I feel that my mental state is fine, and my clear mind and unusually calm attitude even allow me to deal with the mysteries that are constantly being stimulated, and the various phenomena caused by them, more efficiently. From this point of view, I think my current state of mind is good for my adventure. However, for Dr. Nguyen Li, who is completely on the normal side of the world, there is no doubt that it will be seen as a deterioration of his condition. Of course, since this kind of pathological change involves patients with "Jiang" and doomsday syndrome, Dr. Nguyen Li's diagnosis makes me feel like an insinuation in a certain way, and I can't help but think of the erosive nature of "Jiang".

The changes in my mental state should be viewed from the perspective of the erosion of the "river" on me. From the physical and mental aspects of human beings, the erosion of foreign bodies is always a bad phenomenon, but if it is not the "virus" that erodes me, but the "river", I can accept it psychologically. No, to be precise, I have been prepared for a long time, and when I try to analyze what "Jiang" is, my own particularity and the responsibilities that must be fulfilled have already made me aware of my fate. Accepting the river, including its corrosiveness, in order to grasp the glimmer of hope that one can see, is an equivalent exchange from the occult point of view, and this so-called "equivalence" is not an equivalence on a rational level, but more full of emotion.

I think rationally, but my emotions drive my actions. I never care if it's good or bad, because that's how I live, and I didn't want to change it, not because I'm afraid of it, but because I've completely accepted it and don't feel the need to change.

Just in terms of the changes of the moment. I accept that this change is not a foolish act, but a choice made by anticipating the worst possible and deciding to carry the good and the bad that it brings. It will not be shaken by Dr. Nguyen's concerns and theories.

Although I will not waver, I will not resist and fear the erosion of the "river", I use my "love" for it to support a qiē. However, it is not possible to completely ignore Dr. Nguyen Li's concerns, she is a good person, although she does not understand my true thoughts, and she cannot see the world as I see it, but she thinks and acts from the perspective of "good for me". Regardless of the outcome. The starting point alone was enough to move me, and I decided to carry out a plan that would be cruel to everyone in the apocalyptic vision, but that didn't mean I was hard-hearted. I always knew why I carried out this plan, why I fell in love with Jiang, why I tossed and turned every day and night, feeling sad and distressed about the expected results, and distraught that I couldn't do better. This qiē all starts from a good starting point. From this point of view, what is the difference between me and Dr. Nguyen Li? We all think we can imagine. It is understandable that you can do it on the basis of trying to get a better result for your loved one, and you can't judge whether you can really achieve the desired goal by doing it yourself. The future is for us. It is elusive, but it must be believed.

I believe in my own rightness, and so does Dr. Nguyen Li, so I understand her. If the situation allows, I don't want to take a hard line against her. It's like, all along, I wanted to be on my side, and now I feel pain and melancholy for their choice, but I don't blame them, and I don't feel betrayed because I was targeted by them. I believe that my choice means the same to Dr. Nguyen Lê.

I was further monitored in my home, my room was equipped with a camera, and in this home, there was no room for freedom. For others, such a home may be a suffocating cage that must be resisted, but for me, this suffocating measure is also filled with a suffocating love, which is what I really cannot resist. Although there have been no drastic changes in my daily behavior, Dr. Nguyen Le will not be able to rest until I am tested for a longer period of time and proven to be harmless. Sakiya and Hakkei chose to continue living in such an awkward home, and they have a very deep affection for me, which I can feel from their choices and words and deeds on weekdays, and this affection is the reason why they can ignore the danger and the unfreedom of being monitored. Dr. Ruan Li initially had a strong opposition to the two of them staying, her opposition was from the perspective of psychology and personal safety, in her eyes, now I am like a well-behaved on the outside, but I don't know how to flood beasts on the inside, I am extremely dangerous and severely mentally ill, I don't know what to do, I will attack Sakuya and Hachijing, among the patients she has treated, there is no shortage of such cases - even if I know that I shouldn't do it, but I can't stop hurting my lover, even, Eventually, I get pleasure from this act and can't stop.

