of us would be delayed, so that either of us could avoid this catastrophe, but, however, however, however......

I don't know what blind Chen taught my brother some skills, but I hate him from the bottom of my heart, if he hadn't taught my brother these skills, my brother wouldn't have done this!

Hate comes and goes, in fact, I hate myself the most!

By the time I got back into my spirits, it was already the beginning of spring the following year, and after the Chinese New Year, my grandmother advised me to find a job far away from home, and it was better to live where I worked.

I don't agree with what my grandmother said, there is a saying that the eldest son does not leave his father, and his younger brother is still like this, I feel that I really can't leave, but not only grandma, but my parents also want me to leave home for a while, they may be afraid that I will face my younger brother all day long.

In the end, I couldn't stand the persuasion of my family and left the house. Qiang Shun was still working in the glass wire factory at this time, and when he saw that I was going to work in a farther place, he hurriedly quit his job, and swore that he would follow me wherever I went.

Where did we go this time, a private processing factory, which processes "box frames" for Xinfei Refrigerator Factory, is located on the campus of our Normal University in Xinxiang City. In the past, it was not a prosperous area, there was no building outside the gate, it was very desolate, this was the job that one of our people from the same village found for me, after arriving there, there was no place to live, there was a little old man who worked with us, he told us that there was a rented house near the university, and the two of us could go there to rent a house to live.

I'm not afraid of your jokes when I say it, the little old man said that the rent is quite cheap, but he can't live in it, a big house, separated by plywood into countless small houses, that small room can only put a bed and a bedside table, mainly for those college students to rent temporarily to do that kind of thing, every day and night......

After staying for a few days, Qiang Shun secretly told me that he had poked a hole in the plywood on his side, and through the hole, he could directly broadcast the live broadcast of male and female college students.

I can't live anywhere, and the little old man who works with us is a shameless old man who deliberately tricked us into coming here. Subsequently, the rent was refunded, and we found a place far away, that area is a village, many families rent houses, two-story buildings, downstairs is the landlord, we live upstairs, although the rent is a little more expensive, there are stalls and shops selling food on the roadside downstairs, which is very convenient.

Qiangshun is a good wine, and every night after work, we must go to the stall to drink something, and our dinner is basically eaten at the stall.

Day by day, and so on. In a blink of an eye, it was already late spring and early summer, and the wind was warm on the face.

In the evening, the two of us went to the stall to eat again, and after a few months, we had already become familiar with the stall owner, and we just had to sit there, and we didn't have to say anything, and someone brought us wine and food.

The owner of this stall is a woman, in her forties, a foreigner, and a very good person. Her husband is a small leader in a nearby factory, she rented such a small stall at home, in addition to the female boss, there are two girls and a boy on the stall, both girls are relatives of the female boss, and they are also outsiders, responsible for running the hall, serving food, and the boy is a chef hired by the female boss to cook.

On this day, we came to the stall, and when I sat inside, I immediately felt that something was wrong, this stall was equivalent to a semi-open air, a roof made of fabric, the south and east sides were houses, one was a room, the other was a storage room, the north was next to a road, and the west was an undeveloped vacant land, and there was grass on it.

I felt a cold wind blowing out from the storage room, and on the way we came just now, the wind blowing in front of us was warm, and I wondered why the wind here was so cold, could it be that the freezer door inside was closed?

I looked towards the storage room, and at the door was a half-cut canvas curtain, and from under the curtain could be faintly placed vegetables and liquor, something abnormal.

A girl in the running hall quickly brought the wine and food, a plate of vegetarian dishes, a bottle of liquor, and Qiang Shun and I ate and drank, but I always felt that something might happen today.

What about the two girls in charge of running the hall, one has a round face, big eyes, a little fat body, not very good and very energetic, and treats people even more exquisitely, what is the girl's name, it seems to be called Xiaoya, maybe it is called Xiaoya, it has been too long, I can't remember.

The other one, very delicate and cute, and her figure is also very slim, I still remember her name for this girl, Tian Tian, her big name is Hao Tiantian, I don't know why, I always feel that she is a little similar to Hu Huihui, which may also be the reason why I like to come here to eat.

Halfway through the wine, the proprietress asked Tian Tian to go to the storage room to get vegetables for the cook, Tian Tian went in for a long time and didn't come out, the proprietress was in a hurry, opened the curtain and entered the storage room, and after a while, the proprietress screamed.

At this time, there were quite a lot of customers at the stall, and most of them were regular customers, and several customers got up and walked to the storage room.

At this time, the door of the storage room has been tightly surrounded by several guests, I looked inside through the cracks, and saw Tian Tian was munching on a celery there, which was not at all different from usual, usually very ladylike and cute, at this time it was like a starving ghost reincarnated, the proprietress covered her hands, and stood next to her in horror, as if frightened.

I turned around and went back, Qiang Shun didn't go and was almost drunk by this time, and asked me what was going on, I shook my head, "It's okay." ”

Qiang Shun looked at the storage room and asked, "Are they still around?" ”

I took a sip from my glass and ignored him.

Qiang Shun drunkenly stood up and looked over, and when he came back, he didn't seem so drunk, and the boss with his eyes open, whispered to me, "I look like a ghost." ”

I immediately twisted my head away, looking like I hadn't heard.

Qiang Shun asked, "Huang He, don't you care?" ”

The passers-by in my eyes said unhurriedly: "I don't know anything, I don't care about anything." ”

"What do you mean?"

"It's not interesting."

Qiang Shun smashed his mouth, picked up his wine glass and took a sip.

At this time, the storage room was lively, and I heard the female boss shouting, "Come in and help......

The people who were originally standing at the door rushed in, but after a while, a very rough voice came from inside, "Let go of me, you let go of me!" ”

Qiang Shun said to me at this time: "Listen, Tian Tian is possessed by a ghost, and his voice has changed." ”

I said disapprovingly: "You don't care if she changes, it's none of our business, hurry up and drink, and go back to sleep after drinking." ”

Qiang Shun immediately shouted: "Yellow River, why have you become like this!" ”

I hurriedly put the eyes of the people on the floor, who had been looking at the storage room, when a few of them came towards us.

I whispered to Qiang Shun: "The day we left home, I made a poisonous oath in my heart, if I use our family's craftsmanship again, I will not die well, hurry up and drink your wine and eat your food, I am sleepy!" ”

(Thanks to the crown of "mayking" and "water neighbor" for the reward, thank you for the 102 flowers that traveled, and at the same time, "I was forced to change my name" I know who you are, and I have wronged you.) ）