Dr. Nguyen Le couldn't be sure that I would get this bad, but the problem was that she couldn't be sure that I wouldn't be that bad. Not only Sakuya and Hachijing, but because of me, Zuo Chuan, who often visits my home, was also warned by Dr. Nguyen Li not to get too close to me during this time, and if you must contact me, you must pay attention to my mental state at all times. If it weren't for Dr. Nguyen Li's inability to see Tomie Jiang, Tomie wouldn't have been able to escape her chatter. The matter between me and Tomie has long been regarded by Dr. Ruan Li as a strong evidence of psychopathy, but now I no longer feel that Tomie's "disappearance" in a specific person and a specific situation is such a strange and incomprehensible thing, and in the information brought by John Niu, there is no shortage of some important people in the mysterious circle in this repeater world that seems to have cloned the outside world, and in the final analysis report, it is determined that it is the interference of other repeaters. Since even repeaters can make specific people "disappear" in this way, why can't the interference of "Jiang" make Tomie "disappear"?

I observe the "river" and the rich river, and think that they save zài, but on the other hand, doesn't it mean that their zài is based on my observations? Perhaps, I can't give feedback on my observations to everyone. It is the first time that Dr. Ruan Li has appeared in the apocalyptic illusion, and it is enough to prove that Dr. Ruan Li has a special character that others do not have. From the perspective of "script", a special character must have a specific mission. It will also be centered on it, and some special situations will arise.

This world, because of the interaction of human consciousness, has a certain degree of authenticity, but also because it is only the interaction of consciousness. So, there is no complete authenticity. As I continued to write stories about what I had experienced, I gradually realized how well the story fit into the "script" and the potential for interference. Perhaps, the reason for this is still the existential nature of the "river", which is a macroscopic erosion of the world that cannot be confirmed from a single corner.

I don't think about these deep, essential reasons anymore. I accepted this qiē as one accepts the conclusion that one must breathe in order to live.

Even if the theories mentioned by Dr. Nguyen Li have a smack of insinuation, I am not prepared to deliberately pursue the root cause and the truth behind it. I did not refuse Dr. Nguyen Li's arrangement, nor did I object to her advice on Sakiya, Hachijing, Zuo Chuan, and even more acquaintances, so, Sakuya, Hachijing, and Zuo Chuan's decision. It also comes from their sincerity. They think I'm not in a good mental state. But this is the reason for them to stay, they did not directly disagree with Dr. Nguyen Li's statement, but only persuaded Dr. Nguyen Li, who was a little hesitant, from the perspective that "it is possible to get better if you keep communicating".

Dr. Nguyen Le has intensified her house arrest, but that doesn't mean she's going to be rigid. I just want to use house arrest to avoid the impact of my possible excesses on others. From another point of view, I think, in Dr. Nguyen Li's heart, compared to me. Sakiya's safety isn't really important.

At home, things are going on a new track, and I'm going to have to stay for a lot longer. Naturally, John Bull's commission is to be fulfilled, and what the Doomsday Shinrikyo is doing is very concerning, but its importance is less emotional than that of family matters. I sent the information I analyzed during this time, as well as my apologies for delaying, to John Bull, and I didn't expect NOG to understand my decision, but the other party's solution was also quite tough.

An invitation from a psychology community to Dr. Nguyen Le to attend a more personal seminar was in Europe. For many reasons, she couldn't get away with it. Although there is no trace of the operation of the NOG side of the inviter, whether it is the time or place, it is too coincidental and full of conspiracy. I don't think it's an accident, the members of NOG are involved in all aspects of the social field, and it is definitely not too difficult to promote the development of this situation after knowing the situation on my side. This also shows that they are very urgent, and I think it is because after getting my information, they have some impatience. The monster in the depths of Nightmare Las Vegas is most likely not their handiwork, and once it is the enemy's handiwork, the blow to NOG will be very huge. I think that although Rivet and the others have prepared a lot of killer features, they should not have reached the Cheng dù of that monster. Although the development of NOG in this repeater world is very rapid, the enemy's indifference and potential threat have also increased the pressure of the crowd, riveting them may have thought about starting a big war before the pressure on their side is at their peak, before the enemy's accumulation is completed, in order to weaken their own pressure and figure out the direction of the enemy's action.

For this reason, my actions have become a very important bargaining chip. As NOGs devote themselves to their own development, they must rely on the ability to act independently to buy them time and intelligence. What I've done in the past has made me less creditworthiness with NOG, but perhaps NOG thinks I'm more reliable than those who don't know my roots and those who identify as enemies. A fourth-level Demon Emeralist is also trustworthy in terms of ability. All these factors have given me a new judgment about my importance in the NOG program.

I don't have any particular feeling that NOG may have moved behind his back. The seminar was real, and the invitation to Dr. Nguyen Le was sincere, even if there was no mysterious organization behind it, Dr. Nguyen Le would have to go to Europe sooner or later. Therefore, even if the spread of mystification in Europe is intensifying, it is impossible to prevent Dr. Nguyen Lê, who is completely ignoring the mystery, from going there. What's more, as far as Dr. Nguyen Le is concerned, even if this seminar is not important, it is a good choice to take me to Europe to find inspiration for treatment.

After Dr. Nguyen Li made the decision to go to the conference, Tomie had already set off early. She has her own ideas. At least in terms of behavior and conversation, there is absolutely no transcendent weirdness of "Jiang", almost no difference from ordinary people. She is my wife and loves me deeply, but that does not mean that she acts and thinks. It's me-centered. Even if Tomie is no different from humans in terms of physical form, in essence, it is still a part of the "river", or a cross-sectional appearance of a close person, which is more like the so-called "humanoid contact device for contact with organic life" in science fiction works.

The other members of the Whisperers also have their own tasks, but they are basically responsible for local affairs. The composition of the Whisperers is now complete, after Tomie and I left. Although the combat effectiveness is reduced, according to the agreement, the Cyberball side represented by John Bull will provide assistance in this regard. If it was in the name of NOG, I would probably be worried about some excessive actions behind it, but Cyberball and John Bull can be trusted.

By the time everyone had arranged their own affairs, it had been another two days. I didn't stop watching the nightmares during this time. Things haven't changed much in Marceau, and almost every day people break into the watch shop for one reason or another. Becoming her prey, I suspect, during this time, Marceau privately recruited more "bait". I've done bait a few times, but I'm not keen on this behavior, and I don't blame Marceau. I also want to analyze more of her situation from the changes in the ghost nightmare, but that doesn't mean that I will put most of my energy into how to seduce more prey. Marceau wasn't undemanding of me to do something about it, and she wasn't every time I had nightmares. It's going to be right in front of my eyes. I think her attitude towards me is special, but because I haven't seen her get along with other people, I can't compare it.

Marceau wasn't always weird like a ghost, and for a long time when we were together, she was very quiet, sitting in my arms, quietly looking through the window at what was not real. I asked her if she wanted to go out, but she was always silent, as if the question had never reached her ears and her heart.

I don't know what she's thinking, but she in this repeater world is quieter and more eerie than I've seen her before, as if she is playing a special and important role, so she exudes an aura that is completely different from other characters, even compared to Dorothy. Her appearance, temperament, and behavior were so different from the impression I remembered. In terms of image, the style of painting is wrong.

Even so, the feeling from the bottom of my heart told me that she was still Marceau, based on the girl I loved, and Marceau, who had evolved from the apocalyptic vision. Even though there are differences in personality and appearance, the essence of the person who makes them is still the same.

As I discovered the terrible secrets of the nightmare's depths, I couldn't help but worry about Marceau, who was so different and bound to take on some important changes in the "script". Her role makes her destined to be caught in the whirlpool, and even become the center of the whirlpool. I'm afraid that this vortex will touch that monster in the depths of the nightmare. Even though it was only a one-time contact, and it was only superficial contact, I could also feel the natural restraint of the "mystery" that it extended from the electronic demon of Tongguò. To put it bluntly, the Electro Demon Messenger is probably unable to defeat it, and it may be the Being, which is located at the very top of this mysterious power system. And its location is so special that even if it is supposed to be a "toddler" at this time, it has the home field advantage of this nightmare Las Vegas, and if NOG wants to deal with it, they must find a way to avoid or weaken this advantage - first, they must find the "door" to the place of this nightmare Las Vegas.

The "door" is not just the fast food restaurant, I guess that it has been related to the inexplicable disappearance of the electronic demon messenger all along. Because the conditions for the disappearance of the electronic demon messenger are not fixed, the appearance and opening of the "door" should also be more free. I've been back to the fast-food restaurant, but the once messy interior seems to have been renewed, with no trace of fierce battles or nightmares. This also proves that the "door" is not fixed in the fast food restaurant, and even the "door" owned by the fast food restaurant at that time was deliberately made.

There is such a potentially mysterious force, watching the changes in Nightmare Las Vegas, and they know more than NOG. Not to mention whether they took the initiative to let me know about the existence of that monster and why they did it, the mere fact that they knew this information is enough to prove that these people cannot completely disregard the relationship between Shinrikyo and the Nazis.

In my personal judgment, I am more inclined to say that this is what the Doomsday Shinrikyo did. While both the Mercenary Guild and the Nazis feel more professional in terms of military-style occult experts and military-like combat power structures, this does not mean that Shinrikyo does not have an army. It is true that militarization has never been the core of the fighting power of the Cult of Doomsday Shinriko, but there is no shortage of similar organizations in the subordinate institutions of the Cult of the Dawn of Doom.

"Goat Guild" and "Hyena Troop", memories of these two institutions gradually came to mind and became clear. There is no mysterious organization independent of NOG in the apocalyptic fantasy before death, and the task performers of NOG are often elite mysterious experts on demand, and NOG has a very close relationship with the national government, but when it comes to mystical troops, the hyena troops of the Goat Guild are still the most common. Whether it is a demonic emissary or a graystone enhancer, they all have the experience of suffering in front of that army.

In this world of repeaters, the Doomsday Shinrikyo has also been in business for a long time, and it should be possible to rebuild the Goat Guild and Hyena Troops. Although, judging by the intelligence of the NOG team, the necessary materials for the formation of these two institutions, the psychedelic drug "paradise" has not yet appeared on a large scale. However, since White Claudia has been discovered, then "paradise" must have existed, perhaps digested by the Doomsday Shinrikyo itself.

Assuming that my passage through the "door" of the guò fast food restaurant into the depths of the nightmare was deliberately done by the Doomsday Shinrikyo Religion, then its purpose is obvious, and there is absolutely no shortage of ideas to divert the attention of those of us. However, from another point of view, the fact that the Doomsday Shinrikyo chose me, a fourth-level demonic emissary, also proves that although they know some information about that monster, they are by no means knowledgeable, and they are even afraid of the strength of that monster. Whether it's my first collision with that monster, which side wins, or both loses, it's good for them. I'm not angry at their calculations, though, at least they let us know that there's such a monster in the depths of the nightmare, and that's a very important piece of information.

After getting the relevant information, the NOG has mobilized to find more clues. This affair involved both Shinrikyo and the Nazis and left quite a few traces in Nightmare Las Vegas. John Bull used these days of research to determine my first stop after arriving in Europe. However, I already had a clearer goal in mind—the birthplace of the Mar-Jones family of the Doomsday Truth Cult, a small town nestled in the mountains and lakes.

In this apocalyptic fantasy, that town seems to have been deliberately ignored, even the cyberball has not paid attention to it, but since in the past apocalyptic fantasy, the Mar Jones family carried out the "Tianmen Project" there, then, in this apocalyptic fantasy, it must have inherited the clues at that time. It is further speculated that even in this repeater world, the Doomsday Shinrikyo will still be based in that town. This situation, no matter how the general environment changes, there is always a specific invariant point, which is also known as "peculiar point solidification" in the occult. That town, even for the Doomsday Shinrikyo religion, is a fixed peculiarity, and it is often a key point. (To be continued......)